AN: Okay. I don not (no will i ever) own Loveless. Hehe.
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I'll be there. No matter what I'll always be there when you need me.
A tall, light blonde haired man entered Ritsuka's room slowly. He found the boy huddled against the wall by his bed.
He had known Ritsuka needed him.. He just hadn't known how much. He took a few quick steps over to the boy, scooping him gently into his arms. He slowly brushed the flowing tears off Ritsuka's cheeks before kissing him lightly. His fingers lightly touched Ritsuka's lips.
"I'm here Ritsuka, don't worry."
The boy in his arm's trembled, his lips quivering as he lifted his head, looking into Soubi's eyes. "You didn't have to come.. It's not a big deal. I'll be fine."
Seeing Ritsuka like this always hurt Soubi... It hurt him to know that Ritsuka was so frail.. so fragile. He continued to stroke the small boy's head, his fingers pausing to rub the soft cat ears that were placed ontop of the boy's head.
"Don't say that Ritsuka.." he leaned forward to press his lips against Ritsuka's.
The boy shook his head quickly, Soubi knew reasoning would not work with Ritsuka as he pressed the boy closer to his chest.
"I-I don't need you here Soubi! I.. i was just lonely" he shook, his head pressed against Soubi's shoulder as a sob passed his lips. "You don't have to come anymore.. I shouldn't want you here."
Soubi's hands wrapped around to press against Ritsuka's back as he felt the boy push away "I'm here for you Ritsuka, you are my first priority.. you are my life"
The boy pushed at Soubi viciously as he ground his teeth togther, he growled as he nearly shouted "Thats a lie, Soubi! A lie!" the sob that shook the boy caused his whole body to tremble. he glared at Soubi, tears brimming his eyes. "Dont. say that!" he managed between clenched teeth "You don't love me as much as you love him" He sneered the last word, the discust in his tone was overwhelming. "I don't have you Soubi! I never will!" his small hands clutched Soubi's shoulders as he sat there "Not as long as he's alive. You'll never want me as much. I'll never have anyone! Semei has everything! I have nothing!" the small boy's voice broke as he voice hitched, another sob shakeing him. "I'll never have anything.. " he whispered quietly..
Soubi stared, the anger that over took his young love surpised him. He opened his mouth to speak.. but couldn't bring himself to say anything as he saw just how hurt Ritsuka was.
"You controll me now Ritsuka"
The boy's hands clenched into fists as he pulled on hand away and pointed at the bandages wrapped tightly around Soubi's neck "He has you Soubi! no matter what you say! You know full well that if he were to ever want you.. even at this very moment.. you would go"
Soubi was shakeing his head before the boy could finish. "I don't know exactly what would happen Ritsuka.. I will nev-"
"Stop it! Just stop it! i can't take it, Soubi!"
Soubi stared into Ritsuka's eyes "If I ever left with semei.. No matter what.. I would find a way to end my time here. I would die.. just so I wouldn't have to be with him"
