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Chapter 2

-JPOV-

Sitting here, after hanging up with Catherine, I start thinking. Not the smartest thing for me to do right now. 'I'm close enough to the edge as it is, thinking just makes it worse, but then again what difference does it make? I've lost enough tonight, what if Catherine can't help me make sense of this? Why did I even call her? I've dragged enough people down, I'm sure she has a life that doesn't need this in it. I didn't even ask her if she was busy. She just said she'd be here. Good job, messing up again.'

I'm brought out of my musings by someone sitting down in front of me. I fight the instinct to run, and look up seeing Catherine looking back at me.

"Hey, Squeak, you hiding in there somewhere?" she asks and reaches across the table for my hand. "Why don't we head out of here and back to my place? You look like you could use some sleep."

"Huh? Oh yeah sleep, I guess I've been sitting here long enough." I slide out of the booth throwing some money down to cover my bill. "Hey, Kit, thanks for coming. I didn't know what else to do."

"You know me, always there to rescue you, but this time we're going to stop it before you need to be rescued okay?" she turns to look at me and I don't remember ever seeing her so serious. When she starts walking again, I follow wondering what kind of life she has now. What I'm interrupting by showing up in her life again. "Stop, stop thinking for right now, we'll talk about it later after we get some sleep. Just be for a little while, no thinking, just be."

"No think, just be, don't know if I can do it, but we'll see, huh? I messed up, Kit, big time." I tell her as we get to what must be her car. She unlocks the doors and we climb in.

"I don't know what ya did, Squeak, but we'll figure it out. You know we always do. Oh before I forget to tell you, I have a partner now, she's living with me and Lindsay, so she'll be there when we get home. Sara and I've been together now for almost a year." She looks over at me like I'm going to have a bad reaction or something. I figured out years ago she swung both ways, but I never would have thought she'd end up with a woman.

"Sara from your work Sara?" I ask laughing as she nods. "Guess you finally got off your butt about it huh? What did you think I was gonna freak about it? Honestly Kit, you know me better than that. Does she treat you and Linds right?"

"Yeah Sara from work, and yes she treats us both wonderfully. I think you'll like her a lot once you get to know her. And don't think you're getting off the hook that easy for dropping away for as long as you have. Where were you when I needed to talk to someone bout Sara?"

I look out the window as she drives us off the strip and towards the suburbs, asking myself the same questions. Why did I walk away from her? Simple she wanted me to straighten up and I didn't want to listen, she wanted me to be a better person and I wanted to stay the same. Tearing my gaze away from the landscape, I finally gather my nerve to look at her and answer. "I couldn't do it back then Kit, I couldn't be the person you were showing me I needed to be. I didn't wanna change. I'm sorry I left, and I thought about you guys a lot. I probably shouldn't have called you, but you are the only one who can understand what's inside my head right now. I don't know how to explain it."

Finishing my ramble, I turn back to the window, same scene flying by. I jump when I feel a hand on my thigh, quickly trying to cover my reaction hoping she didn't notice.

"It's okay, I just worry about you, and Lindsay misses you, too. We're here, let's get you in and settled I'll grab you something to change into, but if you want to look there maybe something in the guest bedroom dresser of yours to change into. Lindsay is at school and going to Nancy's afterwards, so it'll just be the three of us." She tells me as we walk into the house. Looking around everything seems to still be in the same place as it was the last time I was here. Somehow that's a comfort right now to me.

"Okay, I'm gonna go look in the dresser. I'll see you when you wake up. Thanks again for coming to get me." I tell her as I head up the stairs. Heading into the guest room, I look in the dresser and sure enough there is a pair of my pjs. I quickly change, turning back the covers and getting in bed. I sigh and lay on my back staring at the ceiling. How did things go wrong so fast? I don't know if Catherine can even help me this time. I'm brought out of my musings again by a knock on the door. "Yeah?"

"Just wanted to make sure you had sleepwear." She says as she comes in the room.

"Yeah found the pair I've been looking for. I was wondering what I did with them. Should have known you'd run off with them." I smile and laugh at her.

"That's what it is, I ran off with them." She laughs and sits down beside me, adjusting my covers. "It's okay to go to sleep now; I'll be here when you wake up. We'll talk then."

With that she leans down and kisses my forehead, standing and heading towards the door again. "You know I never have figured out our relationship. You always seem to know what's going on in my head before I do."

"Not really, I just learned to read you quick. Go to sleep, Squeak, you'll be waking up before you know it." She turns out the light and leaves me in the darkness. Maybe she's right, and I do need to sleep. Well here goes nothing. I turn over and close my eyes, quickly falling asleep.

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