A/N: Hello everyone! I am sorry for being late on the story update. I was planning to update sooner but I fell behind in one of my classes /.\ Once I finished with the class I will post more often. I just want to let you know that this chapter was inspired by Taylor Swift's I Knew You Were Trouble. (Just a little though)

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Chapter 2:

January 22, 2017

Dear Eli,

This is the second letter I send to you. I guess it would actually be the first. I never sent the first letter that I wrote almost two months ago. I just couldn't. I had it all sealed with your name and address on it. It was ready to be sent out but the problem was that I couldn't send it to you. I hope writing this letter to you will allow me to send both letters to you sometime soon. Honestly though, that's not why I write to you again. It was because of what happened today…


*Earlier that day*

"Hello Adam! Ready for our date?"

"Yes I am. Where should we go today? Somewhere nice and expensive?"

"How about my place? I have nothing to do today and maybe we could order in. I've been in the mood to just watch movies." Adam and Clare were planning to spend together. They would choose a day in each month to have that day to themselves. They would talk about their problems or just enjoy the moment. Clare and Adam had been friends since the 10th grade. They decided to that after high school they shouldn't just forget about each other. They would remain friends by having what they called dates. Like this, they wouldn't lose the friendship that they both enjoyed.

"I like that idea. We should have a movie marathon! Let's just watch all the old Avenger movies!"

"Alright, let's get going though. By the way, I'm ordering my favorite pizza this time."

(Two hours later)

"Clare! The movie is almost over! What should we watch next?"

"Iron Man! We have to go in order! That's the whole point of the marathon."

"Clare, can I ask you something?"

"Of course, Adam. Go ahead and ask me."

"I want to propose to Becky." Clare gasped. She was very excited for Adam! He was going to get married! That was if Becky's parents approve.

"Adam! That's fantastic! There is one small problem. There are two people who stand in your way to do so."

"That's what I want to ask you. I want to talk to them but I need you to be there with me. I would like for you to tell them good things about me. You and Eli accepted me the way I was. When I told you guys about me being FTM, you didn't insult me. You didn't judge me. I appreciate that. So, I ask of you, would you join me to ask for the hand of my future wife?"

"Adam! I would be honored! I will make sure that they understand exactly why they should allow you to become part of their family. I mean, who wouldn't want a guy as wonderful and amazing as you to be in their family?" Adam laughed. He saw how happy Clare was but he could tell that there was something bothering her. He had something else he wanted to tell her but he didn't know how to.

"Thanks Clare. I want to talk to you about something important though. How are you feeling about Eli? Do you miss him?" Clare turned away for a moment. She did miss Eli. More than anyone could imagine.

"I really do miss him. I still have feelings for him. You know I've tried to get over him though."

"You really do love him, right?"

"I do. I hate to admit it though. I just haven't found a guy who has made me forget about him. All my relationships haven't worked because of me. I keep thinking about him to much."

"It's part of life though. If you love him, why get over him?"

"Adam, last time I saw Eli, he had a girlfriend and I didn't know. I felt betrayed."

"Well I need to tell you something important about him. I'm only trying to prevent you from getting hurt even worse in the future." Before Adam was able to tell Clare the news, he had a phone call.

"Go ahead. Answer it. I can wait." Adam was a little hesitant but when he saw who the call was from, he decided to answer and put the phone on speaker.

"Hey. Is everything okay?"

"No! That's exactly why I called! I'm very nervous right now!" Clare was in complete shock when she heard the voice. Speak of the devil, right? Why was Adam doing this?

"Well what happened?"

"Vanessa wants to get married next year! In April! On the 21!" Was Eli getting married? Is he serious?

"A day before Julia's anniversary? Are you sure about it? Maybe you shouldn't go through with this."

"It's not that what bothers me. It's the fact that around that time was when Clare and I broke up back at Degrassi." Eli still thinks about Clare. She couldn't believe that he still thought about her.

"What about Clare?"

"Adam, the day of my wedding day is around the anniversary of my first break up with Clare. That day is unforgettable. When I think of my wedding day, I'll think of Clare."

"You can't think about Clare while you're with someone else. You'll only hurt her."

"I know. I was hoping you could tell her about my engagement."

"That asshole!"

"Who was that?" Eli asked.

"Oh, um…that was this tv show I was watching." Adam said nervously but it was actually Clare. Clare was annoyed with Eli at this point. He cheated on her, at least she felt that way, and now he wants someone else to tell her about his engagement? Unbelievable.

"It sounded like Clare."

"It's because it is me." Clare said as she walked to Adam's phone. "I'm sorry Adam but I'm not going to cover for you right now. Eli, you were right, it is me. Congratulations on your engagement! It was very nice of you to want to inform me through Adam."

"Clare, please listen."

"No, Eli. You listen. I was incredibly stupid for falling in love with you. Now I can't forget about you or move on. I blame myself for that. You basically cheated on me. I meant nothing to you. Even after what happened, you still haven't fixed your problem. You didn't even bother to tell me yourself about your engagement. I would have accepted it if you wanted me to. I might have forgiven you. Thank goodness I didn't."

"I knew you wouldn't listen to me!"

"How am I suppose to? When I do, you lie to me! I knew this would happen when I first met you!" Clare yelled. She paused. She started again but this time her voice softer. "I knew you would do this but for some stupid reason I stayed. Sucks for you because this time, I'm not staying."


Today, I was with Adam when you called him. I might have overheard something I wasn't suppose to hear. You obviously knew that. I don't regret what I said. I really don't but I did have things left unsaid. Why did you still think about me if you had a girlfriend I was never told about? I'm filled with questions that you have made me wonder.

I will never understand myself. I fell for a guy who only knew how to hurt me. I knew better than this. I guess you have this charm that makes any girl fall in love with you. Although, I hate how you used it on me. You ruined my life after our breakup. I'm not happy with anyone else. I always tend to miss you. My whole world has turned upside down. That doesn't matter though. I'll show everyone that I don't need you because I don't. You won't ruin everything for me anymore. I will move on no matter what. I'll move on, even if I don't want to.

I'm still confused on why you didn't tell me about your engagement. I would have much rather have you tell me than happen to accidently hear it on your phone call with Adam. If you thought I'd talk you out of it, I wouldn't. This is your choice. I would have accepted it, if that's what you wanted. If you wanted to back out of this, I wouldn't let you, unless you asked me to let you. I would never reject the opportunity to have you back in my arms. This might be something I regret later but its worth taking a chance.

Sincerely,

Clare Edwards