Fix You
Authors Note: All, I received a comment from someone telling me that they had trouble accepting the premise. I get it. I watched the scene where they got back together tonight for my recap and I can feel the heat just watching. That is why I was so shocked at this season and how she continued to push him away. I am just trying to give Logan some peace. I think if Veronica hadn't doubted him so many things would have been different. Anyway, the fact is Logan was with other people Carrie and Parker so this not inconceivable? But if no one reads it that is okay because I know that devoted fans can't see him with anyone else. This is just something that I envisioned and had to get out…to do Logan some justice.
Chapter 2: Memories Flood back
This morning she was feeling particularly perky as she got of her car and walked towards the Hearst cafeteria. While she hadn't gotten much sleep the last couple of days she had done a lot of writing and she was going to meet Carrie Bishop and Melanie Price, two girls that were in her music class. They all discussed the possibility of starting a band with Erica's writing talent and voice as well as Carrie's voice and piano and Melanie's guitar it seemed almost natural. They all had dreams of becoming famous someday. It had been several weeks since that fateful day she met up with Logan again but since then she hadn't been able to sleep well. The memories just flowed so freely. "Erica wait please stop running" the little boy was out of breath trying to chase the red-headed girl running in front of him. "Logan leave me alone, please I just want to be alone" she said as she finally stopped in front of the back yard playhouse they had played in so many times. " She turned around to see him stop right in front of her and her eyes were shining with tears. "No one wants to be alone" he said to her as he put his arm around her and they sat down on the muddy ground. The brave ten year old tried to hold her tears back as she looked at him. "I can't believe she's gone. She would've hated the fact that I soiled my dress" she said with a bitter laugh. "It's going to okay Erica. You are going to get through this. Did your Dad ever tell you what happen? "No, I keep asking him but he won't say. He looks so lost. Every time they mention it on TV he turns it off. The only thing I can get is that they think she killed herself, but I can't believe that. My mom loved us so why would she leave?" Erica said as she reached for the tissue she had in her hand. "Well people leave for lots of reasons; maybe it had nothing to do with you." Logan said. Erica looked directly at him now knowing that she was going to have to tell him the bad news eventually. She was only ten and didn't understand how in a matter of days she was losing her mom and her best friend all at once, the more she thought about it the more she couldn't take it! "Logan, I know you're a boy and boys are supposed to have cooties but I want you to know that you are the best friend I ever had." "Logan looked at her and smiled. "Well you're not so bad yourself…for a girl." She smiled back at him and immediately felt some of the burden she carried the last couple of days lighten. She quickly pushed Logan to the ground and yelled "Tag your it!" while leaping to her feet. "Erica, hey are you okay?" Hearing her name woke her from her day-dream. She looked over at Logan standing in line at the cafeteria. "Hey stranger haven't seen much of you around here" she winked. "Yeah, I guess I have avoided the world…here I was trying to avoid my ex-girlfriend and there she is sitting over there at the table." Logan brushed his hand in his hair as he said it and subtly pointed to the fourth table in the middle of the cafeteria. Erica looked over and trying not to stare took the girl in. She was petite and blonde and she was staring at them with a mixture of sadness, confusion and anger on her face. It was obvious to Erica that she still cared about Logan and whatever their issues Logan obviously still cared about her. Erica reached over and put her hand on Logan's face and pulled him down to meet her eyes. "Well let's not disappoint her" Logan looked confused. "What are you doing?" he asked. "I am whispering sweet nothings in your ear cuz she is looking right at us. We might be able to make her jealous." Logan finally understood and smirked at her. When they finally looked away from each other they both turned to see Veronica storming out of the cafeteria. "Boy she has got it bad for you…I don't think you'll have to wait long before she comes crawling back to you!" "You think so?" Logan couldn't help but smile. Veronica was cute when she was jealous and what made it cute was that she always denied that she was jealous even though the expression on her face said it all. Logan was always was good at reading her. "Hey so I have to go meet Carrie so I guess I'll see you around." Erica said as she turned to leave. "Carrie Bishop? What is she doing here?" Logan asked. "She goes to school here, do you know her? "Erica furrowed her brow a little. "Yeah we went to high school with her, Veronica and me." "I said it before and I'll say it again, it's a small world! "Erica laughed and shrugged her shoulders, I'll see you later buddy." "Yeah sure, bye" said Logan. Erica walked out of the cafeteria and straight into the bathroom. She didn't know why but her heart was beating in her chest being so close to him like that, smelling his scent and feeling his breathe…stop it Erica, he is in love with another women...Geez. Lost in thought she left the bathroom and headed for the music room where she saw Mel and Carrie waiting for her. "What the hell Erica you're like 15 mins late girl" Carrie said as she sat by the piano. Erica rolled her eyes "I got caught up in the cafeteria" Mel piped in, "Yeah talking to Logan Echolls and looking pretty friendly there, eh? " "You saw us?" Erica said as she blushed. Mel laughed but Carrie looked serious as she said "Watch out Erica, I don't want you to get hurt. Logan Echolls was a heartbreaker in high school until he met Veronica Mars. Then she broke his heart. I wouldn't want to go near that love triangle with a ten foot pole!" "I am fine Erica said…we grew up together until we were ten and I moved and then I met with him a couple of weeks ago. That's all!" Erica said as she took the mic from the stand…"Enough gossip, let's make some music."
Veronica's POV
She was sitting in the cafeteria getting ready to eat her breakfast when she spotted him the food line. Logan Echolls, don't you get it, ex-boyfriend that's your new title. It comes with certain restrictions. This is my food court time you're not a breakfast person, you're not even an early lunch kind of guy. Can't we just agree this is Veronica time? She thought as she sat there watching him. Suddenly she saw a cute redhead approach him in the line. Hmm, she frowned, who the hell is that and why do they look a little too cozy for my taste. She sat watching them for a few minutes and her body tensed as she saw the redhead girl lean into him. What alternate universe was she living in any way? Had Logan really moved on that quickly? I mean it has only been a couple of weeks? She was pretty that is for sure. God Veronica what do you expect I mean this is Logan were talking about, my hot sexy Logan, only he isn't mine anymore and by the looks of things he seems to belong to some else. This was too much. Veronica new Logan might very well find some comfort in meaningless sex with some floozy because that is how he coped. But there was something in the way they looked at each that told her this was not just meaningless sex! OMG she was going to be sick she just had to get out of there. She stood up and walked toward the door as fast as she could. She only looked back in just enough time to see them part ways. She felt a panic wave come over. Veronica what were you thinking…Logan put his heart on the line and you threw it back in his face. Well I am not going to stand by and just let him go. "Veronica" Mac said as she approached with two other people. Well I guess I'll have to come up with a plan later, Veronica thought.
Later that same day…
She didn't know how long she had stood outside Logan's room at the Neptune Grand but she had a feeling it was a while. She was pacing back and forth, her hands were shaking…God Veronica what is the matter with you! It's Logan, just knock on the door and say it. Say what? Say you're sorry for the way you treated him and that you love him and you don't want to lose him to that stupid girl you saw him with earlier. When she finally stopped pacing she was a little winded. She made a mental note that perhaps she should enroll in Logan's weightlifting class next semester. She took a deep breath and knocked on the door. It's now or never Veronica. She waited for what seemed like hours until finally the door opened and there he was. Logan Echolls, her Logan. His mouth dropped a bit at the sight of her. What the hell she is doing here, he thought. They both stood there for a moment taking each other in. Logan's eyes looked sad and desperate and Veronica couldn't help but feel a wave of guilt wash over her. Maybe he wasn't seeing anyone after all, she thought. Logan could tell that no matter how hard she tried her eyes were shining with the tears she couldn't let go of. Before Veronica could open her mouth to say anything they found each other like magnets they were drawn toward each other. Veronica grabbed Logan's face as their mouths closed in on one another with so much need it was almost too much. Logan wrapped his arms so tight around her she could barely breathe but it was okay because he didn't want to let her go again. They held the kiss as Logan fiddled with the door to close it shut. Her mouth started to tease his as her tongue found the roof of his mouth and she could feel the heat rising in her body. Logan's hands now drifted to the lower part of her buttocks and squeezed tightly. It was getting more difficult for him to control his desire for her. This was going to be a good night…he couldn't believe that she came back to him and he resolved to push his uneasy feeling as far back as his mind would let him. Tonight he was going to get his chance to show her his love and he was going to pleasure her as much and long as he could. Tonight he was not going to think about the inevitable disappointment she would have in him when she did what she always did and started digging too deep into old wounds. Maybe Erica was right. She might still love him after all. He thought. Logan smiled at the thought of it as he began to take off her bra and take her in. Yes, tonight was going to be epic!
