Hey guys! Here I leave you the second chapter of my story.
Don't worry about Bella ok? You'll know about her in the next chapter… it'll be really funny haha, just be patient.
Chapter song: Say it right by Nelly Furtado.
Chapter two: Mixed feelings
Edward's POV:
Alice had never spoken like that to me before. Had I been such a jerk just because I'm worried about the love of my life? She really doesn't understand how I feel when I'm not with Bella, it's like someone takes away your heart and you're not here anymore, feels like being a zombie. But what she said to me was half-true, well, almost everything was true. I know that Bella loves Jacob, but I also know she loves me, really loves me, that's why we're getting married because we really love each other, we could never live without the other. But I could never live with myself if I ever hurt Bella, if I ever made her unhappy or miserable, and that's what I just did. What was I thinking when I sent Jacob that invitation? Of course I thought Bella would like him to be there in the wedding feeling happy for her, but on the other hand Bella also thought that it would be so much better I Jacob didn't attend to our wedding because if he did, he would feel really miserable. But somehow I wanted him to go, or at least know that I will take care of Bella, that I will love her every single day of my damn existence, I wanted him to know that he didn't have to worry about anything. And now, I've made them both miserable…
The letter Bella left me said exactly what Alice had told me. That's a relief, but I can't help feeling a little jealous, because of what I did she was now comforting that dog. I totally trust her but Jacob is capable of everything and knowing that Bella once loved him he would try to make her stay or something.
"Damn it!" I shouted as I hit the door with my fist, though I knew that acting like a baby wouldn't help at all. Then, I heard two knocks on my door: "Edward are you alright?" It was Jasper; maybe Alice had sent him to calm me down so that she could continue with the wedding plans without the shouting and interruptions that came from my room.
I opened the door and let Jasper in, he look very worried and annoyed about me. "What is it Jasper?" I said rolling my eyes sitting on the couch prepared to whatever speech he was about to give me. "Relax ok? I'm here just to calm you down, and don't worry, I won't give you one of Carlisle's speeches. I know how you're feeling and seriously, Edward, I totally understand… But stressing yourself like this is only making you worse, I just wanna help." Then I felt a wave of peace all over me but it only passed by, it didn't stay on me. Jasper's look was serious.
"Edward, I can't do my job if you don't help. Try to relax!" It was an order.
I tried my best to relax and I felt Jasper's power through me again, but just when I was in peace again all the thoughts of Bella and Jacob came running through my mind like a furious wind. Jasper tried one more time, and another, and another, but it just didn't work and then he looked at me puzzled.
"What the heck Edward? I've never felt so many emotions at the same time in my whole existence, it's hell! Sorry, but your feelings are too much for me." He turned around and gave me an apologetic look, then he left the room.
Nobody could help me, this was something I needed to handle by myself.
Okay, let's see… "Just two more days Edward, two days…" I thought to myself "She'll come back, she loves me, we'll be together forever, just what we wanted." I needed to hold on to that words until she came back, that would make me less annoying and depressive to everyone… well except Jasper. I was less worried now, though that won't make the guilt go away.
Here it ends… sorry if it was boring, but I needed to tell you how was Edward doing. I'm working on the next chapter but I'd also like to see your opinions and suggestions.
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