Him- a MLP fan fiction

Order.

Good.

Me.

I am loved and adored by everyone… but in the sea of people, where most I don't recall their names, there is one I want to be lost in the sea with and sadly that one is not included.

He is so strongly influent in the future of my kingdom that I unhappily had to cast him away in frozen time, where he will see ages go without him saying so. He would see me visit when skies are tired dark. He would watch me speak to him spiteful without him ever replying back about how I despise his demise, how everyone is hateful towards him, how I wish he were dead. But leave the part unspoken about how I wish he were dead so I won't care about him, or my kingdom, or what others say about him. But that won't help anyone, I know, so I start changing subjects. I would start talking about what good he would have done if he realized it, how he would change so much, how he wouldn't be turned into stone forever stiff and motionless. But leave the part unmentioned of how, maybe, if this little detail can be alter I would love him today. Then he would watch me with pleading eyes, almost remorse or shameful and I would use my magic to undo his spell, just in his mouth so I can hear what he is about to say. "I hate you so very much, my dear Princess." But I know he's going to say just that, how many times have I seen it already? Though I do it to make myself realize that he would never change, he would never change for me, he would never care for someone rather than himself, he would never be mine, and that I'm stupid. He his fear, he is chaos, he his bad, he his darkness. He is not mine.

He is too lost in himself to realize that I'm standing beside him. He is too lost in himself that he doesn't realize that I turned him back into his course, that is more a course to me then him, that I'm crying, that I'm hurting, that I can never be the order in his chaos... He is too lost in himself to realize I'm gone.

But I am loved and adored by everyone… but in the sea of people, where most I don't recall their names; there is one I rather want to be lost in instead of this. In the darkness abyss because in the dark they say stars shine brightest. Because in the darkness the only star I see shining from the distance is the one that I so yearn for to love and adore me even though I know it's so unthinkable and unreachable.

Him.