A/N: Thanks to everyone who read the first chapter! This second chapter is not from Alice's POV. That's all I'll say since I think it's all pretty clear within the story. This was the final step in my progression of successful Twilight writing. This piece is the closest to the books. Again, I hope I have done the characters justice and I would love to hear what you think. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own the Twilight series or any of its characters.
Thorns of Doubt
This was it. I was getting married. I was only eighteen. I'd just graduated high school. And I was getting married. To a vampire. The vampire part I didn't mind at all. But married at eighteen straight out of high school? I shook my head. I'd never thought it would've been me. There was a reason I was doing this though. I wanted to become a vampire and join the Cullen family. And I wanted Edward to be the one to change me. His condition was that he'd change me…if I married him first. I agreed to marry him, if we could, well, have sex. Before I became a perpetually thirsty vampire.
So here I was. In the vintage wedding dress Alice had gotten for me. Staring in the mirror. On the day of my wedding. And trying not to hyperventilate. I loved Edward. There was no question about that. And I knew I wanted to be with him forever. Even with all I'd be giving up – Renée, Charlie, and being human, to name a few – I still wanted to be with him for what is truly forever. So why had I been getting so uncertain lately?
It was things like that which made me, again, so thankful that my thoughts were the only ones Edward couldn't hear. I wondered how Alice was faring. I angled myself in the mirror so I could catch a glimpse of her. She appeared lost in thought. I knew she must see every time I have doubts and change my mind. It's never more than a second, but she'd still see it. I shot her an apologetic look that I knew she didn't see.
When Edward and I first began our relationship, Alice had seen him changing me into a vampire. I'd hooked onto that idea, even though Edward fought it and tried to persuade me that it was not an option. Now, it was finally going to become a dream come true. I was going to become a beautiful vampire like the people I'd come to know and love. Today was the first step to becoming family. The change would be the final step.
As I actually took in my reflection for the first time, I could feel the nervousness peeking out again. A wedding dress. I was in a wedding dress. All too soon, Charlie would be walking me down to the aisle. I looked at where the dress met the floor. I thought about the slight heels Alice had made me wear underneath the dress. What if I tripped going down the aisle? I certainly wasn't known for my grace. I'd received a large number of injuries from my clumsiness. It would be just my luck to trip walking down the aisle.
All of a sudden, Alice silently appeared beside me in the mirror. Most likely, she'd seen the nerves written across my face. She wrapped her arm around my waist and declared, "You look beautiful."
"Thanks," was all could choke out. I turned away from the mirror and towards her. Alice mirrored my actions and smiled, trying to reassure me, I'm sure. "Alice?" I whispered.
"Yes?"
I hesitated and quickly decided on a question that I wasn't the one I'd intended to ask. "Will everything turn out alright at the wedding?" I checked.
I watched as she looked into my future, carefully monitoring her expression for anything that might give her vision away. When she opened her eyes, she looked cheerful so I knew the answer before she said it. "Yes, yes it will," she announced.
"So he's not going to try to…?" I began, stopping myself before I might get choked up. As far as I knew, my former best friend (who is also a werewolf) Jacob Black was still gone. I didn't want him to try to stop me from marrying Edward but…I would've given anything to know he was safe and happy.
"I can see your happy wedding so nope!" she chimed gleefully.
"Alice?"
"Yes, Bella?"
I had to ask it. Taking a deep breath, I carefully phrased the question, "Am I doing the right thing?"
Alice froze. I could feel the panic growing inside of me. "I can't answer that for you, Bella," she softly and solemnly told me. The panic began to take over and she quickly continued, "But I can help you figure it out. Do you love him?"
My eyes widened in surprise. "Of course!" I practically shouted.
"More than anyone and anything else in the world?" Alice prompted.
"Yes," I answered confidently. Softer, I added, "With all my heart."
"Is this what you want?"
"I could've done with waiting to get married," I began, and then teasingly added, "and a smaller wedding." We both laughed for a moment. When I stopped, she looked at me expectantly. "But…yes, this is exactly what I want," I resolved.
Alice flashed me a brilliant smile, clearly relieved. "Great!" she squealed. "Then let's go get you married!"
I smiled back, much less brilliantly, but all that would soon change. Alice's cool hand took my sweaty one and she dragged me to the door, carefully enough to make sure I wasn't going to trip over my wedding dress. We paused in the doorway and I knew this was the last moment I had to brace myself for what was about to happen. I took a deep breath. "Thank you, Alice. For everything," I whispered, so quietly I could scarcely hear myself. I knew she could hear me though. In response, she simply gave my hand a small squeeze. She reached for the doorknob and I prepared myself to become a married woman. Married to the man of my dreams. Edward Cullen.
A/N: Thanks for reading! I'd love to hear your feedback! I have no new stories lined up at this time, but I hope everyone enjoys reading the long awaited Breaking Dawn! I hope you all have enjoyed Thorns of Doubt and, again, I'd love to hear what you think! Thanks!
-TheaterBug-
