"You're about 10 weeks along." The doctor said, looking at the monitor.

I smiled and looked up at Sean to get a reassuring smile back. I couldn't help but think back to the day where I had realized I was in love with him.

I had been in college for two years. He had gotten in contact with Emma and was planning to visit her. Much to his dismay, Emma was busy most of the time he was there, but I wasn't. We'd spent almost every day together while he was there. At first it was mutually a friendship that was forming. However, we had been sitting at a café when I looked at him and my heart turned over in my chest. The last thing I expected was to fall in love with Sean Cameron of all people. No one else expected it either. Emma wasn't too happy when she caught us kissing in the dorm we shared. She stayed somewhere else for the remainder of the semester. It's been about a year and a half, and I haven't spoken to her since.

We walked hand in hand out of the doctor's office. I couldn't for the life of me wipe the smile off my face. Even as my mind wandered back to the last time I had been pregnant, way back in high school. Luckily, this pregnancy was under completely different circumstances. Everyone always tells me that what Craig and I had wasn't real. Unfortunately, I know it was. Sometimes I wondered what had happened to Craig.

I gripped Sean's hand tighter, happy to have found love in him.


"Alright…so this is our last performance together," the director said sadly. All the actors where gathered for the last time behind the curtain. The mood was solemn.

"So let's make it a good one. Go out with a bang!" He added. We all nodded in agreement.

I looked over at Max who was staring off into outer space. Out of us all, he had put the most heart and energy into this play. And out of everyone, I would miss him the most. I didn't have many friends, so every friendship I did have I wanted to cherish. This was one of those friendships.

"Hey, you okay?" I asked, putting my hand on his shoulder. He looked up at me.

"Of course." He said, forcing a smile. "You ready, baby?"

"As ready as I'll ever be." I replied. "After this is all over, we'll still keep in touch?"

"Hell yeah!" He laughed and kissed me on the cheek.

"Five minutes to show time! Everyone get in your places!" The director called out. "Break a leg everyone!"

I smiled as I walked off stage, leaving Max standing alone. I watched from of stage as he got into character to open the show. He looked over at me and gave me a thumbs up. The curtain rose.

"How did my life get so out of control?" Max called out into the audience.

Standing ovation. Roses. Bows. Applause. Smiles. Tears. It was all a whirlwind. My head spun.

After all the end of show festivities, the car ride home was silent.

"What's the matter?" Sean asked, glancing over at me.

"Nothing. Just tired." I said, leaning me head back on the car seat.

"I know I've said this millions of times, but you were brilliant out there. You surprise me every day." He said with a smile.

I closed my eyes. "Thanks."

His voice grew faint as I fell asleep.

I awoke the next morning, feeling sick. I groaned. I was hoping I'd be one of the lucky ones without any morning sickness. I could feel my stomach churn. I rushed to the bathroom just in time. I sat on the bathroom floor for a moment, to catch my breath.

I brushed my teeth and washed my face, feeling a bit human again.

I threw on a robe and walked out, in search of Sean. He was no where to be seen. I looked for a note, anything, saying where he was or when he'd be back. Nothing.

I walked up to the calendar hanging on the refrigerator. I was four months along.

I rubbed my stomach lovingly, not wanting to wait five more months to see my child's face, to hear it's cries.

I hopped in the shower, hoping to pass some time. As I got out, I saw Sean standing at the door.

"Where were you?" I asked, wrapping a towel around my body. I pushed my wet hair out of my face.

"I, uh, had to finalize some…things…for the, uh, service and uh, yeah." He said, uneasy.

I raised my eyebrows and nodded. "Oh?"

He shook his head, as if clearing his mind of the clutter. "Yeah…" He walked up to me and pulled me into his arms. I leaned my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes.

Something hadn't felt right about the hug, but I quickly tossed that thought out of my head the moment our lips touched.

Later that day, the feeling of uneasiness came back.

"I'm going out job hunting," Sean said, pulling a light jacket on and grabbing his car keys.

"I really wanted to go shopping for some things for the baby…" I said, turning around to face him.

"We can always go tomorrow, can't we?" He asked.

"I guess…" I let my voice trail off.

"Alright, then." He said, coming over to kiss me on the head before walking out the door.

I sighed. I shouldn't have been feeling like that. I had complete trust in him. When he said he was going job hunting, then that had to be where he was going.

I shook my head, expelling the thoughts. I decided to just go ahead on my own to pick up a few things.

I pulled on my own light jacket and grabbed my own cars keys while heading out the door.

I walked through isle after isle, making a list of the things I saw that I thought I would need.

Bottles. Bottle cleaners. Crib. Crib sheets. Car seat. Baby shampoo. The list never seemed to end. I thought it would be nice to have a baby shower, to make my job a little less stressful. I thought a moment about who I could invite. That list was quite short.

That night, I kissed Sean good night and laid down. I soon heart his deep breathing, signaling he'd fallen asleep.

I laid there staring at the ceiling, my mind couldn't stop thinking.

I thought of Max and how fun our time together had been. I thought of how happy I would be when I finally got to hold my child in my arms. I wondered when the time would be right for Sean and I to get married. I thought how wonderful my life was turning out to be, and how wonderful it would be.

I could just see myself in a long, beautiful gown at the Academy Awards having been nominated in the best actress category. I thought of who I would thank first when I won: Sean and my child.

Before I could get any further, my heart stopped. I could barely breath. The pain shot through my whole body. I clenched desperately at my stomach, hoping it was just something I ate.

I slowly got out of bed. As I was about to go into the bathroom, my mind went numb at the scene before me.

Blood. All where I had just been laying. So much blood. My eyes filled with tears as I screamed in agony. I crumbled to the floor, barely able to breath through the pain and sobbing. I didn't even notice Sean rush to my side.

I wished desperately for my baby to be okay, even though I already knew what had happened. I tried and tried to make the thought leave my mind but it wouldn't.

I'd had a miscarriage.