Ch2- when I was your world
The morning I stood at the village gate with Kiba, waiting for Naruto was a cold one. "There he is" Kiba muttered as Naruto sprinted toward us half out of breath. "Can't you ever get here on time?" Kiba hissed.
"Let's just go" I sighed exiting the gate sliding my back pack into place.
"She okay" I heard Naruto whisper from behind me.
"She's been slightly off ever since….well you know" Kiba answered softly.
I didn't care what they were saying. I'd gone numb to the gossip that spread throughout Kohona long ago. In fact sometimes I felt numb to everything. Even something as sweet as Kakashi's loving touch. Some people said id lost my mind others said Sasuke had broken me. A harsh cold wind moved through the air and my long blue hair whipped me in the face. I wasn't usually leading the way for anything.
I was walking ahead of Kiba and Naruto for once. Even though I should have been proud of myself for taking charge I felt nothing. My attitude always seemed to come out when Sasuke was involved with something I was doing.
I thought back to earlier this morning when I walked down the hall toward Lady Tsunade's office.
"Kakashi she has to go" I heard the blond woman as I neared her door.
"She is already emotionally unbalanced and this mission could be her breaking point if you force her to go" I heard a loud BANG. I peered into the room. Kakashi had slammed his hands down on to her desk.
"If she can't handle it, she's not fit to be a ninja"
"You are asking her to face the man who left her for dead at the gates"
At that moment my mind flashed back to that night.
"I chose power over a life with you, goodbye Hinata" that was the last time he kissed my lips. Then it hit me I did see him walk away but I was on the ground looking up when it happened. Electric pain raged through my small form. Chidori.
"Hinata" Kiba shook me by the shoulder.
"What" I whispered softly.
"Your eyes are so empty" his tone was filled with worry and concern.
"Sorry" my voice sounded hollow and I turned and walked farther into the woods.
The day passed long and slow. Night had fallen and Kiba and Naruto had fallen asleep in their tent while I still sat up staring at the low burning fire. I remember when I was little and being in the dark all alone might have scared me. For some reason tonight I was unaffected.
A noise forced me to my feet and I scanned around using byakugan. "Sasuke" I whispered. He was sitting by the nearby lake. I quietly made my way through the trees until I was hidden behind one that was only about a yard away from him. I knew if I got to close he'd see me.For the first time in almost two years I felt my heart race. I slowly drew a kunai from my ninja pouch.
The metal felt cold in my shaken hands. I can do this. I told myself repeatedly over and over. I clutched the kunai in my right hand "Ouch" I whimpered as blood dripped from the gash in the palm of my hand.
"Hurt yourself?" an all too familiar voice whispered huskily at my ear.
My lavender eyes met his obsidian ones. "S-Sasuke"
"You've grown up" I could feel his stare on my face. He was scanning me, analyzing me.
"I could say the same for you" my voice was barley a whisper. He twisted a strand of my blue hair around his finger "you grew your hair out"
I nodded as my heart raced and I hoped he couldn't hear its beat.
"It's pretty, I like it long"
I would've backed away from him if there weren't a tree in my way. I pushed him away from me and moved away from him. "You…Your coming home"
"Hinata, I told you, I chose power over a life with you"
"It's not about me anymore Sasuke. I've found someone who loves me." I saw the pain flash through his cold eyes.
Then arrogance filled his voice "Who? That idiot Naruto? Or that dog Kiba?"
I shook my head "but I will say you know him. Someone you didn't respect like you should've, someone who made you the ninja you are"
"You're telling me you're with Kakashi?"
I nodded "he found me lying outside the village gates the night you left. He started training me a little later and…"
"Do you love him?"
"Wha-"
"Do you love him?"
"Sasuke"
"If I kissed you now would you kiss me back?"
"NO-"his mouth attacked mine and I felt my lips move against his. I was weak around him. I felt his strong arms lock around my waist and my thin fingers tangled in his raven hair. Still with every word he whispered in between kisses and every touch he trailed down my back I felt myself slipping away.
It wasn't like a warm fuzzy feeling but it was hazy like I was watching from the background and the part of me that was watching was jealous of the part of me Sasuke held in his arms. I remembered the way it used to be. When I was his entire world.
