(Alex's POV)
I spent two days persuading the doctors to let me go back to prison, I didn't want to be here, it was lonely here and all I could do was lay in a bed and wait for food to be delivered, after the first few hours in this place I was sick of it, they had done all they could now and I just had to wait to heal, what was the point in me staying. I wanted to see Piper, no I needed to see her. We never got to discuss what was happening now.
How could I keep letting her do this to me? She broke my heart when she left me in Paris. I left her back in and she broke it again when she told me she picked Larry. I forgave her when he left and let her work her way back. I thought we were finally going to make it, she asked me to be her girlfriend, officially, my heart had swelled and I believed it was us against the world. But no. She picked someone else again, she never actually told me she picked Stella though but I had to leave her, she wanted Stella I could see it in her eyes, she kissed her. It made me feel sick to think about it, someone else had kissed my Pipes when she was my girlfriend, Piper had kissed her back, how could she do that?
Before I left she told me she wanted me, that she only ever wanted me, I scoffed internally, she didn't do a good job of showing me that.
No matter how much I thought about how much she had hurt me, how many times I let her hurt me there was still one thought that I knew made all the others disappear, I love her.
In the end all I ever wanted was to be with Piper, preferably whilst not in prison but we would both be out soon then everything could go back to how it was before she left minus the drugs.
What could go wrong?
We were perfect together, the only reason she left was because of the drugs, with them out the picture what could break us?
If she chose someone else, the thought popped into my head, I knew it was a possibility now and that hurt, I couldn't believe that she only wanted me until she showed me.
(Piper's POV)
I sat around waiting for Alex to come back, to come home to me, home was where Alex was. Being with Alex was the only place that felt like home, a place where I could be myself with no judgement. I wondered how she was doing, the last time I saw her she was battered and bruised, it hurt me to think about how much pain she was in. How could the prison even let Aydin in here?! I remember seeing him around Kubra a few times but I never knew he was the designated killer. What if he had killed her? How would I live with myself for never telling her how much I loved her and for being so stupid and letting her go, how could I live without Alex.
Life without Alex was like a rollercoaster with a flat track that travels in a circle, always steady and repeating itself, but with Alex it sped up, did loops, huge drops that make your stomach flip in a good way. Life with Alex is unpredictable and scary but exciting and adventurous. Never in all my years with Larry had I felt so alive than I did even in just an hour with Alex.
Everyone started shuffling around me and I realised it was dinner time, I followed the stream of people but didn't get in line for food when I made it into the cafeteria instead I just sat at an empty table. I didn't have to wait long for the table to fill up.
"Chapman, what's up with you?" Nicky asked whilst stuffing food in her face, she came back from MAX a few days ago when they realised they had no proof that they were her drugs.
"Nothing." I mumbled looking at the table.
"She's sad because Vause isn't here, am I right?" Morello said sweetly nudging my arm. I gave a small nod with a smile on my face, her loving kind personality always made me smile.
"Well your girlfriend will be back soon I'm sure, don't worry about her, Vause is the toughest chick I know" Nicky stated. "…except when it comes to you, she falls for your bullshit every time." She added with a smirk.
"Nick!" Morello warned.
"What she knows I'm joking but it is the truth though." Nicky went back to eating. "Look, Chapman, you need to decide what you want." She said with a mouthful.
"I know exactly what I want and I don't need people like you sticking your nose in when it's none of your business." I snapped. Nicky held her hands up with an amused looked on her face.
"Hey I'm just saying. It didn't look like you knew what you wanted when you were kissing Carlin whilst your girlfriend was worried for her life." That was it, I had had enough of her, I stood up sharply and stormed off.
"What, too much?" I heard Nicky say to the others. I got out of there and went back to the cubes and laid on my bed face down. I screamed into my pillow.
"Careful kid, don't suffocate yourself." I heard a familiar voice behind me, Alex.
(Alex's POV)
Piper shot up from her bed and practically ran into my arms luckily I took a step back before she hit me which caused her to stop suddenly.
"Be gentle I'm all broken and bruised" I joked with her before pulling her into my arms and holding her against me, she wrapped her arms around my gently and buried her face in my neck, I stroked the back of her head softly with one of my hands. We stayed like this for a few minutes, until Piper pulled away quickly.
"Oh my god, I haven't even asked how you are! What happened? Are you okay?" She said placing her hands on either side of my face and examining the various patches that were scattered around it.
"I'm okay, they are just bruises, I have a few cuts that have been stitched but they are healing really quickly but my ribs are more serious. Two of them are broken on my left side but they can't really do much about them so basically I have tonnes of pills to numb the pain until they heal themselves which will take a few weeks. Is that enough information for you?" I smirked knowing Piper would have asked for every detail if I didn't give it to her. She nodded softly and a small smile appeared on her face.
"I'm so glad you are back and okay!" She whispered even though we were the only ones in the room.
"Me too kid." I smiled at her and caressed the side of her face, god I missed touching her, she made me forget how angry I actually was at her but in this moment it didn't seem to matter. "Hey can you help me set up my bed, I don't actually know where it is though." I looked around and noticed everything looked different. "Wait…when the hell did we get bunk beds?!"
"Just after you left they started towering the beds, there's loads of new prisoners here." Piper explained. "How come you don't know where your bed is?"
"Well they had to assign mine to someone else as soon as I left, I was really confused why they did it at first but now it makes sense, we're overpopulated."
"Well I may have a solution, the bed above mine hasn't been claimed yet, there isn't much of a rota anymore, there's too many of us to keep track, everyone is moving and claiming random beds, Red won't let anyone else in here but she will have to let you."
"Pipes, thanks for the offer but is that really such a good idea." Her face fell when I said this. "No I just mean, well we still haven't sorted this, is me sleeping on top of you going to help this."
"Well I don't mind you sleeping on top of me." She smirked. I hit her playfully.
"Stop, you knew what I meant! But I guess I don't have much of an option and it might be fun being bunk buddies but there is one issue, I can't climb up there right now."
"Oh. Right well take my bed then."
"Is that okay?" I asked, secretly a little bit excited to sleep in Piper's bed.
"Sure, plus it's already made. I will make your, well my new bed now." She smiled before jumping up to the top bunk and starting on the bed, I moved to Piper's bed and laid down. Immediately I was taken over by the smell of Piper, god she smelt good, kinda like vanilla mixed with sweet fruit. I pulled the blanket up to my face and smelt in, my eyes fluttered closed, I would definitely enjoy sleeping in her bed.
"Enjoying yourself down there." Piper's voice shocked my, my eyes shot open to see her head dropping down from the top bunk, she was smirking and loving this. I couldn't help the flush on my cheeks, how embarrassing that she had caught me.
"When I first got here and we fought, I went into your bunk when no one else was around and smelt your pillow too." Piper admitted from the top bunk.
"Should I be worried that you are a stalker?" I joked. She laughed softly, I missed that noise.
(Piper's POV)
"Alex, you remember what I said before you got taken away?" I said softly, it was now or never. "Well you never really said anything about it…And I was just wondering…"
"Come here." Alex said softly, I made my way down to the bottom bunk where she was laid resting against the wall. She patted the space next to her softly and I laid so I was facing her. "I didn't say anything because I didn't know what to think." She started playing with my hair softly which was extremely comforting. "I still don't know what to say Piper."
"But you love me right?" Alex smiled and leaned in for a soft kiss that was very short lived.
"Yes" She whispered against my lips, I could live with that for now, even if she didn't forgive me, I knew she loved me that's all I needed to hold on.
"What? Already? You didn't even let me get my chance Chapman." I heard Nicky behind us, I was still pissed at her.
"You don't have a chance." I snarled, Alex's eyebrows shot up, she clearly didn't know what was happening here.
"Hey now we both know that's not true, I made you feel good didn't I Vause." Nicky joked but now really wasn't the time. Alex didn't meet me eyes then.
"You know this is kind of a private talk, can you just go?" I said to Nicky.
"Oh I will just wait here until you are done then, need to catch up with my girl." Nicky smiled.
"She's not your girl." I snarled again.
"Okay, what the hell is going on here?" Alex demanded starting to sit up. "Pipes I need some help." She whispered softly, I immediately helped her into a sitting position. "Is anyone going to answer my question or?"
"Well I just think Chapman here is a total idiot basically, and she's jealous because me and you shared an amazing experience." Nicky winked at Alex, my stomach turned over and I felt sick.
"I have told you to mind your own fucking business." She was really starting to piss me off, I never thought I could dislike Nicky until right now.
"This is my business, you are running around stomping on people's lives and hurting my girl over here, you need to sort yourself out." Nicky stated.
"She isn't your girl so just fuck off." I stood up getting defensive. I felt Alex's hand on my wrist and looked down at her.
"Pipes can you give us a minute?" She asked me nicely. Why didn't she want to be alone with her right now? Weren't we having a moment? I looked at Nicky who was smirking but then walked out of the cube.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I heard Alex say to her before I stormed out.
(Alex's POV)
"What? I was trying to be nice!" Nicky smiled before sitting down next to me.
"What is your problem?" I asked her.
"Are you really going to let her come and break your heart again, this has to be coming up to the 100th time, and you are letting her do it again. I watched your fall apart last time Vause, you weren't yourself, and I don't want that to happen again."
"It won't."
"I'm sure you say that every time! Listen as long as you don't go back to being a pathetic zombie after she leaves again I don't mind, I like my feisty Vause, don't let her get lost." She smiled at me. She was right, I wasn't myself after Piper left, I was pissed but so sad all the time.
"I don't know what to do." I admitted quietly.
"You want my advice?"
"I'm not sure." I answered half joking.
"Make her work for it, make her show you how much she wants you, I'm pretty sure you two weren't always like this from the stories I have heard from both of you. I thought you were the one in control but it look like the tables have turned. Get your control back and make her work for your love."
"Okay, that made sense, you are right." But what if she doesn't work for it, what if she gives up on me because she thinks I have given up on her? Is that a risk I'm willing to take? "How would I do this though?"
"Hey just follow my lead." She smirked. "Chapman is already starting to hate me but you saw already how possessive she is of you, let's see how far I can push the boundary." She smirked further.
"You know I actually wouldn't push her too far, she's quite aggressive when she's all riled up."
"Bet you love that then." Nicky smirked again making me laugh. "But seriously though, you got to act stronger, none of this cuddling business."
"But I need her." I whispered, I didn't mean to let the words out.
"Make her think you don't and she will assure you that you do."
"You are so confusing but at the same time make a lot of sense." I smiled. "Wait so if you have all this relationship advice up in your brain why aren't you with Lorna?"
"Well she's married now right, I can't do anything now." She admitted.
"But why didn't you fight for her before?"
"She didn't need a girlfriend before, she needed someone to talk to and assure her everything would be okay. Then when I got took to max she was lonely met some guy and got married. But I bet he doesn't know what a crazy person she is." She smiled softly, the love she felt clearly evident on her face "I'm hoping she realises sooner rather than later that she only married him because I wasn't there and she was lonely." I had never seen this side of Nicky, she had never told me about her feelings and usually joked around with the serious stuff. "Look at me, what's going on? I'm being an actual woman."
"Well we have to be sometimes you know." I joked throwing my arm around her shoulder and pulling her into me. "I'm glad I have you here."
"Me too." Nicky said I kissed her head but silently cursed inside as it was at the exact same moment Piper was walking back into the bunk, she stopped when she saw us and turned and walked away.
"Hey look, you are a natural at this." Nicky laughed. "I know what you are thinking, you need to go after her and explain what happened but don't, just let her simmer, she needs to suffer like I know you have."
Okay, could I really do this to Piper? She needed to feel the same pain I have felt time and time again when she has left me but I don't know if I can do that to her, I love her.
(Piper's POV)
She kissed her. Yes it was only on the head but they were sat cuddling right? What was going on? Why wasn't Alex coming to find me, she must know what I am thinking right now.
Wait who am I kidding, Alex doesn't go to anyone she always makes me go to her except on a few rare occasions, I knew this wasn't one of them.
She doesn't love Nicky though, she loves me. But why did she let Nicky do that to her last time we weren't together, would she do it again? I mean we weren't together right now, I knew she hadn't forgiven me yet, would she get lonely and turn to Nicky again? My brain was working overdrive. I had paced the hallway getting a few strange looks from other inmates but I really didn't care. I turned towards the bunk room again and spotted Nicky coming towards me.
"Hey, what's up with you?" Was she seriously asking me that question right now? I glared at her. "What is your problem? We were just catching up you know, we are pretty close." Her eyes gleamed a little.
"What were you talking about then?"
"Oh you know, just how I think her being with you is a massive mistake and that maybe she should look for someone else." She said simply. I barged past her towards the bunks. "Hey where you going? I thought we were having a great convo here?" Nicky joked from behind me. I found Alex exactly where I left her and hurried to sit next to her. Just as she opened her mouth to talk I crashed my lips against hers and pulled her head roughly against my own by her hair.
"You are mine!" I snarled against her lips before attacking her mouth again with my own.
"Pipes what…" She pulled away to talk but I pulled her straight back in so she couldn't say anything or even finish her sentence. I put all my feelings into the kiss, everything I had.
"You are mine." I said more softly this time, I could taste a slight saltiness against our lips and realised I was crying slightly. I pulled away so I could look into her beautiful green eyes. "You are mine and I'm not going to lose you."
(A/N sorry it's been a while, let me know what you think, I love reading your reviews - B)
