I never loved her
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Rose's arrival, escorted by two guardians, put a stop to Lissa's defense. Rose looked more serene, but paler and sadder, the eyes downcast.
"Guardian RoseMarie Hathaway, how did you come to the secret of the regeneration of souls, or whatever you want to call it," the queen began. Just to the point.
"In Baia there is this Spirit user, Oskana, she healed me once and told me about... having heard that about someone else, another like her".
"What did this Oskana tell you about that?. Did you look for that information in Russia, at first?".
"No... when I first arrived in Baia, my motive was to tell the Belikovas about Dimitri. There I met her, a Oskana. She told me about... her magic, how the User and the shadow kissed are prevented from falling into... depression... She charmed a silver ring for me, and I always used it... and in my encounter with... with... Dimitri, something was different... He was more... human in contact with the ring... When I saw Oskana, again, I told her about what happened and they told me about the restoration they heard."
"They?, the User and the one who did it before?", doubt Princess Ariana.
"Eh no, Oskana and his shadow kissed and guardian, Mark, they heard it from the other."
"And did you believe them, simple as that? How naive!" Prince Nathan Ivashkov scoffed.
"I did not have any more options if I wanted.. I wanted...", whispered Rose.
"Restore... your mentor, right, RoseMarie?" The queen insisted, "why was that important to you? Because if you didn't know when you went to Russia, you knew it when you came back and today... that was achieved, why, RoseMarie?".
"Because ... I love him, your majesty," Rose whispered.
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Silence. Murmurs. Looks of complicity, of grief, of annoyance.
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"Captain Croft, bring in Dimitri Belikov, and girl, dry your tears, the guardians do not cry for love," the queen ordered.
"Guardians should not even fall in love or have children," Prince Rufus Tarus mumbled to his friend, the Prince Efraim Lazar.
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Princess Ariana turned to them, frowning. "Janine is the guardian of my brother Anthony and being a mother has never interfered in her work," she reasoned with them.
"Evidently, Ariana, look at the disaster of the daughter she has... Rebellious, disrespectful, falling in love with her mentor, who offered only to train her... ¿right?", said princess Evette Ozera.
"Obviously this girl didn't have a... mother to guide her," said Princess Marcella Badica, without malice, "we all know that Hathaway senior is better guardian than mother... and it is unlikely that this girl will even manage to be a better guardian that she is now... if, of course, she had a better guide in her mother... if Hathaway Senior didn't want to abort her, she should leave her in an orphanage, there at least she would have grown up with other children before entering the academy."
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Rose looked up, without surprise. She had been hearing it since I could remember. also from his mother, in her frequent moments of anger.
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"Rose", Lissa squeezed her hand, comforting her. She had also heard it many times, from Rose's Mother... and others, unfortunately. The arrival of Dimitri put them on alert.
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"Belikov, how old were you in the academy?" The queen asked directly.
"23 years, Your Majesty."
"RoseMarie, what about you, at the academy, I say, when he found you both."
"17 years, your majesty."
"And you say that you... loved him and that's why... you wanted to see if it was true about this restoration, right?.
"That's illegal!", Bellowed Captain Croft.
"I loved him, yes, but... there was nothing, although I believed it...".
"Belikov?, same to you?", Asked Prince Lazar.
"RoseMarie... she told me she loved me, it's true, and I thought I corresponded. Then I was awakened and this... feeling didn't exist anymore. The strigois possess or desire, but don't feel, and I didn't, too... Just Now, when Princess Vasilissa brought me to life, my feelings came back, but not for her, Rose Marie, so no, I never love her... You must understand her, she was left in an academy at age of 4, run away from there at age of 15, not by herself but in the protection of her... moroi or as she saw the princess., Two years later, she has no more experience in life than she is now... and I arrived... ".
"Young, handsome and available," Princess Ariana whispered to Princess Marcella, giggling.
"Ariana is right in that, a young, handsome and available guardian arrives and a girl with so much... so eager to live... is dazzled by you...", dismissed the queen, "well, let's not make this wound bigger in RoseMarie... Yes... it's for the best... Captain, assign her it to my nephew Adrian... After all, she's his... ahh, official girlfriend, right?".
"Protest!", Prince Nathan complained, but the queen silenced him with a gesture.
"Stop cackling, Nathan, she has done some good on him... Congratulations, RoseMarie, you already have a charge, you will star today... Now, let's go back to Belikov... so you feel again?".
"Emotions that were already before, your majesty...".
"Well, we'll see that. Captain, order full tests, both medical, psychiatric and physical, put one... no, two guardians as his custodians and keep him where there's plenty of light and sunshine. Belikov has to have access to food and necessities, too. We're not going to starve him, are we? Vasilissa, Belikov and RoseMarie?, You can retire now."
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In free fall. That's how Rose felt. Used and discarded. So she left as an automat, walking without will toward Adrian's quarters. To inform him of her assignment as his guardian. Lissasaw how Rose moved away, not only from the place, but from her life. But that... she still didn't know.
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Dimitri tried not to run into Rose, the few times she was seen without Adrian. He didn't look at her nor didn't speak to him. He was cold with her, as he always must have been, at the Academy. Apparently, there was no respect or admiration towards her. Nothing, really, just duty. She was - the same seems now - the closest friend to his charge, the princess Dragomir and his future co-worker, and as such he devoted himself to training her and made her believe that there was love between them. That was not good of him.
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Unlike Rose, who no longer saw Lissa or seek her, Dimitri always saw her. She was looking for him for breakfast or lunch, to talk or attend his medical tests. That bothered Christian as much as when Lissa met Adrian in Idaho and walked away from her, to give her more space in the Spirit matters. Or so he said to himself, continuously.
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Did you like it? And it will continue to get worse. I'm sure about that.
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Guest(not see your user there): are you kindly offering you as my Beta reader?, :) . Remember this is a fanfiction, an idea in my mind, not a cuantic paper.
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