Disclaimer:
Me: (thinking) hmm it seems I still don't own twilight
Jake: (sneering face) nope you don't and u never will
Me: (evil glare) shut up Jake or ill make something bad happen to u in my story
Jake: you mean like hardly putting me in it like you do now?
Me: (angry) well maybe if u stopped arguing with me I would
Jake: I'm not arguing with you I'm just a figment of your imagination
Me: (thinking) hmm I didn't know you even knew the word figment; you don't really come off as smart
Jake: (laughing) I told you its cause your crazy!!
Me: shut it (long pause) sooooo still don't own twilight?
Jake: (smirk) nope
Me: damn!
Sorry it took so long to update the chapter.
Life Changing
Chapter 2
Oh my gosh, I have soooo much homework to do. Hmm I wonder if Seth will help me. But then again if he tries to help, I won't focus and most likely start making out.
Over the next weeks I hung out with Seth so much, I was soo happy but the only downside was not being able to see Claire. But I call her all the time. It turns out that she's been as the British put it 'snogging senselessly' I just love British people. The only thing that could make Seth sexier is him having a British accent. I don't know if you can tell but I have an obsession of Harry Potter.
We have been together for a short amount of time being compared to Quil and Claire. But we are so close, it's like there is no secrets at all. It's like he's my other half. I know it's kinda corny but it truly feels that way.
I have recently become friends with Emily. She is the sweetest kindest most motherly person there is. I feel like she's more of a mother to me than my mom. And one day we got to the topic of her kids.
"Umm em?" I asked deeply flustered
"Yes?" she asked
"Well um, I was wondering….well…you know…what it's like…..and um…err…yeah" I said while my face was really red.
"Are you trying to ask me about what it was like having sex?" she asked completely calm
"Yeah….its just that well, I really love Seth and…." I just left my sentence there; I was staring at my feet.
"There's nothing to be embarrassed about. Well I'm not going to describe everything and I do think you should wait being so young and all."
"How old were you when you and Sam…."
"I was more than 4 years older than you"
"Oh well ok"
We had a long and how should I put it…extremely embarrassing talk. She said that when I think the time is right and my heart knows I won't regret it then its time. She also asked me to tell Claire about it when I deemed it fit.
The next couple of days I was flustered around Seth. The talk with Emily got me thinking every time I saw him. I was internally debating whether or not I should have sex with him.
But one night, he told me.
"Shaye I know we have been going out for only about 4 months, but I feel I have to let you know that I love you. I know I tell you every day, but I truly love you. You are my air, food, sun, and water. With out you I can't live with out you. Your like, I don't know how to explain it, but your like my other half.
At that moment I knew that I loved him for every thing he was and ever will be. I felt the same way.
"I love you sooo much Seth, more than anything."
He smirked "more than Remus Lupin?"
"I dono maybe...ok yeah but just a tiny bit more" I joked
We stared kissing passionately. We went upstairs. I new were this was going, and I thought about it, and I wanted it, so did my heart, conscious, every part of my body ached for him. We got to my bed and I lay down and he gently laid on me. He broke the kiss and spoke with a ragged loss of breath
"Sh-shaye, I don't think we should do this. We can wait. I don't want you to regret this."
I was at a loss of breath but I managed to say "no I want this"
We slept together, it was amazing, and it was also extremely hot. I can't describe it. It was just amazing I felt so close to him during and after.
I thought I should tell Claire about this but I think she would take it badly and try to force her self into something she's not ready for. I had less than zero regrets about my decision.
About a month later I started feeling sick, I thought that it was just the flu.
Then my heart stopped. I looked at my calendar and I realized something.
I was late.
I tried to remember when the last time I had my period, and that froze my heart. I thought to my self that it was probably stress from school or something, or I'm irregular. I started to panic and I decided to go to the store and buy a pregnancy test, but then I realized that I would be recognized and the word would spread. I decided that I wanted to go to port angles to buy it there. Only one problem. I had no ride. My brother was working so I couldn't tell him I wanted to buy something up there, my parents are in Seattle. And I can't ask Seth to take me either. So I decided I would drive my self. I mean it's not that hard and I'm only in trouble if I get pulled over. So I decided to take the risk. I know I know I'm stupid but I had too. I drove up to port angles and I went to the pharmacy store. I went in and bout about 4 different tests. I also got other stuff like shampoo conditioner, tooth paste ect. When I got up to pay the woman there was staring at me like 'wow this girl is a slut she's pregnant' I just want to pound her face in.
I left port angles and I drove home. I got home and took the test. About 2 minutes later I thought my world was going to end, I was pregnant. But I thought about it and I was happy. I know I must be going psycho but I was happy. I was having Seth's baby. I mean we get to start our life sooner. We were going to get married before so why not sooner. I didn't want to tell him yet. I wanted to make him agree that we should be together earlier than planed and then tell him. He will be happy. I hope.
Ugg who's calling? I checked the phone it said it was Claire.
"Hey Claire what's up?" I answer. Claire tells me about her plans to seduce Quil aren't working. I laugh. She starts telling me what's frustrating her. I decide not to tell her about my little bundle of joy.
"Shaye, why won't he get close to me?" She asks me.
"I think he doesn't want to rush things yet. What did he tell you before?" I told her
"Well he said I was too young and in school. But I wish I could drop it and just be with him."
"Oh me too" I reply "I want to be an artist, I want to paint, I don't have to go to school for that. We should talk to them" I exclaim
"Yeah tomorrow then"
"Agreed"
The next day we decided to tell the boys about our plans but it didn't go according to plan it was a disaster.
"Hey I was thinking we don't get to spend much time together, so I was thinking maybe we should spend more time during the day together" Claire starts off
"But you have school" Quil replies puzzled
"Yeah but I was thinking maybe we could drop out of school and start our career now, I mean I just want to be a painter. And." I was cut off
"WHAT!!" both guys exclaimed
"Claire you're staying in school and going to college and that's that, or I'm telling your mother, I'm not gonna let you do this." Quil yells
"Yeah Shaye I don't need you to mess up you life I mean imagine that if you screwed up you life then you messed up mine too" Seth yelled, they were both angry
"Fine what ever" I yell. I'm close to tears but I'm determined not to let Seth see them. I walk back with Claire to her house in tears.
I start explaining to Claire how we've had fights but never this bad. I've never seen him that mad. I started to think that he wouldn't be happy with the baby like I was. But I don't care if he wants it or not, I'm keeping it.
Then we decided to watch movie that we liked to cheer us up.
"Let's watch movies k?" she asks
"Ok sure"
She puts in Juno. Oh sure it had to be that movie, a movie of a pregnant girl I start crying hysterically.
"Shaye what's the matter?" she asks clearly worried.
"i-im pregnant" I sob
"Your what?" she says shocked
"Pregnant, you know I'm having a baby" I tell her
"Well I know that but who's the father?" she asks. I'm outraged how she could say that
"SETH WHO ELSE DO YOU THINK?! IM NOT A SLUT!!" I yell threw sobs. I knew she didn't mean it that way but I was angry.
"Oh my god" she starts crying with me. "Its going to be ok doesn't worry. I'll help you threw this don't worry."
"I want the baby Claire, but I don't think Seth does. Promise you won't tell Quil or Seth?"
"Ok, but let me help you ok?"
"I need you to help me"
We both started crying senselessly.
I decided I wasn't going to tell Seth at all. I don't think I want to forgive him. I asked Claire to run a note to him and the note said
Seth
I love you and I always will but it think this it is over between us.
When we first started our relationship we agreed that you would be what ever I wanted you too.
Right now I want you to be out of my life. I want to try to forget about you and I don't want you to chase me.
Please, please, please, let me be.
I will always love you
Shaye
I know the note was harsh over something simple but I didn't want to mess up his life, I loved him too much. I didn't want him to not have fun or do what ever just to care for a child that was my fault. I don't want him to resent my baby or me. I want him too live a happy life with out me. When I wrote the note I felt like part of me died off and will always be dead weight.
I figured out what I wanted to tell Seth. When he finds out I'm pregnant (cause of course I'm going to hang out with Claire and were Claire is Quil is.) I decided I was going to ask Claire to tell Quil that I was upset with the break up and ended up hooking up with someone else and got pregnant. So when I'm 5 months pregnant I willbe about '4 months'
I'm sad, extremely sad but I also know that Seth will live a happy life and I get his baby. So I am happy about that. Even though I'm pregnant I don't regret the decision I made, and I don't regret getting pregnant. I regret screwing up Seth's life. I think I'm doing the right thing, even if Claire thinks I'm not.
We'll just have to see how this all turns out.
I know, I know, its kinda dramatic and over dose. But I wanted to have some drama and you have to remember Shaye thinks that this is the best thing for Seth.
Thanks for reading it
I dono whether or not to do a chapter on Seth alone or just leave it. Or put in some Seth P.O.V. in there. Please let me know buy reviews!!
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