I woke up sweating; I had another dream about that night. I looked around, thank Merlin I had my own room, my nervous breakdowns were getting out of hand these days. Last time I had one was about 3 months ago, when I first saw Granger in my mind, belly growing and all.

She was pregnant in school only four months before anyone started to notice a thing. She was the one who got expelled from the school; the thing is…she never mentioned my name once. Maybe out of embarrassment, fear, or possibly to avoid ever seeing me again. That's when I got a vision of her, crying holding on to her belly and cursing my name.

Fuck. I rubbed my eyes as I sat to edge of the bed.

I hated myself.

I looked at the time, 5 in the morning.

I groaned. How many times was this going to happen to me? I never got a full nights rest, its not like I deserved one anyways. Hermione was the one suffering both mentally and physically, why should I even complain…

I got up and quickly put a shirt on followed by a random pair of pants. A Malfoy must always look his best…But recently this hasn't been a must for me. I looked like absolute shit. I didn't even recognize myself these days.

My face was sunken in, palms always sweaty, hair unkept-almost like Scarhead's, paler than ever, and now, unable to even try to fuck.

I shook my head. Who the fuck did I become?

I grabbed a charm's book and started studying like I always did when I woke early. It was the only way I could take my mind off of the guilt and pain.

I was supposedly an Outstanding student, but recently, every class I've had has been a complete failure, I just couldn't concentrate these days. Teachers thought it was because my father was out of Azcaban this year. I couldn't give less than a damn actually. It was Snape on the other hand, that knew something was up. I tried to ignore him, but he'd corner me after class, force me to stay after or even try to visit me in my room. I shut down each time he came after me; I mean what could I even say to him that would make anything be okay? - that I got Granger pregnant by force and now its haunting me? Fuck no. Everything was better off I just shut my mouth completely and didn't speak a word. I mean I'd been pretty good at it for the last 3 months. I couldn't slip up now.

The Slytherin boys knew what I'd done to Granger, but they didn't know it was me who impregnated her. They thought it was Weasley, for obvious reasons. They never suspected me at all, I mean, I've had unprotected sex loads of times and nothing ever happened… I just happened to run out of luck this time.

She was a virgin… what the fuck was wrong with me? Even worse she was a muggleborn…a mudblood to say the least. I felt disgusted with myself, how could I even bring myself to touch her.

I shuddered, feeling the sweat dribble behind my neck.

The book was open but I barely let myself read it. Too much thinking these days. The closer Granger came to her due date, the more my shit was harder to handle. I groaned.

I loathed her for doing this to me, but I also hated myself for even starting this.

I remember taking a long shower after raping Granger, the filth was too much and I just felt the need to get rid of all of it.

I looked at the clock again, six.

Grabbing a scarf and bag on the way out, I headed for the Great Hall.

I was here early as usual, with about ten other students, none that I personally knew, unless Daphne Greengrass counted. We never spoke one on one, I just shagged her once and that was that. Small glances every now and then, it was like as if it meant nothing. I walked over to my usual seat, near nobody. The end of the table basically, here I was safe from any conversations or small talk I just dreaded to even take place.

I grabbed whatever food I could manage to swallow down. I looked like I was starving, I even hated to admit it but I did. Everything even myself, disgusted me. I already fainted last week from lack of nutrition; I couldn't let it happen again.

I swallowed down some eggs and bacon and somehow managed to get some milk in too. This was a record for me.

I could hear the more students start to fill the Great Hall. I rolled my eyes. I hated people. I sat there staring at my plate in disgust once again.

"Yo, Malfoy."

Fuck. I looked up to see a dark skinned Blaise staring down at me.

He quickly took a seat in front of me. Fuck.

"When's the last time you actually said 'hello' to me you arse?" He said grabbing a couple of sausages in the process.

I didn't respond, I just stared at my plate wanting to be anywhere else but here.

He rolled his eyes, "This is a good start; you're not leaving and getting up this time." He took a bite of the sausage. "Can you tell me what's been on your mind? You look like absolute shit these days."

I looked up at him. "Nothing," I lied, "everything's been the same."

I looked at him to see his reaction; he was chewing with all the time in the world while staring me down.

"Bullocks, and you know it." He was pointing a finger at me now.

I gulped. Fuck.

"Why would you say that, Blaise?" I calmly asked.

"Because you dress and look like absolute shit, idiot. Also, your grades dropped, which they never have before, you lost weight and everyone is assuming that you're dying of disease. Lastly, you can't even look me in the eye anymore, that's so unlike you. Now tell me, what's on your mind?"

I looked at him wide eyes, now was my chance to get this off my chest and be free of all the guilt…I thought about it for a minute or so. I opened my mouth, ready to spill my guts out, nothing came out though. I didn't know how to start the sentence. How could I tell him that the girl he dared me to conquer was pregnant now? I didn't say anything for a full moment.

"It's my father. He's separating from my mother," I said blandly. Why didn't I fucking say the truth?

I looked up at Blaise, he was studying me and my features, trying to see if I was lying. Fuck.

"Is that all?" He asked.

"Yeah, that's all."

He sighed, "Are you sure?"

I nodded.

"Aite', when you're ready to tell me, I'll be waiting for you."

"Thanks." I said getting up ready to walk out.

"By the way, everyone says they miss you. You're always welcome back with us, Malfoy."

I looked over my shoulder to nod.

As I walked out, I saw the unthinkable walk before my eyes.

Potty and Pansy walking ahead, hand in hand smiling ear to ear. What the fuck?

I stopped in my tracks to see them stop as they saw me. I saw her whisper something to Potter. I opened my mouth to say something, but shut it and smirked. I guess she found someone else worthier than me - well, anybody else was worthier than me actually.

"Hello, Pansy," I smiled lightly.

"Draco."

I walked closer to them, "I guess you and Potter are going steady now, how've you be-"

She cut me off. "We've beengood. You?"

"Alright too I guess."

"Right. Let's go Harry, I'm hungry. Nice talking to you Draco."

I stood there as she and Potter hurried inside. That was probably the shortest and dullest conversation I've ever had with Pansy. I rubbed my eyes again. Now that I lost my status as a sex god, girls were no longer paying any attention to me. I was invisible, probably because I was unrecognizable.

I started walking to class, I'd be the first one there as usual, but it didn't matter-more time alone was better.

I made my way to potions ready to sit and study. Maybe this was exactly what Granger use to do when she was still here and utterly alone.

Entering the classroom I took a seat all the way in the front and opened my book bag, I took out a quill and ink with some sheets of paper.

I looked at the board, we were going to learn about Veritaserum today. Too bad I already read about it on my own. I smirked.

"Mr. Malfoy," I jumped up to see Snape sitting down at his desk, "always early and on time. I suppose during the time we have with each other, you are willing to tell me what's on your mind."

I looked down, and opened my book. Starting to read about the potion.

"I suppose a 'no' is your answer?"

I didn't respond.

"Well when you're ready then, Mr. Malfoy. But not too long, I am not as patient as you think."

I kept reading. Getting ahead of the class already. I heard Pansy and Potter's giggles approach their seats. Followed by some idiotic yells by Weasley's yells of how they left him alone in the great Hall.

Suddenly…I felt it coming again…

Fuck. I groaned as I tried to unsuccessfully stop it.

The medi-nurse held on to my hand, "Don't worry dear, it won't hurt the baby, and of course it won't hurt you."

I smiled, "Okay."

"Let me just run some tests so I can make some notes, okay dear?"

I nodded but stopped halfway, "Will these notes be private? No one can see them without my permission?"

"Of course, everything that happens right now, remains confidential between you and I. Believe me, I've seen some scandalous things in the past that still have not gone past my lips."

I smiled again. I wanted to ask, but I knew nothing would be the answer.

She grabbed a bottle with a clear liquid inside and spread it on my bloated belly. I shuddered at the coldness. She grabbed her wand and spun until a small mist popped up with a name.

"Ah, Draco Lucius Malfoy is the father. Interesting. Your belly is large for its size," she said still writing his name down on the parchment. "Also, you are 7 months and 2 weeks along with the pregnancy. Have you been taking the supplements and potions I've been telling to take, Miss Granger?"

I nodded, "Of course."

"Have you been relaxing like I've told you also?"

"I've been trying, honestly, it's a little hard when you have no one to rely on but yourself, I have a anxiety every once in a while too, but the flashbacks stopped finally."

She kept writing, "That's normal for you, Miss Granger, any young person right now would experience everything you are feeling, except you are handling everything much more efficiently and calmly. It will get easier, I promise." She finished taking notes and started rubbing my belly.

"Miss Granger, would you like to know the sex of your baby now?" She asked with a grin.

I grimaced, I didn't want to know for awhile, I refused for the longest time. But the situation changed, I needed to know now. I needed to get the baby's room ready, the day was coming closer and my belly was swelling to a new size each day.

"Yes please."

She looked over her cabinet for a small purple vial. With her wand she took a swirl of it and spun it on to my belly.

A purple cloud quickly formed above my stomach, I could make out an image now, I wasn't really sure what to make of it.

"Err-what does this mean?"

"This is just a simple image of what's going on in that giant tummy of yours and apparently there's more than one thing going on in there…"

She was examining it much more closely now.

"What do you mean exactly?"

"Miss Granger, are you aware that you're going to give birth to more than one child?"

"Umm…no, I am not."

"Well you are now," she said a little shake in her voice.

"You mean twins?" I asked practically yelling. How could there be more than just one? I mentally prepared myself for only one baby. Bullocks.

"No Miss Granger, from what I see right now, there is one boy and two baby girls in your belly as we speak."

I opened my mouth in awe, "What."

"Triplets my dear. You are going to have triplets!" She saw the worry in my face, "It's a miracle, a blessing really, I must say you truly are blessed, Miss Granger. I suggest you start making arrangements for the babies as soon as possible, I know you have a small income coming in from a friend of yours, but I know someone who can help you with this situation, I will give you the number in a few moments. Is that fine with you? Miss Granger? Um Miss Granger? Do you need some water?"

I didn't respond for a moment. "Yes… Please."

"One moment, Miss." She scurried for the water.

Triplets. I was going to have 3 babies. 2 girls and 1 boy exactly.

Bullocks. I felt a surge of anger flush through me. Fuck. No I had to stay calm, just for the babies, I had to stay calm for them.

All three of them…

I gasped as my surroundings changed, I was back in a stone walls full of desks and students.

Triplets! Three babies! Fuck. What the fuck haveI done?

I started hyperventilating, feeling the room around me spin, my body started to tingle then fell to the ground on my knees.

"Malfoy!" I heard three different voices yell. The class was full now, apparently a lesson was already in session.

Three. Three babies…My babies.

I was gasping for air, soon black dots started to appear, then pure blackness.


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