hi guys here is chapter 2
thank yukikyo!
i use a song in this chapter Welcome to my life by simple plan
I don't own gravitation and the song welcome to my life
"speaking"
'thoughts' - italics
song - bold
past - underline
After a week Touma received Shuichi's resignation letter. He should have felt happy happy but he doesn't and he doesn't understand why. Touma told everyone about Shuichi's resignation and they couldn't believe it. Their vocalist who was such a pink ball of energy all the time had left them, it was unbelievable that he would do such a thing. The group had tired to call Shuichi but they were unsuccessful. Hiro, Suguru and Mr. K decided to try Shuichi's house to see if he was still there.
It was Shuichi's mother Shindou-san who opened the door. "Good morning Shindou-san" Hiro said, giving the woman a warm smile.
"Hiro-kun, come in" Mrs. Shindou said opening the door wide so everyone could go in.
"Would you three like anything to drink?" Shuichi's mother offered, wanting her guests to feel comfortable.
"No thank you we just came to talk to Shuichi." Mr. K said, wondering why the vocalist hadn't come down to see them yet.
"I see… I'm sorry but he's not here" Mrs. Shindou said sadness apparent in her voice. Tears were starting to fill her eyes at having to talk about the son who had recently left them.
"What time will he be back? Do you know where he went?" Suguru asked, hoping to track him down if his mother knew where he went.
Shindou-san sighed and told the boys the truth. "I don't know where he is or when will he be back." It hurt to talk about how her son had left them, yet she would have thought his best friends would have known.
"WHAT?" everyone said, taken completely by surprise that their friend had gone missing.
"But Shuichi has a contract with NG Records he can't just leave like that" Mr. K explained, even though everyone already knew about the contract.
"His contract ended two weeks ago and he didn't renew it." Shuichi's mother explained confused as to why Shuichi hadn't even explained this to his friends. He owed him that much to tell them that he wouldn't be the vocalist for Bad Luck any longer.
"What…I'm sure my cousin Touma spoke with him about renewing his contract." said Suguru, eye's widened by surprise.
"Don't tell me the boss didn't ask Shuichi to renew the contract?" Hiro said eye's widening at the fact that Shuichi didn't renew his contract.
"All Shuichi said was that Hiro and Suguru should find another vocalist and to start a new band with them." Shindou-san explained.
"How can Shuichi do this to me, we made a promise to each other" Hiro said with tears in his eye, not understanding how his best friend could break the promise.
'Shuichi how can you do this we made a promise that we would never quit Bad Luck because this is our band, a band that started off as a dream and was made into reality.' Hiro thought to himself
"Well looks like I just have to hunt him down, shoot him , tie him up and bring him back right? Hahaha!" said Mr. K a triumphant expression on his face.
"WHAT! You would do that to my Shu-chan?" Shindou-san shouted afraid that her son would get hurt by these eccentric men.
" Don't worry Shindou-san Mr. K is just joking" Hiro said giving a short laugh at the mother at how easily flustered she was.
"I see. Here Hiro, Shuichi said I should give this to you. It's the last song he wrote for Bad Luck. He wanted me to tell you that he is sorry because he broke his promise to you." Shindou-san said sadly a small sigh escaping her lips.
Hiro, Suguru, Ryuichi and Mr. K made their way back to NG to listen to the CD that Shindou-san had given to them. When the got to NG they saw that Touma was talking with Sakura, Yuki standing next to her.
"Boss its seems like Shuichi's gone, his mother said that they don't know where he is or when will he come back" Mr. K said while cleaning his gun. " So when should I start the hunt for him?" He said, only half joking.
"What? The brat is gone but what about his band?" Yuki said while thinking in his head
'why does my heart hurt like it's breaking apart? Why do I want to see that brat right now? I want to see his smile, his pink hair.' Yuki couldn't understand why he wanted to see his ex. He loved Sakura now, had someone who was perfect for him and could make him happy.
"This is Shindou-san's decision so we should let him do what he wants." Touma said, even though he wanted the pink haired vocalist back as much as anyone.
"What! You would let Shuichi go just like that ? What about Bad Luck Shuichi is the vocalist" Hiro said with anger in his voice. He didn't understand why they weren't making an effort to go find their band mate and friend. If they cared about him they should have been out searching for him.
"Okay Mr. K go and find him, if you can convince him to come back then the band will continue but before Shindou-san comes back Sakura-san, Nakano-san and Suguru will perform as a new band." Touma said. It wasn't the best situation but it was what Shuichi wanted.
"Alright we will wait for Shuichi. We should listen to this CD though. It's a song that Shuichi made before he left." Hiro said while going to the CD player in Touma's office.
WELCOME TO MY LIFE
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
'Why do I feel like I don't belong here? I don't think anyone will even know if I here or not because all they see is Sakura. Even Hiro my best friend doesn't care about me anymore. I tried to tell him what I felt but he said I'm just jealous because she is Yuki's girlfriend. No one understands me anymore.'
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
Shuichi came home after practicing with the band. He came home early because Hiro and Suguru were still practicing with Sakura. He opened the radio in his room so loud and screamed all the frustration that he feel.
'I can't take this anymore, I just want to disappear because it wouldn't matter to anyone anyways whether I was here or not since all they care about is Sakura. It hurts so much, but I still have my family even if they are far away. At least they still care about me.'
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
'Why does no one see the pain in my eyes or maybe no one cared about what I felt to begin with. I'm nothing to them.'
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
'It hurt so much I didn't know what to do. I just found out that almost everyone knew about Yuki and Sakura before Yuki even told me. They knew that Yuki was cheating on me but they never told me. I felt like everything is breaking apart my heart, my body and soul. I don't have anyone right now. I want to go home but I don't want my family to worry about me. They are the only thing that left who love me I don't want them to hate me because I a coward and a failure.'
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
'I don't wanna do this anymore so I will quit. I'm sick of everything. I don't have a reason to stay here anymore. Maybe its time for me to find my missing memories for it may help me to became strong. I don't wanna smile anymore because I'm not happy. It hurt me more when I fake a smile for I know that its not real and that hurts all the more, especially when my friends think I'm OK.'
Everyone thought that Shuichi had moved on, that he wasn't hurt when he saw Yuki with Sakura. That wasn't true because it still hurt him when he saw Yuki so happy with her but Schuichi kept telling himself that if Yuki was happy then he should be happy too. After all that was what mattered most to the pink haired boy was seeing his ex-lover happy.
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
As the day went on Shuichi feel more miserable he was waiting for his contract to end so he could go without creating any problems.
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
Shuichi knew that Touma didn't want him to be a vocalist in his company any more that's why he asked Hiro and Suguru to practice with Sakura. He is planning to make another band with the three of them and Shuichi wasn't that stupid, he knew that Bad Luck would disband so the new band could flourish. Touma was lying every time he said that Shuichi was one of the greatest artists that NG had ever had and he would help Shuichi make the band into the number one band of all time.
'I hate this, It's like everything and every one is against me. I know Touma will just betray me as soon as the new band makes its debut. I'm not as stupid as everyone thinks I am. Of course I'm going to notice that he wants me gone in NG and Yuki's lives.'
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
'I don't want to stay in this place where no one understands me. I know there is a place in this world where I belong and I will search for it along with my memories. I'll show everyone.'
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