You know those days where you're really not in the mood to do anything? Well, today was one of those days. I just didn't wanna get up and go to school. Yeah, I know, you need school in order to get a good paying job in order to support yourself, but right now I really didn't care. I was too focused on the fact that NO ONE around me was real, and that the love interest of my life didn't even know that I existed. I was miserable, and now my friends knew that I liked him thanks to their impromptu visit this morning. Sometimes I love them, but I'm under the impression that it's ok to loathe them at times. I didn't say hate because I could NEVER hate them. Never, ever, could I hate them.
~ Is Love REALLY Worth It ~
Chapter 2
The girls walked into the building, each one not wanting to be there. It was a Monday morning in April, school was coming to an end, and no one wanted to go through the last few weeks. Senior papers were starting to come up, rough drafts were already in the homework schedule and due soon. Senior projects were also looming closer, those were in May.
"Hey Sakura!" TenTen shouted. "Why are you so dressed up?" She came over and nudged Sakura. "You look nice though!" She winked at Sakura, causing her to blush.
"Um…well…you see…." Sakura trailed off, sending desperate, pleading glances towards her other two friends.
"Hey TenTen! Where's Hinata?" Temari asked, trying to throw Sakura a lifeline. Sakura sent her a look of gratitude and mouthed, "Thank you." Temari just smiled back at her.
"She is running very late this morning. But something makes me wonder what's been up with her lately. Something just seems….very off. But I can't put my finger on it." TenTen paused. "Sakura, what are you doing today after school?"
"Well, I'm probably gonna read some of the assigned reading, then go for a walk." She paused to look towards Temari. "It's really nice outside, and I'd love to walk to the beach." She paused again, this time looking around the whole room. "Why don't we all meet up at my house and go for a walk?"
"That sounds like fun!" Ino exclaimed, clapping her hands in excitement.
"I agree. A walk outside in this nice summer air would do me some good." TenTen replied, warming to the idea.
"Great! Now we just need to pass the news on to Hinata and we're good. What time do you want us to meet up, Sakura?" Temari asked.
"Why don't we plan for 7 or 7:30?" Sakura said, thinking about the evening ahead.
They all nodded their agreement, then proceeded to part ways to go to their respective classes.
Sakura sat in study hall later on that afternoon, not really in the mood to do anything. This was her thinking period, the time where she put a lot of her thoughts from her pen to the paper lying in front of her. She sat right behind Sasuke, which kind of aggravated her to no end. She'd rather be in front of him, that way she wouldn't have to sit there and stare at the back of his head, dreaming of things that she knew that she could NEVER have. Just keep dreaming, Sakura-girl. Just keep all of your thoughts to dreams. Having them turn into reality probably isn't something that you want.
She took out her journal from her book bag and flipped open to the next empty page. She took one last look at the back of his head, then began to write.
Dear Journal,
Today had an interesting start. I got to get lectured by my friends over my obsession with Sasuke, and how I know that he's not the greatest person that I could want to love me, but it's who I'm stuck with. No one seems to understand that I know that he's no good. I know that he will hurt me if we ever did go out. Do I know that it's a long shot? Yes. Yes, I do. Do I wish that it were something that would happen before Friday? Yes. Yes, I very much do. *sigh* What does a girl around here need to do to find someone who isn't a douche bag or will completely rip your heart out of your chest, squeeze it in an iron fist, then proceed to smash it into a million pieces on the ground, rubbing them deeper into the ground with their shoe after shattering it. *laughs* I honestly would love to see a guy who isn't like that. Someone who will chase after the girl of his dreams, someone who isn't as focused on sex and having an ornament on his arm, but someone who actually has brains, now THAT would be someone that I wouldn't hesitate to fall in love with. But of course, go figure, I needed to fall in love with the proverbial bad boy who probably would LOVE to eat me for lunch.
"Excuse me."
Sakura looked up at the voice, and her deer-caught-in-the-headlights look was directed at none other than the object of her most frustration. "Y-y-yes?"
"Do you happen to have an extra pencil that I could borrow?" Sasuke asked, voice calm, not even giving recognition to her stuttering.
"S-s-sure. J-j-just g-g-give me a s-s-second…" Sakura's cheeks flushed, and she bent to look in her book bag, digging around on the bottom. She found a pencil, and took it out, handing it to Sasuke. "Here you go."
"Thanks." He flashed her his famous Sasuke grin, the grin that every girl dies to have directed at her just once in her life, and turned around in his seat so that the back of his head was directly in front of her again.
He is so hot. Oh my goodness he asked me for my pencil! *inwardly squeals* I have no idea what I'm gonna tell the girls! Of course, they're gonna wanna know about this! Well, that'd involve me telling TenTen and Hinata all about my obsession for Sasuke, but I think that this incident is worth spilling. She paused for a second. Calm down there, Sakura. You're turning into one of those silly girls that have school girl crushes and are obnoxious and you always wanna punch them in the face. Don't get all girly and squealy over this. Don't let yourself turn into one of those. Getting a grip on her inner self, she picked up the pencil and started writing again.
I wish that I didn't have to write this down, but I know that I really want to. So, here goes nothing. I was just asked by Sasuke Uchiha in study hall today if he could borrow my pencil! I wish that I could say that I didn't stutter, but I couldn't help it! It was sooooooo unexpected! I think that my jaw had dropped down to the floor, and he was probably laughing at me, but I don't care! He asked me to borrow my pencil! I actually think that I am alright with my liking Sasuke.
I think that this is necessary to this journal entry, so I will put it in. You see, Sasuke and I grew up together. We had actually at one point in time been best friends, living next door to each other. This is way before his father got rich with his investments and the prospering of his company. We used to play together all the time, and his brother Itachi would always tease us because he thought that we were "the cutest couple that he'd ever seen." It used to make me blush and Sasuke would get so irritated with Itachi.
I admit, I did have a HUGE crush on him back then, as well, but he moved away. I remember that day clearly. He swore to me that he'd always be my friend, always be there to protect me from all the guys who would want to hurt and use me, and just be my best friend. I started crying. I needed him to stay with me and I didn't understand why his parents had to move away to a different area. It was hard on us because we were inseparable, practically attached to the hip at every turn.
Before he left, he gave me a gift. He wanted me to keep it so that I could always remember him. We were only 8 at the time, and him giving me that gift before he left made it that much more harder on me to let him go. He held out his hand, and inside of it, he held the most precious bracelet I'd even seen. It had pink and green strings woven in an intricate pattern, and it held a cherry blossom charm. He had told me he'd made it especially for me.
"Sakura, are you gonna get ready to leave? The bell rang two minutes ago!" Her teacher asked, placing his hand on her shoulder.
"Oh….uh….sorry!" She quickly closed her journal, not wanting the teacher to see her writing and ask her questions.
"Not a problem." The teacher paused, then said, "Have a good afternoon, Sakura."
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To Be Continued Of Course!
~NightBeast
