Not How The Story Goes


4 years later

Selena

The morning light streamed through the window waking her up. Selena sat up and stretched and glances out the window and grinned, "Today seems like a good day." She glances at her desk full of photos of Jared and her and then next to her. The bed was empty, Jared was out at work.

She got up and pulled out her cabinet to find her hair clip when something fell out. She bent down to pick it up and stiffened. It was the engagement ring Derrick gave 5 years ago. She stared at it feeling her heart break all over again. Move on, Selena. You're married now…Just throw it away or give it to charity. She still stared at it and then finally picked it up and threw it in the cabinet.

She head down to the kitchen and kissed her kids' head. "Good morning, Landon, Elena, and Jace!" She beamed at them and made breakfast. "Alright, I'll be in Diagon Alley. Your nanny will come for you soon, stay out of trouble."

"Yes, mummy!" They chorused.

She smiled and then left for Diagon alley. The streets were packed for today's festival celebrating the 4th year since the war ended and Voldemort's defeat.

"Excuse me, do you still have-? Selena paused shocked.

The assistant turned around. It was Matthias.

"Hey, Selena," Matt grinned kindly.

Selena stiffened slightly seeing a flash of Derrick through him. "H-hi, Matthias. Long time no see.."

Matt cocked a brow but nods, "How have you been?"

"I've been well, thanks. And you?"

"Never been better." He paused and lowers his voice. "Can I speak to you in private?"

Selena hesitated but nodded seemingly it's only Matthias. She followed him to the back of the stop.

"What is it?"

"Do you still wonder about Derrick?"

The question caught her off guard. "Excuse me?"

Matt turned to her, "Selena.. Derrick hasn't ever stopped thinking about you since…Since that day.."

She gritted her teeth, "Last time I remember, he's the one who broke it off. It's been 4 years, Matt. I've moved on. I'm married with kids now."

Matt frowned, "I know. He told me. But Selena…Can you at least speak to him? Please?"

"He told me to never speak to him again."

"He didn't mean it…Look, I'm not the one to tell you. He has a story to tell, please at least try to listen to him…"

Selena hesitated. I really do want to see you again after all these years.. She thought. She nodded, "Take me to him."

BOTH

Derrick was flipping through a book trying hard to avoid his thoughts but it isn't easy. I shouldn't have let her go...I'd hurt her so much… He thought.. He crumpled the book and tossed it aside. 4 fucking years and not a day goes back without thinking of her…

The door opened and he looked up and froze. Selena walked in. She gazed at him silently hurt still in her eyes.

"Hello, Derrick.." She greeted nervously. She stood by the door.

He gestured toward a seat across from him unable to speak.

Selena raised a brow and took a seat. She waited for him to speak.

"Selena…" He whispered. "I'm so sorry…" And he launched into the story he never got to told.

After he was done, Selena regarded him a mix of feelings. "I…I don't know what to say…"

Pained flashed across his features, "You do believe me, do you?"

After a long pause, she nodded, "I do…"

Relief washed over him like the ocean. After all the years of pain it felt like those 2 words erased every pain…almost..

"But.." She started. He stiffened. "Nothing can change… I'm married to Jared now… I have 4 kids with him…" I can't trust him, she thought.. After all these years.. He's probably moved on… Even if I didn't… "I understand why you had to do it… but it's too late now, isn't it?"

She's moved on, he thought.. And it's my own damn fault… He swallowed and smiled convincingly, "That's alright. I understand.. Friends now?" He held out his hand.

Selena hesitated then shook his hand, "Friends." This isn't what I want but this is what you want… Sh thought silently.

This is not how the story is suppose to go, Derrick thought grimly.

Selena let go and stood. "It's nice to finally understand after all these years… I'll see you around, Derrick." She gave a false smile and left. Derrick smiled back.

Once he was alone he looked up at the roof, "I've never stopped loving you."

SELENA

It was raining outside already. She had no umbrella. It didn't matter, though. She wouldn't have felt a difference even if it were sunny. She leaned against the store breathing slowly and slid down to the ground. "I've never stopped loving you.."