A/N the part where I say "I thought you were my friend." "that why I'm trying to help you. I took from degressi "our lips are sealed part 2

One night during idol Adam's dirty secrets came undone. As Katy Perry sung Bess and Kris snuck away for some "fun" Adam walked out and saw the two making out, he ran to the bathroom and just cut. He was wearing all black so he didn't wrap up the cuts. As they were going through the results Bess could see blood running down his right hand to the point his hand was red. He was all pale and when he stood up everyone could tell that something was wrong, he tried so hard not to pass out. When idol was over Adam went to find Bess she was with Kris.

"Bess I need help I don't feel well."

"What is wrong?"

"I don't know just very lightheaded."

"Show me your arm." He took off his shirt all Bess could see was blood all down his arm.

"you need to go to a hospital. You cut way to deep and your losing lots of blood." She wrapped his arm in a towel and drove to the hospital Adam passed out and started to mumble in his sleep.

"Adam you need help. Tell me what caused you to cut this deep." He paused feeling real sick.

"I saw you and Kris kiss."

"Adam I've told you time and time again I'm with Kris and I'm not going do with you."

"I'm not doing this because I want you. I'm in love with Kris and kills me you get to him first. I really did love you. I'm really sorry. I'm Gay and you were the first girl I really loved." Everything came to be it all made sense. They made it to the hospital.

'I need help he cut himself to deep and he's losing lots of blood."

When Adam woke up he was tied to the bed he looked at Bess.

"Why can't get up."

"Adam you hurt yourself. They think you tried to kill youself. I know your sorry." She didn't know that to say to him about what was sad in the car. The doctor came shortly after to talk to him.

"Mr. Lambert why did you try to kill yourself."

""I didn't I just my cut myself."

"When you came here you nearly died because of all the blood you lost." For the first time in a long while he started to cry when he saw the 55 stitches he looked at Bess."

"Get me out of here please."

"I can't you really need help. If I take you home you'll just cut when you're alone."

"Look at my arm. I thought you were my friend."

"That is why I'm trying to help you. I'll come back to get you before idol." Bess left Adam in the hospital room. He lay there thinking how he could take that all back. He thought back to idol in the bathroom, he didn't remember cutting all those times. Adam just closed his eyes as he felt the tears come down, he ended up crying himself to sleep with thought of Kris running though his mind. Around 7:00 pm Bess showed up.

"I feel so bad for cutting myself like that. I don't remember cutting so deep. Thank you for leaving me here I need it."

"No more cutting next time you couldn't have been so lucky." He had a thought about ending it but he knew it wasn't worth it. When Adam got the Idol Kris was there wondering what happened last night, he knew it bad because he saw Adam's arm.

"What happened to your arm?"

"Last night I cut my arm way to deep and I lost a lot of blood. You can't tell anyone." Adam hoped none of judges saw the blood down his hand last night. Adam put a leather jacket over his bandage arm acting like everything is fine. Allison came up to Adam she looked worried.

"Adam what happened last night I saw you were bleeding and your hand was covered in blood."

"I fell and scraped my arm bad I didn't know that was I bleeding. " Allison didn't believe him. As Adam was getting ready Randy came up to him he got worried.

"Adam what happened last night. Your behavior was really scary."

"I was tired that is it."

"I noticed that your hand was bleeding."

"I scraped my hand nothing to get worried about."

"Let me see your arm. Adam walked away and Randy came up to him again.

"If something is wrong you can tell me."

"I'm tired of everyone in my business." That made him want to cut more. He ran to bathroom holding the razor to the part of his arm that wasn't bandaged but he couldn't. He just stood there and cried, he wanted so badly for the pain to go away. Adam started to unwrap his bandage when Danny walked into the bathroom.

"What happened to your arm?"

"I fell." Danny thought back to the last night.

"You did this to yourself. That I why you acting like that last night." Adam rebadged his arm running away he was pissed. He went to find Bess

"Bitch you told everyone. How could you."

"I didn't tell anyone but Kris. First anyone could've figured it out. I helped you and I'm the reason this didn't commit your ass. Go to someone else about your problems I'm done." Bess walked away leaving and left Adam alone, he looked like he was about to lose it.

"Bess please." By that time she was long gone, he stood there thinking about he said and that she was gone. No taking back word this tine. He cut his arm here the bandage wasn't there, this time he didn't care who saw him. Adam passed out shortly after everyone saw his arm.

"Adam is you ok." By that time everyone knew that he was a cutter. Adam woke up and walked away when Paula came up to him.

"Please show me your arm. We all know you cut." He slowly unwrapped his bandage on his arm. Paula was shocked when she his arm.

"Why did you cut?" He wasn't really to tell everyone that was gay so he lied.

"Relationship drama. I don't want to get talk about it."

"You did this to your arm." he was ashamed that he did hurt himself this bad.

"Yeah I did this myself." Adam went looking for Bess who was getting ready. He knew that she wouldn't talk to him

"Bess it's Adam look I'm sorry. Everyone knows now."

"I can't believe you. I left you alone and you cut after you said wouldn't. You can't even be honest with me. I'll help you first to have to know that I love Kris and only Kris. What is gonna happen when you see Kris with wedding ring on?" Adam looked nervous he started to sweat and wanted to run away.

"What are you going do run and cut? Everything is gonna fine. You know that cutting is temporary high. One day you gonna have face your problems. Tell what your feeling."

"I feel like I want to cut. I 'm sick and tried for people wanting to help me when they don't know what is going through my head. My whole world is falling part all because I loved Kris. I want it to all go way but it won't."

"Doesn't that feel better then cutting? Cutting doesn't make Kris love you. The only reason that you cut is for one moment you escape reality and pain. I'll help you only on one condition.

"What is it?"

"That you can't mad and call me mean names. Remember I won't tell anyone what you tell me or what I see."

"I promise. They walked intill they had to get ready for the show.

2 weeks later

Adam came to the hospital with time got his stitches removed. When the doctor was done he could see scars all down his arm. Adam couldn't help but to cry Tim just help tight

"It's ok honey it will heal." Tim wanted to take all the pain, when they go home Adam went to see Bess.

"Thank you for helping me. I haven't cut since that night. I'm telling you the truth just ask Tim."

"I believe you. I can tell you don't because of way you have been acting. I get one question for you."

"Why did you ever believe I would ever tell people your secret? How matter how much I wanted to help you."

"My mind was just fucked up. I know you would never do that." Bess's blue eyes and he her smile still made Adam smile. A week later before later Adam and Tim snuck away to the bathroom with a blanket. They lay on the blanket on the floor and started to make out. While pulling off clothes on they were in each other arms naked. Tim got on up of Adam grinding on while kissing Adam's sweet lips. They made sweet love after that Adam give Tim "head". That was about time Danny walked in the bathroom saw that was what Adam was doing and ran out shocked at what he saw. That was when Lil' came up to him.

"What's a matter?" He knew he couldn't tell Adam's secret.

"I walked in on something I should've seen."

"So everything will be fine."

"Yeah." 10 minutes later Adam went to find Danny to talk to him about what he saw.

"Danny can we talk."

"I'm sorry walked in on you."

"Your not gonna tell anyone that I'm gay or that you saw."

"I won't. Can ask you question."

"Sure."

"Did you have a crush on Kris?" Adam paused he wanted to feel sick. It had been awhile he wanted to cut.

"Yes I did how did you know."

"That night at the hospital I saw the walked you look at Kris."