It was now after dinner, and almost everyone is back in their rooms. I continually walked around, looking for the corporal. I found him in the courtyard, sitting against a tree, as he gazed toward the direction of the wall. There was that look again. The sadness. "What was he thinking about?" I wondered. I suddenly felt an acute pain in my chest. When I see Rivaille hurt, I feel hurt too, I realize. Without thinking, I take a step closer to him. As the best solider humanity has to offer, of course he notices my presence. The earnest expression on his face is replaced by an adamant one.

"Jaeger." he says

It's strange, his words are spoken in the way he always speaks, but something about his voice is much kinder than before. But maybe that's just my wishful thinking.

"Sir," I said smiling at him, "I just wanted-"

"If you are here to discuss what happened earlier this afternoon, I assure you, it won't happen again."

That pain in my chest again, I abruptly felt waves of disappointment hit me. I don't know what's happening to me, but I am sure of one thing, I want him. I lose all sense of logic at this moment. I grab Rivaille's collar, and pressed my lips against his. He kissed back for a brief moment, before snapping out of it and delivering a flying knee to my stomach.

I gasped, though that kick wasn't totally unexpected. Then, he follows through with a roundhouse kick using his other leg. I tumbled to the ground, gasping for air. That was an intense kick, almost…thrilling! Wait, what? Am I a masochist?…ew. I was leaning against the tree now, and Rivaille placed his heel on my left shoulder. His face drawing closer.

"Insolent brat. Did you really think you could get away with this?" Rivaille growled in a deep voice

No matter how he scolds me, when I realized that I was in love with him, every word he says sounds entrancing. Anyhow, I need to find the truth. I know exactly how I feel about Rivaille now, and I need to understand what he thinks about me. I doubt that kiss earlier today meant nothing, that he was just fooling around. I hope it meant something. Please, just feel something for me! I got to understand his feelings, or I swear I will explode.

"Corporal Rivaille, how exactly do you feel about me? Don't say that your kiss earlier was a joke. Please sir" I say to him, my voice firm, but my eyes begging.

The Corporal closed his eyes, deep in thought. I could see him frowning slightly, as he sighed.

"Jaeger… I will admit that I acted upon my desires today, and I will apologize for that. I laid my hands on a younger man, and a solider no less. There's…no excuse for what I have done." Rivaille looked at the ground as he put his leg down from his dominating position.

Did…he just say desires? Does the Corporal actually like me? My body moved on its own and I hugged Rivaille. I wrapped my hands around his lower back, pulling him closer to me. Astonishingly, he didn't resist. He was finally sitting in front of me, and I buried my face in his chest. I wish time would stop, because the corporal's warmth hit me with nostalgia. I felt at home.

"I love you corporal" I whispered

Soundlessly, he ran his hand through my hair. I smiled at this. He didn't accept or reply to my feelings, but he didn't reject me either. "I'm so easy" I thought. Just being in his arms is enough. But then again, it's only his arms, no one else can make me feel this way. Now, since he wouldn't make a move on me, I guess I have to. I let go of his back and reached for his neck and head. We sat there, staring for a moment. Then, I cupped my hands on his cheeks and pulled his face toward my own. Trying to remember what he did earlier, closed my eyes and gently sucked on his top lip. However, I already experienced this before, and I want a little more than just that. I wedged my bottom lip between his, and opened my mouth slightly, prying his open. My tongue slipped in, as I try my best to explore the inside of his mouth. To my avidity, Rivaille started moving too, our tongues intertwining. We were battling it out, and I know how much the corporal hates to lose. Some saliva trickled down my chin when he pushed his tongue into my mouth. He started shoving his tongue down my throat. Opposed to the soft kisses earlier, this rough, passionate, intense kiss was far more exhilarating. I hugged Rivaille tighter, and he hugged me back. There was no one else in the world but us now, no troubles, calamity, titans. Just us, my beloved and me. Just then, I realized that I haven't been breathing. I gasped for air, breaking the kiss. Corporal Rivaille grinned. Not his normal, evil smirk, but a playful grin.

"What a mood breaker." Rivaille chuckled, "You do realize that you can breathe with your nose right?"

Blood rushed to my face. This was the most embarrassed that I've ever felt since…well, ever. I lifted my hand to cover my face, but Rivaille stopped me.

"Don't cover your face, it's cute" He said softly

I didn't think that it was possible to get redder, but I'm positive that I am now five shades redder than before. But wait, does this mean he accepts me? What is our relationship now?

"S-Sir," I stammer, "Does this mean you accept m-my feelings?"

"I'm not sure if I can." sighed Rivaille

"W-…what?"

"This relationship wouldn't do you any good." he explained

Suddenly, my selfish desire took over. I didn't care about the future, his or my own. I want him to be mine now. Though I've always known my purpose in life, defeating the titans, There was still something missing. Sure, I had my family's love, but this love was different. He was different. If someone were to find out, I'll get rid of them. Anything for Rivaille, I want to be with him. I'm even getting desperate because of him.

"I don't care! Please Corporal! I want only you. I don't even care of what other people think about us. I promise to-"

Rivaille held up a finger to my lips.

"That's not what I meant." he smirked, "I've been holding back for a while now, so keep saying cute things like that, and I'll push you down in no time."

I was stunned. The person I've always loved is like this. How…enticing. A huge smile crept onto my face.

"Help yourself."