Chapter2
The three teens walked in their way to the place where they will get their schedules from. They didn't talk because they respected the way the pink haired boy stayed silent. Gray was staring at him all the way, as you knew they were friends in the elementary school before and after that accident that happened to Natsu that made him lose the desire to speak or forgetting how he was talking. Actually, he was afraid of talking because talking didn't bring anything except depression to him. Talking was a knife in his heart. As much as he wanted to speak, he didn't want to. As much as he wanted to express what was inside his heart, he didn't want to because he is afraid of betrayal. Apparently, he didn't know what he really wanted. Gray knew how he was talking and what kind of voice he had, but he barely remembers it. He snapped his head towards the dragon slayer who was focused in his walking.
"Natsu, the rest will be surprised to see you in this school" he spoke as he remembered those friends he had and went together with him to the same school. Natsu froze and kept staring at the black haired people; it was hard to him meeting people after so much time that he spent not sharing his time with them. It's been awhile since he had spent happy times even with his own family. He truly missed to be a normal person, after all. He looked away and gulped remembering his friends' faces. Erza, Gajeel, Mira, Lisanna and Cana. Some of their friends were here and the rest went to several schools. Memories passed in his mind making him remember the days they were playing together and having good times not caring about how the world runs. But, after Natsu lost his voice, he became mature. He cared about the world more than anything else. He cared about what's making a person happy and what's making him sad. He cared about everything and lost the will to live. Why would he live in a world that fills with pain? Why would he live in a world to only suffer and dies? He had nothing in the world to be happy for and sad for. Even though he had things inside of him telling him to be alive but he also had things that would make him dead. Natsu rubbed his head and looked to the front of him realizing that they have reached already. From today on, he will start a new grade with some of his old friends and a beautiful blonde that he couldn't ask her what was her name.
After taking what was important that will help them to find their classes, they left the room. The blonde stood in front of them smiling a soft smile that made her look more beautiful. She closed her eyes and kept her face into Natsu's direction. Natsu couldn't deny the fact that she was beautiful but tried to hold back a blush that would expose him. "Thanks for the information, I won't forget that to you" she smiled and spoke. She was really an angel that fell from the sky; he wanted to talk only to her, even if he didn't care about anyone that wishes to hear his voice. He nodded slowly and paused staring at her eyes realizing that she suddenly felt nervous about him looking at her. He moved his head away to look at Gray who wasn't focused in them at all. She smiled again and raised her hand asking for shaking it together with his own. "You're Natsu right? My name is Lucy"
'Lucy' it was the name of the most beautiful girl in this world. She was meant to be his savior and the one who will let him speak once again. He wished to have her. After shaking hands with Natsu, Lucy walked away holding the schedule in her hand while looking at it. She wasn't even realizing that she was followed by the eyes of the pink haired boy who was so helpless staring at her. She suddenly stopped when a boy suddenly stopped to talk to her, it was the orange haired Loke. Natsu suddenly frowned when he saw the smiling face that Lucy had while she was looking at the handsome guy who he didn't know.
"What? A beautiful girl like her sure has a boyfriend" the black haired boy suddenly interrupted making the salamander frowns more. It wasn't his time at all. Natsu was already jealous of a guy he never met and in love with a girl he just met. He wasn't sure of love but he knew that he wouldn't feel something like that or being attracted to a girl he didn't even hear anything from her. Natsu suddenly remembered his state and how weird he looks like to the other people. He's not talking, he is mute! How could a pretty girl like her fall in love with a mute guy like him and leaves the handsome lively guy like the orange haired boy. He took a deep breath and let it out not making his friend even realize his state. He nodded and walked together with him trying to reach their classes. In their way, Natsu was silent as always and Gray too. He wasn't addicted that much to talking but he preferred to keep silent. He moved his head to look at him realizing that he hasn't drawn anything on his face of reaction. He was like this always since that sort of accident. He never looked to them, he never spoke, he never wrote and he never cared that they were truly existed. They heard some of the rumors that Natsu was adopted by his uncle because of a car accident that killed his poor parents but wasn't sure of it so they never asked him knowing that whatever they did they will only hurt him. Natsu stopped meeting and playing with his friends after what happened. He preferred to be himself, alone no one bothers him and no one interfere in his life.
"Yo, Erza" Gray suddenly broke the silence making the pink haired boy snaps his head towards the sudden woman he saw in front of him. He narrowed his eyes trying to figure who was that woman. He felt nostalgic, she was the mighty titania. Erza, Erza was called titania in their old school. Even though she was scary but she was always helped the kids. Natsu and the gang was always afraid of disproving her or even say no to her because when her eyes becomes red, you have to know that she is angry at you and you have to run. Natsu gulped at remembering that memory feeling a shiver runs his spin. It was hard to meet that scary friend after all. Erza moved her body to look at Gray waving her hand and then she moved her head to look at the familiar pink hair.
"Hey Gray, who is that?" she asked waiting an answer.
"Natsu, Natsu Dragneel. Remember him?"
Erza froze and kept staring at her old friend. She looked like she didn't remember him at all but, she remembered him very well but the shock only made her frozen. "N-Natsu!" she called slowly and that made Natsu feels more comfortable after hearing her voice once again calling over his name. In the past, even if he was fearing her, she was the dearest to him. she was his best friend in the group, the one who cared for his pain and his injuries. She was acting like a big sister to him; actually she was acting like a mother. They were spending so much time with each other and that made their friends think that they liked each other.
Erza surprised the pink haired with a warm hug making him shots his eyes wide. "I missed you, idiot" she was whispering in his ear making him feel so much déjà-vu. It was the warmth he had in the past, it's the same feeling, the same people and everything looked the same as always. But for some reason, he wasn't the same at all. He had nothing left in the life but today, he realized that he still has friends that care about him. She broke the hug looking at his eyes and smiling. She hit him lightly on his head making him wince in pain. He didn't smile in back but she was sure that he was happy to see her. Something deep inside of her told her that she might find the old Natsu again. He kept silent not even writing to her and she kept looking at him trying to find the perfect words to spell.
"Natsu" he snapped his head towards her after hearing his name being called, he waited her to continue talking. "How have you been?" she asked nervously. Natsu looked at the ground and nodded slowly unable to raise his head to look at the redhead knowing how her reaction will be. She was nervous meeting him after so much time knowing he was still the same. He is still mute like he used to be. He is still silent not talking about a single thing or express his feelings. He might still be the same Natsu who suddenly preferred to be away from everyone, ignoring them because he didn't want to talk.
"I wish to spend much time with you like we used to"
Natsu looked at her unable to draw any reaction on his face. Suddenly, he felt nothing in his heart. He heard the words he always wanted to but wasn't moved at all. He didn't know what was wrong with him, missing his friends once and not missing them once. He felt like he was crazy and wanted some doctor to cure him. Natsu was always alone and had no one in his life and that made him unable to realize those people who cared for him. And because of that, maybe he preferred to be alone. Maybe he hated being around people. Maybe he hated people themselves. He was alone and will be always alone. After hearing such words from the redhead's mouth, he felt stinging in his heart. Like it was blaming him for living alone all this time. Telling him that there were a lot of things in this world that deserve to be lived for. Natsu didn't answer or write. He just nodded again depressing the titania making her feel disappointed.
Nothing is the same and nothing will be.
