Chapter Two: I Understand

"Rose! Please stop!" The voice sounds familiar, but I only heard it faintly because of the wind rushing in my ears. If I was still alive, I would kill myself. As a vampire, I can kill myself, but not as quickly as I'd like to. I'd like to die quick and right away. I had no one anymore.

I felt a sharp shove and the next thing I knew I was laying on the ground with Alice on top of me. I tried to push her off, but then I felt pressure on my shoulders. I was being held down. When I looked up, I saw Esme holding me and saying my name trying to calm me down. I tried to scream, but I couldn't. I finally settled down and stared at the two people trying to help me. What a weird position...

"What's with all the... WHAT'S GOING…?" I looked to my left and saw Bella running up to us.

Alice shushed her and let me up sighing. She wouldn't let go of me. "Rose. Don't run again please."

"Why not? You knew what happened and didn't tell me! He fucking cheated on me; and with whom? No one knows because she's a whore." I felt an urge to punch something; or someone...

"Sweetie, we are going to get back at him. You can choose if he stays or leaves. Dies or lives. It's up to you. We'll listen to you."

Bella raised her hand. "What's going on?" Alice shushed her again.

"Sure let him stay. Why not?" I was too pissed to care.

"Are you sure Rose? I don't want you to be uncomfortable." Esme said trying to soothe me and showed her compassion.

"Sure. But I'm leaving. I'm out of the family." I turned to walk away when I felt a want to stay and a need to be with the family. I felt a little happier and I felt better. "Damn you Jasper." I turned around and was face to face with my brother.

As Jasper hugged me he responded, "Don't leave Rose. Please. We'll send that jack ass away and we'll make sure you never have to see him again. I swear. Just don't leave the family. We'll miss you."

I sighed. "Where are the others?" I needed to make sure that I never saw Emmett again and I needed everyone's approval.

"Don't worry Rose. He's gone. Carlisle and I made sure he's never going to come back. You have our approval." Edward hugged me tight giving a slight smirk. Although I thought it was cool he could read everyone's mind, it was quite annoying at times.

"Can someone please tell me what's going…?" Bella tried to speak, but was interrupted yet again.

"Edward will you take Bella home and explain everything there? I'm going to go take Rose shopping." Ugh. I thought. Please no. I hate shopping.

I thought I heard Edward smirk and then he said. "Oh now Rose is going to the mall." He shook his head. "Ok Alice." He and Bella were off.

Carlisle grabbed Esme's hand and looked at Jasper. "I think we should go back hunting. What do you say Jasper?"

"You guys go ahead, I'm going to go make sure Rosie doesn't run away and I'm going to stay and keep her calm." Jasper looked quickly at me and nodded. I sighed because there was no way of getting out of shopping or sneaking away.

"OK, Jasper. See you three soon. Have fun." Esme hugged and kissed us all, and then she took Carlisle and disappeared into the woods.

"Alright Rose. Let's go buy dresses and shoes and..." Alice began to rant on and on.

Why did he do that to me? How could he do that to me? I thought that what we had was special. I saved his damn life and this is how he repays me!

"Rose? Hello earth to Rose?" Alice was trying to get me attention. I really wasn't paying attention and I felt bad. So I turned my attention to her.

"Sorry yeah I'm listening. Can we please not go? We can hunt or do anything else. I really am not in the mood to be around teenagers and their stupid hormones right now." I sighed. Why is it every time I fall in love I either get raped or cheated on? I just want a normal love life. But being as I'm a vampire that will never happen.

"Sure Rosie. We can hunt." I felt a pair of arms go around me and at first I wanted them to be Emmett's, but then I pulled away and began to walk away, trying to clear my head for good.

"Rose? Wait for us." I didn't want to ignore Alice, she was only trying to make me feel better, but being as I don't want to be around the love birds, I tried to get away from them. Jasper must've known what I was thinking, because he told Alice that he had to go see how Edward and Bella were and fill her on anything Edward may have left out.

"Ok love." Alice wrapped her arms around Jasper and kissed him hard on the mouth, not wanting to let go of him. I turned away and felt an empty pit at the bottom of my stomach. I wanted to die... again. I never want to fall in love again. I'm done with silly boys.

I ran into the forest as Alice and Jasper were busy. I wanted to get as far away as possible without being noticed too much. While I was running and thinking, at the same time, I accidently crossed the line of the wolf territory. I heard a wolf growl to my right. I looked behind and saw another wolf rearing up behind me. I was circled and trapped by the two of them. There would be no running now. I didn't care! I'd kill them both. I growled back and was about to lunge at one of them, when I felt warm arms encircle my body. My insides jumped at the feeling and for a second I felt whole, like I belonged. But that changed quickly as I flipped the mutt on his back.

"Guys back off. She's with me." I heard Jacob cough and continue to hold me even though I just flipped him. I wanted to push him off when I found out it was him, but at the same time I didn't want him to let go.

"Jacob what is that bloodsucker doing with you. She doesn't even have Nessie." I heard another wolf announce as he made his entrance.

Jacob growled. "She's not a bloodsucker and she's helping me on a school project that is due soon. It's that one Marilyn Manson one. She knew her personally so she's going to help me with my report. And Quil you know why she doesn't have Ness." Jacob stood up and helped me up. I pushed him away. What the fuck is he talking about? What project and I'm with him now? Could this day get any worse?

"I know and I still don't get it." He shrugged and told the others to follow him home. Who is Emily, his mom or sister?

In an instant I felt the heat go away and I felt cold and normal. All the thoughts came back. "Rose? What the hell are you doing here? You shouldn't be here."

"Why should I talk to you dog? It's not like you have any girl problems. Your life is perfect." I rolled my eyes and tried to march away back towards the vampire land, but was stopped when Jacob held onto my shoulder.

"I beg to differ Blondie, what's wrong? You can tell me anything about your boy troubles. I won't laugh, I swear. I will listen!"

"Who said it was boy trouble?" I asked pissed off because he was trying to get into my personal life. I don't need help from you. You can't help… You just can't.

"Well what else would be wrong? Did you choose the wrong dress to wear today?" He asked gazing over my body up and down slowly. Was that another growl? Did Jacob Black just lick his lips?

"I'm not going to tell you. If I did, you might think we were friends and that can't happen. It just can't. I hate you and you hate me. That's the way it's supposed to be"

"What are you trying to write a song now Rose? Listen, I won't think of us as friends. Just that we're two people talking about each other's problems. I swear that's all." I glared at him, and then just stopped. He just wants to help. I don't know why, but I feel like I owe it to him to tell him. I did pick on him a lot…

I sighed. "Emmett... Cheated on me," I turned away from him. Saying it aloud made it hurt a little more because it meant that it was official. It meant that it could never be replaced, he was gone and I'm left alone.

"Are you fucking serious? What a dumb ass!" Jacob shook his head and growled. "Don't worry Rosalie. I'll kill him!" Jacob turned around to run into the woods, when I grabbed his warm and tight arm.

After closing my eyes, I began to talk. "Jake please don't do that! He already left and there's no point in chasing after his stupid ass." Why would I stop him? Emmett deserves to die. Maybe it's because I don't want to be along right now. I should go home.

"You called me Jake." He smirked. Shit he knows I'm trying the whole nice thing. I should only do that around Bella. "Does that mean we're on a one on one basis now? We're friends? BFFs? Are we going to exchange numbers now?" I heard Jacob chuckle.

"No! I mean… No. I have too much to deal with Jake... I'm going to leave now, dog." I frowned and ran off the territory. I was followed closely by Jacob. I felt him grab me around the waist to stop me. Damn those big, warm hands that make me melt.

"Rose; if it's ok that I call you that. I'm sorry Emmett did that to you. He's a really jack ass that will rot in hell. But if you'd let me, I'd like to take you to the cliffs. Just to pass the time by and get away from everything." Jacob looked at me with concern and question. "I promise there will be no more talk of him."

"I don't know Jake... You should get home, and I should get home..." I didn't know what to do. He has never been nice to me before. He brought out the bitchy side in me and now he's being sweet? What the hell is his deal? I'll find out.

"Please Rose? I won't fight with you once. We can try being 'friends' for everyone." I smirked at that side comment and noticed his wince at the word friends. Well then, maybe I can figure out what he was so excited for earlier, too. I really was curious and I still am. I would love to know what his deal is.

"Fine, Jake. This one time and we never speak of it to anyone. We can try being 'friend' for a night and try it out. But if one word of Emmett comes up, or we start to argue or fight, I'm going home." I sighed, waiting for him to lead the way.

"Great! Ok never telling a soul, and I do promise. That's a deal." I watched as he disappeared into the woods and came back in wolf form. I noticed the auburn color of his fur and thought that it suited him. It was a calm color and it does go quite well with his tan. I bit my lip and turned away waiting for him to lead the way, he jumped in front and off we went. Oh, this should be fun.