Love me or hate me, both are in my favor. If you love me I will always be in your heart; if you love me I will always be in your mind.

-William Shakespeare


A lil real talk: I'm not planning on smutting it up just yet. We'll get to that soon enough! I promise it will be worth the wait though! I'm going to try to update frequently but y'all know how I blow hot && cold!


Dinner was amazing as usual and after a few glasses of wine Alec was feeling a little looser around the edges. "Are you coming back to my place?" Alec asked, not thinking twice about it. On any other occasion ( when he had not been generously plied with good food and wine ) he would have waited until Jace suggested it or invited him over Jace's place but not tonight. He wanted Jace.

Jace smiles kindly at his…. Friend? Lover? He didn't know and owing to the bottle of wine they'd split between them, he didn't much care. "Did you think I wanted to go back to my apartment alone?" Jace says smiling happily. "Of course I'm coming with you."

Alec's cheeks, warm with the flush of alcohol turn a brighter shade of crimson, "Good. I missed you."

Jace thought about it and Alec was right he'd missed him. "Yeah it's been what? Two weeks?" Jace sighed, that was way too long for them to go without seeing each other. He knew Alec was much better at separating his personal life from his professional life than he was. Alec never hit on him or made comments about their life if they were at the office.

For as long a Jace could remember, since he was a teenager at least, he and Alec had an unspoken agreement about their lives. Jace would see other people and Alec would too but when they were together it was just them, no phones no laptops and certainly no work. Jace didn't like to put labels on his sexuality and had yet to find one that fitted him well. He liked women, loved them in fact, they were his kryptonite but Alec was something more than that. They'd been best friends since he was ten and Alec was twelve. Thinking about it he can't find a word that really suited their relationship because they weren't 'together' Alec was free to see other people - and he did - but they were happiest when they were together. Neither of them were trying to settle down just yet.

Alec steps out and hails a cab, both of them had too much to drink to drive home. Alec climbs into the backseat of the cab with Jace, hands entangled.

Twenty minutes and some particularly awful evening traffic has them outside Alec's brownstone. "Home sweet home." Jace squeezes Alec's hand for good measure.

Alec unlocks the door and they spill in, already kissing and very ready for a night of love making.


Jace wakes up the next morning and looks at his cellphone… 6:32am. Still early. Alec's hand is wrapped around his chest tightly and Jace lets out a little sigh. This is where he belongs… with Alec. There's time to go for a run and Jace knows Alec would want to go. Carefully, Jace laces his fingers with Alec's and whispers to him, "Morning baby." Alec gives a whine and rolls over, facing the window.

Jace steps out of bed, hoping Alec will sleep a little longer while he makes them both coffee and fishes out a protein bar for them before they go running. As the coffee brews Jace heard Alec pad into the kitchen, bleary eyed. "Why are we up so early?" Alec says with a yawn. His usually messy black hair is sticking up in all directions and he's clad in only a pair of loose boxers.

"To go running" Jace said pouring Alec some coffee. "Black no sugar right?"

"Yeah I'm definitely going back to bed…" Alec said groggily, he padded back to the large bedroom and collapsed onto the bed, spread eagle and lazily pulled the covers over him. Jace follows after him, a little disappointed he didn't want to go running. It was a little before seven now and they'd only have another half an hour to sleep in.

Jace climbs back in bed but is already awake. He curls up next to Alec and presses a kiss to his cheek. "Last night was fun." For this he's rewarded by being pulled a little tighter to Alec's chest. Alec says nothing but hums happily and presses a kiss to back of Jace's head.


Clary is a little exhausted when so rolls into the office. Her car had needed a jump start this morning from her neighbor and while that was fine, it had been raining unfortunately so she had to change and re-dry her hair. So, she was wearing a long sleeved maxi dress and sandals. Fall had them all feeling the chill in the air.

Jace and Alec arrived a little early and Clary a bit late.

"Dr. Lightwood sorry I'm in a few minutes late my car gave me difficulty." She reported to Alec later that morning.

"No trouble but make sure you see Dr. Herondale before we open for business. He's going to want you to do his appointments and keep his patient files for the rest of the week." Alec said without looking up from his laptop. Clary was pretty, he was gay and he could see that much, he was worried Jace might 'use' her like he had with all his previous PAs. "Close the door real quick Clary?"

She gives him a look and closes it but doesn't latch it.

"I'd just like to take this time to remind you of no fraternization policy." Clary looked upset that he would have to remind her but she nodded dutifully.

"Of course Dr. Lightwood."

"That will be all for now, thank you."

Clary shuffled out of Alec's office and down the hall to Jace's office, knocking, she pushed open the door. "Dr. Herondale?"

He looked up and smiled at her, "Dr. Lightwood has told you that I'd like you to do my scheduling for the rest of the week then?" He pushed a stack of files towards her. "These are my patient fils for the day if you could just organize them that would be great. Before you leave tonight could you pull the one's for tomorrow as well?"

Clary nodded, she might have to stay late but she could do it. Jace was wearing a black suit today with a grey tie. She thought it suited him rather well. Damnit she was looking again. Jace's lips pulled upward in a slight smirk. "What did I say about staring?" Jace asks her.

"Sorry Dr. Herondale!" She said flushing scarlet and darting out of the office.

Lunch time seemed to come in a hurry and leave in a hurry as well, Clary's thirty minutes were up in record time. She usually checked in with Dr. Lightwood after lunch, make sure he didn't need a coffee. "Dr. Lightwood?" She said sticking her head in his office. But he wasn't there… She heard his voice in Izzy's office down the hall.

"... Yeah we had a really good night he took me out to dinner and came over afterwards. I'm telling you Izzy, everything is alright when he's with me."

"Why can't you two just be together? There's no excuse for him and I just feel like he's using you." Unless Clary was vastly mistaken there was a pout on Isabelle's lips.

"He's not!" Dr. Lightwood's voice sounded affronted. "He's a complete gentleman and you know that it's difficult for him to be with anyone for any length of time. He's got more commitment issues than I have tongue depressors."

"So… he took you out to dinner and you slept together but you're not 'together'" Izzy, their Physician's Assistant sounded irritated.

"I'm not worried about it besides -" Alec's voice quieted and Clary couldn't make out the conversation but decided if she was helping Dr. Herondale with things that she might as well do her job well. Despite the niggling curiosity about what had gotten Izzy in such a tizz.

Dr. Herondale's office door was open and she poked her head in asking if he wanted a coffee. "Yes! Definitely, I'm a bit tired, had a late night last night. Extra foam latte no sugar from Starbucks?" Clary wondered idly if jace was one of those people who ordered the same thing every day from Starbucks… Wait didn't Dr. Lightwood say he was up late too? That was odd…

"Should I get Dr. Lightwood anything? He's busy…." She asked hoping she didn't sound like she was snooping.

"Oh get him a dark roast, he always has one after lunch doesn't he?" Dr. Herondale said with a smirk…

"Ok, yeah sure." Were they seeing each other? Was Dr. Herondale gay?! No, he couldn't be.

Her eyes traced the line of his hips in his fitted trousers and gloried at how beautiful he was. She let herself think for just a few moments how blissful it would be to see the body under the suit. The body she'd been wondering about for weeks. She blinked and her daydream was gone. Dr. herondale hadn't noticed that she was staring though because he was pacing the small office looking at a patient file.


Clary's day ended with both the Lightwoods heading out together, shortly followed by Jace. At five thirty it was just her and the other PA left.

The other PA, Izzy's PA was a woman a little younger than her, just twenty-one, and she knew this because they had birthday cake for her a few weeks back and took her out for drinks. She was young but not terribly pretty, she had huge glasses that made her look a little bug-eyed and always wore sweaters that were a hair too big on her. "Marietta?" She looked up from her screen a swiveled her chair to face Clary, not saying anything.

"Do you need anything from the records room?" Clary asked her.

"Nope, I'm just about to head out for the night, but there was something I wanted to ask you."

"Ok shoot," Clary said smiling.

"I heard from Isabelle that last year their old PA's put together a Halloween dinner for the staff and I was wondering if you'd want to do that again this year? I've scoped out a few restaurants for it already but wanted to pass it by you first since you're Dr. Lightwood and Dr. Herondale's PA."

It sounded like a perfectly good idea to Clary. The nurses would appreciate it that was for sure. "Sounds good to me, I'll run it by them tomorrow morning."