Hi everyone! :)

So, second (and last) chapter to "Hating You, Loving You". Jujubear's POV this time!

Basically what you'll read are the follow-ups to all the scenes from the last chapter. I left the words of the poem so that you can recognise the scenes...

Okay, I really suck at descriptions and stuff, so... yeah, enjoy ;)

And watch out for the second scene, that's all for my Tumblr fellows ;D

DISCLAIMER: Nope, still not mine.

-Oh, I almost forgot: ep 26 still wasn't up when I started this, so just pretend you haven't read it while reading this, okay? x)


HATING YOU, LOVING YOU

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

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"You're insufferable - I hate you."

Julian burst out laughing.

"It's true though," he said. "You are tempestuous. And you act as if you were Her Majesty the Supreme Queen of the Galax - hold on a second!" his eyes sparkled mischievously. "That's it. That's who you are. Your. Tempestuos. Majesty. This is so perfect..."

"Ugh - don't you dare! Don't you even - fucking - try, Larson!"

"Aww... look at the Little Prince being all touchy about his new nickname..."

Logan just stared.

"...what did you just call me?"

"Little Prince?" Julian raised an eyebrow. "Why do you - wait." he scrutinized Logan for a long moment. "You like it, don't you?"

"What - that's absurd!" denied Logan. "...I love that book though."

"Oh my god you like that nickname! Oh my god, I'm never gonna call you by any other name ever again." Julian was laughing hysterically.

"Don't you -" started Logan, all red. But suddenly he stopped and started to smile. "You know what? Go ahead."

Julian immediately stopped laughing and looked questioningly at Logan.

"What?"

"You heard me - go ahead. Call me by that name every time you feel like it. Really, I don't mind. But think about it - if I'm the Little Prince, what does that make you?"

"What... what do you mean?" asked Julian, taken aback.

"I may be the Prince... but you Jules, you insufferable, whiny diva, you are the Rose."

"I am not!"

"Of course you are," Logan answered. His grin widened. "And if you do as much as calling me by that ridiculous nickname in front of anyone, I swear every tabloid in the country will know Julian Larson encourages his best friend to call him Rose."

"You wouldn't dare!"

"I most definitely would," Logan smiled.

Julian stared at him for a long moment.

"Fine!" he finally said. "But I hate you."

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I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

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"Just so you know, I hate you."

Julian smiled. Oh, Logan was really annoyed.

And now he could even stare at him for a little while without worrying about the consequences. Wonderful. That practically made his day.

Logan shot him another brief look and Julian noticed he seemed to be having a hard time holding back a smile.

Julian smirked.

"You don't seem as annoyed as you claim you are, Wright... like having me staring at you?"

"Yes," Logan said sarcastically. "I'm so flattered great Julian Larson finds me interesting enough to even look at me."

"Mine's not interest, I'm actually staring in awe, you're the most horrendous thing I've ever laid my eyes on."

Much to Julian's surprise, Logan didn't bat an eye.

"Well, maybe it's not that I'm flattered. Maybe I just can't wait to get home to go on tumblr."

Julian looked like a child opening his Christmas presents.

"...you go on tumblr?"

Logan just shrugged.

"From time to time. And yes, Derek knows, so no, you can't blackmail me."

Julian was clearly utterly disappointed.

"Umpf - what's tumblr got to do with anything anyway?" he pouted.

"Oh nothing," Logan said. But his smile seemed to disagree. "...I just can't wait to see the posts of those two girls in that car." He gestured towards a point behind Julian.

Julian turned around to see a couple of girls looking at him and positively flailing. This sucked for several reasons:

1. He couldn't stare at Logan anymore.

2. One of the girls was about to take a picture of him, he was too shocked to give her his signature smile and he wasn't even wearing his beloved sunglasses.

3. He couldn't stare at Logan anymore and that was a freaking tragedy, okay?

He heard Logan laughing behind him.

"Omigodyouguise, you'll never believe what happened to me and my bestie today!" he said, imitating a fangirl squeeing. "Julian Larson was in the car next to us! At first he didn't see us because he was busy staring at his heaps more attractive friend, but then he turned around and I took a photo of his dumb expression! Omigod omigod I can't believe it, I'm gonna die right now, he's so hot! He's so perfect I just want to cry! JULIAN LARSON, I WILL MARRY YOU AND HAVE YOUR CHILDREN. BEST. DAY. EVER."

Julian looked as if he was about to murder him, while Logan just kept laughing hard.

Julian wanted to come up with a witty remark, he really wanted to, but right now there was actually just one thing he could think of.

"...fuck my life."

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I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

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"God, I hate you."

Logan was unbelievably red and most obviously embarrassed, and Julian was absolutely delighted.

"Of course you do. It's because you know you can never have me."

"Stop it."

"Why should I? It's funny!"

"Julian! Stop. It."

"...I must say, I rather like having your boxers in a knot for once, Lo... you're so heartbreakingly cute when you're embarrassed!"

"You - ugh. That's it. I'm going away."

Logan headed towards the door.

"Can't stay here any longer without jumping my bones, right?"

Logan froze with the hand on the doorknob. He shot Julian a very dirty look.

"If you were gay, or at the very least bi," he muttered under his breath. "I'd wear those hideous skin-tight jeans Michelle bought me and then we'd see who would have the other's boxers in a knot."

Julian just stared while Logan got out of the room and shut the door behind him.

...Logan in skin-tight jeans though.

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I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

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"Ugh - see? I hate you so much it even makes me rhyme."

"Okay," Julian said. "I'll go then."

He rose and headed for the door.

"Wait!" Logan finally said.

Julian looked at him questioningly. "...where are you going?"

"Since you find me so annoying, I really don't see why I should stay here."

Logan sighed.

"Well... I suppose if you stayed for a couple of minutes, it'd be okay..."

Julian grinned.

"Aww... I was right then! You do like me!"

Logan glared at him.

"Liking you is a rather strong word. Let's just say I don't completely despise you."

"Such a sweetie, as usual... what would I ever do without you? And most importantly, what would you do without me?" Logan rolled his eyes and Julian laughed. "Never fear Lo... I'm here to take good care of you!"

"Of course, you'll stay here, make sure I take my medicine and hold my hand like any good Mom would do," said Logan sarcastically.

"I can hold your hand if you want to, my mortally ill friend!" Julian said, grabbing his hand before Logan could protest. "Just don't tell Derek."

"Why? If he was to get terribly jealous because you've had this privilege I'll let him hold my hand too. I'm all for sharing the love."

"It's not his jealousy I'm worried about. ...and I really didn't need to know about your new sharing the love policy, thank you very much. It's just that the last time we held hands D called us a couple of spoiled Beverly Hills brats"

Logan shrugged.

"He calls us an old married couple every time we argue, but you don't seem to care," he said. Then he grinned. "But maybe that's just because you know that's a little bit true."

"It's not!" protested Julian.

"Yes it is. I mean, it's not like it's my fault, obviously... you, on the other hand, behave like an annoying old woman, act all bossy and try to control me as if I were your husband."

"That's absolutely not true!"

Logan raised an eyebrow.

"Last week you made a scene just because I fed Sonic one hour late."

"Well, of course I did! I asked you to do one simple thing at one precise hour just this once and you didn't! Sonic could have starved to death! And all because you never listen to me!"

"He's perfectly fine, Julian, don't be such a drama queen. Besides, he's just a hedgehog, for crying out loud!"

"But he's important to me! See? You don't even care about my feel-" he stopped abruptly, horror in his eyes.

Logan stared in amusement as the truth hit Julian - who was still holding his hand - full force.

"Oh god," Julian said, horrified. "We do sound like an old married couple."

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I hate the way you're always right,

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"I don't know why I'm still friends with you. I hate you."

"Well, to be perfectly honest..." Derek said. "It was you who touched that damn thing because you had to prove something. It's not like Julian forced you to do anything."

"Exactly!" nodded Julian. "It's not my fault if you can't tell nettle from innocent grass. Now give me my money."

Derek scoffed.

"Jules, stop it."

"But it's my money! I won it!" protested Julian.

"Can't you be the adult one here and let it go?"

"But-!"

"Yes, Larson, do as Mother says." Logan said.

"Oh for the love of - stop calling me like that!"

"I'll stop when you stop acting like one."

"I don't act like-"

"Oh, please Derek... you do. All the time."

"Yeah D..." Julian said. "I hate to break it to you, but Logan's right."

"Jules! How can you take his side now?"

"Sorry man... but you can't deny it. This morning you spent three whole hours bugging me until I gave up and put the solar oil on."

"UV rays can be extremely dangerous!" protested Derek.

Julian and Logan smirked at each other.

"Aww..." Julian said. "Logan and I are so lucky! You're the best Mom in the universe!"

"Yes, you'd never let anything bad happen to us!" Logan added.

"Hey Mom, Mom, can we get an ice-cream please?"

"And I want a kiss on my hurt hand!"

"I can do that while Mom goes get us ice-cream!" offered Julian helpfully.

"But you're not Mom!" protested Logan.

"...an attractive boy who also happens to be a movie star offers to kiss you and you refuse?"

"Well, it's not like D's all that bad... you've got a point, though. Mother, go get us ice-cream, Julian will kiss my hand."

Derek stared at them with wide eyes. Then he just rolled his eyes.

"Old married couple one minute, kindergarten sweethearts the other..." he muttered. "Just get together already, will you?"

But he left to get some ice-cream.

Logan just laughed.

"You and me together," he told Julian. "As if it was ever possible!"

Julian just smiled, fighting the sudden urge to smash his own head against a wall... or rather, Logan's head.

"...yeah," he said. "Ridiculous, right?"

.

I hate it when you lie.

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You're a liar. And I hate you. -L

Julian smirked. Typical Logan.

Aww... I love you too Lo -J

Julian stared at his phone.

The text was clearly meant as a joke to annoy Logan... and yet, Julian couldn't bring himself to hit the send button.

It was much too close to the truth, to what he wished he could tell Logan... to the one thing he could never confess.

Suddenly, someone knocked at the door, making Julian jump.

It was Nathan, who wanted to know if Julian was up to go study in his trailer.

Julian smiled and told him to go ahead, promising he would have followed in a few minutes.

Once Nathan was gone, Julian sighed deeply, staring at his phone again.

Feeling his heart sinking just a little bit, he deleted the message and headed out of the door.

If anything, hopefully the homework would have freed him from the constant thought of Logan Wright for a little while.

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I hate it when you make me laugh,

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"Y-you... evil..." stuttered Logan. "I h-hate you!"

But he was laughing.

...not that he actually had a choice with Julian tickling him without mercy.

Julian laughed, delighted. Torturing Logan was pure bliss.

Logan was tackled to the floor, but he seemed to have no intention to surrender. With one fluid movement, he managed to take Julian's shoulders and before the other boy could realize what was happening, he found himself tackled to the floor with Logan on top of him.

Julian stared at him with wide eyes and Logan smirked.

"Not so cocky anymore, are we, Larson?" Logan said, and Julian could do nothing but swallow. "Now, I want you to promise me not to try to tickle me ever again, or I swear there will be consequences."

"Oh, yeah?" answered Julian, praying every saint in heaven he could survive all the sexual frustration he was currently experiencing.

"Yes," smirked Logan. "...I'll kidnap Sonic."

Julian flushed with anger.

"Don't you dare even think of it, don't you dare, Wright!"

"That's up to you. Promise not to tickle me again, and Sonic will be safe." Logan said, leaning much too close.

Julian never knew how he managed not to kiss him.

"..."

"Do it, Larson," insisted Logan.

"I..." Julian answered in one shaky breath. "...yes, I promise."

"Very well," said Logan, getting up. "Now, can we please keep studying Math? The test is tomorrow."

Julian sighed and got up, hoping the very very recent drop of his IQ wouldn't compromise the test.

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even worse when you make me cry.

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"Why can't you understand you're my fucking best friend and I do care about you?" Logan asked, looking Julian straight in the eyes. "I hate you."

Meanwhile, Julian was in his own room, just as upset.

As much as he enjoyed bickering with Logan, these stupid fights over nothing really sucked. Because not only Julian was actually in love with the guy, but Logan was his best friend too. On the bright side, at least Logan hadn't thrown him against a wall this time.

Julian wiped away one single tear.

Maybe he should go talk to Logan. Not that he wanted to apologize or anything - he still thought he was the wronged part there... but the last thing he wanted was having to spend the whole week ignoring his best friend.

Julian sighed and got up from the bed.

When he opened the door, he found himself in front of the most amazing view. Logan Wright himself, hand suspended mid-air, clearly about to knock at the door.

Julian's jaw dropped as Logan's eyes widened.

"...hi."

"Hi."

Awkward silence.

Logan shifted uncomfortably and Julian chewed on his lower lip.

"I..." Logan began, not really knowing how to go on.

But for Julian, this was more than enough.

"...I hear the new Pirates of Caribbean movie is out. Want to go to the cinema?"

This time it was Logan's jaw to drop. He stared at Julian in amazement for a couple of seconds. Then he beamed at him.

"Sounds perfect."

"Great. Let's go."

And maybe it was the sight of him smiling like that, or the fact he was actually really going to apologize for once, but Julian found himself falling for Logan a little bit more.

.

I hate it when you're not around,

.

"Fuck you," Logan muttered, throwing another punch. "Fine, you don't want to be my friend anymore, I got it. I fucking hate you."

What Logan didn't know was that each and every word he spoke was echoed by a choked sob on the other side of the door.

Julian wanted to let him in and tell him everything, but he couldn't. He just couldn't.

First of all, he didn't think Logan cared that much - he never did after all - and even if he did... well, it didn't really change anything. Whoever his stalker was, she clearly wasn't in her right state of mind, and the last thing he wanted was Logan in the harm's way. Logan needed to be safe... safe, and oblivious, as usual.

Julian sighed, trying to wipe away his tears. Why did it have to be so damn complicated? Sometimes it was hard for Julian to understand why Logan would complain about not being able to feel anything. Personally, he would have paid to be numb right now. All this, fear, this despair, this love, this damn love, were too much to handle. And Julian wasn't sure he could do it anymore.

In the meantime, Logan had stopped yelling.

Julian figured he'd probably just given up. It hurt that he did, but it was actually better this way. If anything, he was safe.

Suddenly, his phone vibrated.

Just thought you might want to know Logan seems to have every intention to sleep in front of your door tonight. -D

Julian's heart leapt.

Logan was still there. For him.

Careful not to make any noise, Julian stood and walked to the door. He sat down, leaning against it, caressing the wood, wishing he could just open the door and hold Logan in his arms.

"I'm sorry," he whispered softly, one more tear rolling on his cheek. "I'm so, so sorry. But I can't lose you."

Feeling his heart breaking, Julian replied to Derek's text.

Tell the damn squid to go away. I don't want to talk to him, got that? -J

He kept crying silently until he fell asleep shortly after.

What he didn't know was that Logan was almost in the same conditions - even though he somehow managed not to cry - on the other side of the door, and Derek never had the heart to deliver the message.

They slept together that night, each of them oblivious to the other's presence, both sure they had just lost the most important person in their lives.

That night, Julian had nightmares of his stalker finding him, hurting him, killing him even. But in every dream, Logan was always safe. And that was all that mattered.

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and the fact that you didn't call.

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"Fuck, Jules, I hate you," he breathed. "I hate you so much."

Meanwhile, Julian was trying not to fall apart in his room. Quite unsuccessfully so, too.

Jules, what happened? You're acting weird - L

"You'd act weird too if a stalker threatened you, you ignorant squid."

Julian, don't be stupid, I don't know what your problem is, but you need to get out of that stupid room and get a damn life! - L

"Life? Precisely what I won't have anymore if I get out of my 'stupid room' before the crazy bitch has been found and locked up in some mental hospital."

JULIAN LARSON, why the HELL won't you talk to me? - L

"Because I'm in love with you and you won't even look at me while your precious Hummel is around. Happy now?"

Jules, seriously, I'm just trying to be a good friend here! - L

"Really? Why, that's such a shocker. You've never done such a thing before. Oh, wow, I'm so very lucky, Logan Wright is trying to be a good friend. Yay."

Julian, whatever I did to deserve this, I'm sorry, okay? So, so SORRY. Just tell me what I did and I'll fix it. Promise. - L

"You can't. You broke my heart so many times I don't even think it can be fixed at all anymore."

Fine. If that's what you want I'll leave you alone. I hope this drama you're having is worth losing a friend, stupid brat. You don't want to talk to me anymore? Great. I'm done. You can go die in a hole for all I care. - L

"Oh, you're leaving me alone? Finally. Also, I'm perfectly aware you don't give a shit, no need to stress the concept, thank you very much."

...please. You're my best friend. - L

Julian stared at his phone feeling his heart twitching painfully. Deep down, he knew Logan cared for him even just a bit. He and Derek were Logan's only friends, of course he wouldn't want to lose them.

But he would. He would lose Julian, wouldn't he? Apart from the stalker issue... Jules was going to leave Dalton for good, wasn't he? And he was doing that to run away from Logan... there was no way they'd keep in touch. Logan was going to lose Julian and Julian... well, he was going to lose Logan too.

Julian sighed. His phone started to vibrate, informing him one Logan Wright was calling him. For the fifth time in the last two hours. And Julian was going to ignore the call, just like he ignored all the others and all the messages.

Derek had told him it was ridiculous and he should just talk to Logan, but he had agreed to try and get Logan to stop trying to talk to Julian. He hadn't been successful so far.

Julian felt the tears building up in his eyes as the phone stopped vibrating, only to start again a few seconds later. Julian made a frustrated noise and threw the phone on the floor.

"Why can't you just leave me alone?" he screamed.

But the phone kept vibrating on the carpet, almost spelling the words Logan had written him.

...please. You're my best friend.

"I'm s-sorry Lo," Julian broke down. "So terribly sorry. B-but I can't do this anymore. I... I just..." he sighed deeply. "I can't."

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But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all.

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"...I...I love you."

Julian stared at him with wide eyes, feeling his heart racing.

"W-what?"

"I-I..." Logan hesitated and lowered his eyes, looking embarrassed and confused.

"I'll... just give you two a moment..." Clark said before disappearing.

Julian barely noticed him, too busy staring at Logan.

Logan glanced at him and opened his mouth but immediately closed it again.

"I..." he finally began. "I don't even know why I... just forget it. I... sorry." And made to go away.

But before he managed to take even just one step, he felt a hand gripping his wrist.

"Wait," Julian said.

Logan turned around to see his friend looking at him in confusion.

"Why... why did you say that?"

"Jules I-"

"Did Derek tell you something? Is this some... some kind of plan to make me stay?"

Logan looked at him confused.

"Told me? What are you talking about? What's Derek got to do with this?"

Julian stared speechless.

"You... you don't know?"

"Know what?"

Logan looked at Julian expectantly, but the actor seemed to have lost the ability to talk.

Finally, Logan made a frustrated noise.

"This is so stupid! How the hell am I supposed to know what's on your mind if won't talk to me?"

Julian glared at him.

"Why should I?" he asked dryly "What? Are you telling me now you suddenly care about me when you never gave a fuck for three years?"

Logan's eyes lit up with rage.

"What the fuck is this supposed to mean? I care and you know it!"

"Oh, really?" Julian retorted sarcastically. "Because it doesn't seem to me."

"You heard what I said before? Because, damn it, I meant it!"

Julian gaped and stared at Logan, speechless. He didn't need to ask what Logan was talking about.

"B-but," Julian finally managed to choke out. "You're in love with Kurt..."

Logan shook his head, looking more confused than ever.

"I..." he trailed off, frowning. He closed his eyes for a moment, then he locked eyes with Julian, dead serious, looking at him intensely. "I don't know;" he said. "It's confusing for me too. I didn't plan it, Jules, I never thought I'd..." he sighed, running a hand through his hair. "All I know is that I don't want to lose you. You're my best friend and... I'm sorry if I never showed you enough, but I do care about you. And... I know you're straight and everything but-"

"What if I'm not?" Julian cut him off.

Logan stared at him with wide eyes.

"I... I beg you pardon?"

"I'm... I'm not straight. Never was. I'm bi, Lo. Bi and..." Julian sighed, then smiled a little. "and completely in love with you since freshmen year."

"Fresh - that three years! And all this time you -"

"You just... always seemed to have someone else on your mind. Derek's been trying to talk to me into telling you for weeks, but I... I never thought it could make any difference. You never seemed to really look at me." Julian shrugged, as if it was not big deal.

Logan knew what he had to do.

Because, dammit, this was Julian. Julian, who had just told him he was in love with him.

Logan knew what he needed to do now.

So he did it. He pulled Julian close and kissed him, smiling on his lips, playing with his hair with that stupid, much too long cut.

Julian held him tight and kissed him back, feeling a very odd feeling in his chest. He suspected it was happiness.

It wasn't as if everything was absolutely perfect. There were still his stalker and a hundred more issues that needed to be dealt with. Only, not right now.

Just for this moment, he was Logan's and Logan was his, and reality could wait for just a little bit longer.


AUTHOR'S NOTES

Royal Hippogriff, I'm glad I finally published this. This took time :S
I really hope you liked it, let me know! :)
Also, this little thing is dedicated to the most amazing person I know. My sister, itstimetobattlemydemons on tumblr. I love you :) -3

Hugs&Butterfly Kisses,

PurpleSummer -3