I don't own Twilight, or its characters, I just love playing with them. Nor do I own the song Running up that Hill by Placebo/Kate Bush.

Special thanks to vipend, for being my first reviewer.

It doesn't hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You be running up that hill
You and me be running up that hill

Bpov

This pain. It's burning, "Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww." Why?

Is this death?

"I'm sorry, but I can't let you die."

The blonde demon from before.

"Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww."

Why does it hurt so much? Was the pain from before not enough God?

I know I can feel the wind moving around me, am I flying? No something is holding me. The demon?

Am I going to hell? I guess I deserve it then. This pain. I loved him to much, I couldn't let him go. I did an unforgivable act. I succeed where He failed. I'm sorry God, I just couldn't live on anymore without him with me.

"Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww." Why?

"I'm sorry Bella, it's just a little further. You'll be home soon, just hang in there."

What was that? Was that Satan? No. It was familiar, that voice. But where have I heard it before? But where in this timeless, painful void could that voice be coming from. It's surrounding me, as if I could feel the vibrations before the words come. Aww, peace. It's so quiet. I don't want it quiet. Then I can hear myself think.

"I hope you will forgive me. I had no choice, I couldn't let you go out like that. I'm sorry, I'll find a way to make it all better."

Again that voice. Wait that voice. It couldn't be. Carisle. Why would I hear him in hell? He wouldn't be here. He's to pure hearted to go to hell. I wish he would speak again.

"Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww."

That scream and infernal whimpering. I wish they would stop. I would rather just hear the quietness than the screaming.

"Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww."

"Shush, it'll be alright. I've got you. I promise I wont let you hurt anymore, just hold on a little longer, please. The pain will stop I promise. Just please hold on."

Hold on, hold on to what? Me? This pain? What? Hold on to what?

"I'm sure you miss Alice cause she sure misses you. She hasn't been shopping since we left. She really hasn't been herself much either. Jasper is at his wits end. He doesn't know what to do to help her. Which makes him feel worse. He thinks you hate him. I don't think you do. I don't think it's possible for you to hate anyone. Or at least before, now . . . I know you will hate me at least. I wont blame you."

Alice? Jasper? Hate who? Carisle? Why would I hate Jasper or you? You don't make a lot of sense. But why would you in my personal hell. All you did was leave. Without word, without a goodbye, without me. You were my father in all sense. I trusted you. All of you. It hurts. I ca . . . can't . . . It hurts. Da . . . daddy make it stop. Please. Da. . . where am I? . . . It hurts. . . it . . . hu . . .

Cpov

I thought talking to her would help. She's being to quiet. Stopping and taking a look around, I deduce I have at least another hour to go. She's being so quiet. I wish she would make some noise, even a scream. Her heart rate is getting a little faster, and her temperature is subtly going down slowly. So fat the transformation is going as it normally should. She's just being too quiet. Her mouth opens, but nothing comes out. I need to hurry. Picking up the pace again I race home. I have to get back there soon.

"My poor baby, we should have never left."

How could I have hurt my own child like this? How could I have left such a sweet child behind? Never again. I don't care who I have to fight down, I'm not leaving her behind again.

"I promise my little Bella, never again."

The house is close now, I can smell Alice and Jasper.

"Carisle, coming up beside you." Jasper's southern drawl comes from my left, while I sense Alice near my right.

"She's going to wake early. Tomorrow night. But something not right, she's blurry. I can see us moving around her, interacting with her, but her herself, she's fuzzy."

I knew it. Something was wrong.

"Are you sure Alice? Do see anything else? Will she be alright?"

"No nothing about her per say, I mean other than fuzzy glimpses here and there, nothing. When you were gone, we decided as a group Edward shouldn't know about this for awhile. I still can't see him to well either. I don't know if she will be alright. I do know is she's going to make it through the transformation just fine. You didn't make any mistakes Carisle. You did everything you could. You made it in time, and you took care of her. All we can do now is wait for her to wake up."

The house is in view now, I see Esme pacing the front porch. At least this house isn't made of a lot of glass like the one in Forks. It's three stories, with 9 rooms, 5 bathrooms, a kitchen, dinning room, living room, a den, my study, a joint library between Jasper and I, and a furnished basement. The outside is a simple white. Esme being heart-broken hasn't done much to decorate it up. My poor Esme, we have our little girl back.

"She's right Carisle. You did good. I'm sure things will clear up when she wakes up. Maybe Alice just can't see her because she's not making any decision on what she's going to do."

Jasper's right. He just has to be. I don't know what we will do if she doesn't make it. We need her, all of us.

You don't wanna hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There's a thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?

That's all for now. I know it's not much but I'm trying. I think it's a little longer than the first chapter so that a plus, probably by not even 50 words, but hey I'm trying. I promise it wont be as mopy or sad throughout the whole fic. There will be fun times as well but not for at least two more chapters. Some more things so I don't have to go explaining it in the story, Rosalie and Emmett are out looking for Edward to bring him back home. And no they have no clue about Bella changing or whats going on back home. Also I know there is major ocness, I will try to make them more in character. Thanks for taking the time to read, and it would be very much appreciated if you would also review.