Hi guys, this is chapter 2. This time we're going through what happens to Blaine's mind. Enjoy! :)


Blaine sat down quickly beside Tina in one of the vacant table in Breadstix after the new named Mrs Emma Schuester announced that all the food for tonight are charged-free a.k.a all will be paid by the newlyweds. Everyone clapped their hands and yelled in excitement. Blaine saw Joe, Sugar, and Artie ran through the menu and picked their favorite dishes. Next to them sat Ryder and Jake, talked quite seriously, which, Blaine saw, way more less excited than the others. They probably talked about the catfishing and all. If Blaine were Ryder he will probably pissed off too. Marley, Unique, and Kitty were in another table, played with their napkins and tissue until they messed up. They looked so...young and carefree. Blaine himself didn't feel that carefree lately with the proposal plan and stuff. And, it reminded him of someone, Kurt.

Blaine moved his eyes toward Brittany and Santana. They stood up near the door, whispered to each other, hugged, and talked intimately. His eyes moves towards another direction, and saw Mercedes, Mike, and Mr Schue talked to each other, but Kurt was nowhere to be found.

Blaine frowned, whispered to Tina,

"Tina, have you seen..."

"Sam?" Tina interrupted Blaine's question, without looking at him.

Tina's interruption brought a new light of awareness to Blaine : Sam's not here, either. After the impromptu weeding at the choir room, Tina grabbed Blaine's arm so fast and took him to the parking lot he didn't have the time to looked around his environment. He just assumed that everyone in the choir room would go to the Breadstix and he could catch up with everyone later in here. But apparently, the two people that he would like to meet the most were never here from the beginning.

"Mmm...actually I want to ask about Kurt. But since you mention it, where were Kurt and Sam?" Blaine asked Tina once more.

"Sam was probably bummed because of the break-up and went home. If I were him I will go straight to home, too. Brittany was kind of harsh to him back there, don't you think?" Tina said blatantly.

"She's not harsh. That was her defense mechanism, protecting her own feeling by being such a bitch" Blaine said, tapped the table with his fingers.

Tina rolled her eyes, sighed, and said,

"Please, Blaine. Listen to yourself . Yeah Brit has a defense mechanism, and we all sad she left, but still, it's not fair to Sam getting dumped that way. Just a few months ago you were so hopeless after breaking up with Kurt. You've been blaming yourself for weeks and now you're defending Brit of all people?"

Blaine felt a twist of guilt in his stomach. Guilt and embarrassment, of course, because Tina was right.

"I think you should call or text him. He's been there for you in your difficult times and he didn't blame you at all, even though you deserved to be blame about the break up because of the cheating thing..." Tina said continuously without moving her eyes from the menu, made Blaine more uncomfortable.

"Tina...I..."

"...and don't forget about the crush thing with him, Blaine. He was so cool about that and he never changed his attitude towards you. Moreover, he's trying to be supportive about you proposing to Kurt even though we all know that's probably quite hard for him to accept and your decision was also probably the silliest thing you've ever done" Tina said in clean one breath, and then smirked at Blaine.

Blaine sighed, planted his eyes to his hands.

"He reached out for you, Blaine. I think text him and ask him how he's doing is the least thing you can do to return the favor" Tina said once again, glared at Blaine.

"You probably right..." Blaine whispered.

"I am" Tina said.

Blaine reached his cellphone and started texting Sam.

"Boys and girls are different, Blaine. We girls have so much support system. See that..?" Tina pointed her fingers toward Brittany and Santana. Blaine nodded.

"Girls tends to tell each other everything, that's why life's a bit easier to girls, Blaine. I've never seen a relationship like us girls in boys, Blaine, until you and Sam came along. You guys are like...the perfect example for the whole school and for our juniors. You showed us that boys can have best friends, too. I just don't want it to be gone just because you're so consumed with this whole Kurt thing" Tina continued, with more serene tone.

"Do you think... I'm too consumed in this?" Blaine asked Tina, put the ring box in the table.

Tina took a glimpse on it, and nodded.

"To tell you the truth, you and Sam are in the best condition when you guys have each other as support system. I'm not saying that you shouldn't marry Kurt, dear, but please promise me that you won't lose Sam and won't let him lose you over this whole marrying Kurt thing. It's not worth it" she said.

"He's at home" Blaine said to Tina, after read a message from Sam in his cell phone.

"I think you should go there. Say something or do something to make him feel better. Tell him you're on your way there" Tina responded.

Blaine nodded and texted back. A moment later the reply came from Sam.

"Oh no. Kurt's there, too" Blaine panicked, putting his cell phone back to his pocket.

"Calm, Blaine, calm. It's not like Kurt is as interested as you about this proposal. He didn't even talk to you personally all day today, right?" Tina said optimistically.

Blaine sighed, and Tina's right. After their meeting with Liz and Jan, Blaine kinda hoped that Kurt can read the "signs". But ever since that meeting, Kurt acted so indifferently like nothing happened. His confidence was fifty percent gone.

His cell phone buzzed again and read the message again.

"Sam said I can keep the ring in his room. He implied that I just don't need to panick," Blaine said, breath went faster by the time.

Tina smiled, and said,

"See, Blaine?. That's the kind of support system that you need. Always telling you that everything's going to be alright. Who knows what raging on his mind right now? He didn't rub it on your face probably because he didn't want to troubled you. But he's still being a good friend regarding whatever happens to him".

Blaine smiled back, and then said,

"You're right, Tina. I kinda neglected him these past few weeks, am I?,".

"You can always pay it, you know that, Blaine" Tina responded.

Blaine nodded, and texted Sam back telling that Sam is the best, hoped that Sam knew that there's a part of Blaine that need Sam's forgiveness. Blaine suddenly has an urge to see any text from Sam, at least showing that Blaine was doing one right thing to Sam by asking how he was doing.

But until ten minutes later, Blaine didn't get any reply. So he grabbed his coat, said goodbye to Tina and got into his car immediately.

Blaine drove his car to Hudson-Hummel Resident in silence. He's not humming through the song like all he always did when he's alone in his car. His thought was filled with so many things.

First, Kurt. If everyone around him asked a 17 year old Blaine who he's going to marry in the future, Blaine would optimistically answered : "Kurt Hummel". Their relationship was so intimate back then. Blaine felt an absolute romantic eerie feeling when he's with Kurt. Sometimes Blaine even think that no heterosexual couple could over par the intimacy level he had with Kurt. While they were still dating, Blaine frequently gave Kurt a cute surprise presents in front of his locker, and in return, sometimes Kurt took Blaine on a date in a fancy restaurant. During their dating time, Blaine assured himself that no one deserved Kurt better than him, and vice versa. That's why he kept telling himself that Kurt was his soulmate. But... What's the exact definition of soulmate, anyway?. Blaine never really bothered to looked it up in a dictionary, but he knew that soulmate was two soul meant to be met and then united.

But everything changed when Kurt moved to New York. Yes, they promised that the long distance relationship will worked out, and for some times, they proved that. But... Human has needs, right?. Blaine's a human, and he had needs. So, when Kurt was busy with his things in New York, Blaine tried to keep himself occupied, too. But, as like Tina said, Blaine did occupy himself, with not so honorable intention. He cheated and it was scary. At that point in his life, he knew he's wrecked and he kept blaming himself. He and Kurt broke up and Blaine felt horrible and useless until someone a little unexpected came around. The second order of business in Blaine's mind during his way to the Hummel-Hudson Resident : Sam Evans.

Honestly, if it's not because of Brittany, Blaine would never actually befriended Sam. He and Sam got into a fight last year, for God sake. But the destiny showed its way, and Blaine agreed to took Sam as his running mate for School Presidential Campaign, and amazingly they won. As the time went by, with both Student Council and Glee, he and Sam grew closer. They shared everything, from football and guitar to each other's favorite ice cream and favorite superheroes. Blaine never thought he and Sam had so much in common and how much Sam had helped him when he suddenly saw Sam in a brand new way. It was Sadie Hawkins week in McKinley and Blaine started to feel a little more than comfortable around Sam. Sam was not perfect. He's not a straight A student because of course, he had this dyslexic issue, but he's not stupid. Yeah, sometimes he's acting silly and talked like he only had a pea-sized brain, but Blaine thought that's because he was being real. He's like, a better version of Brittany. And as a gay boy, with Sam around him all the time, he knew why all the girls in the previous New Directions (minus Rachel and Tina) fell for him instantly. His cute face and impressions aside, Sam was a sincere young man, cared, and very loving. Blaine can't be blamed for falling in love with Sam, right?. But he was Blaine's best friend, and he can't tell Sam how he really felt, that's the problem.

Yeah, Blaine felt a little kicked in his heart when Brittany asked Sam to be her date in Sadie Hawkins, but he had Tina, too, so it didn't really matter. Blaine battled this whole feeling about Sam in the following weeks, tried to kept his mind off of this issue, which was very hard, because Sam was always around Blaine and he's only getting funnier and interesting every day Blaine can't helped himself. Every time Sam came up to him and talked enthusiastically about anything, Blaine kept telling himself "It's just a crush". Blaine even hooked up with Kurt in Mr Schue's unwedding wedding to kept his mind off of Sam and, he once again told Kurt that they were soulmate, even though Blaine himself didn't figured that out 100%. Was that a horrible thing to do? Using Kurt to get over his silly feelings for his best friend?.

Blaine's strategies seemed worked out so well after the hooked up stuff with Kurt. His inappropriate feelings for Sam gradually disappeared, only to be re-appeared again in Guilty Pleasures week in Glee Club, which probably the most embarrassing week Blaine had during his time in the Glee Club, because in fact, Sam knew about Blaine's crush on him all this time. When he sang that "Against All Odds" song in the auditorium, he kept thinking how horrified he was if Sam found out about the truth, which turned out exactly the opposite. Sam was very cool about it and, as Tina said, Sam never changed. He's still hanging around with Blaine all the time and never brought the issue up in their conversation, because probably Sam knew that if he brought that up, Blaine would get uncomfortable.

Sam was so understanding, and maybe that's why Blaine fell for him in the first place. He did what Kurt never did, and Blaine felt an empty space in his heart filled with warmness the seconds Sam did what he usually did : just being him.

Blaine felt a butterfly in his stomach when he thought about this, and the journey to the Hummel-Hudson Resident was not as easy as he expected, because he will meet two of the most significant people in his life. Blaine loves both of them. Until now, whenever Kurt around, Blaine felt this jumpy and heart-pounding feeling. He took a long shower and long hour grooming (and gel-ing) just to make Kurt impressed with his appearance. His gastric content was twisted whenever Kurt hugged him, and he loved the way Kurt smelled. He made special time for Kurt and he can't kept his eyes off of Kurt when he's in the same room with him. Blaine loves Kurt very much, but did Kurt feel the same way?.

On the other hand, he felt the nearly same yet very different feeling when Sam was around. Whenever Sam approached him, Blaine felt this excitement and this joyous feeling, like adventurous-alike sense, and Blaine liked that feeling. When he and Sam discussed things, they always came up with something very interesting and out of the box, like painting an old unused trailer in some random places, or went fishing together, and dressed as Nightbird and Blonde Chameleon in public places. Blaine never worried about Sam slept over at his place or he slept over in Hudson-Hummel Resident, and in fact, Sam was the only one who could saw Blaine without his hair gelled in the morning without Blaine feeling uncomfortable. With Sam, as his best friend, Blaine always felt refreshed and enjoying the unexpected, the things that Kurt would never understand.

As he approached the parking lot in Hummel-Hudson Resident, Blaine sighed, worried, confused, and thought to himself : can you have two soulmates at the same time?.