After we took a look at Louis' poor excuse for a meal, we decided on fish and chips. We ordered it on the phone, and while it was delivered, I went up to my room to freshen up and maybe cry a little.
I usually smiled and laughed around other people, to stop them from pitying me. However, alone, I was weak and helpless. No matter how much I told my self that there is a chance of me surviving, a small one, but there is. The fright and pain always won.
Sometimes all you can do is smile to keep from everyone asking what happened, can't you?
So as soon as I got into the spare room, which will be mine till I'm in England, I launched myself in the bed and cried my eyes out.
I wasn't as strong as I seemed. I wasn't the strong girl who helped everyone get over things, I was a frightened new born lamb, waiting for the worst to come.
As I sobbed, I heard the door squeak open.
"The food's here," Harry said, awkwardly. I bite the insides of my cheeks to keep myself from sounding sullen and sad. I did this till I tasted blood, but I still felt like crying my heart out. Harry must have realised I was crying, because he awkwardly stalked up to me and sat on the edge of my bed.
"Are you OK?", he asked, sounding as if he was actually concerned. I kept my head under the pillow, sobbing softly. I let go of my cheek, the blood fresh in my mouth.
"Not really," I said, taking a deep sigh.
"Are you worried?", he asked, awkwardly. "You know, about the… um…" he trailed off hesitating.
"Yes," I admitted. It was weird. I hadn't even admitted being scared to my own mother, and I had to a boy I barley knew. Of coarse I was angry at Louis for telling him, I mean he was after all a stranger, yet I was pouring my heart to him.
"It'll be OK," he reassured. I sat up, and put my head in my knees.
"But what if its not?" I mumble, holding back fresh tears.
"If you think positive," Harry said, "Positive will happen." I sigh and look up. He gets up and grabs me by the hand making me do the same. He then pushes me in the bathroom.
"You get freshened up now!", he said closing the door. I heard him chuckle as he left.
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