Gram decides she wants to take me for breakfast the next day, so I meet her downstairs.

"Morning sweetie, why are you using that thing?" She's talking about my wheelchair.

"I'm really weak, Grandma- Gram." I pull up to the table. She tells me all about dad when he was a kid, and all about her boyfriend. Then she asks about me, and my childhood. I feel like I can talk to her so I tell her all about my mom and the kids at school, she comforts me. I tell her all about Leo too, she seems really happy for me that I've got a boyfriend and I've managed to be pretty happy even though I could die. She doesn't use those words exactly.

"Let me take you shopping, get you some nice pyjamas so you don't have to wear that hideous gown all the time."

"I don't know if I'm allowed out, the last time I left the hospital it didn't go so well."

"I'm sure I can get your father to agree to it."

"It's not him I'm worried about, it's Nurse Jackson." Now that I think about it, Nurse J and Gram are probably going to butt heads.

"Oh I'm not scared of some nurse."

"You should be."

She takes me back upstairs and Nurse Jackson is at the nurses station.

"Hey." I say trying to get her stop looking at her paperwork. "This is my Gram."

"Hello Gram." She does a double take at her, then looks at me. "Uh, it's nice to meet you." I'm guessing dad didn't tell Nurse J about her. She doesn't bother asking any questions.

"It's a pleasure to meet you too." They shake hands. "I was wondering if I could take Alice shopping?"

"You understand she's under going chemotherapy right?"

"Yes, of course, but it would only be for a couple of hours or so." Nurse J sees my pleading look.

"One hour, and Alice, if you feel the slightest bit sick, get back here immediatley."

"Okay! Thanks Nurse Jackson." I hug her. "I'll just go get dressed Gram."

We meet back out in the hall, she looks at my clothes in a weird way. I guess she doesn't like my style. She takes my outside to her big fancy car, it's almost as nice as Kara's. She helps me get up into the front seat and then puts my chair in the trunk.

"You know we don't have to drive, there's a department store across the street?"

"I'm taking you to this adorable little boutique." Sounds a little girly, but I want to make her happy. She puts on the radio to some classic station. She tells me more about her life, when she was my age she fell in love with a boy too, but he turned about to be her alcoholic husband. She goes on to tell me how a lot of loves aren't forever. I think she's trying to tell me something.

"Gram, no offence but Leo's not like that."

"Not yet." Dad's right, she is opinionated. I change the subject straight away.

We pull up outside the pinkest, fluffiest store I've ever seen. She helps me into my chair again and we go inside. It's even pinker and fluffier inside. A woman in a tight pink skirt and matching jacket comes over to us.

"Hi there. How can I help?"

"Hi, my granddaughter and I are looking for a cute little night dress."

"Night dress?" I look up at her.

"Of course, right this way." The woman leads us to a rail full of girly night dresses, they're all hideous.

"Oooh, what about this one?" Gram picks out the most hideous of the bunch. It's got sequins on the waist.

"Who wears sequins to bed? Is there something a little more plain?"

"This one?" She holds up a pink top with matching shorts.

"It's just, well pink's not really my colour, is there a blue one or something?"

"We have some more mature nightwear if you'd like to take a look?" The shop assistant takes us down the back of the store. There's some very mature nightwear and lingerie. I notice some shelves with some normal looking pyjamas on them, there's a silk night shirt with cute shorts to match. It comes in black.

"What about these?"

"Well sure if you want to look like a goth." Gram folds her arms.

"I like them."

"I like these." She holds up the pink PJ's again. She can tell by my face that I hate them. "What if we get both? And, these." She picks up a pair of fuzzy pink slippers. I know it would make her happy so I agree, even though I don't see the point of wearing slippers when I'm always in bed or in a wheelchair. She takes me back to the hospital just in time.

"Hey, I haven't seen you since yesterday, where've you been?" Leo comes out into the hall. He sees Gram.

"Leo, this is my grandma, Gram, this is my boyfriend Leo."

"Uh, it's nice to meet you." He extend his hand to her but she hugs him instead.

"I've heard so much about you! You are as handsome as Alice told me, and those eyebrows, gorgeous!" Leo looks a little taken aback.

"Yeah, I just met her yesterday. Gram, why don't you go hang out with Dad, me and Leo are gonna go to my room." I take the pink bag from her.

"Alright sweetie you kids have fun!" She kisses me and hugs Leo again before walking off to fine dad. Leo and I go to my room.

"So, where did she come from?"

"Help me up, I can't do it," He lifts me into my bed, "She just showed up last night yelling for her granddaughter."

"She's uh, quite a woman." I pull the covers over me and lie down.

"She's exhausting." I close my eyes. "Can you turn the lights off please? And shut the blinds?" My head is killing me.

"Sure, do you want me to leave you to sleep?" He does it and comes back over to me.

"No," I reach out for him, "Come here." I pull him over to my left and he gets into bed next to me. He faces me and we hold hands. "Did you always get this worn out?"

"When I was in chemo? Yeah all the time. It stopped a few weeks after my last round, but then I had the surgery and I was tired and sick for a little bit after that too."

"I kinda wish I could just skip all the chemo and try surgery first."

"If they're giving you chemo instead of surgery, it's because they don't think you need surgery, so it's a good thing."

"It doesn't feel like a good thing." I sit back up. "I'll be right back." I hurry out of bed and to the bathroom and puke in the toilet.

"You want me to get a nurse?" He shouts from my room.

"No, it's okay." I clean myself up and get a glass of water. I go back out to him and get back into bed. "It's getting a little easier to deal with on my own."

"You're not on your own." I lay my head on his chest.

"Aren't you supposed to be in class?"

"Yeah but I wanna stay with you." He kisses my head and I snuggle into him.