Chapter 2:
Recap: "No, Bella, this doesn't have to do with Charlie, he's going to still say yes. It actually has to do with YOUR decision you're future isn't set in stone."- Alice Cullen



"What do you mean? You both know that I want nothing more than to be with Edward forever. I love him. I love your family! How could my decision not be set in stone? Especially when I'm saying that this is what I want to you right now." I shook my head back and forth in confusion. I didn't get how this could possibly be happening.
At this point, I could tell that both Edward and Alice were just as confused about it as I was. What worried me, though, was that Jake was involved in my decision. I had made my decision a long time ago. There was no way that I would change it now, especially because Charlie was going to say yes.
"Bella, honey, there must be something else that's going on inside you subconsciously. You know, maybe you really don't want any of this anymore…maybe you don't want me. That's really the only meaning behind this. If Alice is seeing things that are flashing back and forth between one or two or even three options that you seem to be considering somewhere inside you, then maybe we should wait until next summer." As I looked into Edward's topaz eyes, I could see that he was hurt, but at the same time, I could see that he only wanted what was best for me. Could I really want to wait? If I did, then why did I get all excited when I found out that Charlie was going to say yes?
I let out a sigh. "But I'm not changing my mind. There's no doubt about it, I love you. Nothing can change that. Alice, are you sure that it's my future that you're seeing that's making all these decisions at once?"
"Bella, it is your future. Are you sure that this is what you want?"
"You know, I think that we should leave. Bella, you need to think about this. I've always told you that if you don't want me around, then I'll leave. So if you want to be with the do-," he paused mid-word," I mean if you want to be with Jacob, then be with Jacob. And if that's the case, then I'll leave forever, and this time I will not come back. But that's only if it's what you want." It was times like these that I really did wonder why Edward was even with me. He was willing to do anything for me. How did I end up with him? He was way to perfect for me.
"No! Edward, please don't leave me. Can we just go to your house and think about this? I don't know, maybe I just need to sleep on it. But I am absolutely positive that I want to marry you. I meant when I said to Charlie that you were the one and only man for me." Even as I was saying this, I really wasn't sure. It was almost as if by them telling me that I didn't want to be with Edward was starting to rub off on me. It's like when someone says something enough times, you just start to believe it. Well, I was starting to believe that I didn't want Edward, and instead I wanted Jacob. Could this really be true? Holy moly, I had a lot to think about I guess.
"Yes, of course." He paused, looked around, and then eyed me suspiciously. "Want to run?" As soon as he said this, a smile, the smile, came across Edward's flawless face. It was this smile that made me lose my breath every time. I seem to always 

forget to breathe when he does this. It makes me feel as though there are abnormally large butterflies inside my stomach and they're flapping as if they can only get out by flapping their large wings. This was the feeling that made me forget about everything, and realize that Edward was the one for me.
I didn't even have time to answer, but somehow he just knew that I would be willing to, before I was on his back with the wind blowing through my hair. At this point in life, I was able to look when we were running. Before, it made me feel dizzy and lightheaded. But now, it just gave me an adrenaline rush like no sort of Disneyland rollercoaster could give me. Running through the tall trees I clung to Edward. I was scared now. I was scared I was going to lose him. Perhaps from Alice's predictions, Edward would get worried of me running away at the reception, and instead of staying, he would leave. So this was why Charlie was so worried. Maybe he was only going to say yes out of guilt.
Smoothly, Edward came to a stop, and as he did, Alice was right there beside us. Standing in the doorway was Jasper, awaiting Alice's arrival, and most likely to see if I were to trip along the way walking to the door.
A sweet, innocent smile came across Alice's face. I wondered if Edward and I would one day be like Alice and Jasper. They seemed like the perfect couple. They were incredibly beautiful, and they just got each other. They understood everything when it came to the other. They always seemed so happy. I don't think I've ever seen anyone love someone as much as they love each other.
"Bella!" Jasper came running towards me after kissing Alice's cheek. I wasn't quite used to this just yet. Emmett usually was there with him, ready to pick me up, spin me around three times, and watch me to see if I would be able to walk. Well, Jasper seemed to have picked up this little act from Emmett. The both of them always loved it whenever I had another one of my "Bella moments".
The fun part for me was to prove to them that I was able to keep my balance. This time, I was able to. Probably thanks to Edward grabbing my hand right away and steadying me while we walked.
"Hey, Jasper. Where's Emmett? I thought that he may have also been waiting to see if I were going to have another one of my 'Bella moments'.
"Emmett and Carlisle went on a trip to go visit the grizzlies last night while you were sleeping like a baby and tal-," He was interrupted by Edward just as he was about to say something.
"Okay, well Bella and I are going to be upstairs. She needs a little down time, I think. We have a lot to think about." Edward seemed to be in a rush to get upstairs. He knew what Jasper was going to say. But why wouldn't he let him finish? Well, he was right about one thing, we did have to talk, and think about a lot.
"Oh, okay, see you later Bella! Oh and Edward? Alice and I are going to go out for a bit. Looks like she may need to go hunt. But we'll be back around, let's say 10:00? And besides, I wouldn't mind hunting either. Just want to be careful, you know. Bella has been spending a lot of time here."
"Okay, okay Jazz. That's enough talking about eating my fiancé." This probably would have bothered Edward before, but now that Jasper had gotten way better with handling his thirst, it doesn't bother him. Jasper used to be so careful around me. Actually, he would rarely ever come near me. Knowing that this hurt him, the rest of 

the Cullens taught him a way to handle being around humans; particularly around me. Now that he has learned, he is able to hug me, joke around with me, etc. I like it better this way.
Edward grasped my hand and led me into the Cullens neat house. I was always amazed at how clean and tidy everything was. As we climbed up the stairs, one by one, I could tell that Edward had something on his mind. Well, of course he did. He thinks I'm going to leave him! I let out a sigh. How can I possibly prove myself to him? I'm not going to change my mind! As we finally reached Edward's bedroom door, he gently picked me up off my feet and carried me towards his bed. Although, I guess the bed was mine in a way. I was really the only one that ever slept in it.
He softly put me down on my back as he passionately kissed my warm lips with his cold ones. Now this was something I didn't see coming. Even though it was extraordinarily difficult for me to do, I pulled away from him.
"You do know that I'm not going to leave you right, Edward? I love you. Please believe me!"
"It's not that I don't believe that you love me. It's just…you've been talking in your sleep again," - so this is what Jasper almost said - "and it's been about Jacob. You keep on saying that you love him, that you miss him. Bells, I think you really need to figure this out. If you want to be with Jacob, then" he sighed," I think you should. If it's what you really want. I promise you, I won't hold you back. But if we're going to get married and then change you, you have to know that you really, truly want this."
"I do. But, I just miss him. Jake was there for me through the hardest part of my life. He's my best friend. I just wish that either you weren't a vampire, or he wasn't a werewolf. That way, when I do agree to spend all of an eternity with you, I can still at least spend time with him every now and then."
I looked up into the eyes that took my breath away whenever I saw them. His eyes told me everything that I needed to know. He wasn't about to believe me. I had to prove this to him.
"Bella, I'm really unsure about this now." He paused for a minute; my guess is he was trying to gather up the right words. "Maybe…maybe you should…go to La Push. Spend some time there. Try to figure out what you're and who you're really wanting. As much as I'm going to worry about you, I think you need this."
"WHAT?! Edward, are you possessed? There's no way that you would be saying this to me." I stared up at him with disbelief. Sadness filled his eyes. If he could cry, I swear at this moment he probably would be. I could tell that this was hard for him to say. "Well…well how long do you want me to stay there for? Like are you talking about me staying there for a day? Two days? A week? What do you want?"
Shock now struck his eyes like bolts of lightning. "Bells, I want you. I want you to be sure that you want me too. Can't you see that by you leaving, going to La Push, where I can't be with you when you sleep, when you smile, when you blush, is like stabbing me in the heart? You know I wouldn't do this unless I thought this was completely necessary." He still didn't answer my question though…how long was I going to be in La Push? As if he really could read my mind, he answered, "I think that you should stay for at least 4 days to a week. That's the only way that you can really figure out who you truly love."
Four days to a week?! What was he, crazy? I couldn't live without him for that 

long! "Are…are you sure? Will I still be able to talk to you? How will we stay in contact? Edward, I really wish you would believe me!" I got up from the bed and started to pace. Why did he want this? Did Alice see something that she wasn't telling me? Emotion started to fill my eyes, and I started to cry.
"Bells, I love you." He strode across the room to me, where he picked me up off my feet and cradled me like a baby in his arms and sat down. "I just want you to be sure. And I think that the only way you can be completely positive this is the life you want, you have to live the other life for a bit. You told Charlie you would consider your other options. If Charlie is going to be my father-in-law, then I want him to be at least happy knowing that you gave it a shot."
Sobbing, I nodded my head. If this was the way that I could prove to him that I loved him, and wanted nothing more than to be with him, then I would do it. "When should I leave?" I asked through my tears. Why was I crying? I wasn't normally this emotional.
"Well, I think that we should make the best out of today, and then call Ja- …Jacob tonight. Make plans for us to meet us at the border tomorrow morning around 9:00."
"What do I tell Charlie?"
"Tell him the truth. You're considering your options, and want to go spend a few days with Jacob. I'm sure he'll love that you're away from me, and with him. So he'll most likely say yes. I'll ask Alice to look into it."
And with that said, we both got up, I wiped my tears away, tried to make myself look presentable, and we went downstairs to talk to Alice.
With Edward's arms around my waist we slowly went down the steep stairway, turned the corner and knocked on Alice's door.
"Come on in Ed!" A cute, fairy-like voice said from behind the door. She obviously saw us coming.
"Hey, Alice. We have a question for you. Do you think you could try to look into the future to see if-," He was cut off by Alice's response.
"Charlie will say yes to Bella going down to La Push. And Bella, don't do anything too rational. I'll be watching you. This means that Edward will be reading my mind constantly to make sure that you're okay." Alice eyed me almost as if she were telling me 'please don't make us worry too much or I'll be forced to do something cruel, like play dress up with you'.
"Bella, honey, don't worry about me. I'll be fine. Just focus on what you're there for. But for now, let's go and have some fun. Want to go to the meadow? Or for lunch? For a walk? Whatever you want to do, we'll do it." The smile came across his face, but it wasn't the same. You could still tell that this was hurting him.
"The meadow sounds great. Can…uhm…we just go…Edward?" I looked back and forth between him and Alice.
"Okay, okay I get the hint; you want to spend time with your lover. That's fine. I have a surprise for you anyways when you get back from La Push." Alice got that, 'I'm up to something' smile on her face and skipped along down the stairs and went into the kitchen.
Edward grabbed my hand, pulled me up onto his back, and once again, we were off. Although I was getting used to this whole running thing, I didn't feel like looking this time. It always made my eyes dry, and you know, I didn't really feel like having 

dry eyes right now. To be honest, I really didn't even feel like going to the meadow. Going to La Push to be with Jacob was going to be hard. Especially because I was going to be away from Edward for more than just a day or so. I also didn't like how I was having these feelings as if I may have actually wanted to go see Jacob, and spend the time with him. I wanted to hug him, to kiss him. Just in case it would be my last time seeing him before I was married, and then of course, turned into a vampire.