Olivia opened her eyes. She looked over at her partner. He was laying there in nothing but his black boxer briefs. He wasn't covered up. He was laying on his stomach with his arm around her torso.
Not that she minded. She had dreamed of this day. The day when they would wake up in each others arms. The day when she could without guilt love Elliot Stabler.
He fluttered his eyes at the sunlight coming through the window, and noticed her looking at him.
"What time is it?" he said with a smile.
She tried to move as less as possible, to look at her watch. She didn't want him to get up from the way he was. She wanted to stay like this forever. "Eight," she said looking back at him.
He rolled over on his back and stretched. Then rolled to his side and supported his head on his hand.
"So," she started, shifting so she was on her side facing him, propping her head up with her hand. "Why don't we call in today?"
"Yea cause the captain will let us both get away with that," he snickered.
"Elliot, we need to talk. We have a lot that is going on here, and if we don't talk now then we will never. And this is just a test, we have to choose, our jobs or each other."
He sat up. "I'll go in the bathroom so that when you call he wont hear me in the background and when I call he wont hear you."
She smiled. He is serious about this, she thought to herself.
He stood up and left the room as promised.
She picked up her phone and dialed the captains number.
"Cragen" she heard on the other end.
"Captain I'm not going to be coming in today. I need to take a personal day."
"I understand Olivia. Take as much time as you need. We will be here tomorrow when you come back."
"Thanks cap." She said smiling. She was glad to have a captain that understood what she went through. He was like the father she never had. And she loved that they were so close.
"Just call if you need anything, Liv... anything at all." he sounded as though he was being truly sincere.
"I will I promise." she said as she hung up the phone.
Just then Elliot walked back in the room.
"Well?" she said looking at him.
"Sick day, 24 hour flu." He said doing a jumping dive into the bed. "You?"
"Personal day." she said smiling at him. "You don't look sick," she said with a small giggle.
"Yea well you look very personal." He said tracing her arm with is finger.
It sent chills right up her spine. Everywhere he touched was on fire, she wanted him and she wanted him now. But she couldn't. She couldn't make any moves until after they talked. After they figured out where this was going to go.
"We need to talk, Elliot." She said regretting it as it was leaving her lips. She wanted to give in and let him take her at that moment, but knew that it wasn't going to solve anything.
He sighed heavily and sat up. "I know, Liv."
"I just don't know where to start."
"Why don't you start by telling me what is on your mind."
"You. You're always on my mind. The way you look, the way you smell, the way it feels when you touch me, and as of last night the way you taste," she smiled remembering the passion of the kisses they shared, "your always there. 24 hours a day seven days a week. And I cant get you out and I have no idea why. I love you. And I cant help but to think that this is too good to be true. I have waited so long and hid my feelings for so long that this has to be too good to be true."
"Liv, I'm right here." He said shifting to look her in the eyes. "And I'm not going anywhere. I have been trying to fight these feelings too. For the same reasons as you. But sometimes it doesn't work that way. I love you and you love me and the only thing that stopped me before is our jobs."
"Whats so different now?" She asked. Tears were falling from her eyes and running down her cheek.
"I realized that no matter how much I denied the feelings I had for you they were always going to be there."
She leaned in and gave him a warm passionate kiss. He parted his lips to allow her access to his mouth. Once again, they fought for dominance, once again, she won. She climbed on his lap, not once breaking the kiss. She straddled him while sitting on her knees. She grabbed his face to insure he couldn't pull back. He slid his hands under her shirt and traced his way up her back. He pulled her tighter and closer to him. His hands were busy rubbing her bare back.
She broke the kiss, and looked at him in the eyes. A moment passed and she took off her shirt revealing her olive skin, her tight abdomen and perfectly shaped breasts. Then she wrapped her arms around his neck. He began to kiss and nibble on her neck.
"Elliot," she said in a moaning breathy voice. "Elliot, promise me," she said rolling her head to the side, "promise me," she tried again.
"Anything baby," he said between suckles.
"Promise me that you wont hurt me."
He looked up at her, with understanding in his eyes. "Liv, I will never hurt you in anyway."
"I love you Elliot. And I know you would never intentionally hurt me but I..."She paused and looked down. "I cant help but think this is all too fast."
"Too fast? Liv, we have known each other for years."
"Elliot I am sitting on your lap half naked."
He snickered. And leaned back taking his hands behind him to support his weight. "If you want to stop Liv I will understand," he said, "just climb off and go on our own ways. But if you want me as much as I want you then just lets see where this leads."
"It just seems too easy," she said looking him the eyes.
"It is, you are the one making this hard."
She looked down at his boxers and noticed his nice sized erection and giggled.
"No pun intended." he snickered.
She laid on his chest. Only his arms supported them both.
She heard his heart beating. It was the best feeling in the world knowing that his heart only beat for her now.
She loved him she truly did. She knew that he loved her, but wasn't sure how they were going to make it. It scared her. Not just losing her job, that was frightening, but also the fact that she loved him so much. She never loved anyone as much as Elliot. And that is what terrified her the most.
She wanted to talk, but the words wouldn't leave her lips. We cant do this El, I love you and you love me but this cant happen like this. We are partners we cant be lovers.
But really how different is your partner from your lover? She thought, not moving her head from his chest. In both situations you trust the other person with your life. With your secrets. You protect them. You would die for them. You love them. How is that different from a lover?
She sighed heavily. Still not wanting to raise up.
"Whats wrong?" he said knowing her too well.
"I was just thinking," she said.
"About?"
"If we are going to do this El, we need to have rules." She looked up at him.
"You make it sound like an affair."
"It is El, we are both cheating."
"On who?"
"Our jobs."
He took a deep breath. "Ok what are these rules?"
She looked him in the eyes. "You want to talk about this while I'm naked?"
"I like it when your naked."
"I bet you you do. Why don't we talk about this over breakfast?"
He gave a heavy sigh, "do you have to get dressed?" he said with a sly smirk.
"Yes at least I have to put a shirt back on." She said standing up.
"Why?" He whined like a five year old.
"What if someone came over?"
"Why would someone be coming over?"
"Elliot, every year I always get a visit from Casey. She is the one I called after everything happened and Fin knows he was there, and Don would probably send him. So there is a good chance someone would come over, and what would they say if I'm naked in the kitchen cooking you breakfast?"
"Good point," he said standing up and grabbing his pants and putting them on.
They just finished breakfast. Olivia slide her plate a little away to the middle of the table.
"Who knew stabler could cook?" She said with a smile.
"Only my kids and Kathy." He said smiling too. "So what are these rules?
She took a deep breath, "well I thought of a couple and I thought that maybe you could make a couple if needed, or add to the ones I came up with."
"Liv, your stalling."
She took another heavily sigh, "no more secrets, I don't want us to keep another secret from each other. Whether you tell me you hate me and never want to see me again I would rather know sooner than later."
"I swear I will never hate you baby."
She smiled, "and I don't want to keep us a secret either other than I.A.B. I think that we can trust the people we work with enough to let them know that we are together and Don is like a father to me, so he will help with I.A.B too."
"You know that letting the cat out of the bag means that there is a good chance that we will be caught right?"
"I don't care I want you, and everyone else, to know that I love you, and I don't care what they all think."
"I know you love me."
"And the last one I want to make sure that is clear is that we tell your family."
"The kids are going to be thrilled."
"I hope but I also want Kathy to know. I don't think its fair to keep this from them... any of them."
"I know and we wont."
"Good. Anything you want to add?"
"I think we should go to church."
"El, I don't go to church you know this."
"I know, but Liv religion is a huge part of who I am. And I want the other big part of my life to be there with me."
"I know baby but its just not me."
"Do you believe in God?"
"Elliot I don't think this is the time or place for that." She said grabbing her plate and his and taking them to the kitchen, that was connected to the dinning room and living room.
"Liv, this is the perfect time and place. I need to know where you stand."
"No Elliot how could I? You see all the evil that we see everyday, you see all the horrible things we see on the job. If there was a God how is it that happens? Why would he let those things happen? All the murder all the abuse all the rape how would any God let that happen? How could you think that there is a God that would let that happen to innocent women and children and even men for crying out loud. You answer that." She said placing the plates in the sink and turning to face him.
He was standing at the edge of the counter. "Liv, we make our choices we have to choose to go toward the path of the Lord. Its not God's fault. He put us here with free will. And with out free will we wouldn't love we wouldn't do anything. Just please for me one time just go one time for me."
"One time?" She said raising her eye brow.
"Yes and if you don't like it I will never ask you again."
"Ok, one time, but not until we are no longer living in sin." She said opening the refrigerator and grabbing the orange juice. She took a glass from the cabinet, and poured some orange juice in side.
He studied her, the love of his life. The woman that he waited for. He thought he loved Kathy. He thought he was doing the right thing when he married her. But then he realized that he didn't love her. He would never have been able to love her. Kathy wasn't his soul mate... Olivia was. Olivia was his world, his everything. The love of his life the woman that he wanted to spend the rest of his life loving and taking care of. She started to take a sip from her glass.
"So I have to marry you?" He asked calmly.
She spit her orange juice across the room.
"Is that a no?"
"Well since you put it so romantic." She said with sarcasm, wiping her mouth with her hand.
"I mean it, Liv," he said still too calm.
"Elliot, we are just now talking about getting together in a relationship, let alone married. This all way too fast El, I love you but.."
He cut her off, "if you love me then there is no buts."
"Yes there are I'm not the marrying type El."
"Yes you are."
"No I'm not. I'm most certainly not the woman you want to marry."
"Yes you are, and I don't want to scare you Olivia, but this will happen. I will have you as my wife, you are going to be Mrs. Elliot stabler." He now had his hands on her waist.
"Is that what you think?" She said with a teasing smile.
"That's what I know." He said kissing her lips.
"Oh yea."
"Yea," he whispered and kissed her again.
"And how do you plan to do that?" She kissed him again.
"First I will woo you with my charm." He began to kiss a trail down to her neck.
"Oh yea?" She said tilting her head to the side.
"And then I will make you fall in love with me all over again." He said moving the collar of her shirt to the side to kiss her shoulder.
"And then?"
"And then, when you least expect it, I will pop the big question." He said and removed her shirt over her head.
"And what makes you think I will say yes?"
He was now kissing her chest. "I would be completely irresistible." she said taking her perfectly shaped breast and suckling it.
"Why Mr. Stabler you sound very sure of yourself."
"That's because I'm so good." He said moving to the other breast.
"You want to move this party to the bed room?" She said running her fingers through his hair.
"Have you ever done it in the kitchen?" He said kissing her stomach and playing with the waist line of her pants.
"No I cant say that I have."
"Well there's a first time for everything." He pulled her pants and panties down at the same time. She stepped out of them. He picked her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist. He held her with one arm and unbuttoned his pants with the other. Then he shimmied them down, revealing his rock hard member. He sat her on the counter and began kissing her as he entered her warm center.
It was like fireworks had went off. She broke the kiss and flew her head back. She bit her lip to keep from screaming. This is what she had been dreaming about since the day she met him.
He slowly began to move in and out of her. With every thrust he could hear a muffled moan. He began to suckle her neck, never breaking rhythm.
Then her head shot up. "Oh my god, El"
"What baby," he said still working the magic of his long shaft.
"El, what about protection." She said trying to ignore the immense amount of pleasure she was getting.
He slowed down to almost a stop but never exiting her core. "Baby I'm Catholic we don't believe in protection."
"But I do El."
He gave a hard thrust and kissed her on the lips.
"Oh my...Fuck it" She said throwing her head back in pleasure.
"Is that what you want baby?"
"Yes Oh God Yes"
He began to thrust harder and faster.
She was about to lose it. She had never felt like this before. She had never 'made love'.
"Oh baby, right there." She said wrapping her arms around his neck.
She usually never had an orgasm this fast. But then again it had been five years. And she had never felt for any man the way she felt for Elliot.
"Baby, do you want me to pull out?" He said kissing her neck.
"No." is all she could get out when she felt a rush of pure pleasure rush from her head to her toes. This was it she was about to cum. She curled her toes. And moaned in pleasure.
"Oh baby, don't cum yet." He said.
"I cant hold it baby." She said in a grunt trying to hold out the orgasm.
"Come on baby, you can do it."
"Oh Elliot. Oh my god. Yes. Yes. Yes!" she said in a loud voice that was almost a scream.
"Come on baby, just a couple more minutes." He said moving faster and faster.
"Elliot, I cant hold on much longer."
She was about to explode she was at her climax and didn't want to release. She wanted to hold on the the pleasure he gave her forever. She was about to have no choice. He continued to thrust, but now he was thrusting in a circular motion. She wanted to scream in out due to the amount of pleasure she was holding in. She leaned down and bit his shoulder to muffle the scream she let out.
"Baby, I'm about to cum." He said in a whisper.
Then it happened simultaneously, her release came and so did his. She collapsed in his arms, and he wrapped her in a warm tight hug. Still not exiting her.
"I...Love...I...Love...You..." She said panting and kissing his neck.
"I...Love...You...Too...Baby," he said panting.
"That was...Incredible..." she panted.
"You...Are...Incredible," he panted.
"I...Think we...Should get dressed..."She tried to steady her breathing.
"Yea me too," he said still panting but not as bad. "But, just because I think we should, doesn't mean I want to." He added.
"Baby, we have to, I told you I get company randomly throughout the day." She said, she wasn't panting but her heart rate was still through the roof.
He backed away from her and pulled up his pants, and buttoned them.
She jumped down and grabbed her clothes. She felt like she was floating. Her knees were weak, her body was numb. She was in total bliss. She started walking toward her bedroom.
He followed.
"I think that we should have dinner tonight, here, and tell everyone what we are, and how we feel." He said stopping at the doorway to her room and leaning to the side.
"You don't think that's all a little fast?"
"No baby, because I want to scream it to the world." He said coming in to the room where she was looking in the dresser for clothing. He wrapped his arms around her waist from behind. "I cant hold it in I'll burst."
"You think so?" She said pulling out a pair of jeans. And then, leaving his arms to go to the closet to pick out a shirt.
"I know I will Liv," he said with desperation in his voice.
"Ok fine we will have dinner here tonight. Call the captain and Fin and Munch and I'll call Casey and Alex and Kim."
"Yea that's a good idea, if we are going to get in trouble with Tucker, why not have the three best lawyers on our side?"
"I wasn't calling them for that I was calling them because they are my friends." She said grabbing a black tee-shirt out of the closet and throwing the hanger on her bed.
"Oh, of course, I knew that."
"Now, if you don't mind I would like to take a shower." She said with a teasing smile.
"Oh, but on the contrary, not only do I not mind, but I think I might join you." He said as she tried to run from him. He ran and smacked her toned bottom.
She giggled and ran faster to the bathroom, he followed and shut the door.
A/N: so I love that so many people are reading this story but you know what I would love more? Reviews. That would be pretty awesome if I check this and I have more than 2 or 3... thanks for reading... next chapter is already being worked on so it should be posted soon :)
