Hi! I presume you were restless if I was going to update the next chapter or I've given up to go on with the story. Well, no, don't you worry, it's just that I've felt quite bad lately, but this is not the point here...

The other thing is that actually I'm not done with this chapter, but it's become so long that I have to sever and make two parts of this second chapter. I got carried away with it, hehe. I hope you'll still enjoy it, I think it has turned out way better than as I imagined first.

But before reading a little information here what I've forgotten to tell right at the very beginning: I know there are a lot who like reading big yaoi stuff, which is not like it bothers me, but if you're only here to read pure lemon without any clear story then I fear this is not your cup of tea. No insult, just to inform you.

But for those who like reading Tyka fics with "sense" plot behind the story and sweet love about boys that I can give you.

Disclaimer: Beyblade does not belong to me

Warning: deep sorrow, angst, little violence

Have a nice time reading!


2. chapter

Please come home

(part 1)


Kai Hiwatari was standing in front of his huge, double window and was looking outside the gloomy weather. This was something that had become a daily habit by him under these three months. The bedroom, which had belonged to him since he was a child, was furnished like royal, still, it felt so desolate and lifeless. As if happiness had vanished from it, for ever; not that this old mansion held much joy and fun which was alien to Voltaire Hiwatari. The grandfather, and last but not least Kai's last relative, who was still alive and was the holder of the huge mansion until he was sent into prison and Kai'd become the new master of the house.

That had been three years now.

However, the life in the mansion had started to bring changes, mostly for Kai, when a young teenager, Tyson Granger, stepped in. It took long but slowly Kai was opening for him and for the world, too, even if only a bit; it was only Tyson and the other Bladebreakers who Kai could give his trust. The mansion had filled up with life and the flowers in the garden started blossoming in full flush, too.

The bitter and painful memories about the death of his parents and how his life had become so miserable after then; he had been sent into Russia to an Abbey where more diseases had befallen him, both mental and bodily. But that was all over. It was only a nightmare which was in the past and it would not come back again. Thanks to Tyson.

If only everything could have stayed like that. Always.

If only... that day would have never come. Then it would have never happened. Then the flowers would be still blossoming. But it was over; on that day Tyson had vanished from Kai's life and with the bluenette every hope, every light... every beautiful that had meant something for Kai had vanished for ever.

On that day the time had stopped passing for Kai.

It'd been three months now since that flight accident but in Kai's mind it was still like it happened yesterday. Though, the shock on him was quite big that he could remember clear every details. Even so, he did remember mistily the scene of the waiting room where his raven haired friend, who himself was beyond desperate and freaked out as well, tried to comfort Kai the best he could. Distantly, Kai heard how Max was crying hard. The broken expression on the always cheerful blonde boy was deplorable.

The next scene what had come later was in the dojo. Kai had never seen so anguished the grandfather as he did then. At one go he really had become old and somehow fragile. That was when Kai finally grasped what really happened.

Though he still couldn't show any bursting emotions like the others did, but he was also suffering inside, deeply. His motionless, expressionless attitude made Hiro furious, nevertheless. Who, over that he'd not only lost his little brother, a part of his blood, but even after that he couldn't believe how could someone like Kai still have the guts to step into his house with such a fucking calm face on him. How could someone be like that to not show any respect, not even a little care, towards his teammate? For Tyson for God shake!

But Hiro was wrong. He didn't see the loss in those blank orbs of Kai's. Or he might didn't even care. And giving up every decency Hiro - with tears in his eyes - threw all his anger, pain, and sorrow at Kai, who for everyone's big surprise didn't make any reaction or protection when the older Granger suddenly grabbed him by his black jacket, and if it hadn't been for Rei, then Hiro sure would have not hold back himself from hitting Kai.

After that the young Hiwatari returned to his mansion and locked himself into his house, away from everyone and everything.

He'd been leading a real unsociable existence. He didn't talked to anyone, if there was a possibility, and nothing mattered to him anymore. Rei did called him on phone, not once. He and Max did even come to visit Kai and tried to screw him out from his cave somehow, but it was useless. The dual haired refused to talk or see anyone.

When Kai hadn't showed up at the BBA for a quite long while, either, the director had come to him. Everyone – excluding Hiro – was very worried for Kai, even Mr. Dicenson. The hatted old man was talking long to Kai, who sat face to face with him while he was resting hard his gaze on the window all along. It was something the dual haired male often did, not because of disrespect or indifference, but because he didn't want anyone to look into his eyes. To see those burnt out orbs. Kai, however, listened the white moustached man patiently. He didn't interrupt the director, who putting aside his formal manner, in the end he was practically begging to Kai to come back to the BBA Company.

When the old man didn't have anything more to say deep silence fell on both of them. His gaze was lingering on Kai's expressionless face, waiting trustingly for an answer.

After some minutes later Kai had finally moved his face, but when his look met the director's the only thing he said was... "I have no place at the BBA Company anymore." his voice was like ice. Just like he'd been at the beginning of their meeting. No, it as worse; even Kai himself noticed how his voice had become strange for him, as if it wasn't his voice at all that was speaking from his mouth.

Mr. Dicenson sighed deep as his gaze folded down sorrowful on to the table. Then he slowly stood up and left, leaving Kai, once again, alone.

Every damned day was the same for him. He spent his time with staying in his room or took walks in his gardens with his intense thoughts. Had it not been for Albert, Kyo and Dranzer, then Kai sure would no stick out not even his nose from his room. They three were Kai's only companies who from he didn't hide away, but he found them understanding him more than the others did.

The dear valet, Albert, had known Kai since he was only a little kid, and his parents were still alive. Under the years he had been keeping tabs on his young master's life, and he was solicitous for the boy's sad fate. Although Kai never returned openly strangers overtures, kept a respectable distance, he liked and had a big respect towards Albert. He always treated every situation with noble discretion and Kai never forgot to return these things on his own ways.

The valet often visited Kai's room, mostly when he brought up his meal, and while he did that he always noted what a beautiful day they were having (it was not a big news because Bay City had usually sunshine days; it was rare when it was rainy or cloudy). Kai never gave any response for that, but internally he sensed the true meaning behind those simple common words.

Later, Albert had come back to find Kai's room left empty. Going to the window where Kyo, the grey tabby cat was sitting, he took a look outside the gardens where the dual haired male strolled. Albert had given a fine stroke to Kyo before he took out the empty dishes on the salver with a sad smile on his face.

Kai'd even give up blading anymore. The Bladebreakers team would never be entire without the bluenette anyway. But Dranzer didn't let herself set aside so easily like that; the wonderful phoenix glowed and splashed fire rings around the blade indignantly when Kai didn't give her the deserved attention he was used to. This times Kai always brought his blade out with him to the gardens where he let her rip to let out all her exalted energy.

Dranzer thanked this thereby making all sorts of fine, criss-cross circles to awe her young master. Sometimes, she even barged into Kai's foot on purpose in a teasing way, as if she was trying to cheer him up when she noticed that the dual haired had gone very deep in his thoughts.

Kai wondered how came that his phoenix was still so blazing and the flame of fire was so intensive when she'd lost her partner; Dragon. But no, bitbeasts didn't die, only humans did.

Today, crimson orbs wreathed with dense mist stared into the melancholy weather that had fallen to Bay City; thick, grey clouds shrouded the sunbeams. Not that Kai minded, actually, it was just the way he liked and wanted it to stay like that. What would be the good anyway to have a sunny day if the true light of his life was missing?

Three months had passed... three months... no hope, just the death-confirmatory news. Three months were not much... but three months should be long enough time for to make Kai realize that Tyson presumably would never come back again. Then why?... he wondered... why couldn't he cry?

It was so... unnatural. Had he really become that cold that his last drop of emotions had vanished from him too?

Behind him, on a desk, unfolded newspapers were lying in a heap. Kai never gave any damn interest what those meddler journalists wrote, but since that day Albert had been bringing up the newly published ones to him, always. He never read through the whole newspaper just that one certain article that wrote about the accident.

The bottommost print, which had been published on the first days after the accident, the article was printed on the front page with gigantic characters. But as time went it made less sensation, rather pity, it had been sorted to the back pages among the other common news.

The government had told right at the very beginning that he didn't think that the number of 717 flight had been a victim to a terrorist attack, but if yes, they would make sure they were going to pay hell for it. Nonetheless, they couldn't give any certainty until they found the airplane and the black box (1).

They did find the plane. They also found the black box, but what they couldn't figure out what could have caused the detonation on the board. In the last published article they told that they were still investigating the wrecks but they were going to carry home the bodies of those they managed to identify. The president offered his deep solidarity and condolences to the bereaved, and he promised a honorable funeral to the departed.

Honorable. Hn. What was honorable in such a death?

And the days passed but the pain stayed...

- O -

"You think this could help?"

"I don't know Max. But if this not then nothing."

It was late in the afternoon and the two left members of the Bladebreakers team, Max and Rei, were walking down on the street towards Kai's mansion. Rei looked up in the sky. The grey clouds were slowly furling away, revealing behind them the yellow and faint pink shaded sky where it showed that sunset was coming soon. Still, the sight seemed to be full of hope.

Maybe it's a sign, thought Rei. Then he looked down his hand where in he was holding a handwritten letter what Mr. Dicenson had handed to them. This was the first flash of hope after so long time they all could cling to, and Rei desperately wanted to believe that this letter was true.

They turned in a corner and soon they reached the huge iron gate of the Hiwatari Mansion. As they walked along the slim path that led through the gardens to the main entrance Max started to become unsure. "What if it won't work? What if he doesn't even let us in?"

"Then I'm going to drag him out by his scarf this time." the raven haired's gaze hardened and he stepped up on the stone stairs leaving a very startled looking Max behind him.

"Em, that's might not a good idea." the blonde squeaked, but Rei didn't give any response to that. He knocked decisively on the door.

Faint sound of steps could be heard and the next second Albert appeared in the door. "Master Rei. Mr. Mizuhara." he looked surprised at the two teens.

"Hi Albert. Can we talk to Kai? It would be very important." asked politely the nekojin.

The valet's face saddened. "Oh I'm sorry, but master Kai still doesn't want to see nobody."

"We know. That's why we came." spoke Max. "This just can't go on like this. We have to help him somehow – please Albert, let us talk to him." the blonde male put on his puppy dog eyes which was his specialist when it came about begging situations. And truth to tell, usually it worked every time.

The lean valet looked at them ponderingly for a while. He never disobeyed his masters' asks, not only because it was his job to execute the orders he was given, but Kai was different. His orders were never commanding or pretentious like his grandfather's; he always asked for Albert to do things for him.

Albert knew the right would be if he did as his young master asked him to not let nobody in to him. But right now, the way this two boys were standing here, in front of his house, with a sad but filled with hope in their eyes, it was clear how much they truly cared for Kai. How could he say no to them?

Besides, Albert also would be happy if he only could see Kai in a shape again as he'd been when Tyson was still by his side, and his team was together. And if Rei and Max knew a way that could bring Kai out from his darkness he wouldn't stand in their way. He rather took part in the plan. "I'm bringing up master Kai's tea. I escort you to him." he said and a fine smile came on to his face. He beckoned them in.

Rei gave an appreciative look. 'Way the go, Maxie.'

'You bet, pal.' the blonde winked back at him.

Albert took the salver he'd left on an armoire and went towards the staircase, and up. Max and Rei followed him. Max was gaping amazed by the sight of the classic furnished huge mansion. He was convinced that inside it looked much bigger. They both knew Kai was rich, but unlike Rei, it was the first time Max had been in his house. Not that Rei had managed to get farther in to the house than only the huge hallway.

Upstairs a long corridor started and had many doors both sides. Albert stopped at the second one which was right side from the stairs. He knocked in tactfully. From the room they could hear a muffled voice of Kai's inviting. Albert had given the two teens a meaningful glance that they should wait here a bit before he opened the door and went in.

"I brought up your tea, sir." the valet said as he put the salver onto the desk, beside the heap of newspapers.

"Thank you Albert." Kai said monotonic, not moving an inch from his window. Just kept staring outside.

"Oh, and you have visitors."

"Send them away. I don't want to see nobody."

"Oh we know you don't want to see nobody, but you may can get in your friends some time beside your important businesses."

Kai spun around to saw Rei walking primly inside with a smug smile on his face, Max following him close behind. Albert didn't even give any chance to Kai to protest when he backed out towards the door.

"I don't disturb further the gentlemen. Call me if you need something." and with an eerie smile he quickly left.

"Wait, Albert..." Kai hurried to his door, as if he got some panic, but it had been already closed.

"Don't bother Kai. We've already told Albert we don't want tea."

The dual haired peered at the raven haired male, who gave a quite insolent token as he made himself comfortable on Kai's bed, signaling that they weren't planning to leave very soon at all. And on top of it all he looked challengingly at the older male.

Meanwhile, Rei could take a better look at his friend and had he to experience with shock that Kai really did look awful. Smashing, black bags sat under his eyes, and he looked much paler as he used to be. And had he lost some weight too? Or it was more like his skin tightened more over his body. His eyes. Those crimson orbs; they were dull and they looked as if a blurred veil covered them.

Kai now turned to Max who took a standing place close to the door, just in case if the situation would turn into escape. The blonde rubbed his arm while he was trying to smile nicely but under Kai's hard gaze it went weak, even a bit scared. Kai's look went back to Rei's once again. "Go away." he said sharply.

Rei snorted. "I see your hospitality hasn't changed at all. Don't you worry, we won't stay for dinner."

"Hn." the slate haired teen scowled at him, then arrogantly showed his back to them as he returned to his previous position to the window. Kai thought that if he kept ignoring them sooner or later they would give up anyway and leave.

But it hadn't happened. Max and Rei stayed, and though Kai didn't see their gazes he could feel both of them on his back. Some minutes passed in deep silence. Max made a little stir on his place once which sounded like a whimpering puppy. His ocean blue eyes looked at Rei as to ask some help what should be their next movement, but what he only found was a pair of golden yellow eyes that were shining somewhat strange as they fixed hard on Kai's back.

Kai closed his eyes and sighed deep. He couldn't understand why didn't they leave him alone. Why kept they torturing him? Was it because everyone was convinced that it was his fault? Yeah, Kai was sure that he was the cause of they'd lost Tyson. He didn't take care of his teammate as a good captain should have done, no matter that Tyson was almost an adult. Kai was the captain, so it was his responsibility... His responsibility... His sin.

He couldn't help the aching pain that raved in his chest again. He couldn't stand this vibrating tension that settled in the room. Finally, he spoke in a low voice. "Why did you come?"

"I think every news that affects our team should be informed even if the captain gives no shit care, which I have to say should he his job, after all." told him seriously Rei straight from the shoulder. Kai even could detect the blame in his voice.

"I thought Mr. Dicenson told you."

"Oh he told us alright, but I didn't believe him that you meant it serious." Rei snapped.

"Hn. That's your problem." Kai put more sparks on to the brand. This conversation was starting to warm up more and more, but he couldn't care less if his words were rough or hurting. All he wanted was to be left alone already. Why was it so damn hard to understand? The young Hiwatari would like to know were was this play really going.

"We didn't come here only as your teammates, Kai. We are friends."

"Maybe you were wrong." Kai murmured unthinkingly and cold silence fell. He didn't know why did he say that. He really did not know. Bit this time it was worse. He felt that with his words he had cut so deep wound in their friendship what he had done only once when he betrayed his team because of the tempting power of Black Dranzer.

The dread silence was up for long minutes which made more depressing the situation for Kai. The bed creaked softly as Kai heard Rei stand up. He was certain that he'd broken his friend's heart and now they were going to walk out his door and he would never see them again.

It took Kai by surprise when suddenly a hand grabbed his shoulder and spun him around beastly. He was pushed back and the next moment he let out a hiss in pain when his face banged harshly to the window frame while two strong hands were gripping tightly onto his black jacket.

In the background Max whimpered startled.

Kai looked shocked into Rei's lightning eyes that had gone from yellow to ochre. This was the last drop in the water by the nekojin.

"I'm so tired of you Hiwatari." he hissed under the low rage. "I've never seen such an arrogant bastard like you! You're an idiot if you really think this is only your ache and you have to deal with it alone. Let me tell you something: you are not the only one who is suffering!" the raven haired's face came dangerously closer. His white, sharp fangs suddenly emerged.

Max was still standing there, trembling visible. His hands clasped tightly while he fought with the tears that massed in his eyes.

Kai stared further petrified at his friend as he had never seen him like this before. "I can't believe that after all this time, everything we've gone through doesn't mean anything to you. That you throw away our friendship as it's nothing! We are a team. We should hold together, but what you're doing is letdown. What a captain is who betrays so easily his teammates over again?" this time Rei hit a weak point on Kai because the half russian's crimson eyes that were dull, now narrowed dangerously back at him.

He knew that deep inside it still hurt Kai what he'd done to them in the past. Kai never wanted to remember of it and since their team had recruited again Rei didn't overlook the fact how much harder Kai worked to interlace their team tighter than ever. It was his own silent way how he wanted to make it up to them and that his guilt finally find ease in his soul. His friends had never cast the theme up against him, but now Rei couldn't care less if he harrowed Kai's feelings.

Even if he was cruel, even if would regret it later, he would make Kai realize how foolish is what he was up to do, again. The hand on Kai's side clenched into fist as the two males were looking daggers at each other.

Max paled by the sight. He looked with fear a the door then back at the two incensed teens if he should call help before they jumped at each other's throat.

"You can hate me as much as you want, but I won't let you," Rei went on. "I won't let you give up everything we've come at. Give up our beyblade team, our friendship. Give up... him!" the anger from Kai's gaze suddenly vanished when his eyes went wide. He looked frozen into the distance.

No. He couldn't mean... that name. He didn't want to hear it. That would bring only pain again. The shadow he'd lived in lately kept him in safe... protected him from all his emotions. But if it broke now that would bring him back into life again where nothing waited for him only suffering.

Why? A tiny spark glinted in the crimson eyes. Why did they do this to him?

The fist by Kai's side shook poorly but did not move. Rei realized he had the older male under his affect when he detected that something was coming back in those deep eyes. He showed no mercy to Kai to give him a last hit.

"Tyson would be disappointed if he saw you like this!"

Kai flinched in his whole body by hearing that name, his eyes going incredibly wide if there was a possible. He stood like stone on the spot while his crimson eyes were gazing at Rei. They were shining and filled with so much emotions. Only the phoenix's eyes could look so sad that made your heart cry, but this was... so much different.

The cramped hand loosened up. Kai's head dropped forward where his eyes got hide away by his soft, grey bangs. For awhile he gave no move. Max watched the whole scene with big anxiety, even Rei, who was pondering that he might have gone way too far.

But then his head snapped when he heard Kai spoke very quietly. "You are right. I really am a coward."

The raven haired gave a soft sigh of relief. He let go of the soft black fabric of Kai's jacket and instead he placed a comforting hand on his shoulder while he was looking at his friend with sympathetic eyes now. "No. You're not a coward Kai. You're just... well, there is always a time when everyone needs a kick in the ass to make snap out of it." he felt a bit uncomfortable by his earlier attitude, and ashamed, but he was sure the dual haired would forgive him later. And he was certain that Kai would avenge on him anyway on their next training. Oh dear!

Kai growled reluctantly as he raised his head but refused to look at his friends. Rei sniffed slightly. "And though you don't deserve it, but here..." he took out the letter and placed it in Kai's hand.

Kai unfolded it carefully and started reading it. Once again Rei could watch how the features of his friend's changed as he was going along from line to line. Although he tried to not show it, stay stern, his eyes told everything. "I know how you feel Kai." Rei said when he noticed that Kai had reached the end of the letter but he was still staring at it with a fathomless expression.

"I was also shocked when I first read this letter. I didn't want to believe it. Mr. Dicenson told us that we have to go sure on it before we make hasty decisions. We are traveling there. Hiro and Gramps wanted to come, too, but Mr. Dicenson said it would be safer if only the three of us went. We were hoping that you would come with us and..." he didn't have the chance to finish what he was saying because Kai rushed past him and quickly disappeared behind the door without a word.

Max and Rei looked total uncomprehendingly at each other. For a few minutes they were standing in the room. When they thought it was time now to go search Kai the oak door swung open again. Kai came in.

"Go packing. The flight starts at 6 o'clock, we meet there." he declared. He hurried to one of his closets and took out some clothes and a suitcase.

Max and Rei gaped at each other.

- O -

"Wow." Max looked amazed. "Are you sure we're in the right place?"

Rei took a check on the map and the letter he was holding. "Yeah. Actually, we are right before our destination."

"I wouldn't tell. It so not fits in."

The three friends were standing on the top of a hill and they admired the lookout. Max had right; this land didn't fit in the reality where they were for, more punctually, the reason they came here for.

Under the sunlit blissful sky hills stretched long in every shade of green. Under them, in the valley, hundreds of variegated flowers were swaying in the mild breeze in many lines on a plantation. And the end of the flower lines stood a timber house. It looked just like they took it from a painting. No one would tell that a few miles away from this place an airplane disaster happened. If they weren't sure this was still Earth, and not Heaven, they would think this was another place of Paradise.

Kai had to admit that the landscape before them was really gorgeous. Even so, the tiredness in his bag eyes was so heavy that he hardly could enjoy it. He indeed had slept less recently and though he tried to take a little nap on the plane, he couldn't have much because of the excitement in his nerves.

The wind played archly with his white scarf as he was looking down the little house and watched a young woman who was working with her flowers.

"Let's go." Kai declared and together they started off, downwards from the hill. The plantation was parted by a narrow dirt road that led them direct to the house. Both sides yellow, white, purple and other colourful flowers were blossoming and their scent was something they called heady and wonderful.

The woman was planting some new plants when she caught the sight of three comers. She wiped her grimy hands in her long apron and reared herself up. She was wearing a straw on her head that hid half her long brown hair that was put back in a low ponytail. By her features she didn't look more than thirty. As the warmth of the sun shone onto her tanned cheeks sweat-drops could be seen as they sparkled. She raised a hand and wiped them away, left a little smear on her forehead after it. Stepping out from her flowers she went towards them...


The 2. part expectedly gonna be more longer and everything will be cleared up.

A little info: if you wonder what's black box?: I saw many plane crash documentary films and if I'm right the black box is for to record everything that had been said in the cockpit. So, when they investigating what had happened on the plane before the disaster occured they always search the black boxes to listen again the conversation between the captain and the landing-tower.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter, next one comes up... Till then, I take every review with big glad, and it sure would cheer me up, too. ^ ^ I always reread my works before update but if you notice something please let me know, it would be a big help for me. Thank you.

Also, I thank you for those who reviewed for me on the first chapter. You all are sweet! :)

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