The Night Shift Fanfic 1:
"PARALYZED PANIC" Part 2:
Author's Note:
Hey, all this is still my first fanfiction for 'The Night Shift' it is just the second part to it.
This chapter is based off of the events in 1X4 "Grace Under Fire"
I am a HUGE TC and Jordan shipper as I have said before. Sadly, there is not as many Fanfic of the two, so it is up to us to get more of them out there
Anyway, I hope I captured more of Jordan's emotions in this chapter as I had in the previous if not more so here, TC with his gentleness and compassion for the fellow brunette.
It is hurt/comfort/tragedy.
Song lyrics are taken from, "Don't Let Me Down" -Chain Smokers
I say tragedy because the death of a parent is never easy, never something you get over- you just learn to work with it, hopefully you are making them proud as you continue your journey through life.
This may be a fanfic about Jordan and her dad, but I need to dedicate this one to my mommy! Thank you for giving me the amazing gift of life, writing talent and I hope you are proud of me, rest in peace, I love you! Xoxo
Well that's it for now- happy reading loves!
~Ryrissa1993
Disclaimer:I do not own the show, 'The Night Shift' nor its characters' I am just borrowing them for some extra entertainment we all crave in between new episode airings!
~TC's point of view~
I knew this case has been rough on J. I have been attempting to get her to speak to me, but she has yet to accept my support.
No, we are no longer together but she is still my best friend. I still have feelings for her but have yet to admit it aloud, subconsciously pretending it is not true. She is with Scott. She is happy, but her current state is telling me otherwise.
It is more than just this case that has her so rattled and frail.
I hate the worn down expression she cares- the dark circles under her eyes only I can clearly see, desperately hidden under her make-up. It breaks my heart to say the least...
~J's point of view~
"Crashing, hit a wall
Right now I need a miracle"
I have been hiding this so well lately, lack of sleep, food, the entire horror this grief has swept over my body.
I thought I had escaped this. I had dealt with it long enough to leave it in the past.
Scott- I've never uttered a word to the man about it.
There was only one person I have ever let see me break.
The true love of my life, soulmate, Thomas Charles Callahan.
"Stranded-
Reaching out-
I call your name, but you're not around"
I want to let T.C. in, be able to confide in him like I used to, feel the closeness, where the touch of another human being that isn't so… forced?
I hate that… I am dating Scott. He should be the one I feel as though I can confide in, his arms I seek wrapped around me.
I have come to realize why I have stalled so long, I love him, but I have never been in love with him.
I think all this time I had just wanted to believe I had, made the pain less.
"Running out of time…
Now there's no body by my side"
~TC point of view~
"Hey, how is your night going?"
"T, enough with the small talk, okay? Just… say what you want to say."
"Okay, J, I know you are NOT okay… I know you- I have known you long enough to be able to tell when something is up. It isn't just the case, is it?"
"I…."
"C'mon, J, I know you're with Scott and all, but talk to me… let me in…. Let me help you."
"It's my Dad, I…."
"It is okay to miss him, J. You need to let yourself feel.
If anyone knows how much NOT working through it can hurt things, it is me."
"T, I didn't mean to…"
"No, its fine. When's the last time you slept?"
"…"
"That combine with this case alone… cm'here"
"It's in my head
Darlin', I hope that you'll be here
When I need you the most…
So, don't let me down"
I have never seen Jordan break so fast in all the time I have known her, eight years to be exact.
I have seen her shed tears here and there, some were guiltily over me, but nothing like this…
"Sshh… it's okay, J…let it go… I'm here, I'm here."
"Don't let me down-
I think I'm losing my mind"
~Jordan's point of view~
I felt his arms pull me in tighter the involuntary sigh of content he let out as he embraced me for the first time in so long.
The case, lack of sleep, and just being in the safety of his arms again, I broke immediately.
I cannot remember the last time or if ever I truly broke down like this.
It felt like an eternity later, tears still falling, arms still a strong hold as my body continued to falter.
"J? Hey, Baby, I need you to calm down for me"
I heard him whisper into my ear. He sounded so far from me, but I knew he was close.
"T?"
my voice sounded so faint I could barely hear myself. My body felt like it was floating.
"Yeah, its me, Sweetheart. I'm right here…Sshh…"
"I…. Can't… T…"
"What's wrong?"
"My chest, T, I… I… Can't breathe…"
"Okay, slow, deep breaths"
There was barely air able to pass through, my lungs too constricted, my pain continued to rise. My logic doctor brain turned to mush and over taken me with pure fear.
~TC point of view~
Jordan was now experiencing a full blown panic attack before me. The tears were steadily dripping or rather pouring down her angelic face. I was not getting through to her as quickly as I needed to, so I pulled her closer into me; her head resting on my chest.
"Its okay, you're going to be okay, Jor… Listen to my breathing"
It took nearly a half hour before her grip on me slightly loosened, but did not let go.
"Jor, how are you feeling, babe?"
"I'm better, but my chest is still killing me. I don't know what happened."
"you had a severe panic attack. Jor, if I did not calm you down when I did you would have passed out on me. It…you… scared the hell out of me."
"I'm so sorry, T. I did… Didn't mean to scare you… I swear… I… I…."
~J's point of view~
"sshh…"
I heard him whisper in my ear for the billionth time and it never ceased to not calm me. I feel as safe in his arms as I always have, I could never be this open with Scott.
Maybe, maybe, I could, but I wouldn't
I contently sighed and relaxed into his embrace once more, breathing in the unique, comfort scent that is only Thomas Charles Callahan.
"T?"
"Yeah?"
"Thank you"
"You don't need to thank me- not now, not ever"
"yeah, I do, you're the only one that knows. Who has seen me like this"
"Wait, Scott, doesn't know?"
"He knows my Dad is gone, but nothing else"
"Wow, can I ask why he doesn't know?"
"You're the only one T, one I can count on, judgeless, compassionate, you're my safe place, T: even with our ups and downs I know I can still come to you.
I know it is probably not a good time to tell you this, but I still love you, T."
"I completely understand, J. And you are there for me all the same. I would never judge you, turn you away, no matter what. I know you are with Scott, but I still love you too.
I always have and always will. We have something that's undeniable, irresistible, we were just simply always meant to be."
"Darlin', I hope that you'll be here
When I need you the most-
Don't let me down"
Author's Note:
Well, my lovely readers that is the end of this two shot for these incredible humans we love so much,
I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Thanks for taking the time to read!
Please take the time to review.
Love Always,
~Ryrissa1993
