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Chapter 2 – Accepting The Truth
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Why? Why was it that every time he got closer to Rin, his demon stirred without hesitation? Never in his right mind did he think that it would be easy to have Rin around him. He had told his father so. He also never had to control his inner demon like he was doing. Normally, if the demoness in front of him had such an attraction towards him, he wouldn't let them go, and take them then and there. However, because she was his human sister and only that, he couldn't do anything about it. In fact, he wasn't sure what the hell he was doing now. What he did know was that if Rin's arousal made its way to cross his nose, he would lose it.
Rin of course was also taken back by his actions and couldn't exactly question him in her state. His grasp was bearable but his eyes digging into hers, was not exactly fair. She needed to get away from him, because she did know that if her arousal ever reached his nose, he would come into a frenzy.
Rin had read about it in her history class. Demon class was her favorite considering that she would be learning everything about her brother, Inuyasha, and father. What she did not understand was, why she was the only human in the family? –Other than Izayoi of course– Inuyasha was half human because of Izayoi and Sesshomaru was a full demon because of Inutaisho's previous wife, who was a full demoness. Now why was she the only human sibling? She had often questioned that in her mind, but never verbally asked.
Thinking that maybe if she asked Sesshomaru then, her arousal would cease and their intense contact would come to an end.
'Besides, it was him who didn't want any of contact whatsoever, right?' The thought filled Rin's head, making herself agree on what she would say next.
"Why am I human, Sesshomaru?"
The question suddenly had escaped Rin's small lips, awaking him from his demon. His ears had let the question enter, but it hadn't completely unraveled itself. Obviously that was because he didn't know himself. It had never panged him to ever question Inutaisho. Though it did make sense for her to ask.
What was he supposed to say now? He had no idea how to respond to the girl. All he knew was that his father said she was his sister and nothing more. He didn't ask why she was human and how he could ever come close to liking her.
He looked down on humans, and Izayoi was the first to earn most of his distaste he had been building up for humans. He believed that humans had a lower stature and that they weren't worth anything. He came to the understanding of a human's life and learned of how easily they were to control. With the slightest bit of emotion evicted from others, they responded in distasteful manner, a way that he couldn't bare to watch.
Izayoi was lucky enough to earn a bit of his respect, since she was easy to deal with and knew that she wasn't easily deceived. In fact, he saw her as a mother figure, but never really accepted her fully.
Rin, on the other hand, was different. Since he only knew about her being part of the family, he thought that she was worthy of being his sibling, and because of his unknown attraction towards her, he never let his hate overcome him when he was with her. She resembled courage and power was all that came to his mind. That is why he took care of her when he was asked. It is why she was the only one he ever came close to loving. Problem was that his heart could only take so much of dear Rin, that he couldn't love her to the complete extent. And for that, he was making it up to her by taking her once again.
"Sesshy? Is there something wrong with me?" Rin asked. She felt tears on the verge of over spilling. She didn't understand her sudden behavior, but crying was her natural way out. It always had been.
Immediately thinking that she was about to cry in front of Sesshomaru made her want to stop right then and there. It was because of her age and she didn't want to show him the 'weak' emotions a human naturally portrayed. The reason behind it all was that she knew of Sesshomaru's despise for humans, but he wasn't aware of her knowledge on that.
'He never will,' She thought.
Coming to the understanding that Sesshomaru didn't know the answer, Rin slightly let her hands reach his, pushing it back down to his side and walking towards the entrance to leave. It annoyed her that since Sesshomaru didn't have the demon strength to stop his demon behavior; she thought it would be wise to not awaken him to his fullest potential.
"Goodnight," she whispered, knowing that his sensitive ears would collect those words soon enough.
Vexation that came to blend with his persona and Sesshomaru also turned to leave the room. He himself was questioning over how Rin was a human. It was the most obvious of all things and yet, unknown. Thinking that he would ask his father, no, he would demand for an explanation. Maybe it would turn out that Rin was not his sibling, and that the reason for his demon awakening was because it felt lonely.
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The sun was hitting Rin's face strongly, stirring her to awake. She was tired, but it was a new morning, and she would enjoy it with her dear loving brother for old time's sake.
'That's if he lets you,' Came another thought.
Energy seemed to suddenly grasp her body, and she went up and about to the restroom, doing her daily routine, ending it all with her finishing her hair, and fixing her spring dress over her body. She thought about taking him to the park, mall, or any outer place in order to ease the tension.
That whole night after having her 'moment' with Sesshomaru, she had dreams of him. It was actually one of the very first times she had ever dreamt about him in that way. It was very baffling, but they were short and somehow, she did not like that.
She felt disgust creep into her mind for thinking of her brother that way. She clearly didn't mean for it to turn that way, but she just couldn't forget the very first time she saw him. When she was little, all she knew was that they were siblings and nothing more. Though she saw that they didn't resemble in any way, making her believe that it was 'alright' to look at him as something else.
Rin shook her head, trying to get rid of the thoughts.
Humming a light tune, Rin went outside to the corridors, looking at a small map that was plastered in the wall. Who would've thought it would actually come in handy? Especially since it was made in platinum.
Rin descended down the stairs to the second floor, admiring the outstanding view that crept through the windows. The sun's rays were still very strong, and since there was a pool nearby, the rays reflected on Rin's eyes – almost blinding her.
A little imp crossed her path once she was walking on the second floor's hall. She had known him since she was little, but never quite understood what his role was. Honestly, she didn't quite care. So instead of saying hello like she normally did, she walked past him in silence, not turning back to hear him squabble about something dim-witted. Stifling her giggles, she tried to remember what his name was.
Passing by doors and doors, Rin felt irritated because she didn't precisely know where his office was. Or she knew, she just didn't remember. But once she noticed dark marooned double doors, a hint of happiness seemed to fill her heart.
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Sesshomaru was already in his office, handling his father's work. His nonchalant attitude towards it also made it all but more tedious.
His demon became alert and could sense Rin coming. He needed to get over his fixation over Rin, and it would start by going to his father.
"Good morning Sesshomaru!" Her squeaky tone made his ears flinch.
A nod was his response, not once looking at her direction. Through his peripheral vision, he noticed a frown counter her smile.
"So what should we do today? I was hoping maybe go to the park, or mall if you prefer." She brought her smile back.
Sesshomaru ignored her joyful self and brought himself to face her this time. Her brown orbs that now stared strongly at him, made him believe she was too naïve. Her creamy skin tone, though, made his eyes not want to play the game.
He hadn't slept the previous night, thinking of how much his inner demon could easily take over him when with Rin. Even when he bedded a demoness, he never felt so much desire fill him; in fact, Rin was a tease, an untouchable tease. But then again, he still wasn't aware of how exactly they were related, or if they were related at all. Part of him wished she wasn't, that way whenever she came around, he wouldn't feel repulsion of himself and let his eyes roam where they may. But part of him hoped she was, that way he wouldn't go against his beliefs on humans, and never intercourse with them.
Irony was very exasperating for Sesshomaru.
"Sesshomaru?" Rin asked, trying to make him aware of her still in the room.
He still held a strong gaze towards her, but was concentrating on more important things, like if he should even take her. It was a tempting idea, but he knew it was considered very immoral. Having her too close to him might start rumors and their 'relationship' could be considered incest already. It was depraved. How could he make her understand?
"Alright, be that way. I can never understand why you're so icy when I come into the scene. It's fine. You hate humans so much that you have natural hate for me as well," 'Oh no,' Rin had said it. She had scolded herself. After all, she told herself that she would never make him aware that she knew.
Sesshomaru froze instantly. It was true, but he never wished for her to know. It's not like he cared for her feelings. He just didn't want her to be attentive of such truth. He was not going to deny it, he wouldn't.
"If you are conscious of this, then why not leave?" He responded with profundity.
Sesshomaru had many opportunities in letting Rin enter and have a grasp of his heart, but her wouldn't let her, not her, not anyone. No one would have a chance. Even with the expectation of him showing his 'brotherly side' to her, he would not. She had to understand where he stood, and had to stop trying to change his mind.
Guilt . . . as if.
Rin felt anger surge in her blood, though she had to hinder to keep it together. She needed to step up and finally admit that the truth caught up. He was definitely not holding back on it either. She just had to accept.
Rin let her eyes wander on the floor for a while, before she had the courage to let them enter Sesshomaru's golden ones. Tears that were suddenly having the urge to come out irritated her. When could she ever stand in front of him without having a crying face exposed? In truth, she always thought that by crying, someone would come to her aid. But no one could cure her intimate pain. What exactly was it? Acceptance. Of that she was certain. However, everyone in the family accepted her and all of her friends at school also accepted her. They all welcomed her into their hearts, but the one she truly wished could let her have a slight touch of his heart, she couldn't have. It must be that way for all humans. They are never quite satisfied.
Composure was settled on Rin, and immediately she brought her eyes to face the hateful ones and finally have a go at it. She had to let it out, or else, she would become this sick person who would be overly obsessed with trying to have him notice her, to give her a taste of his love. Even if it was a bit sour, she would take it.
"I'm not leaving. Can't you understand what you mean to me? You are my brother. I love you, can't you just show a bit of emotion while I'm around?" She strongly questioned.
Sesshomaru darted his eyes behind her, and back to her dark maroon eyes. "You are my human sister, that is all. As you are in knowledge of my hate for your kind, do not ask foolish questions." He encouraged, he had to also let his poison out it seemed.
Rin knew that having herself stand in her sad state made his demon blood boil. That was why he hated humans, because they did not know how to handle their anger. But here he was, letting anger take over him.
"Damn, if it's about us being related then I'll tell you that I don't believe we are. I look nothing like you or anyone in the family. I'm a pure human and you and your brother have demon blood in you. Izayoi is the reason why Inuyasha is a half-demon, but what is my excuse? There is none! When I was little, you showed your gentle side. I have memories of it. I know you are not that much of an ass! You do not hate me. If you did, you wouldn't spare a glance towards me. You wouldn't have me here. That is why I won't accept your irrational response. I know very well," Rin spat, having tears adorn her cheeks. She felt angry, it was the way for her to let it out. "That you do not hate me,"
'How dare he lie to me,' Rin thought, making her hands ball into fists. Her heart was racing faster every time his golden eyes made contact with hers. How she hated his view on humans, and to suddenly push them on her? The one and only human to have a place in his mind, family, but not in heart. She only wished that he would reason with her. To at least understand her love. Only that.
Sesshomaru abruptly rose from his chair, immediately darting in her direction. This time, while having Rin in his grasp, she was against the door. The door handle was only a couple of inches away from her, he reached for it.
Rin was confused on the sudden situation. How did it end up with her being grasped so tightly, force was pushing her to the door. Her eyes never once left his perfect face, though they caught his movement. He was locking the door, why?
Bringing her attention back to his eyes, his red eyes that were so very trying to intimidate her. A gasp escaped her lips, but again brought herself to composure. She needed to face him strongly, but it was unfair to have a beautiful person come at her so strongly, with anger.
"I despise you," Sesshomaru growled, gripping her tightly on the chin.
Rin slightly squinted her eyes, knowing he was full of lies. "You do not, admit it to yourself, and your demon,"
His eyes glowed a dark red – he was losing sanity. "This Sesshomaru does not lie." He growled deeply.
Rin let both of her hands reach his chest, only for them to be quickly grasped and put above her head, against the door. His demon was trying to resist her smart-ass comments, she could tell.
"Then why is it that you get such excitement when you see me, or when you are near me?" She questioned. She could play the game if he wanted to and she wouldn't surrender this time. Escaping from this was the last thing on her mind.
Sesshomaru growled louder at this. She knew that Sesshomaru was conscious of it. She knew because she had observed him over the years.
"It's pure hatred. I assure you." Sesshomaru replied.
"Hatred is not allowed in my vocabulary. It is 'love' the word you are looking for. You love me Sesshomaru, but you have never realized it because you are too busy despising yourself. Hate is only a reflection of what you feel inside. I understand your biological mother's death was indeed of a great effect on you, but it is not so big that your demon would let you destroy yourself so instantly. You know that you did not hate humans. You only feel that they we are weak because we aren't like you, someone who was born with strength and had many abilities that they didn't have. You feel that we are lower than you. That is all you ever thought," Rin paused, trying to breath a bit of the air that was left. "When Izayoi married Inutaisho, you began to have a sort of despise for humans. But when I came into your life, it was when you began to hate them. Because I was the first and only one that could make you feel so different, and react so differently. You took care of me because you wanted to study me, and was easily irritated by my annoying cries and demands that a kid gives. I . . . " She paused one again, feeling the tears swell against her eyelids. They were blurring her vision by now, not clearly seeing his golden eyes. "I made you hate humans. But as I said, hate is only another words for love; I made you love a human, me." Finishing her last sentence, more tears ran down her face, but she stifled her cries.
She had to let him see that he loved her. She obviously didn't understand how she made it to make sense, but it did. By responding to him at an instant, Rin had revealed the truth to herself. It wasn't that the only one she wished loved her wouldn't, it was that he couldn't show the love so easily because she had troubled him by being a human.
Sesshomaru let her go, her arms dropping to her sides. He stepped away from her, turning his body to walk towards the window, gracefully opening it.
"Don't run away from me, Sesshomaru," Rin gasped, realizing what he was to do.
Sesshomaru turned to face her. His eyes did no longer have golden orbs, but very dark pupils with a red tint surrounding them. He had gone mad and his demon was ready to come out. It was best if he left.
Quickly, Sesshomaru jumped off, turning into his ball of light, disappearing from Rin's eyes.
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'How dare she say I love her, How dare she expose me to such lies,' Was all that kept racing through Sesshomaru's mind. While still flying in the daytime, he felt the sun reach his eyes, calming his demon within him. It was true that the heat waves could cool off a demon when in a stage of fury, though it did not make sense on why, but it was certainly true.
He was going to see his father. He wasn't going to let Rin tell him what he feels or what he doesn't. She did not rule inside of him, his beast did. But to make sure of her place in the family, or if she even had a place, he was going to seek for an answer from his father. He had promised Sesshomaru.
Arriving at his father's company, Sesshomaru lowered himself in front of the building, quickly pacing through the crowd of people, going inside. He really did hate coming here because everyone's human stench mixed, making him inspire an unbearable smell. So he stopped himself from breathing until he arrived on his father's floor.
In no time, Sesshomaru burst into the office, paying no need to the people that were having a discussion with Inutaisho.
Inutaisho smiled at the guests and asked them to wait in a different office, for he had a pendant conversation with his son.
Sesshomaru didn't glace at the humans that scurried themselves out the door. They had noticed Sesshomaru's fury, which was certainly not good.
"Sesshomaru, why have you come to interrupt such a important meeting?" Asked Inutaisho, as he reclined his body on the chair, loosening his tie.
Sesshomaru darted his eyes at his father. "This matter is important,"
Inutaisho raised a brow, "Oh, have a seat," He offered. However, Sesshomaru did not move.
"Rin," He mentioned the name, giving away the topic.
Inutaisho inhaled deeply, running his hands through his sliver mane, exhaling profoundly.
"You have come for an explanation I see," Inutaisho said calmly, noticing that there would be a long conversation ahead of them.
"Sesshomaru, Rin is not your sibling," Inutaisho said, raising his hands in the air freely.
Sesshomaru's eyes were taken with rage, once again.
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