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That night as everyone slept Apollo walked down memorial hall and sat down on the wall opposite Kara's image with a flask in hand. "I always hated speeches you knew that so I know you aren't upset that I didn't speak at your service. I wanted to strangle Athena and Anders they had no right to act like they knew you. I loved you, still do even now and it was you who hurt me most because you never gave even an inch," he said through tears.

"Because she wanted you to fight for her as much as she fought for you," Helo said as he slid down the wall beside Apollo and grabbed the flask taking a drink. "I told Sharon I was sleeping here tonight because I didn't want her first night to be alone. It may only be an image of her but to me its her," Helo said.

"I fought for her," Apollo said.

"No you didn't. Trust me I know, Kara and I had a long time to talk when we were on Caprica with Apollo's arrow," Helo said looking at the image. "Trust me Apollo you didn't fight as much as you think. Anders, Sharon and I knew a part of Kara and Kara feared ever telling you unless you were willing to truly fight for her," Helo said.

"Why should I have to survive some gauntlet for her love," Lee huffed standing up.

"Because she lived a gauntlet and she knew anyone who she was going to love with true abandon was going to have to know her worst demon but before she told anyone about that demon they had to prove their love and loyalty to her. But you seem to forget she proved time and time again her love for you. Before you and Deulla even were together she saw what was happening and stepped aside so that you could be happy. She never felt like she was worthy of your love," Helo said still seated.

"What was she afraid of letting me know," Lee said stroking the image

"That she was damaged. Her mother," Helo said.

"So Kara inherited her mothers temper," Lee said densely.

"No Lee, her mother use to beat her. Busted her skull once for not making a bed right, broke all the fingers in her right hand for a little joke," Helo said as a tear fell down his eye.

"Her perfectionist behavior," Lee asked?

"Even after leaving her mother she feared her. Told me she always felt her mother haunting her when she was in school so she pushed for perfection but her temper got her in trouble so she didn't graduate top of her class and her mother hated it. Anything less than perfection wasn't accepted by her and even perfect wasn't enough for her when it came to Kara," Helo said.

"And she was afraid to tell me," Lee said.

Helo looked at Lee and shook his head," You really don't know do you," he asked?

"Know what," Lee asked?

"Lee you were her soul mate. She knew it the first time she saw you," Helo said.

"She was engaged to Zack," Lee said.

Helo shook his head and laughed, "yeah I know I was who she came and ranted to after she met you. Lee Kara was never a girly girl one reason we were friends but after her first meeting with you she said felt like she was drowning in your eyes. That it scared her to death because she thought you could see right through her and into her soul. She loved Zack and stayed with him because he was safe but you Lee, you were the one thing on earth she feared and she had stopped fearing her mother once she walked out on her," Helo said.

"So she put me into a gauntlet without me knowing what I was fighting for," Lee said.

"Lee if you had loved her and wanted her you should have pushed your way past her wall and make her tell you. That's what she wanted, that's why she made you fight with you all the time, liked to get you riled up she wanted you to break down the wall that was suffocating her. She wanted you to save her from her past," Helo said.

"Why didn't I fight. Why didn't I tell her the very sight of her made me weak in the knee's," Lee said as tears streamed down his cheek.

"Because you were you and she was she. Lee I'll tell you something though for you to say what you need to say to Kara, here isn't the right place. You need to go to the once place where you and Kara were the most free. Want to me take," Helo offered and Apollo nodded?

An hour later both sot inside a Raptor and Lee on the edge of the abyss where Kara had disappeared. Helo turned on Comm., and Lee stood, "Lords of Kobol here I stand on the edge of destiny summoning the spirit of Kara Marie Thrace, daughter, wife, friend and lover. Hear me Lords and beckon her to my voice. If not to cross the void than to just stand at the edge to here my decree.

"Kara Marie Thrace I love always have and always will. I loved the savage beast you became when you fought the enemy, the no nonsense teacher that taught so many newbie's how to fly and fight. The compassionate friend who celebrated life and death with her friends and most of all I loved the child inside of you. The one you never let anyone see but I caught glimpses of her. After we made love and I held you close the giggle you gave and the look in your eyes pleading for me to save you. I'm sorry I couldn't be what you needed. I'm sorry I failed you when you needed me most. I will miss you Kara all of you, every inch that I made love to and loved from a distance. And know this if given the chance I do believe you would have been an amazing mother," Lee said and Helo nodded his head turning off the Comm.

Helo moved the return the raptor back to Galactica when out of no where a flaming bird emerged from the cloud and seemed to be fly straight toward them.