Everything happened in a flash: the push, the breaking glass, and I plummeting to my death. I heard gasps and screams from some students which was surprising. My worried eyes were glued to the sky. It seemed like I was pushed off of the third floor.
Everything seemed to go in slow motion as I was falling. Am I slowing down time? It felt like I was as light as a feather in air. I slowly and gently fell to earth. Then everything was running normal. The earth underneath me was crushed a little. Most didn't care that I had fallen. My body was hurting like hell as if I did fall hard into the ground.
The pain was tolerable to get up from. I was panting while getting up. In the corner of my eye I saw that the nurse was running towards me. "Please stay still!" He yelled. "Don't come near me." I said in a low voice. He stopped running and examined me from afar. "Miss you just fell from the third floor! At least let me examine you." I shook my head violently then fell unconscious.
The walls were white and there was no sound. I sat up and looked around. The nurse saw me and smiled. "You took quite a fall, you know?" I nodded and stood up. "Whoa there, are you sure you're able to go back to class." I nodded again and left before he said another word. The prefects of the school stared at me. They were whispering to each other: 'it's still alive' and 'she should have stayed dead'.
I walked into class and everyone's gaze was on me. "Please take your seat." The teacher said sternly. I wasn't surprised that he didn't ask if I was alright. Besides, everyone wants me dead. It's a known fact. Still, everything was normal again. I was asked many times why I didn't die. The words they say would have pierced me but I couldn't hear them.
After school Tsuna looked at me worried. I nodded towards him and left for home. My parents weren't home for a change. I dropped my bag and ran to the shrine. For a moment, I had a taste to what freedom was like. The priest came out and smiled at me. "This is what freedom is like my child." I just stared at everything at the top of the stairs.
"I'll never be free, but for now I am. I know I sound selfish but all I want freedom and friends but I think I'm happy enough with just being free for an hour; an hour of not getting beaten to death." I said. He smiled sadly. "That is not being selfish." He replied. I stayed silent for a while. The priest went back inside.
That's when I heard a loud thump inside. I turned around and saw the priest's body on the ground with a puddle of holy blood. I knew who was inside. I knew exactly who did this. The pipe in his hands swung at my face. The woman took a hold of my hair and dragged me. When we got home I got a massive beating. "You think you can just wander without our permission?" Mother yelled.
Father threw the pipe aside. "Get up and go to your room think of what you did!" Father screamed. "What did I ever do?" My soft voice resonated. "You were born. That's what you did." Mother sneered. For some strange reason, this struck a nerve deep down. I said nothing and climbed to my room.
There I sat on my bed wondering why I was born in the first place. I decided that I would go camping on the next break that we had. My parents wouldn't dare go there and try to find me. But for now, I slept. And in the next morning, there was silence. It was probably because of the alcohols effect.
School wasn't good. I went in to class like normal and ignored everyone. During the last class, the test papers were handed out. Surprisingly, I got a 30 on it. Some girls that bully me all the time walked their bitch ass up to me.
"What do you have to say to yourself? It is your fault for lowering the classes' average." I looked to her. "Her score is so low that it's making me dizzy." "Now write down an apology." She slammed down a piece of paper in front of me. "The thing that you're missing is cooperation. The only thing that you care about is yourself." I wrote down an apology. They took it away and read it out loud.
"I, Arianna Kazu, got a low score on the test and became the burden to the rest of the class." The girl next to her took it out of her hands. "That's all wrong! Being a burden while getting a low score is not the problem." "She can't even write a letter of apology without our help." One snickered.
"Start again!" I took the eraser and erased everything. Everyone in the class was laughing at me. One of the girls started to say what they wanted me to say. "I, Arianna Kazu, lacked cooperation and was a burden to the rest of the class." "There's no point if you write what we tell you either. Write it in your words."
I clenched the pen, wanting to cry but I never let a single tear out. One of them took a hold of my hair. "Are you listening bitch?!" "Seriously, why are you even still alive? Do you think it's really worth living when you're just a burden to everyone? If I were you, I'd die." I didn't hear them. One of them slapped me, bringing me back to my senses. "We're asking if whether or not you're aware of the trouble that you're causing everyone."
"I, Arianna Kazu, shouldn't be alive…why am I here? I wonder…why am I still alive?" The girls started to laugh with everyone in class. Everyone in the class stopped when the teacher came in. After school, I almost started to run home. I ran inside and to my room. My parents were passed out, thus giving me an opportunity to escape. I got a bag with some clothes, a lighter, and my grandmother's box I received. After packing everything, I made my way to the mountain where I would call 'home' for a while.
The birds were chirping and the water was calm. My base was going to be at the top of the mountain itself. It was a beautiful view at the top. I made a little tent with the leaves of the trees and branches and went out hunting for food. Fish was a cleaner option for me. I never really like to kill birds since I am one.
I went to the river and caught a fish by hand which wasn't as hard as some think it is. All you need is patience. I went back to my base and started a fire. The fish was cooking on a sturdy stick. The sun was just about setting and the coldness of the night started to appear. This was the first night where I wouldn't be beaten.
A few days have passed and everything was peaceful. I've been eating the various plants and fruit from the mountains and the medium sized fish from the river. Throughout my stay so far, I've acquired some medical herbs that I have made into medicine and treated my wounds. While I had the supplies, I made some other medicine to counter act some poisons and as well as ointments for burns that would heal right up.
I went down to the river to acquire fish but in the process, a large turtle grew. "Somehow, someone did this to you on purpose." I threw a fish to the turtle to see if it would eat it. Surprisingly it ate it. I walked back to base and started to eat lunch. The berries were delicious as well. I watched as the turtle started to destroy the forest.
Again, I went to the turtle out of curiosity. The turtle looked down at me. "It's you!" I heard someone yell towards my direction. I saw Tsuna with some others from school. The turtle almost stepped on me on purpose. Luckily, I moved in time. "A-are you alright?!" He yelled. I didn't answer as I watched the turtle. A turtle that transform into Godzilla from water should turn back from heat. "That woman is crazy!" Another yelled.
I ignore him as the turtle started to march towards the group. For some really, really strange reason, I felt as if I should protect them. So I did. I ran up the turtle to his head making him stop. My hand reached to the handkerchief in my pocket. It was white with a greyish circle in the corner. I started to rub the turtle's head with the cloth. It started to vibrate, as if it was purring.
Tsuna and the others stopped and saw what I was doing. The turtle started to shrink a tiny bit. I slid down on his back and started to dry his shell. This made him smaller. Then I made my way to his belly. He fell onto his back where he sighed in relief. Soon he was as small as a turtle again. I gently picked him up and examined him. Such a powerful creature he was.
I slowly made my way to Tsuna and gave him the turtle. "Be careful with him." They looked surprised. "U-uh, thank you." He said. There was some silence till I started to walk away. "Wait!" "What is it?" "Why are you up here in the mountains?" "There are things in this world that children shouldn't know of and my reasoning of being up here is one of them." I left them. A while longer, the turtle went back to being turtlezilla. I sighed as I watched them. "Didn't I say to be careful with him?" I went back to my tent structure and took a nap.
Another couple of days passed by; I wondered if I was missed. I changed my outfit to a red dress. There was a white sash across the waist of the dress that was tied to a clean bow. I decided that I would go into town for a change. Everyone paid no attention to me. I went to a small bakery and ordered a tiramisu. Grandmother used to make me tiramisu as a child and I missed it. I just missed her more than everything.
There was a complementary espresso that came with it as well. I took a small bite of the cake and was surprised as to how good it was. "It's better than I thought." I said rather softly. The espresso warmed me up as it infiltrated my cold, lifeless body. The door opened and I saw the same girls from school that tends to bully me. I paid no heed.
They didn't even look at me which I was thankful. I, once again, took out the box and opened it up. My eyes read the letter countless times. When I was done with the cake, I left and walked back to the mountain but was stopped. "You're the one from yesterday!" Tsuna looked at me shocked. I knew that I was going to have to talk to him. "Yes it is." He walked to me.
"You're injured." He said pointing to my arm. "It's nothing, please don't worry about me." "At least let me treat your wounds." He said as he took my hand into his. "Fine. Just leave me alone after." He started to drag me to his house. I was lucky that I looked different with a dress on and with my hair down for a change. "You're finally home, Tsu-kun." I heard a lovely voice call out.
"I brought a friend over. She's injured so I brought her here to treat her wounds." His mother literally ran to me. "Follow me dear. I'll treat that wound of yours." "That's alright mama, I'll treat her wounds. You go prepare dinner." A woman with purple hair said. Tsuna's mother nodded as the strange woman walked towards me and took my hand and walked upstairs with me. She un-wrapped my arm and started to clean it.
"My I ask as to how you got this wound?" I wasn't going to tell her about the abuse. "How I got that wound if no one's business." She started to put some ointment on my arm then wrapped it up. "Is there anymore that you would like me to wrap up for you?" She said. "I'm fine. Thank you for helping." I walked downstairs with her behind me. Tsuna's mother walked to me and smiled. "How about you stay for tea."
"I'm sorry, I can't stay. My parents would be mad if I didn't come home soon." She looked to me sadly and nodded. As I left, I felt mad with myself for not taking the offer. I shook it off and went back to the base.
The next day, I went to school. I didn't want to but I did. Class was the same as no one paid any attention to me. During lunch, though, I was dragged to the back of the building. "Sit!" They ordered. As a good trained bird, I did their bidding. They took a judo sword and started to beat me. I stayed there silently, not moving. "Why are you still alive?!" "We thought that you would have died by now."
It seemed like everyone wants the same thing. Is it being too selfish to want freedom? Is it too selfish to have a friend? For many, they think that I'm being too selfish. After they stopped they walked away, satisfied. I was left with bruises and scratches all over my body. I stayed there thinking things over. The only friend I had was the priest, who died. My parents hate me as well as my classmates. "I, Arianna Kazu, have found no more meaning to life. I, Arianna, should die like everyone says." My fingers dug themselves into the dirt.
I painfully stood up and went home. My parents saw me and took me to a secluded place. My father took out his gun and pointed it at me. My heart started to pound. I was afraid.
But, isn't it what I wanted…?
