My love screams - Lindsey Sky ft. Matt Giraud (I hope you guys like this chap! It's a toughy! hehe) Please be nice :' )
Darkness overshadowed everything, the suffering, the throbbing, the sounds and the sight of all the life and undead that surrounded me. I can't move, speak, and well as unable to see. But I can feel the approaching of something different, something that sets my mind to one thing. END.
After that, there was light. So very bright and warm yet I don't get blinded by the overpowering intensity. It slowly lowered its brightness and at the center it was having some kind of opening which spread all around in me until it looked like I was standing in my house. It puzzled me as I heard voices that sounded like my parents and kids that sounded like Jeremy and me. Their footsteps were becoming louder and I wonder if I should hide but I froze as they came into the living room with mom holding Jeremy, I guess he was only three or four years old at that time. My dad holding some DVD's and next comes me running ahead of him and jumped on the couch holding my teddy bear. It was movie night. The thing we always had every Friday night when dad comes home from work. I smiled as they playfully argue what movie they should watch whether it's horror or comedy. I was about to come near them when the scene changed into a place in the grass, where from afar I could see us having a picnic, laughing and not a care in the world. It was a fast one so it suddenly switched into the process of how my life goes. I saw all my first times such as my first diary given to me, first ballet class, day of pre and middle school, first kiss I got, first day of high school, the great times with my friends, so mostly all of the times of my life, only played fast forward. The penultimate ones were the terrible crash that my parents and I got into and that lead them into me and Jeremy never going to see them anymore.
Lastly, the first time I met the Salvatore's. All the things we've been through were played before my eyes. And what Damon and I had been through...
The moments when he made me laugh, that he would cook for me every time I go to the boarding house, drove me insane with his jokes and cockiness, made me unconsciously stare at his beauty when he's not looking and most of all, the times when we had nothing to mind but being together and us being truly happy.
Among all the things that I saw and visited, it pained me that they all had something in common. They were never going to happen again.
It was darkness once more, but only for a short time. Then the next thing I knew I was at the grave and I noticed there was a crowd all dressed in black. I slowly approached them and took a peak on who were they mourning at, but I quite had a clue who it was.
No one could see me but I can see where I am. I halted as I saw the figure underneath the glass of the white casket. I feel nothing but acceptance.
My eyes wandered around to my dear friends and family until it came to Damon. I walked towards him until I was a few inches away.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.
Damon took a step forward and dropped the red rose on top of the box after it was closed. His hands were bleeding from the strong grip he had on the rose which made a few thorns thrust into his palms.
Unescapably acknowledged that it wasn't going to be the same again after what I've been through. Yet thankfully I could still see them and have chances of being beside them..him…because I do want to let them know that I will always guide and watch over them.
As they go back the way it used to be makes me satisfied, but I worry every time I see that my brother tries to even find me as well as my friends wait for him to. Knowing that it doesn't happen, I observe Damon as he would always be there when they wait and he would be sitting beside or across Jeremy with a look of hopefulness. I look at them with sympathy every end of the day as they fail.
I look at Damon and I see the sorrow in his eyes and not even masking it on.
At nights or so I'd slip into his dreams and let him have the chance to hold me again. Both feeling alive and have the happy ending. But I realize my immoralities as mornings arise and cause more pain in him. I just want to have us being happy even for a short time. Eventually, we had to both grasp the fact of reality and wake up and me apologizing as if he could respond by yelling or scolding at me, telling me not to do it again. I don't even care as I want him to speak to me like I'm really there.
I'm sinking down in our darkest sleep
So deep so cold, this pain inside of me
My love for you is more than I can bear, oooh
One night I noticed that there were tears in his eyes as he lay down and holding a picture. I can't help but want to hug him and tell him…that it's okay.
You'll never understand this distant shore
My love destroys while longing for more
I'll never be to you what you are to me
So I will run
(You can run if you need to)
I can hide
(Honey, hide)
And then I'll keep this love for you locked inside
(Never gonna keep this inside)
You'll be forever always in my dreams
And I can't say a word, say a word, can't breathe
My love screams
My love screams
I try to reach him but found myself unable to do so as if there's something holding me back, so I struggled to move violently as I feel tears of frustration. Then I screamed.
You feel my soul
You're touching me
I thought this love could set us free
The earth and the sky and a million lights above
So I will run
(You can run if you need to)
I can hide
(Honey, hide)
And then I'll keep this love for you locked inside
(Never gonna keep this inside)
You'll be forever always in my dreams
And I can't say a word, say a word, can't breathe
My love screams, yeah yeah
"She isn't really gone." They would tell him. However the pain of not hearing her laugh, her voice, and her distinctive rhythm of footsteps as she mostly listened to music and her heartbeat is beyond agonizing. Time has changed and the town's customs were noticed different as one of their beloved citizens has passed on.
She had made a difference. Is and always will be marked in the hearts of the people and a day or two does certain tears fall as the closest friends reminisce the moments they shared with her before the cruel destiny.
Furthermost, the man who has loved her constantly, that sacrifice for her is never a second thought.
But it's too late.
He was broken, ruined, destroyed and never again imagined having someone who he treasured slip away and make the world freeze to look at what fate has done.
I woke up as I heard someone's scream and its sound was filled with sorrow, frustration, defeat...It was familiar…it was
Elena.
I jumped out of bed, rubbed my eyes and there she is, frozen, wide-eyed and filled with tears. Was I dreaming? No. The world would be beyond cruel if that is so. What was I saying? Taking the one I love was already beyond the world's cruelty.
I slowly walked towards her but confused as she stayed there. I stopped until I was right in front of her.
"Elena?" I whispered lifting my hands so I could touch her to make sure it's all real and not some kind of sick joke.
But there was a barrier between us that won't allow me to hold her and even go closer to crush her in my embrace.
Her hands were placed in front of us as if there was an invisible glass. She looked pained, looked down with tears streaming down her face and I noticed mine was too.
"Damon." She said however it wasn't loud and it also wasn't a whisper but more like hollowing so softly. "I love you so much…"
How badly I want to reach out for her, hold her, and kiss her without letting her go or out of my sight again.
"I love you" I said with a cracked tone.
She smiled a little but looked down, closed her eyes that were filled with sadness still placing her hand on the unseen wall.
"Please." She mouthed still looking down; I knew she was pleading someone else.
She gently put her hands down and looked up to meet my gaze. She slowly leaned forward until she took a step to me, then another, then another and then the next thing I knew I had the chance to touch her face and caress her cheek.
I pulled her to me and hugged her as if our bodies were molding into one and then millions of gratitude and love were swimming in my mind.
So I will run
(You can run if you need to)
I will hide
(Honey, hide)
And then I'll keep this love for you locked inside
(Never gonna keep this inside)
You'll be forever always in my dreams
And I can't say a word, say a word, can't breathe
I met his eyes once again and all we felt is our love for each other and thankfulness for this miracle. He leaned forward to kiss me until our lips united and our tears joining.
We pulled away and smiled. "I love you, and I will always be with you Damon. Don't ever forget that." I said.
"No, don't go…please…" He pleaded holding me in place. I knew I had to go this instant because seeing him like this will be harder for me to have acceptance in this fate.
"I'm sorry. Please don't make this any harder than it already is." I replied and I felt a new batch of tears.
"I can't live without you Elena! Why can't you see that?" He yelled
"You have the beauty of eternity ahead of you" I paused then continued "And I promise I will be with you every step of the way." I replied.
He let me go, knowing that eventually I'd be slipping away. I know he felt it as I felt it. There was the barrier again. "I love you." I said my final words looking at his softened face as he's understood what was going to happen next then he mouthed them back to me.
A cool breeze past through us as he stood there. He blinked his eyes and it was a good time to make my way. So I did.
I know I may not be the perfect person that they lived their moments with and it might of been too late to say I'm sorry for my mistakes and shortcomings so I don't know anything I can do but being there, protecting them, guiding and will always be watching over them.
So I will run
(You can run if you need to)
I will hide
(Honey hide)
And then I'll keep this love for you locked inside
(Never gonna keep this inside)
You'll be forever, always in my dreams
And I can't say a word, say a word, can't breathe
My love screams
My love screams
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah Ooohh
One thing I know for sure is that I'll never stop loving Damon. And I will make sure that he feels that…
Despite being through and beyond the looking glass…
