I took a deep breath as I walked through the academy doors. I was to join my newly graduated team, the mysterious fourth member, the odd one out in a three person team… team number seven. Students sprinkled the halls ways like shit on a child's cupcake, happy, excited and colourful, until I walked past then it was as if all that warmth and joy disappeared from their souls. I moved quickly trying to avoid the stares and points, the whispers and hollers at me.
"She's, no way! Tada…"
"Hey killer!"
Just some of the words I made out as I rushed past them. As I found my class room I stood before the door trying to stop the shaking, which didn't last long as two girls collided with me knocking me to my knees.
"Goal!" they both shouted, but then stopped to look at me.
"Oh, hey there I'm sorry!" the blond girl spoke reaching out her hand. As I looked up she froze, I guess she didn't realize who I was till now...
"Ino, come on lets get to our seats…" the girl with pink hair said with a worried expression on her face. I looked at the ground trying to not feel sad about peoples reactions to me…how much did they know? As I entered the room, all of the excited chatter died out, all eyes on me…so I waved to appear less threating as I imagined I must be to normal people. The rooms energy felt heavier than bricks sinking in water so I took a deep breath hoping I did it in a way that no one would notice and walked through the class room pretending that no one was staring at me as if I were death himself. I ignored the whispers as I did so too, I didn't even want to know…
It was challenging finding a seat, every time I went to sit next to someone they shifted away from me or put an object beside themselves as if I were contaminated with some awful illness that could be air born.
"Here" came a tiny voice, I looked down to see a girl with short black hair, and a very meek appearance but I knew by her eyes she was a Hyuuga, main branch even! I sat next to her chest swelling with hope that at least one person in the entire damned village didn't look at me with fear or pity.
"I am Hyuuga Hinata" the meek girl told me
"Chi Koojiru" I said smiling. Suddenly a commotion began, girls yelling at some blond kid who was staring down some other kid, blondie fell into the other guys face and well…blondie was not so great at fighting off a bunch of girls apparently.
"That's Uzumaki Naruto" Hinata whispered leaning in close causing my temperature to raise a bit with anxiety "he's always finding himself in some trouble" she told me with some amusement in her voice "but…no never mind" she shook her head and looked down blushing, I smiled.
"But he's a cool guy and you like him?" I ventured. Hinata jumped as if I had spooked her
"Am I, really that easy to read?" she asked placing her first two fingers to her mouth and blushing harder, I laughed a .
"Maybe, but also I'm just good as sensing this shit" I replied, giving her some hope I suppose. We sat in silence for a few seconds before I spoke again
"Why not just tell him?" I asked tilting my head to the side
"Oh! No! I couldn't be so forward!" the girl was now beat red making me smile again, this was nice…talking about boys with another girl. I never had done that but I saw it in plays and shit…though that girl always died…Chi have an interesting view on love and romance. Suddenly I felt a chill run down my spine, feeling two eyes on my back like daggers. I turned and found the culprit, it was the guy Naruto kissed! My pulse rose, now that I saw him properly I knew who he was, my clan had watched him closley since his brothers disgrace.
Uchiha Sasuke...
Our clans were rivals for a thousand generations I was told, that is until Itachi killed them all, all but one…
I remembered my clan being very upset that it wasn't us who whipped out the Uchiha, but we had decided the last two were targets…and I wondered if Sasuke knew...
"Do you like him?" Hinata's voice broke me from my thoughts and startled me, causing a delay in my responce.
"I don't even really know him…" I admitted, biting my tong on every other detail about it.
"We're probably the only two girls in this classroom who aren't head over heels for him" she continued. I laughed almost too loud but stopped myself
"Uchiha?! HE'S Mr. Dreamboat?!" Hinata seemed confused by my reaction "man, standards are looow here" I said facing forwards now, forgetting all about the dagger eyes. Our teacher came in not long after and explained how things were going to go, typical three students and one jounin per team, aside team seven, we had four. Lucky number seven…oh yeah SO lucky to have ME (complete and utter sarcasm). Each team was called, on mine Haruno Sakura, Uzumaki Naruto, and sadly...Uchiha Sasuke. We all waited for our jounin to arrive, time passed...
And passed...
And it passed...
At some point Naruto began to set up a booby trap for our new and very late sensei. Sakura scolded him, and Sasuke...well he did what he did best and sat there looking emo...
'I feel ya' was all I could think while watching my new teammates. Eventually our teacher arrived and fell for Naruto's trap...setting the boy off in annoying laughter.
"Hm, lets see, I think that...I hate you all" the white haired man said after a pause.
'HE'S our teacher?!'
After some time...
"So tell me about yourselves, your hopes, hobbies, likes and dislikes" Kakashi, our teacher said in a near by park. Of course, my teammates were off...
Naruto wanted power, and ramen...
Sakura...wanted Sasuke...
Sasuke wanted, revenge, of course that's what he wanted...
Soon after some quiet, the attention fell on me, I opened my mouth but nothing came out, what in the hell was I supposed to say? The silence became awkward
"You must have some hopes, hobbies, likes and dislikes" Kakashi said through the awkwardness. I glanced at my new team, one by one trying to get a read on them...No such luck, I was too scared my hands felt like bees had taken over the nerves inside them. So I took a deep breath and tried again
"Well..." I began my face went red hot "I don't have many likes, beyond animals really...as for dislikes...I really don't like a lot of things, my hobbies though include writing, studying, reading, training..." my voice trailed off as my hopes came to mind. My mouth opened and closed like a swing for what felt like too long before I looked down, my dream? I only ever thought about my eventual death but how was I supposed to tell my teammates that?!
"Kooojiiiruuu" fingers snapped in front of my face waking me from the awful void, Kakashi's face was too close to mine...I froze and felt the heat rise to my face once more, so I thought quick and managed to spit something less depressing out
"Hopes, right...my hope is that I can be as good at this as I can be?" this made Kakashi turn away, seemingly satisfied with my answer, the lie...and of course the rest of my team stared at me expressions unreadable no one said anything, just blankness. When Kakashi faced us again he explained that we had a final test...told us not to eat breakfast. I scoffed, as this was fucking easy for me far too easy. As we all got up to leave, Kakashi stopped me
"You okay?" he asked me, expressionless...
"Why wouldn't I be?" I retorted raising an eyebrow, but I was dead serious, what about me said I wasn't okay? Did he know anything?
"Ah never mind" he stated simply, opened up a romance novel and walked away. I stood stunned and confused, I mean everyone who was old enough to knew about my clan, yet only few dared make conversation with me let alone ask how I was feeling. I shrugged it off and headed to my empty apartment that was "awarded to me" by the village, as if I did anything to warrant getting an award, I was a killer...cold blooded killer...
I entered the dark small space and turned on the hallway light, then kitchen, finally the TV. I opened my fridge and began pulling out my small amounts of ingredients to make dinner with, miso soup and rice...I had little else. As I began to cook as a knock sounded at my door, and when I answered, there my sensei stood...I froze confused and honestly? A tad afraid, guy wasn't tiny that's for damn sure.
"Yo!" he greeted me dragging out the o. I stared at him, and when he noticed my expression he cleared his throat
"I'm sorry to disturb you, but I made gift baskets for everyone on the team, here's yours" he handed me the basket, filled with different kinds of healthy ingredients for meals. Automatically my hands went out, but my gaze didn't shift due to my frozen state, emotions running around as if there was an emergency...
"Koojiru?" Kakashi tried to bring me back with a sing song voice waving his hand in my face.
"Ah yeah sorry, thanks" I spoke so monotonously even I noticed this time, also looking at the basket for the first time. Meats, vegetables, fruits, miso paste, rice and seasonings. Now I was just staring with the same confusion at the array, I felt overwhelmed with something I couldn't quite put my finger on. Later on I learned that this emotion, was gratitude.
"Ah, your welcome, sorry, sorry I will leave you to your night then" he spoke again turning to walk away.
"Sensei wait!" I spoke without thinking as the fear of my first official night alone washed over me, no ANBU guards to keep weirdos who wanted to hurt me at bay but after a month of nothing, it made sense. Kakashi turned looking curious as my face went tomato red.
"I-I um..." I glanced down as my feet shuffled on their own
"I will cook you dinner as a thank you for your charity" I bowed low as possible to show my sincere respect towards him. The sound of muffled giggling brought my head up to see Kakashi trying to control his laughter. My eyebrow shot up as I glared at him, how dare he laugh!
"You- you don't owe me anything" he said trying to stop his annoying snickering on the situation.
"I insist" I replied as seriously as I could without letting my anger show. He stopped laughing all together realizing how much I meant this. He nodded and sighed
"Very well, what are you having?" he asked walking in looking defeated
"Not your attitude" I responded and began giggling at my own whit, but a whit none too appreciated...I cleared my throat to speak but was then interrupted by a burning smell...MY RICE! I dashed into the kitchen and turned off my stove exhaling in relief. Kakashi poked his head in and glanced at me
"WHAT?!" I barked
"Just seems like you're having an issue there..." he said ducking back a bit. I took a deep breath and apologized on the exhale.
"Its fine, please make yourself at home" I gestured to my small living room attached to my even smaller bedroom. Kakashi glanced but stayed by the kitchen entrance
"At home I cook" he said out of no where. I looked at him knowing how dead I must have looked, I assumed that my face showed it because he stepped in and just took over.
"How long?" he asked confusing me yet again
"How long?" I repeated
"Since you slept"
"How, three days?" A silence brewed between us, and only the sounds of food being prepared could be heard.
"How did you-"
"You're paler than parchment" he interrupted, more silence...
"Last time you ate more than..." he looked in the fridge "rice an miso?"
"When was the Chi clan, uh, destroyed?" I asked feeling super awkward, I mean I of all people should have remembered. Kakashi stopped preparing and looked at me, his one visible eye wide as fuck.
"That was over a month ago!" he exclaimed so I shrugged as he whipped around and began cooking faster. I felt my eyebrow go up, and it stayed there until he turned to me smiling I assumed, possibly proud of himself? I must have looked off because my lack of reaction made his smile vanish.
"Dinners almost done" he said now
"Cool" and...more silence, all throughout dinner silence, didn't even ask how he ate faster than the blink of an eye...
After I finished he stood and began cleaning the table, I stood up quickly
"Let me-" too quickly I guess, because the next thing I remember was waking up on the floor with Kakashi over me, hand held to my forehead with pressure.
"What happened?" I asked through my haze
"You fainted, and hit your head, just a surface wound might not even scar" the man responded. I went to sit up but he held me down, causing me to panic. I screamed, grabbed his hand aaand...bit down, hard. He let out a yelp of pain as I scrambled backwards. He looked at me, not with anger like I expected but shock...what was so shocking beyond me biting him, shouldn't he be angry?
"Oh my God! I am SO sorry!" I began but he simply shook his head.
"Things like this happen" he spoke softly. I looked at the ground as some emotion, maybe even emotions took over me body. My chest burned, my eyes throbbed and all too soon I lost control, tears fell from my eyes, my lungs seized up and released sporadically into an awful honking noise.
"I'm sorry" was all I could manage to say, over and over again until it was almost as if another voice had taken over my speaking, causing me to speak insanities. It was still me, but I didn't feel like I was actually there, just floating in some void somewhere lost.
"I-I was torn open...
The blood...
So much blood...
So much screaming, too much!
THE DEATH!
THE BLOOD" the sobs began again, I don't know how long they lasted but I woke up the next morning alone, in my bed making me freak out again until I realized I hadn't been undressed at all.
Shit...
I was late for the test...
