Chapter 4

Adam awoke the next morning. His pillow was drenched in tears from the previous day. "God," said Adam, "please tell me it was all a horrible nightmare." But Adam knew that it wasn't a nightmare. He knew it was very real. It just couldn't accept it.

Adam proceeded with his daily routine. Getting dressed, putting on his makeup, and eating breakfast. Adam usually ate breakfast with his band members. Unfortunately, this breakfast would be slightly different. Adam entered the eating area of the tour bus and froze in shock. The woman he saw kissing on Tommy, was sitting in his seat at the breakfast booth. Right next to Tommy.

"Adam," said Sasha, "Have you met Stephanie? She's a riot!" Sasha grabbed his arm and pulled Adam to the booth.

"I don't believe I've had the pleasure," said Adam, trying to hide his complete hatred for the girl. "I'm Adam. Adam Lambert. It's…lovely to meet you." Stephanie shook Adam's outstretched hand and said,

"It's lovely to meet you too. Tommy has told me sooo much about you."

"Funny," said Adam, under his breath, "he's never told me a thing about you." Stephanie simply smiled and took her seat. Adam took the seat directly across from her and Tommy. Stephanie was playing with Tommy's hair.

"I love your hair babe," she said, "Don't ever get it cut." Tommy rolled his eyes.

"Babe, you know I wanna get it cut. So stop trying to make me change my mind."

"But it looks sexy that way," said Stephanie. Adam could swear he could feel his breakfast coming back up. "Adam," said Stephanie, "Could you please tell Tommy his hair looks sexy the way it is." Adam knew exactly what she was doing. She was dangling Tommy in front of him like a worm on a hook. Adam wanted so badly to smack her as hard as he could, but instead he said,

"Tommy your hair looks sexy the way it is. Don't change it." Tommy looked at Stephanie,

"Alright babe. I'll keep it the way it is." Stephanie smirked at Adam and proceeded to make out with Tommy.

"Ugh," said Adam, "I'm out of here." As Adam stood up to leave, Stephanie grabbed his arm.

"Wait," she said, "Can I talk to you for a second? Girl to girl."

"Oh hell no!" Thought Adam, "She did not just say that!"

"Please Adam," said Stephanie, "It's important." Adam sighed deeply,

"Fine. Whatever." Adam lead Stephanie into his private bedroom at the back of the tour bus. "Whataya want from me Stephanie?"

"I just wanted to tell you that I know about everything."

"You mean the fact that Tommy and I had shared multiple kisses and may have shared a bed every now and again." Stephanie gulped and then spoke.

"Yes. I just wanted to tell you to stay away from us. Tommy doesn't want you. He never did. So don't ever try something."

"What me?" Said Adam, in a very sarcastic tone, "I wouldn't dream of breaking your heart into a million pieces by stealing your boyfriend. Cause that's just evil. Right?" Adam gave Stephanie the dirtiest look possible.

"Hey, don't blame your little heartbreak on me. It's not my fault that you had a little fantasy fling with my boyfriend." Adam stared at her. Directly in her eyes.

"What Tommy and I had was not a fantasy."

Stephanie giggled, "You're right. I guess nothing really can't be a fantasy can it?" Adam turned away from Stephanie. He quickly wiped away a tear that was trying to escape from his eye. "You're so pathetic," said Stephanie, "You really thought he cared for you didn't you? Well than I guess you are as dumb as you look."

"You know what?" Said Adam, "You are a bitch and I can't believe Tommy would cheat on me with a bitch like you."

"Well at least I'm not a dirty slut always looking for more man candy to chew on." Adam was completely shocked. He couldn't believe what just came out of her mouth.

"What did you just call me?"

"Oh you heard me very loud and clear. And guess what Adam. Every time you 'shared a bed' with Tommy, he would leave and come for me. Also, Tommy wanted me to tell you personally that you're voice is horrible and you need a life. Thanks. Bye." Stephanie slammed the door behind her. Adam was completely speechless once again. What could he do? At a time like this, he would usually run into Tommy's arm and let him take all the sadness and pain away. But now, Tommy was doing that for Stephanie. Adam looked at his reflection in his window. Dumb. Slut. Pathetic. Was he really all these things? His eyeliner smudged as black tears streamed down his face. His focus was then turned to Stephanie and Tommy outside. He could see them through the window. They were kissing in the rain. They then walked away laughing and holding hands.

"Why can't I have that?" Thought Adam, "Why can't I be happy and in love?" Adam then knew what he had to do. He remembered what he always told himself when he went to audition for American Idol, "Nothing's gonna happen if you don't take a chance and make it happen." Adam went to the bathroom and wiped away the smudged makeup from his face. He then applied more and smothered his face in glitter. He changed into his hottest outfit and headed out the door. If he wanted love and a happy relationship, he would have to go find one himself.