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Clarke woke up and found that she was laying on a cot. She remind herself last night; she and Anya found the Ark station and moments after she convicted the grounder girl to work together, one of the guards killed her and then brought her inside camp believing that she is a grounder too. It wasn't more that a minute after, when her mother recognized her. They exchanged a hug and then blacked out.

Seeing how bright the room is, it must be the med bay she thing; spotting all the tools her mother used to teach her how to use, she found out that it was already morning.

Next thing she spotted was a pair of head laying one to each side of the cot, next to her. Brown long hairs, matching those that she used to play with when she was a child on the Ark. Her mother's hair.

On the other side; black curly not long hair, matching those that she used to play with some months before. Bellamy's hair.

Bellamy rushed inside Clarke's jail-room and saw her sleeping. She looked so peaceful in her sleep. He hated that he has to wake her up but he was grateful that Abby let him tell her the news. At least he could say one last goodbye before she leaves.

He slowly walked to her bed and sat next to her legs. He stroked her back and she turned to her back, burly opening her eyes.

"Hey Bell." she murmured and rubbed her eyes, trying to fully open them.

"Hey Clarke." he smiled and placed a hand on her belly, playing with the last bottom on her shirt. "How was your day?"

"Ah! It was awesome!" she joked and lifted herself against the wall. Bellamy's hand left her shirt and found a place on her legs, making circles with his thumb. "I went to the hospital and helped my mum, and then I met with Finn and Raven and had a great time- come on Bell! What is going on?" she leaned forward and cupped his hand, making Bellamy to look at her hand above his, "You never ask stupid questions..." Clarke whispered and stared at him.

"Clarke..." he breathed and turned to met her eyes. He couldn't- he shouldn't have asked Abby to be the one who tells her. It wasn't the right thing- the right choice- the right person. He shouldn't have asked but now he has no other choice, he had to tell her, worn her.

Clarke was waiting for an answer or something and the longer Bellamy wasn't talking the more it scared what she was going to hear. "Bellamy say something. You're scaring the hell out of me!" she let go on hand from he's and cup his knee, the one above hers.

"Clarke, things changed- the Ark, they-" he didn't know how to say it. Should he first make an introduction? Should he say it with one breath? Hold her and say it? Admit his feeling his feelings for her and then the news? Or otherwise?

No, he couldn't do this to her. She will go through so much the following days, telling her how he feels about her it will only add another weight inside her.

But, even if it's the smallest chance, she might be dead not longer than a day from now. She must know about him, how much he loved her.

The dilemma is killing him but one thought helped him beside. He won't say anything because she won't die. She can't die.

"Bellamy? Please- oh no! They found about Octavia? What- what are they going to do now? What are you goi-"

"Clarke stop. No one knows about Octavia except you. She is okay." Bellamy freed his hand from hers and pushed himself forward, making his way near the wall too, facing each other.

"Then what? My mum? What? Finn? Raven? What is it?" she raised her voice and punched Bellamy's shoulder.

He could see the tears forming in her eyes but tying not to let them out. She is so strong and self-control, always the stronger of his friends.

"Clarke it's about you and Finn. Jaha, made a decision, he was planning it for months-"

"What is it Bellamy? They're going to float us now? To make more time for the rest of you?"

He could clearly see her tears running down her cheek now. He raised his hand to wipe them off of her face but she stopped him with a furious push of his hand to the side. "Don't- just- just say-"

She couldn't finish her thought because Bellamy's hairs were on her mouth and his hands around her, trapping her tight inside them.

"No, you're not going to die." he whispered.

"Then what?" she pushed away from Bellamy and begged him with her wet eyes to explain what is going on. Bellamy tried again to wipe her teats out with his thumb and this time she let him touch her skin.

"I don't know if it is for worst or best but," he stopped, cupping her still wet cheek with his palm and continued, "they will sent a 100 kids on Earth, you and Finn among them."

"What?" Clarke whispered and started at Bellamy's eyes for any clue of lie, she found nothing.

"Clarke I know-"

"We don't know if it's safe!" she shouted at him, like he was the one that ordered this mission and stood up and stared at Bellamy from distance. "They said Earth needs another 100 years to be survival!"

Bellamy stood up too and walked towards Clarke. "Clarke, your mum thinks that Earth-"

"My mum?" Clarke shouted and took a step back, "she is helping Jaha? Of course! Why am I not surprised! She killed dad, a 100 kids she doesn't even know is nothing for her!" she kept shouting and walking away from Bellamy every time he made a move to reach her.

"She made Jaha promise that if the kids survive, they will be free from their crimes. It's a second chance-"

"No! They need more oxygen to fix the Ark, why to spend one month on us when we're going to die anyway? They call it a second chance to make them feel better. This is the truth Bellamy! Only this!" she finally hit the wall behind her and slipped to the floor, bringing her legs to her chest and rest her forehead on top them.

Bellamy stopped in front of her, kneeling down and before he could do or say anything, Clarke grabbed her hands around his neck and buried her face to the crock of his neck.

He turned his body and leaned against the wall, not letting Clarke go and pushed her tighter against his chest. He could feel her tears making their way from his neck to his shirt, leaving on their way a wet path on his skin.

"I'm scared." Clarke whispered against his skin and Bellamy hugged her with more power, not even wanting to let her go. But he had to...

Bellamy pushed Clarke by her shoulders and guided her face with his palms on both sides to look at him.

"Hey, Clarke. Look at me. You're the strongest girl, the strongest person I've ever met." he whispered and his words made Clarke smile momentary, "You can do this. There is nothing you have to be scared of. You will be fine." now he was smiling, "Find Finn, keep each other safe, long enough for the rest of the Ark to come down. Then everything will be okay."

"Bellamy-"

"I'm sorry." he cut her.

"For what?" she asked and wiped her tears with the back of her hand, trying to understant what Bellamy was talking about.

"Because I can't come with you. My sist- Octavia- she needs me." he breathed and turned away, not wanting to see Clarke's eyes now.

"What? Of course- I mean I could never ask you- she is your sister Bellamy- she always comes first." Clarke turned his face to see his eyes.

"I just... sorry. For not being there for you. We always helped each other and now I leave you alone." he leaned to her touch for a moment and felt her warmth.

"I won't be alone, as you said Finn will be there with me." she smiled. "And Raven will need you too. She knows?" Bellamy nodded his answer.

They knew each other from school. The four of them become friends for the first day. One day Bellamy named their group 'The fantastic four' because they were like the movie's heroes tag he watched that day.

Although, he only trusted Clarke wigt his secret of having a sister because he knew her well enough to be sure she won't say anything. He was right.

They stopped seeing each other that much after Finn got arrested. Two months later Clarke got arrested too and they were seeing each other once a week, mostly while walking on the hallways, for Bellamy and Raven. Finn and Clarke usually were seeing each other when they had breakfast, but again, they barely talked.

"Yes. I told her when your mum told me. She is speaking with Finn right now."

"Bellamy I have to say something." Clarke said and closed her eyes for a moment. "I-"

Someone knocked the door and both turned to the sound, then back stating at each other.

"I have to go. What you wanted to say- hold it a little bit longer. Maybe two or three days okay?" he leaned forwards and kissed her forehead instead of her lips he wanted to bad to taste.

Clarke closed her eyes to his touch and through her hands around him one last time, hugging him tight.

"May we meet again." she whispered and let go of him.

Bellamy stared at her for a moment, memorizing every inch of her, just in case he thought and walked to the door.

Tears running down his face now, watching her down on the floor, staring at him and thinking that maybe this is the last time they see each other.

Before he walked out, he turned and whispered "We will meet again. I promise." and closed the door behind him.

Clarke stared at the closed door for some minutes, thinking how close she was to admit her feeling for Bellamy. Now, she could die without telling him how much she cares about him, how much he loves him.

A kiss on her forehead is all she had from him. And it was enough for her to stay alive and wait to see him again. To have a second chance on telling him about her feelings.

She stared at his face and she could see only one or two scars. From the landing she thought. He was sleeping. She watched his chest raise and fall against the cot, he was still as handsome as she remembered.

Then she spotted his hands. One under his cheek, making it more comfortable for him to sleep and the other tangled to hers.

She stared at his hand, the one tangled to hers and she needed to see if he is real or all this is a dream, I really good one.

She squeezed his hand and when she felt his bones of it she closed her eyes, processing the information that he is here with her, alive. A moment later she felt his head rising from the cot and his other hand found his way to theirs.

"Clarke?" it was a whispered but a melody to her eyes. She opened her eyes and immediately locked to his.

Those brown eyes she hasn't seen since the day her mother send her down. Wrong. Unity day.

Clarke was exhausted after the trip with Finn to that blanker. She can't delete the scene from her eyes; two grounders and Finn in the middle, they would have killed him if Clarke wasn't there.

She tried to shot them but she had learned how to use a gun some hours before, her aim was very bad. Only one bullet from five that her gun was loaded with found the target. Again the grounders have seen more than a bullet or their upper arm.

After the first gunshot, three pair of eyes landed on her. Finn took the opportunity and jumped to one of the grounders, tying to kill him with his bare hands while the injured one aimed his sword to Clarke.

Everything happened so quickly, one moment Clarke was defending the grounder's attack with the gun and the other she was laying on the ground, her belly in pain she never felt before and the grounder dead in front of her.

Finn was standing next to the grounder's dead body with a big rock in his hands. She drifted behind him to find the other grounder dead too. He saved her.

They went back loaded with as much guns as they could bring back and two steps from the gate Raven stopped her and told her that Bellamy is waiting to talk with her.

Clarke immediately dropped the guns, she glanced at Finn and when he nodded she ran to the drop ship.

She could see the scene from the entrance. She smiled. Bellamy had his elbows on the desk and his face buried to his palms.

She took a sit in front of the scene while putting the headphones and smiled.

"Bellamy?"

To the sound of his name, Bellamy jerked his head up, staring at the screen in front of his, staring at her.

She was staring back at him. She couldn't take her eyes from his brown ones. Her heart was in pain, she missed him so much. She could give anything for one more hug with him.

She didn't knew if she was going to live another day to see him again.

"Clarke?" Bellamy breathed out, his smile reached his ears on both sides, reminding her the days before she got arrested. "How- how are you? Are you okay? Your mother told me about the grounders! Raven said that you and Finn-"

"I'm okay, I'm fine Bellamy. Don't worry." she cut him and let him breathe again, "How are the things on the Ark since Raven left?"

"Everything is under control, this is what your mother says every time I ask her. We're coming to help you. I asked Abby to add me and Octavia at the first drop ship, they think that we can leave tomorrow. We are coming, I promise."

And his promise made her day. Bellamy never broke a promise before, why should he now?

When Clarke saw the drop ship crushing behind a mountain the other day, the drop ship that her mother, Bellamy and Octavia were in and her only family died with the explosion, she died with them.

That night she cried till the sleep claimed her. Finn and Raven couldn't leave her alone, both trying to make her feel better.

But they failed. They couldn't feel how she was feeling. They had each other. The day Raven came down Finn hugged her and kissed her like she was his life line. She was so happy for them. Finally the got together after all these years. Her only chance to feel the same way died in that drop ship. She wasn't as strong as Bellamy thought.

Then again there he was, sitting in front of her alive. Deep inside her she knew that Bellamy could never break a promise.

They stared at each other for what it felt a million years till Bellamy stood up and wiped the tears out off her face, tears she didn't realized she had until his thumb touched her bruised skin. She could see tears sawing up to the edge of his eyes too but her eyes now were locked on his smile, the same smile from their video call, a smile that reached his ears.

Clarke leaned to his touch and breathed heavily. She couldn't hold herself anymore and start crying. Immediately Bellamy made his way to her, hugging her as tight as he could not bothering if she is hurt or not because he knew her, he knew that nothing could hurt or break Clarke than believing that someone she cares about is dead.

Clarke hugged him back with the same strength. She needed to feel him. She buried her face to his chest, letting all the tears she was holding roll down his skin and wet his shirt.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Clarke." he chocked these words and left Clarke pressing her face farther against him. "I'm here. I'm right here now. You're not alone." he whispered and stroke her hair.

She didn't want to let him go, he nether. When someone from behind called her, Clarke opened her eyes. Abby, her mother, was staring at them.

Clarke's rage came to the surface of her feeling for a moment and she glared at her mother above Bellamy shoulder.

"Go away." was all she said before Bellamy's warmth claimed her again. She didn't watch her leave the tent because she didn't care, not after what she did to her dad.

After some minutes in Bellamy's hands, Clarke pushed herself back and stared at his eyes. "I- I thought you- how? I saw the drop ship clashing. What happened?"

"As you can see I wasn't on it. That is all it matters. That I'm here with you, both of us alive." he smiled and kissed her forehead.

"I still can't believe it." Clarke let out a small laugh.

"Clarke-"

"Bellamy-"

Clarke smiled at their perfect timing and Bellamy laughed with it.

"Remember that I wanted to tell you something? That last day on the Ark." he cupped his hands with her.

"Are you kidding me? The thought is haunting me from that moment." he jumped off his sit and through his hands to air. "What was it?"

"I," she stopped. Was this the right time to admit her feelings for him? Should she let him speak first? "Look, in a world like this," she cupped his hands again, staring deep in his eyes, "you never know when it will be the last time you will see someone." tears wetting her cheek again, "and it won't change with you. I don't know if I'm gona she you again and- and I have to tell you before- now that you're here." she stopped again because felt her throat was closing but she had, she had to tell him. She wiped again her tears and stared at him. "Bellamy I-"

"love you." he interrupted her.

"What?" Clarke looked at him with eyes wide open.

"Wasn't this that you were going say?" it wasn't a question, more like she doesn't know, she was sure that he wasn't asking.

"How did you know?" the fact that now they're talking about her feelings like it's something- something not weird is killing her.

"I listened what you were saying and it was like you were readying my thoughts and feelings Clarke. I was going to say the same things and God! I wanted to tell you about my feelings too that day before you leave and I thought it was better not to tell you. You were going to Earth! I couldn't be there to help you. If I had talked to you and then told you about the mission I thought it will break you and I don't know god damint... I love you Clarke. I love you and I don't want to lose you again. I won't survive it. Please say something, I feel awkward now!" he rubbed his mouth with his palm and then smiled.

"So, I'm not the only one here that can read minds... I love you to Bell. And I really could use a kiss right now because I don't know if I can hold myself anymore! And no cheating like the last day on the Ark! Lips! No forehead no cheek and-"

Before Clarke could finish, Bellamy jumped on her, one hand on her cheek and the other on the back of her head, pushing her towards him. Their lips touched immediately and it felt like they are the only survivors in this world. A world only for them.

She teased like Earth and Bellamy didn't want anyone else but Clarke to saw him what Earth is like. He teased like joy and warmth and the safe place that Clarke could hide from her demons.

Demons.

Clarke had made terrible things. She had killed and burned and tortured people. She is not the girl she used to be. He has to know, Clarke thought.

She pushed back to take a breath first and then to stare at his eyes and open to him the wounded side of her heart.

"Bellamy, you have- I've done some- I'm not." She couldn't say it. What if after he hears the truth he stops loving her? Is that possible?

She came back from her thoughts by Bellamy's palm on her cheek and leaned to his touch. She was ready to tell him when his hand leaved her cheek and a finger in front of her mouth stopped her.

"Don't. You don't have to. I know. Raven and Finn told me everything." he smiled and Clarke felt butterflies on her stomach. "I told you, you are the strongest person I ever met and maybe the strongest girl that will ever exist. You came through. I knew you would. You always do no matter the cost." he was telling the truth. She knew he was. She knew that he could never lie to her.

"Bellamy, I've done some terrible things. How can you still love me?" tears forming under her eyes again.

"Clarke..." Bellamy whispered, "who we are and who we need to survive are two different things. You always did what you had to, to protect your friends. I understand why you've done these things." he smiled and cared her cheek. "And you have- you have to know! Nothing will change my feelings for you. Even in the darkest times I will be there, next to you and make sure that you won't change-"

Clarke jumped to him, grabbing her arms around Bellamy's neck and burning her nose to the crock of his neck. Bellamy hugged her back, breathing her hair.

"I promise."

And Bellamy never breaks his promise


I would love to hear what you think of this one. I haven't seen any other fanfic with this storyline and I was happy to write one. Your reviews helps me a lot to right more fanfics.