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Chapter 2

Bella's Prov.

Fear. It was eating away at me. Not fear for me. Fear for my friends. What if Jasper lost control again? What if it happened to Jessica? Or Mike, or Tyler, or anybody else in the school. I even felt fear for Lauren, even if she did join the stupid "dark side". I couldn't sleep, so I just curled on my bed. Edward wasn't here because I had sent him away. I didn't want him to bear the agony of seeing me like this. I sat like this in despair, watching the clock. 11:00, in fetal position. 12;45, agony. 1;30, can't sleep. 2:00, still wrapped in fear. But the instant it turned 2:35 a voice whispered,

"Bella?"

I stuffed my pillow in my mouth so Charlie wouldn't be woken by my scream.

"Jasper! What are you doing here!"

"I wanted to say... I'm sorry-"I glared at him"-sorry, I know that doesn't even begin to cover it. But, I'm just really, really, sorry. Please accept my apology."

"If you want to go around giving apologies, give 'em to Angela's parents." I hit a nerve. But saying Angela's name made me break down. I turned away so Jasper couldn't see my tears. It was stupid because he could probably tell I was crying from reading my emotions, but I was stubborn. After a few seconds, I turned around to see his reaction. His expression was in so much pain. He had been suppressing it but he couldn't choke it back any more. It was a mere ghost of the pain I had felt when Edward left me... but it was enough to send shivers down my spine. I took a deep breath and said,

"I'm sorry I said that Jasper. I accept your apology. It's okay, once I'm a vampire all of us can move to Alaska and we won't have to worry about this." I did my best to give a weak smile. I only managed a lopsided twitch. He said with a still-too-guilty expression,

"No, Bella. You're right. I'm a monster. I killed your friend."

"Jasper, you can't blame yourself if someone gets a little cut while visiting your house. I did that once, you know."

"Yes, if it weren't for everyone being there I would have killed you."

"Jasper-" I moved closer to his face to see his expression in the dark "-stop it. Right now. Stop blaming yourself for an accident!" He moved closer to me, so that I could see the seriousness of his face. I know this was definitely not the right time to be thinking this, but, he looked so... seductive, with a leonine body. And his face was more... No he's like my brother!!! ALMOST as beautiful as Edward's. As he spoke, his delicous scent wafted over towards me.

" I'm glad you think that way Bella but I am a monster, whether you think so or no-" Unthinkingly, I kissed him. His bewildered expression melted into lust. He held me tightly.I forgot to breath. His smell enveloped me, and I had to resist so hard not to open my lips. We stayed together like that, until I could feel him starting to break away. Desperately, I leaned on my tiptoes to prolong the kiss and my tongue greedily reached toward his lips so I could taste them. He lost control. He broke open his lips, and he twined his arms around me. His venom flowed from his mouth into mine, but I didn't notice. The pain was just a little speck compared to the elation I was feeling. He held me with one arm, opened the window, and jumped out with me. Still kissing me, he opened the car door with one hand, then for fraction of a second, our kiss broke. He pushed me in as fast as he could without killing me and opened his door and kissed me again before a second had passsed. He drove with one hand, eyes not on the road. I lost track of time. All I knew was that for another fraction of a second our kiss broke and I fell on the bed of a room with all the lights turned off. He jumped onto me, and passionately dug his fingers into my hair. His kiss gradually became softer, but no less passionate. Arms twined around each other, we stayed in the dark room for three days.

Just so u know, this isn't the end of the story. I'm currently writing more :)