Chapter 2
Alice POV
What the heck. I have been waiting here for more than three hours. I was so sure he was going to be here today and I'm like never wrong. Trust me
It was 8 thirty p.m.
Had he changed his mind again? If so I would have seen it.
"Uh miss?"
I was chewing on my nails that were permanently indestructible, and so lost in my thoughts that I didn't hear the cook talking to me. I never bit my nails but it was just an act in front of people so they wouldn't see me sit unnaturally still. I was too busy asking myself where he was and why he wasn't here with me now. I wasn't really that upset I just didn't like the idea of running around the world searching all over for him again. I knew I was he's escape from his hell he made for himself because I did have that alternative for him. Me.
The cook had walked up to me now, anxious and nervous apparent upon his face. "Um, Ma'm?" He was older, bulky and had gray tuffs of hair on his head.
I turned my head that was facing the door to him at the counter and raised my eyebrows. He chuckled and motioned with his head, and arm with the spatula to the stove area. "Do you want me to whip you up something real quick? I've got some eggs fryin'. Free of charge for a pretty lady." He winked at me. But it wasn't like a creeper status wink but more of a fatherly wink. If there was such a kind.
I raised the corner of my mouth in a smile to be polite to him. But inside I didn't feel like being anywhere near polite right now.
"Oh, no thank you. I'm not really hungry right now and its kind of late." He nodded his head in understanding.
"Oh well if you change your mind, we're open till midnight." He smiled
A lady sitting on the counter six seats down from me was overhearing our conversation. Rude much.
"Hey if your saying your giving free food to pretty lady's now a days where's my plate?" She called out to the cook and smiled wide while laughing. She was a rather large women and I didn't think she needed to eat more after she just ate a whole plate of pancakes. I didn't mean to be judgmental.
"Oh Gale your so funny. You know you're my best customer and I already slice your prices." The cook said to her and walked over back to her side, finally leaving me alone.
I sat there staring at the clock and when thirty minutes passed the cook looked like he was about to come back over so I bought a coffee from him to shut him up.
I never thought it would be this hard to wait, since that's something I thought I mastered over the course of my vampire life. Sometimes I could just stand in place and the time seems to go by very quickly like hours were seconds. But I don't understand how it seems like minutes are hours now.
I wiggled in my high chair and crossed my legs Bringing the coffee cup up to my lips I pretended to take a sip for the three people that were in here.
I put my elbow on the counter for support and covered half of my face with my hand. Because I just unexpectedly got a vision but it was a small one showing me the Cullens again. They were all just sitting in their living room sharing stories with one another and laughing. Except for Jasper, he was sulking in the back obviously not interested in the conversation. Dr. Carlisle and Esme were all bundled up together on a big baige armchair and Emmett and Rosalie sat on the couch together with his arm around her. And Jasper was all alone. The vision faded and I looked around to those by me.
They didn't notice.
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Edward POV
Ten years ago
My life is a mess right now. I wouldn't even call it a mess its more along the terms of highly screwed up. I don't even know where I am right now. All I know is that I had to run the hell away from where I was before.
Its like I'm in a void right now. Panic was rising in my chest without beats, my mind racing with thoughts I couldn't control. Your nothing your worthless you're a monster Your so below the earth that not even death will bring your relief…you cant even die you pitiful monster..
God, who am I anymore? Why was this happening to me? I ran my hand through my hair and gripped on tightly. I sank to ground and landed on my knees. I then tried to console myself by saying that I did the right thing by stopping. But how could I stop? My thirst was unbearable right now. I needed someone to fix it, to take away this forever going pain. I just need to find a scent..
No! I wont, I promised myself that I wouldn't. I didn't want to hear another voice screaming in agony. I needed to stop. I needed to find a remote area and lock myself away. Wasn't there any other solution to this? My hand left my head and went to lock its self around my throat. Goodness this thirst, this burning, wouldn't it ever go away.
Yes it would with blood. Precious, delicious, mouthwatering blood.
My resolve was cracking and I knew that if I didn't start running someone close by would lose their life.
So I did I ran. As fast as I could in the southern direction. A speeding bullet through the woods non stopping. As soon as I saw a mountain I knew that was the perfect place to go to get a handle on this. I whipped my legs up it and closed my eyes. I broke through a tree and it had left a person shape hole in the middle.
When I reached the top I opened my eyes and saw the view. Id never seen anything so beautiful before. The air was so clean and fresh up here, not that I needed it but it tasted different. Different like….
Blood.
I turned around viciously and stared into the eyes of two unlucky men standing twenty feet away from me. They were frightened. Their eyes were like four big saucers and their arms and legs were shaking terribly. I would be frightened too if a vampire was about to kill me.
I sauntered forward loosing my nerve and letting the animal out.
They were frozen in their spots and neither one tried to make a move. "Oh my god what's going on? I don't understand this! One minute we were about to rest and the other we see this guy appear seemingly out of no where! Why is he sparkling, that's not normal! He's so pale and devilish looking am I going to die?"
Their opinions were both equally the same in their minds and neither were about to say anything out loud. It was always the same ending questions, Who are you?, What are you doing? What do you want? Inside it freaked me out so bad but I couldn't do anything about it because the burning sensation in my throat was extremely uncomfortable and they were the only things that stopped it. For awhile.
So I did what I always did I killed them and drank their blood. I never wanted or meant to do it. Its like something in me changes and I'm not me anymore. I cant control myself and something dark takes me over. I knew I needed a change and fast, but what was out there to help me? There was no other option to take.
I cleaned myself up and took off again. I knew I couldn't go back to Peter and Lucy, I was too miserable with them and I didn't want to suffer. Maybe I could just wander for a while. Get a hold on my thirst like I did before and join society as a nomad. Maybe I would find something and maybe I wouldn't.
The sunlight was still out and it would be dark soon so I decided to stick to this path and have it lead me back to civilization.
So I made a plan. I would travel around and get a hold on myself and discover who I am again. I would only be out at night and stay somewhere at day. I would limit myself to two people every two months or month and I would never stay in a place for too long.
Present time
I was headed to Philadelphia somewhere I've never been before but always wanted to go. I have no clue why but the name now just seems so calming and I feel like I should be there.
Today is my anniversary of making that promise to myself. A promise that I've broken countless times because of the monster I am. Another change seems in order but I'm not ready to take it. I know I need it but it just seems forced, I want to take that step when I know I'm ready for it so it will be easier.
The only thing I'm proud of is that I've learned to live with the smell of blood. Its still inviting and warm and delicious but I can control how I take it in now. If it gets too much I would just stop breathing and leave as fast as I could till it calms down.
But still its something worth being proud over even if I can't control my thirst.
The trees were flashing by me rapidly as I ran. It was like colorful splashes of green flying everywhere and the constant shade of dark blue upon the swirling green and browns. Sometimes if I don't pay attention to where I'm going I run straight into trees and bring them right down.
I haven't killed anyone in a while and I planned to keep it that way. There was a town not too far from where I was at because I could hear tiny whispers of voices talking in my head which meant I was about 10 miles away. The mind reading was a great gift and often very helpful in situations like this were I don't know where I'm at. I've learned how it works and I've also learned how to tune people out. If I'm really close to a person I can hear them from far away because I'm tuned to them.
I slowed my self into a walk and stopped. A realization hit me. What am I doing? Why am I constantly running? Why haven't I found a coven to stay with? Was it because I was afraid or that I didn't want to? I just wanted to be in peace. I feel like I'm searching for something blind. What am I looking for?
I don't have an answer for any of those questions but I won't let them consume me. Maybe I was meant to be like this, forever alone. I knew I was greatly unhappy would I stay like this forever?
Picking up my pace I start running even faster than before and before I know it I'm at the edge of a river bank. So it seems I've reached the town. The smell of the blood was overwhelming but I had to think of it this way to get through. I was going to find someone to kill and I had to stay calm and not blow my cover. Now where to go? It was a rather large place and I just started walking.
There was a gang of girls clustered together walking on the other side of the street. They saw me and were giggling to each other. I was used to this by now, girls think I'm hot whoop de do. Its not like I can do anything about that and I could never get close to them.
"Oh my he takes my fancy, would you just look at that!"
"Look at his face and his fair! He's gorgeous, I haven't seen him around before,"
"Look at his face, Look at his face, not his…."
I shyly smiled to myself as I heard their deepest thoughts. I didn't look up at them because I was afraid they would call me over. So I ducked inside a small diner to escape them. That's when I saw her. I almost dropped dead the moment the door shut behind me and I swore my mouth hit the floor.
I was looking at the most beautiful women I have ever seen. She was sitting cross legged in her chair and her right elbow was propped up on the counter holding her chin up. She looked almost lost in thought and concentrated at something in the back by the kitchen. She was so pretty and graceful looking and I felt the strange need to protect her from anything.
She was beautifully pale and had short, spiky, brown hair. She was skinny and had on a beautiful blue dress that fit the curve of her body. Everything about her was beautiful I couldn't stop thinking of the word beautiful. Her legs were long and toned and her skin looked so soft I wanted to touch it. Then I panicked when I knew her blood scent was going to hit me. But it never came. Instead she smelled like lilacs and wildflowers, every amazing scent a flower could have. Just how long had I been staring at her? I never wanted to lay my eyes on another creature again. I just wanted to see her for the rest of my eternity. Then something clicked inside of me. I felt like I found a missing piece to a puzzle I've been trying desperately trying to solve my entire life.
Then god granted my wishes as she turned around and looked at me. I quickly turned my gaze away from her to act like I hadn't been staring for the past ten minutes. I smiled and walked up to the counter inches away from her. I didn't say anything to her but smile as I sat and unfolded a menu next to her.
Inside I was thinking of her eyes when she looked at me. Her eyes were like the color of butterscotch but darker like gold. How could that be? No humans eyes were any color like that. But then I broke out of my daze and noticed that she didn't have a heart beat. Oh my god, was she dying?! I looked back to her and she was perfectly fine sitting here with me and she seemed to be staring at me like I had when I walked in. She was a vampire. There was no other reason.
God I could be so dense sometimes. Then I heard her speak but it wasn't her lips moving. "Oh my god. He's even more beautiful than in my visions."
That's all I heard her say because I was too lost in her to comprehend anything around me. We were both caught up in each other and in that second I knew she was what I was looking for. Then finally she broke the strange spell by talking to me.
"I've been waiting for you for a very long time."
She was smiling and it was glowing on her. Her eyes were so deep and reaching looking that I wanted to reach out and take her in my arms and kiss her.
But I didn't do any of that except bow my head in a gentlemanly way and look up at her. "I'm sorry for that, mam'." Her voice was like bells all chiming in together to make a wonderful sound.
No words were said after that and we just stared in the inexplicitly of each other. I knew I was falling in love with her. I think I did the moment I saw her and I never wanted to let her go.
I couldn't hear her thoughts because she seemed to be humming a melody of something in her head like she knew I could read her thoughts. I pouted at the thought of not hearing her voice again but then she surprised me by holding out her hand for me to take. She didn't say anything but just held out her pale, small delicate hand.
I mutely laughed and looked in her eyes again and I felt connected with her. I knew somehow that I could trust her and why couldn't I? I put my seemingly rough hand in hers and stood up. She motioned for me to follow her and we left the diner with our hands still linked together.
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