Thanks for the reviews! It's so cool that I have some people who are interested in the story so far. Anyways, it's been requested for me to post the links to the Vside interview with Mike Lobel, so here they are… (There broken into parts)

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Chapter 1: I'm Only Happy When it Rains

Ellie Nash was a girl who most people would assume nobody would look twice at. She appeared to be rather plain looking, disregarding her long, wavy red hair. A lot of people who think they know her who don't. Everyone, except for her close friends who know better, just see her as quiet. She doesn't socialize much with people outside of her own group at Degrassi High, but that isn't all by her own choice. A lot of people avoid her just because she's-- different. Different then all the other lame people constantly wanting a place to fit in.

I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
And though I know you can't appreciate it
I'm only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
Why it feels so good to feel so sad
I'm only happy when it rains

Ellie was walking through the halls of Degrassi High, in other words hell, but stopped in her tracks as she saw Marco up ahead. She smiled and caught up with him but he seemed rather preoccupied—frantic even. He was sitting on a bench with a lap-full of papers, rummaging through them and mumbling or possibly cursing to himself angrily. She almost didn't even want to bother him, but she was dying to find out what was up.

Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me

"Hey Marco" She said cheerfully, right up to his face. Ellie thought he was about to drop all of his stuff by the look of surprise he gave her, but instead he mumbled something of a hello and began looking back down at his things. "What's wrong?" She asked, now not even caring if she was disturbing him.

"I-- can't-- find-- my-- essay-- anywhere!" Marco puffed out between stressful breaths.

"So? What's the big deal? One day late on one stupid essay won't make much a difference, will it?"

Marco just started at her blankly as if he couldn't comprehend what she just told him. Ellie began staring back before he took a deep sigh and rolled his eyes as if to say 'you don't know me at all, do you?"

"Or maybe it does make a difference… Wouldn't want to put a blemish on your perfect report card, oh no." Ellie said sarcastically trying to amuse him, but it wasn't working, so she just sighed and took a different approach. "What class is it for anyways?"

"World history" He replied, not even looking up at her.

"World history? Wow, I didn't even know you were taking that class." She said. "By the way Marco, this is so unlike you. You're usually so… on top of things. What's up?"

"I guess I'm just freaking out because we'll be in college soon. Only a couple more years! I know I won't fail high school and get left behind or anything, but I'm still worried. I don't exactly know why. You know what I mean?"

Ellie sat and thought for a minute. "Not really." She replied. "I'm just excited to get out of here." Marco smirked at her and she smiled back at him. She then saw something rather strange through the window. It was Jay Hogart talking to Mr. Simpson. She looked closer, practically pressing her nose up to the glass in interest.

"What do you think he's doing here?" She asked

"Who?" Marco asked turning around. He saw what Ellie was looking at. "Jay? I don't know. I hope he's not coming back to school here. Wouldn't that just make our last year here all the more special? If he does come back, I am so dropping out."

"Wow, Marco-- Rawr." Ellie giggled.

"What are you talking about?"

"I just-- I just didn't know you cared so much, that's all. You just kind of took me by surprise.

"I don't have to like everybody Ellie." Ellie laughed sarcastically at that, causing Marco to go back to ignoring her to find his World History essay.

"Where is it!?" He yelled, causing Ellie to laugh. "What are you laughing at?" He asked. Ellie pulled 3 pieces of paper stapled together out of her bag and held it in front of Marco's face.

"You little sneak!" He said, raising his voice and sounding ridiculous. "How long have you had that?"

"Oh, don't worry not long. It was on the floor by your feet and I saw it right before I spotted Jay." Marco fake-glared at her, but then smiled because he was just happy to have his essay back.

"I better run. I have to talk to Ms. Kwan." Marco said, rising from him seat. "See ya."

"Yeah, bye Marco." Ellie replied, looking back out the window. Jay was just leaving and Ellie felt very strange—Almost like the source of her unhappiness was none other then Jay Hogart.

I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains

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Flashback

It's approximately two years in Ellie's past. She's back at Sean's parents house waiting for Sean to finish talking to his parents. She had Emma and Jay nearby, as they were all leaning on the car, ready to leave.

"I told them everything" Sean said, stepping out of the house to everyone's surprise.

"Let's get you out of here." Ellie tried her best to sound comforting, but really she was anxious to get home again.

"Ellie. Look I don't know how--" Sean started, but Ellie interrupted.

"You're, you're staying aren't you?!" Ellie blurted out, looking upset. "Sean, please. I love you."

"I love you too...but Ellie." Ellie looked like she didn't believe him.

"When are you coming back?!" She questioned.

"Yo Cameron! get in the car." Jay yelled out.

"Staying!" Sean yelled back. "I'm staying. Look for the first time in my life I need to be here with my parents, to deal."

"You sure about this?" Jay asked. Sean nodded in reply. "Okay man. See you." Jay then gave Sean a big, brotherly hug and started heading for the car. Ellie began crying lightly and silently as she got into the passengers seat, and avoided looking back through the window at him. She was soon joined by Emma, who sat in the seat behind her. Ellie caught Emma's eye and saw that she was looking out through the window back at Sean.

A while later when they got back to Degrassi, Jay first dropped off Emma, then took a sudden stop at Ellie's place, where she now lived alone. She thought about how she left things with Sean. Why couldn't she just understand? She didn't even say goodbye. She turned into a mopey, needy selfish little girl and just stormed off.

"Okay Nash, this is your stop." Jay said, unlocking the door.

A strange, unforeseeable action came over Ellie as she laid her arms over the dashboard and began to cry. She felt so stupid, but she couldn't help it. Not only did she feel like she was being abandoned by Sean, but she also could sense that he still had some left-over feeling for Emma, and on top of that she felt horrible for how she left everything at Sean's parents house.

Jay then shifted in his seat, and became very interested in the ceiling as he began looking uncomfortable. "Look, man-- Er-- Ellie, don't cry okay?" He said, trying his best to sound sympathetic instead of uncomfortable. "I mean, it's not like he's going to be gone forever, right? I mean, I don't think he is…" This obviously wasn't helping because her cry wasn't weakening in the slightest. He was moving his hand awkwardly to lay it on her shoulder, but when she looked up at him, it caused his hand to drop at his side.

"God, I'm so stupid." She said, sniffling and rubbing her eyes.

"Right, because you were supposed to see this coming, or something? Sorry, Red but I don't think--"

"It's not that." Ellie cut him off. She then began gazing out the window, and in a few seconds Jay understood.

"Oh-- Emma?" He asked. Ellie just started at him blankly and looked back outside. "Ellie. I would be lying if I thought that all his feelings of Emma were gone, but come on. He's cares way more about you."

Ellie didn't look back at him or even make and movement of acknowledgement of his last comment at all.

Jay sighed and leaned over Ellie to open her car door. "Come on Nash, I'll walk you up."

They both got out of the car and as they got up to the top step, Ellie stared at him for a few seconds. "So-- You can come in for a little bit, if you want." Ellie said. "It's not like I'm expecting anybody." She added bitterly.

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains

Jay wanted to go inside, but one look of Ellie's face screamed vulnerability if he's ever seen it, which would usually be his ticket in, but knowing how upset she was he had to refuse. He faced the facts and knew being with him wouldn't cheer her up, it would only make matters worse.

"Sorry, Red. I've actually got to get going…" Jay said.

"That's okay." Ellie replied, leaning on the front door of the building, holding her keys behind her back. "Well, see you later then?"

"Guess so--" Jay replied. There was a moment when he looked at her and she seemed as if she wanted him to kiss her, but he resisted temptation and ignored false signals as her started heading back to the car. After he left Ellie felt slightly rejected, but then extremely relieved when she woke up the next morning.

End of Flashback

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The song for this fan fiction was I'm Only Happy When It Rains, by Garbage. I really hope you liked the update! I'm truly very excited to continue this story, so leave lots of reviews and I will post the next chapter. By the way, if this chapter seemed some-what familiar to you, it's because this is a story that has been revamped from a one-shot I made. I wanted to re-write it as a longer story, so I deleted the other one. Thank you so much for reading, and remember to review! Reviews give me inspiration to write more! By the way, does anybody want to tell me why the seperation bars from th editing tool aren't working? I had to make my own dividers and I think they look kind of stupid, lol.