Songs in the first chapter are Pain by Three Days Grace and Bleeding It Out by Linkin Park. I won't answer questions about if I myself cut, by the way so don't ask.


A few years back, I sat alone at lunch. My "friends" came over to me.

(An: I know the real relationship between the gang so don't hate)

"Hey Prissy. We missed you late night. What happened? Where you to busy snuggling with your mommy?" Thalia asked with a smirk.

"I fell asleep, thank you. And don't call me Prissy!" I said. I hated it! They always made fun of me and hurt me. And they knew I wouldn't do anything about it. It's been going on for two years already.

Jason pushed me back into the wall I had sat against. I groaned.

"Thanks, Jason," I groaned.

"Hey Prissy," called Leo as he walked up with Piper, Frank, Annabeth, Nico and Hazel.

"Come on, Prissy. After school we're going to Central Park. You wanna come?" Piper asked.

"I don't think I have a choice," I murmured. Frank pushed my head down.

"No you don't," he answered.


At Central Park we played , or as I call it "Throw the baseball as hard as you can at Percy.' I had bruises everywhere. That went on for an hour and a half. When I got home I was ticked off. The apartment was empty. I dug threw the bathroom until I found what I was looking for. A blade. I locked the door and sat on the bathroom floor. I rolled up my sleeve and swiped the blade down my arm. I smiled. Pain felt good.

I swiped again and again and again, and watch the blood flow down my arm. After that day I kept the blade in my pocket. I would sit inside of a bathroom stall and would cut, when I was angry, sad, or felt like I need a swipe. Everything changed last week... giving me the feeling I had to cut more,giving me the feeling pain was my best friend.


It was a boiling hot day...