Jacob's POV

I was starting to worry, I was already home and Bella was no where to be found! Where was she? She said she didn't feel well and that she was heading home, but she wasn't here.

Then my phone vibrated in my pocket, hoping it was Bella and that she was ok I flipped it open immediately.

"Hello?"

"Hey Jake it's Sam we found Vampire scent down by the Beach, doesn't smell like a Cullen……you better head down here to help us check it out…..and send Bella to Emily's we don't want her getting hurt…..Jake are you even listening to me?"

"Yeah, Sam I got it……it's just that I can't find Bella!" I was angry and annoyed at the same time I don't know why I was annoyed but I could feel it.

"What?! Where is she?" he was alert alright I knew how he felt especially since I didn't know where she was.

"I don't know" I answered quickly "She said she wasn't feeling well and that she was going to head back to the house!" I was getting nervous where in the world was she?

All I could think about is if a damn Bloodsucker hurt her, that I would rip their damn head off and want to burn the rest of them with my own hands, I would for sure make them suffer and make them wish they never were changed.

Then Sam was talking again "ok well you go look for her with Embry and Quil and the rest of us will try to track down the scent, good luck Jacob, bring our Bella back safely!" and then he hung up before I could get a response out.

I ran out of the house hoping to find Bella quickly and unharmed. I kept running when I heard Embry and Quil behind me Since we were in wolf form we talked to each other in our heads and apparently Sam had not told them I didn't know where Bella was so they were curious to know what was going on.

So what is going on Jake, Sam said you needed us?! Embry thought to me.

Bella is missing I can't find her, and Sam said he found a vampire scent around the area and that it didn't smell like the Cullens so he and everyone else are looking for the bloodsucker and we are going to look for Bella! Got it? I really didn't care what they thought about the situation all I cared about was finding Bella safely.

Ok fine with us! Embry thought back to me.

Hey Jake do you smell that? It smells like gasoline! Quil asked.

I immediatly thought of Bella and headed straight for the smell not caring if she was ok and this was someone else hurt or dying down there where if a car had recked or something I really didn't care.

"BELLA!" I yelled as I ran down the hill and tried to see if there was anything down there, nothing that I could see and then I saw another hole at the bottom of the hill I ran up to it and looked down and gasped and tripped back and fell gasping for air there,

There at the bottom of the hill was a car I probably could never be recognized ever again and the girl there at the bottom of the hill bleeding and unconscious and not knowing if she was dead or still breathing.

Embry and Quil saw me but knew something was wrong so they both went to investigate but then I saw both gasp and Quil put his hand to cover his mouth from a scream that wanted to rip through his throat. Embry finally hot the gutts to get Quil and try to reach the girl and bring her up and out of the crushed car.

I saw them both bring Bella up and over to me and we all listened and hoped to hear her heart beat but there was only the faintest sound of it and then we knew it stopped beating and that heart wouldn't come back.

NO! I yelled to myself she couldn't be dead, she just couldn't, she was the amazing Bella, the Bella everyone loved and cared for. I started trying to give her C.P.R. but I knew it was useless she was dead and she couldn't come back" NO!" I yelled at her limp form "YOU CAN'T DIE, YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME! PLEASE BELLA COME BACK,COME BACK please!" I whimpered at the end.

A few months later Bella was in her grave and gone I had cried and yelled and screamed for her to come back, always hoping she would hear me and listen and maybe she would grant the wish and come back. But she couldn't come back and she was gone FOREVER!

I had only had 1 thing that really kept me from killing myself to be with her and that was a note that the doctors had found in her Jaen Pocket.

I know what I love

I know what I hate

But to love someone

Is to learn how to faint

Goodbye my love

I know your fate

-Bella

That note was the only thing that kept me sane and living know that this note was either written for me or someone else but I don't know but I was hoping somehow she knew that I loved her and her saying that she loved me back.

I would read that note every night before I went to bed hoping that what I was living was a nightmare and that I would wake up but I never did.

And then I remember him attending with his family to say his regards to the girl he once knew and loved and then is family left without anything else to say what might happen to them.

~Flashback~

It was a gloomy day and all I wanted to do was go sulk in the forest, but Sam wasn't having it.

"Jacob if you don't stop acting like this then you are going to end up dead just like her and I don't think that is exactly what she would want?!"

I walked off not wanting to answer his question and walking up to a tree and sliding down till my butt hit the ground and putting my head in my hands for the millionth time the past 2 months. Even for a guy I couldn't even hold back the tears I needed my Bella.

I remembered all the times we had together. The first time she came to me, when Edward had first left and she had needed me to help her through it and she still had not got all over everything she still remembered she would always would remembered.

The tears escaped and ran down my face and then I heard the music at the funeral go on and heard the people nearby come closer to hear the song and I knew the song I knew it well and……it would always remind me of ……her

I AM SO TIRED OF BEING HERE

SUPPRESSED BY ALL MY CHILDISH FEARS

AND IF YOU HAVE TO LEAVE,

THAT YOU WOULD JUST BELIEVE

' CAUSE YOUR PRSCENCE STILL LINGERS HERE,

AND IT WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

AND THESE WOUNDS WON'T SEEM TO HEAL,

THIS PAIN IS JUST TO REAL,

THERE IS JUST TO MUCH THAT TIME CAN NOT ERASE,

WHEN YOU'D CRY I'D WIPE AWAY ALL OF YOUR TEARS,

WHEN YOU'D SCREAM I'D FIGHT AWAY ALL OF YOU'RE FEARS,

AND I HELD YOUR HAND THROUGH ALL OF THESE YEARS,

BUT YOU STILL HELD ALL OF ME,

YOU USE TO CAPTIVATE ME

MY OLD REIGNATING MY,

NOW I AM BOUND NY THE LIFE YOU LEFT BEHIND

YOUR FACE IT HAUNTS, MY ONCE PLEASNENT DREAMS,

YOUR VOICE HAD CHASED AWAYALL THE SANITY IN ME,

THESE WOUNDS WON'T SEEM TO HEAL

THIS PAIN IS JUST TO REAL

THERE IS JUST TO MUCH THAT TIME CAN NOT ERASE

WHEN YOU'D CRY I'D WIPE AWAY ALL OF YOUR TEARS

WHEN YOU'D SCREAM I'D FIGHT AWAY ALL OF YOUR FEARS

AND I HELD YOUR HAND THROUGH ALL OF THESE YEARS,

AND YOU STILL HELD…..ALL OF ME

I TRIED TOTELL MYSELF THAT YOUR STILL GONE

BUT THOUGH YOUR STILL WITH ME, I'VE BEEN ALONE, I'M ALONE……..

And then the song drifted to a close and I heard sniffs and cries from around the crowd I was still sitting against the tree but I could still hear and then I saw them, the Cullens and I saw ALL of them . they were all there and dressed in black for the occasion, I could see Edward off to the side trying to hide I suspected, trust me he wasn't the only one, he felt guilty for her death and so did I. I guess we had one thing in common and that was feeling guilty and responsible for her death.

I sat there waiting to see what there next move would be

~End Of Flashbeck~