Chapter: One
Running
Penelope had been a week in the BAU and the pictures she had to look at made her sick to her stomach and at night she would go home and hug her kids and have Jessie talk her out of fleeing again. "You need to stop doing that." he tells her all the time. The team she hasn't met yet they were still away.
Pen hated violence so she never understood why she was once married and to a cop of all people. Pen cringed at thinking of Jake Monroe. Jake was her first everything, and then he was nothing at all. Pen remembered like it was yesterday., her parents being killed, her brothers shutting her out cause they hurt so bad and then there was Jake Monroe promising her forever, normally she was level headed and thought things, but after she lost everything she clung to the one person that promised to love her forever. It might have been cause she was pregnant too and he was the father. Jake and Pen were married and then there daughter was born. They moved to Chicago and Jake became a police officer and they were the perfect family. Pen stayed home and took care of Bethany and improved her hacker skills that Jake had no idea about. They were all happy and then things changed, Jake was distant and was pushing her away, but she remained the devoted wife and ignored all the rumors that she heard.
She even threw her every other weekend BBQ and that was when her life changed forever cause she met him, and she was never the same again.
Flashback
Pen was cleaning her house getting ready for the BBQ hoping that this would make her husband happy again, Pen was cleaning when she heard the door bell. "I'm coming she yelled, checking on Bethany then went to the door. Pen opened it and saw her other favorite cop Nick Wells, he has been a really good friend to her, she met him at one of her husbands poker night and he always stopped in to check on her, but today he wasn't alone. "Hey I hope it's cool, I brought my best friend Morgan with me, he just got back from being gone for a while." Nick said as he gave her a hug. "Any friend of yours is welcome here. Nice to meet you Morgan!" Pen said and held out her hand. "It's Derek Morgan actually,it's nice to meet you too. Something smells good."
Derek said and Pen smiled. "Thanks hon Jake is not a fan but all the guys love it so I make it for them and make him his own." Pen said. "I wouldn't make him anything. Nick grumbled. Pen smiled at him and went back to preparing the salad. "Mooomy mooomy!' Bethany yelled.
Pen turned around and saw her daughter holding the television remote. "Mooomy. Tb no work"
Bethany pouted. "It does work honey, you just can't watch Walker." Pen said. Pen smiled when her daughter looked at Nick. "Niiiick! Blease make Ralker texwas Wanger play pleaeeese!" Bethany begged. "How about Nick sits and watches Barney with you, would you like that?"
Pen said hiding her laugh and Nick looked like he wanted to kill her. "Weally Nick? U ratch Barney rith me?" Bethany looked so cute, Nick picked up the little girl who smiled and hugged him. Pen smiled at Derek who was making fun of Nick. Derek offered to help and they talked for a while. The BBQ happened and she was being a hostess and Derek was talking with Nick when he watched Natalie (She is the secretary for the station) walk in and the guy she was screwing at the precinct earlier walk right behind her. Derek was about to ask Nick who he was when he saw her walk up to Pen and give her a little kiss and Bethany called him Daddy. Derek pulled Nick to the side and told him what he saw. Nick shook his head," Pen is hardheaded, she won't believe it till she sees it. Natalie isn't the only chic he is screwing, he usually sleeps with hooker and stuff, Natalie and Pen hang out"Derek was mad that this man was screwing some chic when he had Pen at home. Then he is shocked cause why is he so mad, he never cared before.
Pen felt the party was a success, but Jake was still not around a lot. Pen got tired of being home all the time and so she took herself and Bethany to the park where she saw Derek playing with a dog, throwing a Frisbee and the dog was catching it. Bethany saw Derek and ran over to him.
"Dewek!" Bethany yelled. Derek turned around and smiled when he saw Pen and Bethany.
"Hey Derek. Haven't seen you since the BBQ. How have you been?" Pen said walking closer.
"Yeah I went to see my family for the week and Monday I start back at work. " Derek said walking over to the bench where Pen was. "Ah yeah Jake hasn't been home much so I wasn't sure I you and him were working the same case." Pen said laughing as Derek's dos chased Bethany around and she was laughing. "No um I won't be working with him much, I along with Nick are going to work for the bomb squad unit." Derek said. "He is Clooney by the way." Derek said to Bethany who was petting him. "Bomb squad wow that is dangerous, you're girlfriend is going to be worried sick." Pen said. Derek smiled at her concern. "No girlfriend for me right now, I have no time but my Ma is worried and my two sisters." Derek said. "Yeah when Nick told me he wanted to work for the bomb squad I about slapped him in his head, but I didn't cause well that would not be nice." Pen said. "Nick would have found that hot, so you would have been fine."
Derek said and laughed when Pen smirked back at him. "What would you do Derek Morgan if I went to slap you?" Pen said with a giggle. Derek was laughing and said the first thing that came to his mind; "baby girl I have better things for you to do with me then slap me, and me to you."
Derek said and laughed when he saw her blushing. The conversation ended when Bethany ran up. "Mommy, can Dewek come with us for lunch?" Bethany asked. "If he doesn't have plans"
Pen said. Derek smiled at Bethany and picked her up causing her to giggle and smile up at him.
"Sounds like good way to spend my day." Derek said. The three plus Clooney went to the local diner and had lunch and spent the whole day together. Pen got home at eight and Bethany was already asleep. Jake wasn't home yet and she had such a good day that she didn't want him to ruin it.
And that moment was the start of Pen and Derek, even if she was still a married women. Derek spent everyday he could with Pen and always included Bethany, Nick thought he was playing with fire but he loved seeing Pen and Bethany so happy. Nick did worry though that Derek knew about Jake and didn't tell her. Nick knew it would blow up in his face, he just had no idea how much.
A month later a crying Pen shows up at Derek's apartment crying, when Derek opens the door. Pen runs into his arms and doesn't let him go. Derek brings her inside and sits her on the couch.
"Where is Bethany?" Derek asked. "She is staying at a friends house. I came home after dropping off Bethany and he told me that we needed to talk. I knew it was coming and in a way O had relief cause I was having these feelings." Pen said through her tears. "what kind of feelings?"
Derek asked. Pen looked at him, and he knew but wanted her to say. "What did Jake say baby girl?" Derek asked. "That he has been sleeping with some chic and she is pregnant, but she doesn't want her, and that we have to take care of the baby when he or she is born. Do you believe the nerve of that man. I was so mad that I grabbed my keys and left." Pen said calming down. Derek wiped away the remaining tears. "Why do you stay with him baby girl? You could do so much better." Derek said. Pen looked at him. "You're a good friend Derek, but we both know that isn't true at all. He is the only guy to ever truly love me." Pen said. Derek took her hand and rubbed circles on it to calm her down. "Now baby girl, you know that ain't true. You know I love you. It happened so fast, but it's real what I feel for you." Derek said waiting for a response. Pen just leaned over and kissed him like he wanted her to from the first day he met her.
Derek deepened the kiss letting his tongue meet hers for the first time, no matter what happens in his life, this kiss he will never forget. Derek broke the kiss looking into her eyes and he saw what he felt staring back at him. Derek kissed her again first her lips then made his way slowly to her ears, throat, kissing her lips after every nibble. Derek slowly unbuttoned her shirt kissing each and every bit of skin that was revealed to him till her shirt was off. Derek wanted to tell her how
beautiful he found her, but he knew that words didn't matter, showing her was more important to telling her. Derek helped Pen take off his shirt that she was trying to get off of him but he could tell she was nervous. Derek took his shirt off the rest of the way and stood up bringing Pen with him. "Come to bed baby girl so I can love you properly." Derek said as he held out his hand for her to take. Pen gave her hand and more than that she gave her heart and Derek felt the shift and they didn't make it to the bed before the rest of their clothes were shed. Derek gave her a soft kiss and followed her onto the bed kissing every inch of skin he could find. Pen was finally making some noise that he was waiting for and his hand traveled down her body to her opening, sliding one finger inside her, just slowly pushing in and out watching her moan and arch onto his hand.
Derek was so hard, he wanted to taste every inch of her, but for now he needed to be inside of her and now. Derek kissed her one more time before he slid inside her. Derek went slow at first never wanting to forget this moment, he heard men talk about feeling like this but never till tonight did he experience this for himself, and the moan and whimpers he was hearing spurred him on as he picked up his pace. Derek could tell she was almost ready to come, so he stopped kissing her and licked and sucked on one nipple then the other sending her over the edge, Derek picks up the pace going faster as she ordered him to do, he moved just a bit inside her and hit her g-spot every time and sent her over again. "Come on baby girl one more keep moving with me baby girl" Derek said as he pumped in and out of her hitting that spot every time. Derek slammed in and out of her two more times, exploding into her taking her over the edge with him again. Derek didn't want to move off of her and from inside her so he rolled her over so she was on top. "Derek, wow I-I …..." Pen tried to say. "What is it baby girl, did I hurt you?" Derek asked worried. "No no no Derek you were wonderful. I-I never had that many before." Pen said blushing. Derek smiled and kissed her again. "Now baby girl I feel it's my job now to give you more than I gave you then last." Derek said as he rolled over and Pen said "Oh boy" with a smile before they continued what they started earlier, making memories they would never forget.
The next morning Derek woke up with Pen at his side hearing his door open, only one person had a key and it was Nick. Getting up he covered Pen and kissed her lips, putting some clothes on he walked in the living room to see Nick sitting on the couch. Nick was grinning, he knew who that top belonged too. "I knew she would be here, so you told her about seeing Natalie with Jake and she wasn't mad?" Nick asked but saw the look on Derek's face and then Nick paled and Derek turned around and saw a fully dressed Pen who was wearing his shirt grab the shirt off the couch. 'You want to keep secrets, you should learn to talk lower." Pen said. Derek and Nick stood shocked as Pen walked out. Derek snapped out of it and ran after her, put her car pulled away just as he ran through the hallway towards the door. Derek walked inside and sat on the couch.
Nick sat next to him, putting his hand on his shoulder. "I am real sorry man, I had no idea she was awake." Nick said. "Don't be man, it was my fault. We have to go, going to be late for work.
Derek called Pen but she never picked up. He got a hard case and when he was able to wrap up the case he went to see Pen at her place, and saw a for sale sign on the door. Derek went in search of Jake who was at a bar, Nick was there too. Derek walked over to where Jake was, Nick stood up cause he thought Derek was going to beat the shit out of him."Where is Pen?" Derek said.
Jake who was drunk just laughed. "I know she fucked you last night, took you long enough. See now she is just like me. And where is our Dear Pen, she fucking left me and took the kid, I say good riddance to the kid but Pen going to miss her, she was a freak in the sheets huh man!" Jake said and Derek punched him in the face. Nick pulled Derek out of there and took him home.
Meanwhile Pen and Bethany pull into a driveway and as soon as they park they are greeted by a man who gives Pen a hug and says "Welcome to your new home!"
end of flashback.
Pen was cooking dinner when Justin walked in and pulled on her skirt. "Mama?" Justin said,
Pen lifted the little boy on to the counter. "what's wrong baby?" Pen asked. The little boy looked at his Mom and sighed. "Do I have a Daddy? Cuz jo says Jessie no look like me. Jennnni says that my daddy was great so where is he?" The little boy asked. Pen hid her tears. "Baby when your older I can tell you about him, but know that if he could be here he would." Pen said, that seemed to please the little boy who ate the celery his Mom was cutting and asked to get down. Pen heard him yell that Mommy told me about Daddy finally. Pen sat down letting the tears fall. Did she do the right thing? She asked herself as Jessie walks in and kisses her cheek carrying a giggling Justin and Jen behind him.
"Dinner is served"...
AN: I worked really hard on this one. I wrote in flashback and I haven't done that in a while, but I needed for you the readers to know what lead to today present time. Thanks for all the wonderful reviews Hugs
