Run away now dude. My brain screamed at me. I let her go, the space between us seemed like miles and I wanted back in her arm's but I couldn't. I shouldn't have done that. Sam was going to kill me if he ever found out but I don't care.
Jess was still standing there when I closed my door. I hope I didn't cross a line with her. I probably did. Who cares? I know she feels the same way for me were both just too proud to admit it right now.
I'm not going to be able to sleep for the rest of the night. Crap. I am such an idiot. I just ruined everything.
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Chapter Two
"Good Morning" Sam said rolling over and kissing me on the cheek. He always liked to cuddle in the mornings but for some reason his touch felt like I was betraying my heart today, even though I liked him a lot. Stupid Nick Miller. "Morning." I said quietly. He tried to get me to start fooling around with him but I just wasn't in the mood today. I turned over and looked at my clock. It was 5:30am. Early. I hadn't slept a wink last night and I was exhausted. All I could think about was that amazing fairy tale kiss that Nick sprung on me. My lips even still burned a little bit.
"I have a headache." I said and pulled away from him. " It was probably from everything you drank last night." He replied feeling sorry for me. "I have to go. Will I get to see you later?" He asked. " I don't know I have this project at school I'm going to be working late on." I replied nervously. Ugh Why was I lying? I am such a bad liar! I chastised myself. "Oh, well, I am free later today if you want to get together." Sam said looking at me curiously. He knew I was acting strange. I usually was always up for being twirly in the mornings with him. That was just our thing lately.
"Yeah okay. I'll text you." I said getting up and as I reached for my robe I wore last night I immediately withdrew my hand it was "The robe" I couldn't wear it anymore because It was the one Nick kissed me in and I could smell him on it still. UGH. I reached for the blue one next to it and wrapped it protectively around myself. "I'm going to go get some aspirin." I said. Sam was already up getting dressed and gathering his things.
"Okay, I'll see you later?" He asked.
"Yeah okay." I replied as I quickly escaped my own room. I didn't want to be around any boys right now. They were all trouble. I needed some Cee Cee time. I texted her.
Can I come over? I have to tell you something and I don't want to be alone right now. I typed.
I went into the bathroom brushed my teeth and put on a little makeup, I hear the door close, that must have been Sam. I felt kind of bad because he didn't know what was going on, and I was lying. I was like Scarlet O Hara, but in real life. With the big dress and big dreams. In reality, this was how I always imagined it would be. When I was little, I had this big dream of me falling in love with some handsome prince charming, and he would sweep me off my feet, take me back to his Castle, and we would live happily ever after, but I never ever told anyone about that.
Nick Miller, was not my Prince Charming. He looked nothing like him. In Fact, he was the exact opposite. Okay maybe he was a drop dead gorgeous, roommate, who definatley knew how to kiss. Why couldn't I stop thinking about that kiss?!
My phone buzzed just at the right time and it was CeeCee. "Yeah, sure come on over." She replied. Oh Thank God. I thought to myself and I grabbed the rest of my things, my curling iron some clothes, and my work stuff and quietly snuck out of the apartment before anyone else got up.
It was still before dawn and the light hue of the horizon was quite brilliant with pinks and orange. I always loved mornings. They were my favorite for this reason. I don't know what to do. As I drove, I thought about all my possibilities. I could break it off with Sam, but I liked him a lot. I wanted him to stay around. He was a great guy and he was a DR!. I mean that's the ideal relationship right there, a teacher and a dr. Not to mention our kids would be smart and beautiful. They would of course have my big blue eyes and his curly blonde hair. It was a perfect relationship I was building. I couldn't just let it all fall apart because of one kiss.
I sighed frustrated as I pulled into CeeCee's apartment complex. Almost all the lights were still dark as everyone was still asleep, not me Jessica Day was wide awake and looking for answers she didn't think anyone would know. With Nick, It would be exactly what I was looking for sexually, we did have great chemistry. He was always there for me, I didn't want to ruin that with him. I never felt more safe with anyone in my life than I did with him. However, he was always nagging at me, picking at little things he didn't like about how I acted, and that was really annoying, also he didn't take care of himself, he probably wouldn't live till his eighties, and that bothered me a little. I couldn't imagine my life with out Nick. Even though we fought over who was right about the way to cook bacon, or when to change the oil in your car, he was always there for me.
Our kid's would be cute too, they would have our curly dark hair, and possibly both of our eye colors, or even maybe dark green a combination of the two.
I quietly knocked on CeeCee's door and she opened it up. God she even looked beautiful this morning. "Jess you look like a mess." She said to me. She knew. I don't know how but I know she knows something. " Hi CeeCee. I feel like a mess." I replied.
She went and sat down on her couch gossiping a cup of tea. " Now out with it. What do you want to tell me?" She asked curiously.
I took a deep breath.
"Nick kissed me last night." I said quietly. She looked at me and then a look of understanding washed over her and she smiled and got excited.
" I know he kissed you, you sent me the text photo when you two were locked in the iron curtain." She said.
" NO No, this was after everyone left, after everyone went asleep. I heard the scratching outside the door, and called for him, he came out in a sexy green tee shirt, and said he would take care of it, then when he opened the door a big ol dog nearly toppled him over. There was a girl and the dog was hers, she looked like she thought Nick was cute, but anyways, after he closed the door, I said thanks and goodnight and he grabbed my arm and kissed me like there was no more days left on this earth."
CeeCee stared at me for a moment before replying... "Did you like it?"
I looked at her and thought for a moment. " I can still smell him on me and I don't want to take a shower because then it will go away and I will be alone again. I was like Scarlet O Hara, and he was just going to take me right then and there. He was a MAN and I was a WOMAN...and yea I might have sailed through space and time for a second but that's not the point!" I finally finished.
Cee Cee smiled. "You like him Jess. It's okay. I've always know he likes you but I didn't think it was this much." She replied.
" I do like him. I like him so much I can hardly breathe when I think about him. But I can't just up and break things off with Sam. We have a really good thing going." I said. Cee Cee looked thoughtfully at me. " Look, you only live once. Why would you spend time with a guy who you know you aren't crazy Princess Diaries Anne Hathaway kicks her shoe off and does the foot lift thing every time you kiss him.? You have that with Nick, so why wouldn't you just face reality and ask him out?" CeeCee asked.
" I can't just ask Nick out, because then it would make things weird with us in the loft. I don't want to loose that dynamic I have with Schmidt and Winston. It would be too weird. Were like family and I love them all. I could never hurt them because of some romantic idea I have in my head that might not be real." I said.
Cee Cee sighed. "Okay then just stay in the non-Princess Diaries relationship of boring you have going on with Sam, and see where it leads. Maybe your right, but just think, this could be your one chance, with Nick and some other woman could come in and swoop him off his feet then what?" she asked. I gasped and the thought of him doing what he did with me with another woman nearly made me choke.
"Yeah, well he deserves someone who makes him happy." I said quietly. CeeCee shook her head frustrated. "Well, I'm for whatever it is you decide to do but in the mean time, I have a convention that I was invited to by one of my Indian friends, and I wanted you guys to all come with me. I could really use the support and I don't want to be alone when deciding who my future husband is going to be." Cee Cee asked me. This was another thing I didn't understand why she was going through all this trouble to avoid Schmidt, when he was so clearly pining for her love back that she was running away from him as fast as she could. " Yeah okay. I'll come, but CeeCee, you know I love you and I think you should give Schmidt another chance." I said.
She shook her head feaverently. "Schmidt White Fanged me, Jess. That hurt worse than me catching dumb DJ Kyle, kissing that idiot blonde something at the club a few months ago." She said. "I don't want to get hurt again." she added quietly looking down.
I definatley understood that. We sat there alone for a few minutes not saying anything. "We seriously are a pair aren't we Ceece?" I asked her smiling. She laughed. "Yeah who would have imagined we would be having boy problems at this age? She laughed rolling her eyes.
"Okay let me text the guys and ask if they want to go to this Convention thing too. I told her as I Pulled out my phone. Or maybe I should just go home and face facts. I really do want to take a shower, and it sound's like Natasha already has your shower occupied." I said.
"Okay well, thanks for coming over. I needed some girl talk." CeeCee said. "See ya later." She added.
"Okay bye." I replied. " I had a little better image of what I was going to do. I was going to tell Sam what happened, I really wanted to try and work things out with him. Nick just scared me too much right now still. I was too afraid of loosing what I already had with him to jump into a very steamy sexual relationship with my best friend.
When I got home I could hear Nick in the shower, he was singing awfully. Schmidt was sitting at the table with Winston eating a bowl of fresh cut strawberries and a glass of orange juice.
"Good morning sunshine aren't you a site for sore eyes." He said looking me up and down. I just groaned and glared at him. "Winston.." I asked... "How did it go with Daisy?" "Well, she's gone home, but I think it wen't amazing. We just connected like, nothing I've ever felt before." he said whimsically. I smiled. It was nice to see Winston look so happy and confident. Then he came out. Nick was wearing nothing but a towell and I gasped. He looked at me for a second then smiled, and started moon walking away. Not looking at anyone directly in the eye.
"Oh no! What did you do Nicholas?!" Schmidt asked.
"What's he doing?" I asked.
" Nick only does that when he's messed up really bad and by the looks of things, he really hit a doozy this time." Schmidt said watching him moon walk back to his room.
I felt a pain of sadness that he was avoiding me as much as he was and he didn't want to to talk to me, but I shook it off when Schmidt looked at me curiously.
"Did something happen between you two last night? After we all went our separate ways?" He asked.
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