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I thank my lucky stars everyday that Pigwidgeon actually grew… eventually. He didn't stay a tiny little pocket owl forever (just for all of MY adolescent life). Eventually, after much feeding and much annoying chattering, he grew into full owl-sized proportions and learned to be dignified (which means shutting up now and then and letting people think while he's in the room.) Ginny was disappointed; after all, she thought he was very cute. But really, when you see a grey tennis ball struggling to support a box the size of your own head…

But yes, Pigwidgeon did grow up, around the same time I did. And now he came soaring through the window, just high enough to evade the fingers of the little ones grabbing at his tail feathers below. He landed quite gracefully on the counter and dropped the many envelopes in his beak, holding out his leg so 'Mione could untie the scroll on his leg.

"Christmas cards from your family, Ron. All of them." She grabbed he bag of Owl Treats behind her, sliding the stack of envelopes across the counter to where I sat. Pig ate a couple of treats gratefully before flying out again to deliver our cards to the extended family. I flipped through the multi-colored envelopes lamely – Mum and Dad, Bill and Fleur, Harry and Ginny, George and Angelina, Percy and Audrey, Charlie—until I found one interesting enough to stop. The thin, slanting handwriting was not familiar to me. I hastened to open it, sliding my fingers underneath the flap. "Who's that from?"

I looked up quickly, surprised to hear Hermione, though I knew she was there. I chuckled inwardly at my own reverie. "No idea, hon." She crossed the kitchen and plucked it from my fingers, scrutinizing the writing. Shrugging, she handed it back and turned back to the pancakes cooking themselves on the stove.

I had just gotten the flap unsealed when she turned back to face me and leant on the counter. "What's going on?"

I looked up, startled again. Merlin, was I jumpy today. Having no idea what she was talking about, I half-shrugged, speaking in a casual tone. "What d'you mean?"

She scoffed. I hated it when she scoffed. She made me feel so stupid, especially when we were kids. "You slept in this morning." I didn't see the point. She rolled her eyes. "This morning. It's Christmas. When do you forget Christmas?"

I shrunk back defensively. "I've just been stressed. Work." She looked unconvinced. It was always difficult to reason with Hermione when she'd made her mind up about something. Especially when we were kids.

Everything was harder when we were kids.

"Really, it's just work. There's nothing going on."

"If there's nothing going on at work then what's the matter?" I gave her a look, knowing that she knew that wasn't what I had meant. Knowing that she knew that I knew that she knew that. She sighed. "Okay, fine. Then what about after? Y'know, when you spaced out during presents."

I mustered up my best 'I-have-no-idea-what-you're-talking-about' looks and crossed my arms indignantly. "I was not spaced out during presents." I was totally spaced out during presents.

"Really? What did Harry get you?" I looked up at her triumphant smirk.

I tried to remain solid in my argument. "You really think I don't know what my best friend got me for Christmas?"

She considered that for all of half a second then nodded. "Yeah, I do."

I looked up at her for another minute or so before sighing, defeated. "Okay, I don't know what my best friend got me for Christmas." I looked down at my hands, fiddling with the envelope I was still holding. She was still waiting for me to tell her what was wrong, so, of course, I made something up. "Really, nothing's wrong. I'm just tired, from work. Not really in the 'Christmas spirit' today." I must have looked more miserable than I thought I did (perhaps from my not-so-restful sleep last night), for she let it go right then and there.

She really shouldn't have, but I wasn't about to say anything.

XxXxX

We had dinner at my parents' house that night. It wasn't anything unusual, for Christmas at least. Looking at the table, laden in all its Christmas glory, however, made me feel an unexpected pang of guilt. Hermione was right. I had neglected the Christmas season this year. It wasn't really fair at all, to my family and my friends, and certainly not to me. I loved Christmas. Christmas was my time of year. Or, it had been, every other year.

As I came to this realization, I felt more and more like a fraud. Every minute seated at that table with smiling faces all around me made me feel much, much worse about the prick I was being. They'd never tell me I was being a prick (well, Ginny might), but I knew that I was.

I was spacing again, staring blankly at my plate, wallowing in my epiphany. Somebody elbowed me in the side and I started. My head snapped to the side, my face screwed up in an expression to guilt the hell out of whoever had the nerve to elbow me while I was 'enjoying' Christmas dinner.

It was Harry. Oh, okay.

"Hey, mate, what's up?"

People really needed to stop asking that. I mean, it wasn't like I was about to come right out and say 'So, I'm still dreaming about your godfather standing over me with a knife and it's scaring the heck out of me to the point where I can't focus on Christmas.' So I shrugged. "Nothing, really. What about you? Hey Gin, pass the potatoes, will ya?"

Harry gave me a look. "About the same. It's Christmas, my only time of year to relax."

"I hear you." I grabbed the bowl from my sister, grateful for some excuse to look down again.

Harry raised an eyebrow skeptically. "Do you? Hermione said you were really stressed out, or something. Because of work." Crap. Harry knew I hadn't been at work this week. "Wanna tell me what's really going on?"

I heaved a sigh. "Nothing is going on. Just been feeling a bit… off, is all."

"Yeah… you are looking a bit peaky."

"Thanks mate." I returned to my potatoes. I didn't say another word beyond the required "thanks for the gift I really loved it" and the occasional guess at a game of charades.

XxXxX

I turned over, looking at the clock. It was 2:30, and I still hadn't managed to sleep. Was I afraid to return to a world where my thirteen year-old self was being tormented by a not-so-mass-murderer? I sighed and swung my legs over the side of the bed. I was hungry, that's all. I'd eat something and get back to bed, and return to my crazy dreamland like I did every other night.

The kitchen was quiet. Well, of course it was quiet; it was 2:30 in the morning. The other three members of my family were asleep, soundly asleep. No stupid nightmares to bother them. I went over to the fridge and pulled out the milk, placing it on the counter as I went in search of a cup. Finding one, I kicked the door of the fridge closed and began pouring my milk. I allowed my eyes to wander as I did this, and they finally came to rest on an envelope. The off-white envelope I had opened this morning and the only card that had remained unread.

My hand froze, holding the jug still poised over the cup as milk flowed into it. I wondered briefly who had sent it. The writing was familiar; perhaps something I'd seen when I was younger.

Like when I was thirteen.

Like the day I got Pigwidgeon. It was difficult to remember how tiny he was exactly in comparison to his grand stature now, but I could see him as clearly as if I was thirteen all over again. Bobbing outside the window, twittering like a buffoon, excited to be delivering the tiny scrap of parchment.

And the writing on the parchment, it was—

Milk spilled off the counter and onto the floor, splashing my bare feet and wakening me from my stupor. I slammed the jug down on the counter, cursing, and crossed to the cupboards on the other end of the kitchen, pulling out a cloth. I dropped to my knees on the floor and began wiping frantically, mind still reeling. That writing, I'd know it anywhere.

Sirius Black was writing to me.

A/N: Which begs the question, why? Want to find out? Lemme know!