TRIGGER WARNINGS: Torture/Assault
I don't own any part of the Rizzoli & Isles franchise and I don't make profit out of this. This is just for fun.
CHAPTER 2: Things You Say
"I do not need a rape kit, okay?" Jane put her hands up in protest. "He didn't get a chance to do that. It's just my damn hands." She was adamant, her legs tightly closed. She did not want the nurses to violate her even though she knew they were just doing the job they were paid to do. "Look, I'm fine. They stitched my hands up now they just have to heal. I really want to be discharged, can you get the doctor?"
"I really think you should stay." The nurse saw the look on Jane's face and changed the rest of her sentence. "But... I'll go get the doctor." The nurse left the room and Jane sighed, she was relieved to finally have a second alone. That nurse was getting to her. She just wanted to get out from this god awful hospital and all the prying eyes.
"I heard you want to leave?" The doctor said from the doorway causing Jane to look up at him.
"Uh, yeah."
"I highly suggest you reconsider." The doctor walked over to Jane's bedside. "You need medical supervision."
"Look, you met Dr. Isles didn't you?" Jane's fingers were playing with each other. She didn't want to blow this chance of getting discharged. "She came in with me. I'm pretty sure she told you in all that medical lingo the damage to my hands and all the necessary information? She is an amazing Medical Examiner and my best friend. I believe she'll be more than able to take care of me, alright? I just... Hate hospitals." Jane put forth a convincing argument silently thanking she knew an amazing medical professional like Maura.
"Alright" He started with a sigh, "I am willing to discharge you... If you could give my number to... Dr. Isles." He smiled awkwardly and Jane had to force herself not to roll her eyes. After all, she did want to get out of there.
"Okay, okay give me your number. I'll uh, I'll pass it on." Jane got up out of bed, grabbing the business card out of his hand and moving past him out the door. Walking past the waiting room she felt someone touch her shoulder and she turned around, trying to mask the way she flinched.
"Hey, hey it's me Jane. You're leaving? I thought the doctor would have told you to stay." Maura cocked her head a little looking directly into Jane's eyes, trying to work out and gauge Jane's reaction. Jane smiled a little, her hand moving onto her friend's hip.
"Ah nah, I didn't wanna stay here any more. I need your help though, let's go back to your house huh? You can even light a couple of candles, open that wine that you love and I'll even drink it." Jane offered Maura a smile. Inside she was eternally grateful that she had someone to lean on.
"Really?" Maura's face lit up. "Okay, but I'm still going to list all the dangers you're putting yourself through by leaving the hospital sooner than you should on the way there." The M.E almost jumped in joy, her eyes beaming but underneath that her eyes were still filled with worry.
"I wouldn't expect anything less, now come on." Jane wrapped her arm around her friend, both walking out to Maura's car together.
"Did they inform you of care management for your wounds? If not, I'm sure I can confidently relay the information to you." Maura patted Jane's thigh causing Jane to tense up and suppress a groan. Jane silently cursed herself for her reaction.
Maura parked her car before turning and looking Jane straight in her eyes. "Are you okay? The Tensor Fasciae Latae muscle in your thigh just tightened up and the noise you made? Does that contact arouse you, or is it becau-"
"No, what? Maur, Maura I'm... I'm not aroused. Why would you even ask that?"
Jane squinted at her friend. She was taken by surprise by the Doctors words.
"I'm sorry, I've done extensive research on body language but I do get mixed up sometimes." Maura explained, raising her eyebrows.
"I uh, I'll explain inside okay? So long as you don't bring arousal into things again. Jesus." Jane stepped out of the car going to Maura's front door. "Maura, you coming?" Jane called out looking into the car to see the doctor inspecting the passenger side seat.
"Jane, there's a reddish brown substance on my seat? Is this from you?" The M.E called out to Jane causing the Detectives heart to stop. Shit. Why did Maura have to be so observant? "This is blood. Jane, is this from you?" Maura looked over at Jane, her lips parted.
"Hey, I uh, I thought you didn't jump to conclusions." Jane called out awkwardly hoping Maura would let it go but she knew that she wouldn't. Her fingers started fumbling with each other clumsily.
"Jane this is serious." Maura rushed to Jane's side. "Turn around."
"Maura, I-"
"I'm not kidding. Turn around." Maura cut Jane off
"No, Maura. Just wait until we're inside." Jane stepped back to avoid her friend's hands. "Come on, for me." The detective avoided eye contact as Maura opened her front door, ushering in Jane before closing it behind her.
"Don't freak out, okay?" Jane whispered lifting her shirt up over her head, leaving her in her bra. She was terrified and embarrassed of what Maura's reaction would be. "I... I didn't trust anyone else. I need your help." Jane uttered softly, looking down at the floor. "It really fucking hurts, Maur."
Her eyes stayed planted at the ground as the doctor walked behind her, a gasp coming from her lips as she inspected the damage on Jane's back. "Oh, Jane... This is bad. This is really bad."
"Yeah, you don't say. One of the cuts must have been weeping or something." Jane tried to say casually, but she was trembling.
"How did the staff at the hospital miss this Jane?" Maura choked back tears.
"They didn't see it because I didn't want them to." The Detectives eyes were still firmly on the ground. She was ashamed. Her voice just a whisper
"We have to take you back Jane." Maura nudged Jane to turn around and Jane obliged.
"No, no! Maura, I know you can help me out here. I trust you, Kay?" Slowly Jane's eyes rose up to meet Maura's. "I need you to help me out here."
"Jane, your back is sliced up. There's risk of infection, you're going to need stitches. I work on the dead!" Maura started tearing up, her lip shaking. Jane saw this and fought off her own tears. She knew how heartbreaking it must be for her best friend to see her like this and she blamed herself.
"I trust you more than any other doctor out there. I know you must have a shit ton of medical stuff you can use to fix my back and... My thighs. Come on Maur, don't be upset." Jane pulled Maura towards her gently giving her a hug. Jane desperately needed her friends comforting touch right now.
"O-Okay. Just, let me clear the kitchen bench and I'll sterilise the area." Jane could hear the nervousness in Maura's voice. Maura wasn't confident when working with the living.
Jane clenched her teeth together as the pain coursed through her walking into the kitchen. The pain soared up from her thighs along her back. With every step, the anger inside her rose and her heart ached at what had happened to her. Hoyt's face haunting her every time she had to blink. The pain medication was wearing off. Jane watched as Maura gracefully wiped down her table, her dress riding up her thighs every time she leant over the table. She shook her head slightly cursing herself for staring.
"Okay, I'll be right back. I'll just gather the necessary supplies needed for this procedure." Jane nodded tracing circles on the counter. Her stomach kept flipping, sending waves of nausea through her. Jane looked up as she heard the sound of Maura's heels against the ground. As soon as her eyes found Maura her stomach settled down.
"Okay, are you able to lay down on the counter top?" Maura gently placed her hand on Jane's shoulder.
"Yeah, but should I take my pants off as well? There's... uh... Cuts there too." Jane still avoided eye contact with her friend.
"Yes, that would make things more efficient." Maura's voice tried to remain professional but her personal feelings seeped through causing her words to be shaky. She put her equipment on the table.
Jane slid her fingers under the hem of her pants causing an objection from Maura. "Wait, you will need to use muscles that are damaged to do that. I can do it for you."
"No, I need to do it myself. I will have to deal with this pain sooner or later although the pain meds they gave me are starting to wear off." Jane looked up for a second flashing Maura a smirk before carefully starting to slide her pants down her legs hissing in pain as the hem of her pants caught the wounds. It hurt her like fuck but she was strong, wasn't she? She could recover from this. She was bad-ass Detective Jane Rizzoli. She kept going, Maura's hand rubbing her shoulder keeping her determination up. Once she got her pants all the way off she crawled up on the table and laid on her stomach, her arms crossed under her chin.
"Is it going to hurt?"
"It might hurt a little. I'm going to have to wash the wounds before applying a surface anaesthetic. It's a cream that I'll have to rub around the wounds so that might hurt too."
"Okay, I trust you." Jane closed her eyes waiting for Maura's touch.
"Okay, I'm going to swab and clean them. I'll try to limit the pain as much as possible."
Jane felt Maura's gloved hand start swabbing around and on the wounds making her tense up and close her mouth tightly. She didn't want to let Maura hear her whimper. "Jane, do you know what he carved in your back?" Maura asked carefully.
"No... What is it?"
"No, now isn't the time. Forget I said anything" Maura tried to brush off her question but Jane grew concerned.
"What is it?" Jane's voice sounded more aggressive this time.
"Jane he, he carved his name across your back." Maura swallowed, biting her lip.
Jane stayed silent. She just flexed her jaw. Of course that sick fuck did that to her, he wanted to break her and he had succeeded. She felt Maura continue to clean her wounds as she uttered bitterly "I hope he dies in hospital."
"It's going to be okay Jane. I'll do what I can and then there are other options such as cosmetic surgery." Maura paused for a second before continuing. "Okay, I'm going to apply the anaesthetic now. It might feel strange." Jane felt the cool cream against her back. It was soothing although it stung while being applied.
Once it started working Maura stitched the wounds on her back in what could be record time. It impressed Jane. "Finished already? Wow."
"What can I say? I'm good with my fingers. I stitched the wounds on the outside of your thighs, are there any on the inside?" Maura applied bandages on the wounds as she asked.
"No, they're all good. Can I get off the bench now?"
"Yeah, just be careful." Jane got off the bench and had Maura quickly grab her as she swayed on her feet. "Thanks for keeping me upright" Jane laughed a little, "and thanks for everything else." Jane looked down. "Now I might need your help putting my clothes back on."
"No, you are not going back in those clothes, my friend. I'm going to go grab a pair of loose fitting pyjamas for us both." Maura let go of Jane and walked off towards her bedroom as Jane was left in the kitchen, her arms crossed across her chest. Once again Jane heard the sound of Maura's heels against the floor but this time she didn't look up to greet the Medical Examiner, she just held her arms across her chest the feeling of shame increasing every second.
"So, red or blue?!" Maura exclaimed with a grin returning to Jane.
"Uh, whatever you think is best." Jane finally looked up at Maura, smiling back. Even though she didn't share Mauras love for fashion, she did adore that trait of Maura's except when it forced her to try on dresses.
"Hmm. Okay here." Jane took hold of the blue pair of pyjamas and started putting the bottoms on. She was just about to put the top on when she looked up at the struggling Maura trying to reach the zipper of her dress. "Jeeze, I thought you were graceful." Jane couldn't help but giggle at the sight before her.
"I'm graceful once in the dress. I normally use a coat hanger." Maura replied visibly flustered, a pout on her face.
"Oh come on, come here. I can't watch anymore. It's torture." Jane motioned Maura to come over to her. "It's your turn to turn around." Maura moved, her back was now facing Jane. Every time Jane unzipped Maura's dresses she couldn't help but admire the body underneath. Jane often felt jealous of her friend's flawless skin and curves.
She lingered once she had fully unzipped the dress. She had no idea why she was staring at Maura's back. "Uh, there you go" Jane had an uneasy smile on her face as Maura turned back to face her.
"I don't know what I'd do without you Jane." And with those words Maura slid the dress off her bare shoulders. Jane tried not to look, really, she did but she couldn't help it. Maura was the complete opposite of Hoyt. Her skin, her hair, everything about her drew Jane in before what happened to her and now that she had recently been attacked she couldn't help but grow fonder of her best friend. Her friend who was there, right with Korsak looking for her. She knew that somehow it was Maura who lead them to her; with how determined Maura must have been to find her.
"Well, I can't say I would know what to do without you either. I mean, I'd probably never have started yoga!" Jane made a face as she said yoga, and Maura brushed her sarcastic comment off, laughing a little.
"Hey! It's good for you." Now Maura was just in her undergarments and Jane struggled to look away but she managed to finally force her eyes to look towards the fridge. "Hey, I know I promised wine but is there any of my beer left in the fridge?" Jane kept her eyes at the fridge avoiding Maura as she put the rest of her clothing on.
"Of course, I always keep stocked up with your favourite beer. And don't worry about the wine; I'll have some of that beer too. I have to admit; with how often I drink it with you I've grown a taste to it." Maura walked past Jane to the fridge and damned if Jane's smile didn't get wider.
"It's not only you that has great taste." Jane grabbed the bottle of beer from Maura's fingers quickly chugging it down. "I'm actually really damn thirsty. Pass me another one?" Jane had a triumphant look on her face as she set the bottle down on the counter.
"Well, you're certainly outpacing me. But just so you know, Alcohol only serves to dehydrate you more. I recommend you drinking a glass of water in between bottles." Maura informed Jane handing her another bottle.
"Yeah, yeah I promise I'll drink a huge glass of water later." Jane took the bottle and walked over to the couch. Suddenly out of nowhere this horrible feeling overcame her, eating at her insides. Any appetite she had disappeared.
"Maur, get your ass over here." Jane called out, sat with her legs apart, her beer resting against her crotch. She looked around for the remote but could not see it. "Hey, where the hell is the remote?"
"Um. I haven't had the television on since last time you were here and knowing you, check under the couch cushions." Maura teased Jane walking back over to her. "I do not leave remotes under the cou-Oh." Jane's hand found the remote as she looked guiltily at Maura. Suddenly her emotions overwhelmed her, hitting her hard out of nowhere. Despite fighting it, tears started sliding down her face. "I-Uh." Jane choked back more tears. "Wha-What the" Her face was fighting the emotions threatening to overcome her, twisting her face into a tragic mess. "Fucking, fuckin' hell Maur, what, the fuck?" Jane was now overcome with sobs escaping her mouth every couple of seconds.
Maura quickly set the bottle down on her coffee table rushing next to Jane. "Jane, come on. It's okay. You've recently been through a horrible ordeal. It's okay to break down, I'm here." Jane felt Maura's arms snake around her shaking body. "I let him do this to me; it's my own fucking fault. I'm fucking weak." Jane's arms finally hugged back around Maura, her body melting into her friends.
It took a while for Maura to respond, which Jane summed up as Maura's awkwardness around live people and conveying emotions but she finally replied. "This is no way in your fault. You saved that girl, you're still alive. And you're going to get through this." Maura's arms tightened around Jane's bringing some comfort to Jane. Jane hadn't had time to break down and it was all coming out now despite how strong Jane wanted to be, to feel, to look.
Maura didn't once let go of Jane and the Detective appreciated that. She wasn't much of a hugger but Maura was one of the few exceptions. As soon as Maura and Jane became friends physical contact felt normal with the Doctor of Death. Instead of avoiding contact, she craved contact with her best friend. It felt nice, she thought nothing of it; just that she loved having a close friend.
Jane allowed herself to open up and soak Maura's chest with her tears. She felt safe with her friend, safe enough to let her emotions show. Only when Jane started to pull away Maura let her arms loose. The detective slowly looked up at Maura to see Maura's eyes full of care looking right back at her; a reassuring smile on the honey blonde's face. Jane felt Maura's hands creep themselves onto her forearms. Usually, in moments like this Maura would have her hands right on Jane's. This time she didn't and Jane took comfort in knowing Maura had her hands on Jane's forearms to avoid any chance of hurting her.
"Do you want to stay here tonight?" Maura asked carefully and Jane could see Maura was vigilantly gauging her response and facial reaction. Maura had said some inappropriate things at inappropriate times before to her friend. She knew Maura didn't want to overstep anything or scare her off. It would take a lot for Jane to cut Maura out though.
Jane desperately wanted to stay over and lay in the embrace of her best friend. In fact ever since the hospital where she couldn't get any sleep what so ever she just obsessed over the fact that she wanted to be alone, and then how she didn't want to be alone and then how she just wanted to see Maura. "Yeah, that'd be great." Came Jane's reply. Patting her pockets she realised her phone wasn't in there. "Crap. I promised Ma at the hospital I was going to call her when I got discharged but my phone isn't in my pocket.
"Oh how embarrassing. I actually have your belongings. I don't know how it slipped my mind." Maura got up but as she went to walk away Jane reacted by instinct grabbing Maura's wrist, in doing so she whimpered in pain. She didn't want to be left alone right now, not even for a second and as pathetic as she felt that was she couldn't help but reach out right now.
"Oh Jane!" Maura turned around when she felt her friends hand on her wrist. Jane could tell by the look on Maura's face that she instantly regretted her actions. "I... Just don't want to be alone right now, you know after my huge emotional damn meltdown." Jane offered a smile but her eyes were still red from her earlier outburst.
"That is completely understandable." Maura waited for Jane to stand up before she made her way, with Jane, to her handbag pulling out a plastic zip lock bag with the detective's belongings. "I'm afraid there's only your badge and phone. They had to take your gun as evidence." Maura handed Jane her belongings. "I'm going to get us a glass of water. Okay?" Maura looked at Jane's face for confirmation it was okay to do so.
"Yeah sure, I'll just call Ma. Just give me a minute; I'll meet you in the bedroom." Maura hesitated for a bit before nodding and walking towards the kitchen.
Jane dialled her Mothers number nervously biting at her lip knowing what her Ma's greeting would be like.
"Janie? Is that you? Why did you take so long to call me? You had me worried sick!" When her mother called her by 'Janie' she tensed up nauseated, her hands aching.
"Well hey to you too, Ma." Jane nervously said trying to lighten the mood. She paced back and forth while she talked to her Mum.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah, Mauras taking care of me. Don't worry, I'm in good hands."
"Oh well thank her for me will you? Frankie and your Dad say hey too."
"Say hey to them back for me will ya? And sure I will. I'll come see you tomorrow okay? Right now I need some rest Ma." Jane ran her hand through her hair as she talked to her Mum.
"Oh okay, I love you Janie."
There was that pet name again, causing Jane's eyes to close tightly. "...I love you too Ma, I'll talk to you later. Bye." Jane hung up taking her phone with her as she walked into Maura's bedroom to find Maura in her classic yoga pose.
Jane stopped dead in her tracks. "No. There's no way I'm doing yoga tonight." She pointed at Maura; waving her finger and pursing her lips together to add exaggeration to her words when she saw Maura give her puppy dog eyes. "No."
Maura pouted, "Well okay but I personally find yoga a pleasant activity to reduce stress levels." The Doctor shrugged her shoulders before lying down on her bed, patting the spot next to her. Jane crawled into bed with Maura, slipping under the covers in an attempt to hide herself away from the world. The pair of polar opposites were looking just that right now. Maura, her ankles crossed and arms clasped together at her lap, lying on top of her blankets, staring at the ceiling where as Maura was curled up on her side hiding under the blankets but both had worries that intertwined with each others.
"Jane?" Maura waited for Jane groaning in reply to continue, "I can write you a prescription for stronger pain medication than just the over the counter kind if you want." Jane pulled the covers down so her head popped out of them. She looked at her friend who in turn looked away from the ceiling to look back at Jane. "Heh. I might take you up on that offer."
"Okay, I'll just go and write one up!" Maura started to turn to get out of bed but Jane struck her arm out over Maura's chest. "No. Not now." Jane mumbled, "Just get under the covers and sleep."
Maura obliged turning to her side facing Jane. "I could prescribe something to help you sleep as well if you find yourself having trouble with falling asleep."
"Enough with the doctor stuff right now, Maur. Sleep time." Jane smiled a little closing her eyes ready to fight for some sleep.
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