First song Fae sings is I Hate It When You See Me Cry by Halestorm and the second is I'm Not An Angel by Halestorm. Fae is a bit dramatic so I thought they were fitting haha.


I waited impatiently in his room as I listened to him and the band play. I could hear that there were a lot of people out there and it set me on edge. He was right. There was a huge possibility that they both would be there. This was Opie's home and Ima was a pass around from what I knew. She went after Jax hard when I left, but now that Tara was back I could only guess how many people she was with. Most girls did porn because it was good money. Ima did it because she couldn't get enough dick.

Alright ladies and gentleman. I have an amazing surprise for you all. I have a great friend of mine that is going to come up and sing with me.

The party picked right back up again as soon as he was done talking. The Sons weren't much for music. They just liked background noise while they partied. I slipped out and on the stage with him. He handed me the mic and the band started.

I hate it when you see my cry
Your t-shirt is soaked through from my eyes
When I'm not as tough as I should be
You see the softest part of me
I hate it when you see me cry
I hate it when you see me cry

I looked into the crowd as the band picked up. I immediately locked eyes with Jax. He had this huge smile on his face with his arm wrapped around Tara. He whispered in her ear and she shrugged with a smile. I smiled back as the music picked up.

I hate it when I let you down
When your smile turns around
And I know I'm supposed to be
The one who says babe count on me
I hate it when I let you down

I'm your rock and roll Joan of Arc
The queen of broken hearts
I'm here to save the world
But who will save Supergirl
What if I'm weak

And I need you tonight
Oh
I hate it
I hate it when you see me cry

I glanced over at Bobby and he was smiling. I was usually pretty good at finding songs I could belt out. It also made it easier that I was so comfortable around Bobby.

I hate it that I need you now
To hold my hand
Hear me out
If I wake up on the bathroom floor
Will you still want me in the morning
Oh babe I need you now

I'm your rock and roll Joan of Arc
The queen of broken hearts
I'm here to save the world
But who will save Supergirl
What if I'm weak

And I need you tonight
Oh
I hate it
I hate it when you see me cry

I hate it when you see me cry

I hate it when you see me cry

I looked out as I finished and saw Opie staring at me. He was standing in the back with a beer in his hand. He looked older, but not in a bad way. It fit him. My heart was pounding in my chest but I was smarter than to think it was from singing. I couldn't break my eyes from him despite the fact that I could feel my face flushing.

"You good, sweetheart?"

I looked over at Bobby finally and nodded.

"Remember the song I wasn't sure I wanted to sing cause it really hit home?"

"Yeah. Next?"

"Please."

I looked back out and saw him shift his weight. There was a girl next to him trying to get his attention but he kept ignoring her.

You made a mistake
On the day that you met me
And lost your way
You saw all the signs
But you let it go
You closed your eyes

I shoulda told you to leave
Cause I knew all the time you couldn't handle me
But you're hard to resist
When you're on your knees
Begging me

I watched as he rolled his jaw. I forced myself to look around the bar at anyone but him. I saw Jax look back at him and nod. I ended up locking eyes with Tig and smirked. He always made it easier to forget. Tig and I had a weird relationship when I was younger. I could talk to him about anything, but any time I needed a good lay he was there too.

I tear you down
I make you bleed
Eternally
Can't help myself
From hurting you
And it's hurting me
I don't have wings
So flying with me won't be easy
Cause I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel

I looked back at Opie and glanced down at my wrist at the world Angel written in scribe across it. It was the name he always called me. It had started as a joke but for some reason it stuck.

Hate being that wall
That you hit
When you feel like you gave it all
I hate taking the blame
When we both know I'll never change

I tear you down
I make you bleed
Eternally
Can't help myself
From hurting you
And it's hurting me
I don't have wings
So flying with me won't be easy
Cause I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel

I wasn't always this way
I used to be the one with the halo
But that disappeared when I hate my first taste
And fell from grace
It left me
In this place

Well I'm starting to think
Maybe you like it

I tear you down
I make you bleed
Eternally
Can't help myself
From hurting you
And it's hurting me
I don't have wings
So flying with me won't be easy
Cause I'm not an angel
I'm not an angel

I'm not an angel

I'm not an angel

The song ended and everyone started clapping. I locked eyes with Opie again. He had an amused look on his face with his nose stuck up in the air. That had always driven me nuts. Some days I wanted to slap it off his face and others I just wanted to kiss him. I thanked everyone and handed the mic back over. Bobby blew me a kiss and I stepped off onto the floor.

I was immediately pulled into a bone crushing hug by Jax. He picked me up and spun me around causing me to laugh. Jax was always one of my best friends. We grew up together.

"Fae! What the hell are you doing here?"

"I'm back Jackie Boy."

He kissed my cheek and kept holding me close.

"Hey don't go monopolizing her."

I looked up to see Tig standing there with his arms wide open. I jumped on him and he spun me around laughing.

"Fae, baby. Just couldn't keep away from me huh?"

"You know it Tiggy. You're just so irresistible."

I kissed his cheek as he set me down. I was pulled out his arms straight into Chibs embrace. Chibs was like the father I never knew I needed. I had this huge crush on him when I was younger but he shut that shit down quick. Where as Tig had no problem with rolling around with me for a few hours, Chibs was addiment that it would never happen. It had broken my heart but looking back I'm glad he didn't take advantage of me. It would have been easy to do with him always being the one there for me.

"Lass, my beautiful lass. I miss you so much! When did you get back?"

"Yesterday."

"Breakfast tomorrow?"

"I'd love that."

He smiled down at me and kissed my forehead. I was passed through the rest of the guys until I finally broke free and got a drink. I looked around and couldn't be happier. I glanced over at the wall and saw that Opie was still looking at me. He looked like he was going to head towards me until I was blocked by Ima right in my face.

"Hey there, baby."

"Hey, Ima."

"You didn't give me that kind of welcome. I'm a little jealous."

"You were at work, sweetheart. Not only that but it's not like we left things on great terms."

She wrapped her arm around my waist, pushing herself into me. She had a devilish look on her face and it was driving me nuts. I could still feel Opie staring at me from the wall.

"Why don't we head back to a room and we can give each other a proper hello. It's been years."

I hesitated. My body was screaming at me to go with her but my mind knew it was a bad idea. She nibbled at my bottom lip and it took everything in me to slip out of her arms.

"Sorry, Ima. I don't mind talking later but right now I just want to relax."

She pouted and brushed my hair off my shoulder.

"I gave you my number. Give me a call later."

I nodded and forced a smile as she wandered off to find someone else to entertain. I huffed out a sigh and tried to get my body to shut up. Not only had it been a long time since I had even been intimate with anyone, there was just something about your first love. I didn't think there would ever be a time where I wouldn't be set on fire by that woman.

"I'm going out to smoke. Look like you could use one."

I looked up to see Opie next to me. I jumped a little, not realizing he was that close to me. I nodded and followed him outside. He offered me one of his cigarettes and lit it for me.

"So I'm the only one who doesn't get a hug then?"

"Didn't think you'd want me that close to you."

"Been a while. You know I don't hold grudges."

"Been a while. Didn't know if you changed."

He blew out a puff of smoke and shook his head.

"Nah. Nothing really changes around here."

"I noticed."

He nodded.

"Surprised you didn't take off with Ima."

"Trying not to get caught up with porn sluts. Turning a new leaf."

He laughed and smirked down at me with his nose in the air.

"You back for good?"

"Yeah. Probably gonna start working up at the hospital. All my credentials transferred over."

"That's good. You staying with Tara?"

"Yeah. She has room. I have a feeling her and Jax will end up living together though."

"Yeah. After Wendy took off it has been smooth sailing."

"Tare said that Wendy faked a pregnancy to try to get him to stay?"

"Yeah. Should have seen Gemma when she found out it was fake."

I shuddered. I had pissed Gemma off. Once. Never again.

"You're doing good though?"

"I guess. Spent most of my time buried in books when I left here. My high school grades were shit so I had to prove myself my first year. Three point nine GPA got me into a great school. Finish in five years instead of six."

"Never pegged you as a book smart kind of girl."

"Me either."

We both laughed and continued smoking. It always surprised me how easy it was to be around Opie. It always had been. He was always my voice of reason and rock. It made it that much harder when I was torn between him and Ima. They were both totally different people to me.

"You heard Donna left, I take it."

"Yeah. Dad mentioned it. Said you did a few years in Stockton."

"Just got out a few months ago."

"Damn. Lose your touch?"

"Kyle took off. Can't get away if you don't have a ride."

"Are you fucking kidding me?" I fumed.

"Nope. I wasn't in for a month before Donna cleared the house out and took off. Served me the divorce papers soon after."

"Shit. I'm sorry, Ope."

"Not your fault. Your dad is actually the one who kept my head on straight. Said he didn't want me to end up like him. Said I had shit to do when I got out."

"He's always been wise considering how much stupid shit he has done."

Opie laughed and nodded. He pulled out another cigarette and offered me one.

"We chain smoking?"

"Just enjoying your company. That alright?"

I smiled and nodded, taking another one.

"So you aren't here to run away from some ex-boyfriend right?"

"Nah. Never really had one there."

"Ex-girlfriend?"

"Nope."

"I find that hard to believe."

"I can see that. I really didn't though. I knew if I didn't finish my education I would end up a pass around some shady club. Didn't want to do that anymore."

"I can respect that. You're back though."

"Yeah. Things are different this time though."

"Didn't look too different when Ima pushed up on you."

"I turned her down, didn't I?"

He laughed.

"Why's that?"

I sighed and shook my head.

"I don't want that life anymore, Ope. I loved that woman. That love fucked me up though. Blinded me."

"I know. Just glad you see that now."

"Heard she's quite the whore now anyway."

He snorted and nodded.

"Could say that. Pretty sure I'm the only one she hasn't fucked."

"Doesn't surprise me. At least I'm not the club whore anymore."

"I never saw you that way."

"Think you and Chibs were the only two who didn't."

"Maybe."

We fell into a silence. It was comfortable though. Being around Opie closed up some wounds I didn't even realize I still had. I was just about to thank him for spending time with me when a fight spilled out of the clubhouse. I looked over to see Tig and Happy throwing punches. Opie and I just watched.

"That happen often?"

"Nah. Not sure what this is about."

Clay erupted out of the clubhouse and yelled for it to stop. Tig walked away but two guys grabbed onto Happy. They both had blood on their faces and looked pissed.

"What the hell is this all about?" Clay boomed.

"Ask Happy." Tig snapped.

"I asked him why Opie had his underage pussy outside instead of him."

"I'll fucking kill ya." Tig growled.

The two went after each other again before Clay yelled. I went to step forward but Opie put his arm up.

"I got this, Ope. I knew something like this would happen."

I stepped forward an got between the two. Tig wouldn't look at me but Happy was glaring a hole through me.

"What right do you have to say anything, Happy Lowman?"

"Come back to get passed around?"

"No I came home. A place that I should have appreciated more. And for you to talk shit about Tig? I remember you fucking me just as much as he did before I was eighteen."

Happy glared at me and turned his back, heading back into the clubhouse.

"Anyone else have a fucking problem with me? Maybe want to bring up the stupid shit I did ten years ago? I'm not the same fucking girl that left here. If anyone has a problem, please form a line by the picnic table."

I turned and went back to where I was sitting. Opie was smirking at me.

"You're asking for trouble, Angel."

"Yeah, well sometimes I think that might be my middle name."