A/N: Totally forgot to do this on the last chappie... but I am not Cassandra Clare... there is no way i could coome up with such wonderful slash-mates ad Jace, Alec and Simon... hope you enjoy...


As the golden rays shown down from the heavens Alec began to shake with anticipation. He could feel the caress of the palm on his cheek and on his hip. He could taste what could only be the lips of that golden angle. But it was all brought to an end too soon. The light faded and the touch disappeared. The bright light from the sun shone through the open windows of his room inside the institute, and the dream was over as swiftly as it had begun.

It took Alec a minute to realize that not only was the angel from his dream sitting beside him, but he was holding his hand between his own.

"Jace? What are you doing here?"

"You don't remember?"

"Remember what?"

"Alec, it… Oh God, we all thought you were… oh… we thought you were going to die Alec, it ran you through with its claws and then it threw you into that spike… we were so… I was so worried about you."

Looking down at his body under the crisp white sheet he could see the bandages wrapped tightly around his mid-section.

"Don't worry Alec, there all pretty much just for show, Magnus fixed you up so there wouldn't be any pain, or scarring, or even a scab, it's like nothing ever happened."

"But it did Jace, I don't remember any of it, but if I… if I had died… I'm glad you're here."

"Of course I'm here, there's nowhere else I'd rather be, and I'm here to protect you. I should have protected you, but I couldn't. I couldn't do it, and it's all my fault."

"It's not your fault Jace, it could never be your fault. "

"But it is, I could have stopped it, I could have killed it before it hurt you."

"I know you did all you could Jace, it's just the way you are, I know you did everything you possibly could to protect me."

"But that's exactly it. I didn't. I stood there and I looked at it, and I looked at you and I thought, what if, what if you weren't here anymore. No more pressure, no more need to protect you, no more need to fear you, fear for you. I knew what I was doing and I was doing nothing."

Alec didn't know what to say and when he finally got the words to the tip of his tongue they all most didn't come out he was so in shock.

"You… you wanted me to die?"

"Not really, I just thought, and god knows what happens when I think, I thought that you would be better off… I thought that I would be better off. "

"How on earth could I be better off dead? Without Isabelle, without my family, without you, I would be nothing. My soul would wither away to nothing without you, Jace. I love you."

"I love you too Alec, but I didn't know if I was in love with you."

"So you thought you'd let me be put down, like a mangy dog, instead of suffer my whole life knowing you would never love me."

"Like I said, Alec, I was thinking too much, I thought it would be better for you, but when I saw you lying there, in a pool of your own blood, your eyes shut so lightly, like you had just fallen asleep. I knew that I had made the wrong choice; I knew that if you died I wouldn't be able to survive. Without you, I would be nothing, without you I would shrivel away to nothing."

As Jace let his heart pour out of him he slowly took his hand from Alec's and brought it to his cheek, brushing away a dark lock from Alec's eyes he caressed the skin. He brought Alec's hand up to his lips and with three final words he brought them into contact.

"I love you." He brought Alec's hand to his own cheek. "I'm in love with you."

As Alec caressed Jace's cheek he sat up and lent forward. He brought his face only millimeters from Jace's, their noses bumping softly.

"Are you sure?"

"Positive."

Alec closed the gap between their lips. The rough landscape of Jace's mouth caressed his own as Alec pressed his tongue against those almost perfect teeth of his. Jace hesitated for only a moment before he unclenched his jaw and allowed Alec's tongue to caress his own.

Jace quickly moved to lie on top of Alec's slim form, pressing his hips ever so slightly into Alec's he began to caress his bony hip through the sheets and soon reached up and pulled them down. Stroking the already shirtless chest of his parabatai he continued to kiss his mouth until he absolutely needed to breathe. He brought his head down to lie between Alec's chin and shoulder, biting down on Alec's collar bone he shuddered at the moan that escaped Alec's throat. He continued to move downward on Alec's lean body, caressing his muscles and lapping at his stiff nipple. He bypassed the bandages and kissed Alec's navel, licking the tender skin around it. He followed the trail of dark hair that led from there to Alec's waistline. His pajama bottoms were riding low and took only a slight tug to pull them down passed his hard as a rock cock.

Alec kicked off his pajama bottoms and caressed Jace's hair as he brought his mouth around his dick. The hot moisture and the swift movements of Jace's tongue almost brought him to his climax there and then. He held on to Jace's golden locks and tugged ever so slightly as he pushed his head down and pulled it up, savoring the feeling of grazing teeth and slick saliva.

"I'm gunna come, Jace."

"Oh no you're not." said Jace a grin breaking across his face.

Alec shuddered at the loss of heat but was quickly sated as Jace pushed two fingers into his mouth. Once he had removed them he pushed the slick fingers against Alec's tight entrance and giggled at the moan that escaped his mouth. After stretching Alec for a good five minutes, enjoying the shudders he received every time he brushed his prostate he removed his fingers.

"Hold on, just my spit won't be enough." said Alec.

Alec reached into his bedside drawer and pulled out a blue bottle of lube.

Jace squeezed it out into his palm and almost started rubbing it on his cock before he stopped.

"Do you want me to use a condom?" asked Jace.

"No. I want you inside of me, not some plastic sheath."

As Jace slid into the hilt, Alec gasped in pain and pleasure. Jace let him get used to him and once he nodded his assent he began to move in and out, faster and faster. As Jace pounded into Alec's tight end he looked down into Alec's crystal blue eyes and smiled at the sheer love that shone back at him. As he came he screamed Alec's name and as the sensations brought him to his climax Alec screamed Jace's.

"I love you, Alec, I always have, I just never realized it."

"I love you too." Said Alec "But what does this mean for us."

"Well, I was hoping it would mean that we could start dating, and maybe even fuck every once in a while."

"I think I'm up for that." Said Alec as he kissed Jace's lips "I think I'm up for anything, with you by my side."