Chapter 2
Despite my best intentions, Rin has grown older. She still continues to hold her childlike tendencies, but when it is appropriate. She has transformed into a beautiful, delicate flower; though, I think she is more beautiful than some worthless plant. She is an elegant young woman.
Though I regret it somewhat now, I am glad I left her with my idiot of a half brother, especially after my venture in Hell. I have found that many of my expeditions are of similar danger to her. By leaving her there, I know she is safe and prospering.
My only reason for regret is that my entourage has fallen in number. I quite miss having her presence close by my side. She brought a joy that was missing before her arrival. Now there only seems to be emptiness since her forceful departure.
I know it is for the best that she remains there, but I fear she will cease to want me. There are many young men in the half breed's village that would kill for her to even glance at them with the way she looks at me. They desire her yet the question remains will she desire one of them in return? I am afraid the next time I visit her she will introduce me to one of them with the phase "my hopeful intended" attached to her sentence. I know that should I hear such things from her I would die completely inside. To date though, no such nonsense has escaped her mouth.
I know I feel something for Rin. She has been in my care for nearly her entire life since I resurrected her after her death by wolves. After that day, she fell right into step with me. I have never asked her of her health. I always seem to know when she is hungry or in need of a bath. It is almost as if I have developed a sixth sense of sorts to her. With her in my care, I know I cannot allow her to be of ill health. I deceived myself into thinking it was for my benefit that she remain well. After all, Jaken was in my "care" years before her and I never once cared if the imp lived or died. Rin is different. I actually care if she is sick or hurting. My devotion to her has reached the point that if she said that some fool had inflicted pain upon her I would immediately destroy not just the said fool but also everything within the village he currently dwells and more than likely the next one over all for her. I suppose that is the price one must pay for love. I guess the best way to define what I feel is love. I want her to be safe and happy, but more importantly I believe I want Rin to be mine.
I have yet to come to complete terms with Rin being mine. In a sense, she already is mine. I have been her protector almost as a father protects his offspring. Though, I do not view her as my offspring.
She means so much more to me than a mere child. Though those relations are important; that is not how I view my relation to her. I believe it is something more akin to lover/mates; however, she is still a child at least compared to my age.
I cannot think such things about her. She is human and I am demon. We can never be for the simple fact that we are of distinctly separate walks of life. Somehow, I resent the idea of her by the side of some lowlife human. I know she deserves better than such mediocrities.
I have noticed a change in her. I see it in her eyes. When I go to leave, she wants to plead that I stay. When I return to her, she becomes overly hopeful that I will call her to me once again. Perhaps she longs for me as I seeming long for her. Still, I feel as though she cannot possibly want me as I want her.
I cannot call her yet as I still have to decipher my own feelings regarding the matter. I still think it is wrong to want her to the extent that I do, but I am growing eerily comfortable with this want at the same time.
For her, time grows increasingly short. I cannot let her wait forever. Yes, she will not wait that long and neither will I. I cannot remain indecisive about such affairs any longer. Funny how she brings me to my knees without even doing anything; she holds more sway in my considerations than she will ever know. Just one more way she has changed me. Whether for the better or worse, I cannot be sure. One thing that I am sure of is it is time that my loose ends concerning her are tied.
Author's note: Ok, if you don't know, I don't own Inuyasha or the characters associated with it. So this is the next chapter in my weird story. I hope I've kept Sesshomaru in character. I feel like he's way out of character but I don't know. -_- Anyway, I hope this is enjoyable. : D
