I will be updatin my stories as i get them wrote but patiants is needed i have two toddlers that crave my attention so i can only do so much at a time... plus im workin on my other two stories... any ideas are welcome thru a PM and if used i will give credit where credit is due...
this story is rated M for drug and alcohol abuse lemons and other crazy things that may come out of my head..
if you are not 18 or over Please DO NOT read this..
i do not own twilight so credit goes to stephanie meyer for the great characters she has created.. the songs in my story belong to the artists i just use them as a backround for some chapters.
Chapter 2
I calmed down a great bit hearing no one was home because it meant I could chill out a little bit before Edward got back and the fighting started. As I was thinking about what I was going to tell Edward I seen Jasper's car. He had an all-black Audi A4. But that's all I knew. The last time I was in the car I was in the back seat. I can't really remember the day though because I was headed to the hospital. As soon as I crossed the treaty line Jasper opened the Passenger side car door from inside the car. I smiled as I got in. Everyone tried to keep me away from Jasper cense the party but I never thought it necessary, though no one listened to me. I trusted Jasper though and I knew he could control himself if given the chance. As we headed to the Cullen house I could feel the tension in the car. I knew Jasper would never hurt me but the thought of him in pain worried me more than it should.
"Jasper, are you ok? This isn't too painful for you is it being this close to me?" I looked at him and I met his gaze, his eyes where different then Edwards. His was like honey and it was like you could see through them. Edward's was a little more solid but still memorizing. I looked away quickly then met his gaze again. Just then it was like I wasn't close enough to him. Why did I just want to be closer to Jasper I was with Edward?
"No I'm ok. It just your scent is very strong in here, but I'm ok. I won't hurt you." his tone got strong at the end. And I know everyone thought he would hurt me but I didn't believe that.
"I know you won't Jasper. I trust you even if no one else does." I smiled and he smiled back and nodded.
Jasper turned onto the long drive and made his way to the front of the house before he pulled the car over and turned it off. We both got out and walked up to the steps before Jasper stopped me.
"Bella" I turned to look at him. "I want you to know that no matter what I'll always be here for you. I know no one trust me to be around you but I will never hurt you again. And if you need protected or you need help don't hesitate to call me. Even if all you need is a ride or someone to talk to you can call me." he looked down to the floor then back to me for a response. I smiled at him. And then I realized I would do anything for him as well.
"Thank you Jasper, for all that you did today and for everything you have said. I want you to know that I feel the same way. If you ever need anything just call me." I put my hand on his cheek to prove my point. Then I realized I was touching Jasper a little too intimately. I pulled my hand away and turn on my heel to walk into the house. I walked to the living room and sat down on the couch. Jasper sat down next to me and got comfortable. He looked at me and smiled.
"Do you want to watch a movie? Are you hungry?" I smiled. I was a little hungry and a movie with dinner didn't sound too bad.
"Yes I am hungry and a movie sounds good."
Jasper smiled big then wrinkled his nose. Did I smell bad or something? I looked at Jasper in horror at the fact that I might smell. He laughed.
"Sorry darling, It's just that you smell like dog." he laughed again" why don't you take a shower and I'll make you some dinner. When you get done you can pick out a movie the cabinet is right there." He pointed to a very large cabinet that looked like a closet.
I nodded my head and headed up stairs. As I was cleaning up I started to think about what Jasper was making me for dinner. I had never had Jasper cooking. Esme always did the cooking. I got done and started to head down the stairs when I smelled it. It smelled mouthwatering. I speed up down the stairs and ran to the cabinet to pick a movie out. As I fingered through the 3,000 movies they seemed to have, one caught my attention. "The Little Mermaid" I hadn't seen it cense I was about 6 years old. I smile and wondered if Jasper would mind. Just as I was thinking about him he walked in.
"Dinner is served. Did you find a movie you wanted to watch?" I smiled at the smell of my dinner and turned to see Jasper sitting on the couch with a big plate of fried potatoes and stake. I smiled.
"Yes I hope you don't mind." I held up the case for him to see. Before I could even suggest another movie he had it out of my hand and in the DVD player.
"Sit and eat your dinner." I did what I was told and sat down. Jasper sat down next to me and played the movie. I sat back and began to eat my dinner. It tasted even better then it smelled. I saw Jasper watching me every now and then but I paid him no mind and finished my dinner in record breaking time. As soon as I was done Jasper had my plate.
"Here I'll take that and clean it up." I sat back against the couch and got comfy and continued to watch the movie. Jasper came back a minute later with a soda and handed it to me.
"I thought you might be thirsty." he smile and sat back down looking at the TV.
"Thank you, for everything." I whispered. I knew he could hear me. I turned back to the movie and noticed it was at my favorite part., Sebastian was about to sing Kiss the girl.
"This is my favorite part." I said to myself but I knew Jasper could hear me.
There you see her,
Sitting there across the way
She don't got a lot to say
But there's something about her
And you don't know why
But you dying to try
You wanna kiss the girl
I looked at Jasper who was looking at me and I smiled. He looked back at the TV innocently.
Yes you want her
Look at her you know you do.
I looked at Jasper again and he was looking at me again. I smiled and looked away.
Possible she want you too
There is one way to ask her
It don't take a word
Not a single word
Go on and kiss the girl
Sing with me now
Sha, la, la ,la, la, la,
My, oh, my
Look like the boy to shy
He ain't gonna kiss the girl
I looked back at Jasper who was still looking at me. I smiled but then I saw something else in Jasper's eyes. I was stuck. I don't think I could have moved even if I wanted to.
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Ain't that sad?
Ain't it a shame?
Too bad he gonna miss the girl
I tried looking away but I couldn't. I started looking at Jasper's facial features. He didn't have a baby face it was rugged and masculine. My eyes focused on his lips. They where in a tight line but they looked firm and plush. I caught myself wishing that I could kiss Jasper.
Now's your moment
Floating in a blue lagoon
Boy, you better do it soon
No time will be better
Ya, ya, ya, ya, ya,
It don't take a word
And she won't say a word
Until ya kiss the girl
I was so stuck in Jasper's gaze I didn't notice that I was being drawn into him.
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Don't be scared
You got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
I just couldn't break free of Jasper, though I kind of didn't want to. I could hear my heart racing in my ears and I knew Jasper could hear it as well.
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Don't stop now
Don't try to hide it
How you wanna kiss the girl
Whoa, whoa
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Float along
And listen to this song
Song say kiss the girl
Whoa, whoa
Sha, la, la, la, la, la
Music play
Do what the music say
You got to kiss the girl
My heart was pounding and my breathing was ragged now. Jasper was closing in and I was welcoming him. I couldn't control my actions it was like I was drawn to him and his lips. I just wanted to close the last few inches. I wanted to feel his lips moving with mine.
Just as our lips where about to touch Jasper jumped to the other side of the couch. I could feel a wave of disappointment wash over me and I knew Jasper could feel it as well, once my heart went back to normal and my breathing regulated Jasper spoke.
"Edward and Alice will be here any minute but I would love to continue that at another time darling." he whispered. I blushed and calmed myself before Edward came back. As soon as I was calm Edward walked in the front door. The second I seen him I knew he was mad. He had his famous non emotional mask on. I turned my attention back to the TV. I was too tired to fight tonight and I really didn't feel like it at the moment. I got up went over to Edward and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Then went to head up to bed.
"Good night everyone I'll see you in the morning." I yawned and headed upstairs.
If I could say so I pulled that little lie off. Well I thought I did. Before I got half way up the stairs I was stopped by Edward. He had a hold of my arm but I did not turn around.
"Why couldn't Alice see you today?" he growled at me.
"I told you I was going to La Push today." I whispered. I was trying to control myself. I just wanted to go to bed.
"I told you I didn't want you to go over there. How did you get there anyway? I took your batt..." he stopped mid-sentence like he had said too much. It pissed me off. My anger flared up. I spun around and glared at Edward.
"Finish your sentence Edward." I growled though it wasn't as good as any of the Cullen's. I was only human.
"I took your battery out of your truck." he whispered so low I almost didn't hear him. My anger just kept growing. Just when I was about to tell Edward off a wave of calm hit me, Jasper. I knew he was trying to help but it just made me even angrier. So I started screaming.
"Jasper quite manipulating my emotions before I have Emmett rip your arms off." I yelled over Edward. As soon as I felt the calm go away I turned my attention back to Edward. "And you. I told you I wasn't going to be controlled. I meant it and for your information just because you thought that stunt of yours was going to keep me away from someone who is like my brother and one of my best friends didn't mean I didn't have a backup." I took a deep breath and continued a little softer. "Now I'm tired and I want to go to sleep. If I where you I would spend the night thinking about how you have been treating me. I refuse to be controlled anymore and if you keep it up I'm going to leave. That's not a threat it's a promise. Now let go of me."
I think Edward was in shock about my outburst but I didn't care I have had enough with him acting like my father. I had one and even he didn't try to control everything I did like Edward. I needed to make my own choices and learn from them.
After a few minutes Edward let go of my arm and I turned and went up the stairs to bed. I walked into Edwards's room and threw myself onto the bed. I tried to fall asleep but I couldn't. For some reason I couldn't get Jasper out of my mind. He helped me out today so I could see Jake. Then we almost kiss. I really wanted to kiss him and I didn't know why. I had to stop thinking about him he is my best friend's husband. I rolled over and looked at the clock I had been laying here cense about 10pm and it was almost 3 in the morning. I wasn't tired one little bit. I was amazed that Edward hadn't come up yet though I was also great full because I kind of didn't want to see him. I sat up and walked out of Edwards's room. Maybe if I get a glass of warm milk I can get to sleep. I went down stairs and no one was in the house that I saw anyway. I turned the corner to head into the kitchen and smacked into something hard. I thought it was a wall till a pair of cold arms encircled my waist. I looked up into the honey gold eyes of Jasper.
